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Joker shook his head. "Young lady, you must not let these things get to you. It's life. It's good and it's bad. Not one or the other. You know how many people are trying to kill me? I have the devil himself after me but he can't touch me." He twitched a few times. "That of course is not the point. I will say that if you leave now because of these enemies, you will leave yourself open for them and then....they won. You lost everything you acquired that is good now. Sure you lost alot. It happens. I lost alot that I never wanted to lose in the first place. Trust me. You don't want to end up like me." He twitched. One couldn't blame him. I wouldn't want to be like either, even though as the author I created him. "So. Dusk. What will you decide to do? Make it wisely. But know that no matter what, we are all here."

"What's that saying about meeting someone the first time? Something about good impressions." He thought abit. "Ah well it's not coming to me. But the first impression you gave us was a good one. One meeting was all that made this shelter happen. Now. You don't know what to do. You don't understand what's going on. I think your not reading the manual clearly." He looked at her with his eyes lit. He had his way of helping people figure things out. Even though the other person had to figure it out with all the wiseman crap he was saying.

Joker smiled. "I don't know. You just explained the instruction to me but your not seeing the fine print clear enough." He looked at her closely. "You just ranted exactly what you don't understand. You do things because of them. Just like you do things for those you love. You over look the people around you. What was your impression of us? Of Kyoshi? Of everyone else your close with? Poker has nothing to do with life. It's all in a good hand of dice. Or Craps. That's a great game. Just like the game, only once and once only will you ever roll snake eyes. The rest are free game on how you make it. Keep believeing that your in the everyones way and one day they will tie you down and let you have a lecture." He tilted his head to the side. "You just need to clear up your understanding and figure out what to do. Just remember that everyone makes a million decisions a day. Only one of them make an impact on whether or not they open doors or close them."

"It would make sense. In a mad sort of way. Or maybe that's because I mad." He looked at his hands. "Who are you to decide for them? They made there choice to be with you just like those enemies chose to come after you and they chose to seek your death. Fine. It's just like the rest of us. We chose to help you. You put them even more at risk if you weren't around. If you were gone, those enemies will have reason to kill us all because we with hold information about you. If you stay, then you have a better chance to live. You have a better chance to defeat all forces. And you get to live a somewhat normal life with your loved ones. At least you made your own family of rough and trouble making people who would go to the ends of the earth for you." He looked up at Dusk. "What do you get out of hurting everyone if you weren't in there lifes everyday? You will be with the knowledge of hearing that Kyoshi had to be put down because of his awesome powers to try and get to you. You will know the knowledge that my crew is either in jail or dead because we wanted to fight for something that is right. Or the knowledge of everyone living day by day in grief? Kyoshi will smoke until there's no tomorrow and the rest will take vices, leading to a destructive path that when you least expect it, madness sets in. Then insanity. And then...." Joker stopped. Maybe he was getting to far in this. He had no right to rant himself.

"I see." He just looked at her calmly not one bit angry at her now explosive emotion or really concerned that she might choke the life out of him. "You know. If you tell someone not to do something they are always going to do the opposite. It's in our natures as living beings. No one is asking or wanting to fix the past. If we could, I wouldn't be here. I would be with the family that I lost. I would be a father by now. Kyoshi would be a manager of a warehouse or still in heaven next to his master. Gambler would have been happy with the man she fell for. Everyone of us would be happy and all this," He waved his hand around. "Wouldn't exist. Only peace. You can't control the actions of others and nor can they control yours should you let them. But you can't and won't." He clasped his hands together. "Kyoshi loves you. I can see it. If you weren't important, then you would be out there already in the hands of the enemy."

Joker got up and pulled Dusk into a tight embrace. "There will always be things you can and can't understand and understanding why someone loves you is one of them. You can never question someone on there reasons to love someone. I used to know love once, even though I twitch and do things of madness. But she loved me without restrain. I love Gambler because of the way she is. We all do. She loves us because of the way we are. It's nothing carnal. It's a family-like love but with people who are insane. At least I'm the insane one." He stepped back and sat down with his hands folded together. "Those in your past, present and future will love you because of the way you are. Your one of a kind and they can identify themselves with you because of it." He wasn't talking about him, Kyoshi and the rest. He was talking about in general. He looked at her calmly.

(Sry this sucks. It's not like the one from last night. v.v)

"Well I'm glad that you find that amusing. Others are scared or creeped out. It makes me feel good that you don't care about my twitching." Speak of the devil he twitched a few times and then calmed down. "Soooo. Are you feeling better in letting some of the pent up energy out? If not, then please continue. It will help you." He smiled.

Joker frowned inwardly. He noticed a delima that he wouldn't comment on because that was one thing she needed to figure out herself. "Come sit down and let's think this through. But first...Would you like a drink?"