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"Wasn't exactly fair was it, but my death lead to your birth so some good came of it. ?" hearing Yazhi's voice again was both both pleasant and disturbing for Kishi. At the very least it cut through the haze of anger threatening to consume her. Slowly she turned away from Yazhi's dead self and turned to face her live one, or at least something that looked alive. something however was a bit off at least to Kishi.

" Why do you look like that" she asked " why do you look, normal, I mean for a human" oncer again Yazhi looked like she did when her hypnosis was in affect. There were no visible wings or tail, no orangeish flecks in her eyes and no sign at all that she was anything but a normal Navajo girl.

Yazhi sighed softly " I like it this way, being like this I'm me the way I was mostly raised to be. the succubus part of me was always something odd and secret when I was young then once I came into my true heritage it became frightening and disturbing and eventually it killed me. for me to look like the average human is to be who I felt most at peace being."

Kishi glared at her past self and resisted to urge to smack her. how Yazhi could feel comfortable hiding part of herself was beyond her. yes being a cambian was strange and yes in this time and on earth it made life difficult but one was supposed to fight through difficult times and overcome the hurdles life through you. ( provided said hurdles were not shaped like nearly unkillable creatures from the in between in which case one's best option was to get the hell out of dodge and head towards some semblance of safety.)

" You never even fought back" she ground out slowly turning back to eye her perforated corpse " you just-'"

" I panicked in the fear of having my disguise ripped away and women do not fight in my time. it is wrong for us to lay our hands on a weapon , it taints them." Yazhi said looking don at Kishi as though she should remember this " I ran because running was my only option, I do not have the skills you posses, even now as we stand your stand like a warrior ready for a fight. I don't because I don't have the knowledge of fighting or that sort of training, the strength in my body comes from working to cook and clean. We are one soul you and I but we have lived different lives.

To that Kishi nodded " We can see who has the better life too." she said smugly not quite sure why she was happy since technically it meant her soul had at one point nearly been destroyed by this horrible death of Yazhi's.

Yazhi sighed and shook her head " I do not think that is true but I am not here to argue this with you. I am here to answer three questions for you before you wake up back in the future."

Kishi pondered this for a moment , she wanted this over with quickly but then again she wanted some answers too. of course she had to keep in mind what Yazhi did and didn't know.

" fine then my first question is why you think you had the better life." it wasn't quite a pointless question, if Kishi was to understand her past self and learn anything from her she had to understand how she thought.

Yazhi sighed but looked confident as she answered " you are a warrior, there is no reason why in a proper society you should have to fight, nor have time to especially at your age. also you are lonely , I watched you watch me enjoy being part of community having many people young and olds to turn to always in times of need or boredom. the dine are connected and you were pained at not being part of that connection. wherever you live life is not so filled with love and people who are there for you. finally in my short life I had mostly happy memories and while I died in terror I do not regret the life I had the good or the bad. you have shadows in your eyes that say you have lost yourself and that were you to die now our soul would be more scarred than it was by my passing.


Kishi stared at Yazhi trying to digest the girls speech as she nodded. some part of her wanted to argue and she had tiny bits of arguments to each accusation but overall she knew this was the truth. now however was not the time to dwell on it she had more questions to ask.

" do you.. do you hate me because I'm different, do you think it would be better that I die too?" that wasn't the planned question but suddenly Kishi had to know if some parted of her deep in her soul was trying to reject all she worked hard to become.

Yazhi smiled sadly and shook her head " I think you're wrong and that you are living life the wrong way but that is just my perspective. I cannot know you or how your life is different. the path you take is your own choice and I could not hate a person for making a different choice. I do not wish you dead just because you have chosen a different path. You are our soul a second chance to prove that though we may be a strange and not wholly pleasant creature we are still worth being allowed to live." It was obvious that there were things Yazhi wasn't saying but Kishi couldn't press her for more without wasting her last question.

with a sigh and a stretch of her wings Kishi asked her final question " when you gave in to our nature, when you touched those boys and took their energy what was it like." Kishi wanted to be as prepared as possible for the inevitable and Yazhi was the only one she knew ( aside from her mother who was not on her list of trusted people) who knew what it was like and could describe the sensations and urges to her.

at that Yazhi blushed and stared at the ground " it was.. it was, it was like being very dizzy, my head was light and my senses were better and it was hard to think about anything at all and that is all I will say about that."

Kishi sighed, somehow she was sure the description was going to be useless when the time came and if it was true then the total experience would be terrifying for her who so craved control in her life.

" it's time for you to go but before you do take one" Yazhi said breaking Kishi's train of though and motioning to one of the blades sticking from her body " I do not believe you should fight or that a weapon tainted by our blood is the best choice but it is all I can think of to give you. I have no wisdom to offer, no skills you do not know and no precious keepsakes you would feel an attachment too. "

Kishi nodded and swiftly plucked a bloody blade from the bodies heart, she knew that in her own way this was Yazhi's blessing. her former self may not approve of the path she traveled but she would not send her back to it unarmed when she was yet so unstable.

Before another word could be spoken the world went misty and Kishi could no longer see Yazhi alive or dead, nor the sand beneath her or the sky above. It was time for her to return home.

******


Kishi awoke and was suddenly hit with two very strong desires which warred withing her. The first was the need to feed to drink in the sensation of as mans sexual energy. even though Kishi wasn't exactly thrilled with that thought part of her mind and body insisted it was wanted and needed.

Kishi's second desire was to find and quite possibly kill her mother. that woman had known her for months , known who she was, had even given her a gift of jewlery she had once gifted her with before. and still she had said nothing, done nothing to prepare Kishi for this. she had not even attempted to reveal part of her nature if not her true self and help Kishi with her hypnosis or flight training. there was something deeply wrong in Kishi's opinion when a mother neglected a child that way.

As she dealt with her inner struggles Kishi lay in a hospital bed staring at the ceiling her Grey eyes flecked with orange as she fought to control herself and aquiant herself with her newly grown body. Beneath the covers her fists clenched and unclenched while her tail ( and what a weird thing that new addition was) curled around the knife she had brought back with her. It would be some time before the Kishi would be able and willing to move from her bed.

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Kishi lay on her bed relaxing, she'd only been home from her two week babysitting job a few hours ad she was exhausted. Laying on her stomach she had her wings spread wide, both to keep them from cramping and to work on her stamina for keeping them spread. For the most part her body was handling the new weight well but she wanted to increase how her back muscles were so that when she began flying again there would be no risk of them giving out.


Speaking of flying Kishi really wished Del had Hazard about personal space. The toxic green and grey mini dragon was a speedy buzzing pest. He was only as long as her hand but damnit he could cause trouble when he wanted to since he still had great strength for his size

Closing her eyes Kishi hoped that ignoring the dragon would make it go away. Two weeks in the company of only a toddler has been fun but also trying on the young succubus's patience and she was ready to lash out.

With her eyes closed and her body as far from alert as possible Kishi never noticed Hazard drop a small figurine than bail for the safety of Del's room. the height of the fall plus the weight of the figure would have left only a nasty bruise had it landed anywhere else. To kishi's misfortune it landed on her neck severing head from spine and causing her to wink out of existance.



The spirits in charge of killing guardians so that they could recieve their charges really hated this job sometimes. It had been simple to push the figurine in midair so that it fell that way but still it sucked killing off innocent...ish people. Making sure to keep her wand close to her when they brought her body to their realm to repair her and send her soul to be bonded with that of her future charge.

Placing the now repaired succubus's still form in a bed on the Samadueanna, wand in her hands. After the bonding with the two deities she would care for, a golden chain with a funny relic on it, appeared around Kishi's neck, and she was able to wake up.

Diyaka, the ship's 12 year old fire god guardian informer, walked into the room to see the woman he'd briefly met who knew his mother, laying on the bed. He'd been younger when they met but still she had been nice and it was sad that she'd had to die, but at least she was alive again and going to have kids. She was a nice lady so the kids would be safe. THe boy sat in his chair at the end of the bed, waiting for Kishi to stir, holding his large leather bound magic book and a PDA like thing.

As Kishi returned to the land of the awake her tail twitched first searching for something to throw at the damned dragon who'd knocked her out. Finding nothing and not hearing the sound of wing beats she opened her eyed only to panic at the unfamilair site. how could she have dreamed again, she was done growing forwasn't she, she hadn't been this age nearly long enough to and besides what was that boy doing there?

As her eyes focused on Diyaka and she finally recognized him, her grip on her wand tightened " What the hell is going on here.?" There was no sweetness in her voice, she wanted answers and she wanted them now.


"A lot is going on." Diyaka said. "Something out of everyone's control caused your death so you could be bonded with the soul of a reborn god, and then brought you back when the bonding finished so you could care for reborn godlings." he told her in a somewhat sad tone.

: Kishi stared at Diyaka like he was out of his mind. She was supposed to care for children, she who had not long ago been a child, she who was fighting her inner nature to keep from molesting the males of age around her.

Sure kishi loved kids and someday she wanted some because then she could raise them as she had been except with less disasters. her heart punded widly in her chest, her soul was bonded to a child, a god no less and she was responsible for it.

The tender nurturing part of her was happy in a way to have something to care for. the wilder fiercer part of her was confused and annoyed, why was she tieing herself down at such an age? It argues that she was too young and uncontrolled in her self to have time for a child. it argued that a childs needs would impede her own.

Another part of Kishi was simply scared for a child raised by her. she had no job and while her father would support her how was that fair. Her family was crumbling around her and here she was adding to it. Not to mention that her home was a portal to hell and.

Kishi looked faint, she'd stand up to warriors and monsters with no problem but suddenly this thought of sudden uncontrolled parenthood was overwhelming.


"Do you need me to get Mom?" Dia asked nervously. Usually guardians got angry or freaked out with him or a bit happy but never...like this. She seemed to upset!


Kishi nodded , she was slowly losing her grip on reality and a 12 year old was not likely to help her get it back anytime soon


Dia stood and walked out of the room, leaving the book and the PDA in his seat. Rushing down the hall he went to find Rouge and leave Kishi a minute to think.


Abstinthe Kisses: Kishi wayed back and forth in the bed clenching and unclenching her fists as she tried to think. Why her, why out of all the people in the universe had whoever was doing this chosen her. she was young, unstable and emotionaly dependant on her best friend ( something she needed to do something about)


Rouge entered the room, looking a lot less badass then usual. Her hair was in small pigtails on her head and she wore a plain blue turtleneck and a pair of jeans. "Hey Kishi. Dia asked me to come talk to you." she said calmly, grabbing the PDA and the book, then walking over to sit on the end of the bed and talk to Kishi. "I take it he told you what happened somewhat, yes?"

Kishi nodded " Why me?"


"No one's entirely sure. No one knows why most of the guardians were chosen. It is believed that a higher power thinks that the chosen guardians and deities could benefit from being united. And some are just meant for each other. Two guardians received children who were actually physically related to them."

Kishi looked a bit disturbed by the last statement, like she didn't have enough problems with her relations. She wasn't certain about the meant to be thing but the idea that somehow she had something to offer to these children, something only she could give them well that she could live with. " how exactly does this all work?"

"Depends on which part. Do you mean the raising of the kids and how they grow?"

Kishi nodded " yeah i'm pretty sure i don't wanna know how the killing and soul bonding thing works"

"That's good cause I don't completely know how that works." Rouge laughed. "The relic around your neck turns into a baby or babies in two days time during an odd dream. Then after a few weeks something happens to them that is in some way significant to what they are deity of and after that they go to sleep and when they wake up their older. Diyaka tells me that the change to preteen was triggered by a memory of his past." Rouge told the girl

Kishi frowned " past memory dreaming is often a b***h and it seems like these children grow so fast, must they. it can't be good for them."

"I have no idea really. Diyaka seems to be doing fine as do the others but it is a bit hectic on the mind I guess. I wouldn't know, I'm not the one whose dealt with that sort of thing here."

Kishi nodded some of her kind adapted to thier strange growth well enough " but do they have to grow that fast?" kishi foudn it hard to beilve she could get attached to children who's lives sped by so quickly

himatami1313: "I don't know. We're generally in the dark with it. I can find out which deity or deities you have and show you what they used to look like."


Kishi looked thoughtful " just who it is is fine, what the child looks like can be a surprise."

"Okay." Rouge said with a smile. Poking the PDA a few times she read it. "This says you will be guarding twin deities. The deity of Epics and the deity of Astronomy."

Kishi blinked , twins.. she'd heared it was possible but really.. twins? She paled a bit and sucked in a deep breath " um ok male or female." don't panic , not panicing is key to not fainting and fainting would be very bad right now.

"Female." Rouge said calmly.


Again she nodded, at least she'd be able to help them through female moments and she wouldn't feel weird bathing them. bathing.. damnit she'd bathed art not that long ago but she was a toddler, kishi had never tried to bathe a small fragile baby before." is there anythign else I should know. anything i need to worry about?"

"No. But if you need money or a hand in caring for them or whatever, we've got plenty of room on the ship and the Tison monitary difference should be enough to help you out."

: " I think I just need to go home and discuss thigns with my father before I figure out exactly what I'm going to do. I'll certainly be in contact though. oh and if i could get some sort of information of where these gods are from? they should have soem part of their heritage to grow up with." Kishi had been raised strangely and ina family like no other she knew but she'd always had reminders of her navajo roots

"They're from Rishoku. We start giving them classes on their heiritage when they hit the child stage and up. I'll give you our number and take you to the transporter room so we can send you home. If Malen needs any information, just call." the blonde told her with a nod.

Still confused and disturbed by this whole ordeal Kishi nodded, well at least her children ( and gods what a strange thought that was, thaqt made her stomach fill with butterflies) would leanr about thier former homes. she paused for a moment " how do you kill gods anyways i thought only special weapons and hinds blood did that and only in certain myths?" kishi didn't want to take children home she could accidentaly kill

"That's in Gaia. In Tison deities can be killed if the source of their immortality-in this case the tree of life-is destroyed."

" How odd, but interesting" Kishi slid out of bed and tested her balance, everythign on her seemed fine. she glanced down briefly to admire the relic on her neck. it shape and colours were a riot and rather beautiful in a way she couldn't explain

"Well anyway, this way to the transporter room." Rouge said cheerfully. And with that the girl was lead away and another guardian had recieved their charge.

an angry father

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Rouge Remika was lounging on her couch on the Samadueanna. Dia was practicing his handwriting at a nearby desk and Demetra was knocking down blocks on theo ther end of the room trying to walk.

*All of the sudden the phone rang. Rouge picked it up on the 2nd ring. "Hallo, the Samadueanna, Rouge speaking, what's up/"

" Rouge , would you care to explain to me how some thing " Malen growled out the word " thought my daughter was mentally stable enough to raise children, becuase I'm pretty sure someone who just learned how they died and then got thrown a nasty hormone cocktail isn't supposed
to turn around and start cuddling kids to their chest. " Malen was furious, Kishi was responsible for a teenager but not infallible and she had her moments of stupidity. she babysat and she had been in charge of Artemis yes but Artemis was a toddler a bit more heart than a baby and a bit less demanding. This was too much for kishi and as he watched her sitting on the couch with her laptop on her lap typing away and searching the net like mad he felt her heart breaking. " how could you let something tie her soul to another person's without consent, you have no idea what choice she may or may not have made given enough time to understand this all.' he liked the woman he really did but this was inexcusable

: "I didn't let anything happen. I have about as much choice in this then she does. All I know is something kills them, bonds their souls with the deities, and sticks them on my ship to get things explained to them. If I DO find out what is in control of this I'll inform you after I've beaten the living s**t out of it." Rouge grumbled. Diyaka was a darling but gawd it was a pain having all of these people showing up on her ship.

: Malen sighed " any idea why it's your ship people keep getting sent to."


"That yes I know. The Samadueanna is protected by a magical aura that prevents Jujike from entering it."

" who?" this concerned malen if the ship needed protection and it was tied to these kids then did that mean Kishi needed it as well

"Jujike was the Tison god of light. he got corrupted somehow and murdered the others. That's why they're being reborn and given to people who either reside on gaia or on this ship. He killed the Queen of the Tison Gatekeepers so they won't let him leave this galaxy and parts of this galaxy as well as the ship have special protection to keep him out."

" Is kishi in danger becuase of this Jujike guy."? he asked. at those words kishi looked up alarmed

himatami1313: "So long as she stays out of Main Tison she is I believe." Rouge said. "everywhere else is safe so far. Though he doesn't seem to know of the reborn gods yet so it may not be safe forever."

" If somethign changes let me know, i won't risk her life becuase soem cosmic crazy decided to throw darts and pick inappropraite innocents to do his bidding."

"Of course I will. I don't want her hurt any more then you do." Rouge said calmly.

: malen eyes his now cryign daughter and sighed " i need to go but expect to hear back from one of us tommorow. Oh and um congrats on the wand kid"
[08:21] himatami1313: "Thanks. And talk to ya then."

It was days like today that Kishi felt ok with life. it wasn't wonderfull and it wasn't horible just ok, liveable. Sidra and Sari were curled up togeather on a blnaket on the living room floor peacefully sleeping.

This in and of itself was a rare and wonderful thing. For some reason the two were not on the same clock and they demanded feedings changing and attention at differing times leaving Kishi little time for herself. Certainly she could have asked her father or Raven for help but she was stubborn and she wanted to bond as best she could with her strange children before lettings others get to familiar with them.

Still staring down at her ebony skinned twins she couldn't help but smile. They could easily be mistaken as her children what with the dark skin and small and delicately membraned wings, their eyes were dark purple several shades brighter than that of her best friend. they were beautifull and Kishi was proud to claim them as her own even if they had no biological ties to her.

she had at first been wary but not she had come to accept them and the strange relationship they shared

This was good, she was tired but content in this aspect.

Still her body craved release and it would not hold out much longer. The more she fought the more agitated and exhausted she became. Her tail twitched in irritation and she sighed each passing hour was a hard fight to keep control of herself, soon she would have to give for feel of illness.

Apart of her still remembered her talk with Yazhi and how she had felt about using their power and sex. It did not bode well to dwell on that.

Somehow she'd sort it all out.

She missed Zah horribly and was annoyed that he wasn't reachable, this was such an important time in her life and her best friend was no where to be seen. Yes she wanted to be not so dependant on him, but still to lean on him once in a while couldn't hurt.

All in all it was another day in the life of one reborn teenage succubus just trying to get by.

Sitting on the living room couch Malen sighed heavily as he typed the hardest letter he had ever written. It was not easy to get out what he wanted to say but it had to be done. He was becoming something different, something not himself and it had to stop. On top of that he needed to protect his family, all of them.


Dear Ianna

There are somethings that need to be discussed, yet i feel i cannot discuss them with you face to face. there are too many emotions that would come up and i do not want to see you in pain. That in part is why i am doing this.

In short I'm moving out shortly , there are many reasons behind this choice, most of all it think this relationship we have is detrimental to everyone involved, to not just us but the children and that's something i can't live with. Things have fallen apart and we all share some blame in that.

I'm losing myself, the person i was and the person who first swept you off your feet. I need to leave to be who i was again to figure out how I let myself slip into some new mold. the person I'm becoming is not someone i want to be, or someone who should be with you as a representative of me.

I am not abandoning you I will still be contactable but i feel that at this time we are no longer really couple and more two people living in one home with a very dysfunctional family.

When I leave I will be taking Del with me Kishi seems to have made other plans.

I know this letter is short but it addressed what needs to be said right now.

Perhaps in a few weeks when the dust has settled we can sit down and talks things over. Discuss what if any future we have even as friends.

Malen


It wasn't the best letter and he was certain there'd be tears over it but it was the best draft he could come up with. When it came to responsibility and emotion Malen was Frank if a bit hard to understand at times.

Still it was done and Malen was one step closer to freedom.. and a new set of responsibilities.

pd with artemis
summary: shopping with art and the twins.
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