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 Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2008 10:54 pm
Damnit, Tommy. Can't say I know exactly how you feel, but I sympathize with you. I know you can do whatever you set your mind to and if getting him back is what you want, then you'll get it.
On a side note... I sort of had a date. I didn't agree to a date, I thought there would be more of my classmates there, but only one showed up. I think he planned it that way, too...
So he texted me that some people from school were going to see The Happening and I said I'd go. He asked if he could pick me up and I said no thank you, I like to drive myself. I got a babysitter for Micah and got there on time. He got there, he paid for my ticket and we went in (he said no one else was coming...). So the movie was great (I don't like scary movies, but this one could be explained... sort of... by science.) and during the movie he didn't put a move on me or do the whole fake yawn with the arm slowly making it's way behind you deal. He got drinks and snacks. After the movie he put his hand on my back to guide me along the dark theater, making sure I didn't trip and fall in the dark, opened doors for me and walked me to my car. When he asked if he could kiss me goodnight I said no, and he left it at that. I did give him a hug, though.
And since then a few of my friends think he's the perfect gentleman and that if he asks me out on a REAL date, not a FAKE one that I should say yes. He goes to my college and I've known him for two months. He's actually one of the few people in my class I can have an intelligent conversation with... We both have a 4.0 and do awesome bodywork.
I just still don't know... I don't think I'm ready yet.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2008 10:58 pm
Crisis: I'm falling for a guy again.
Key points:
1) He's a friend.
2) He's three years (or two?) younger than me.
3) I kissed him.
Maggie knows most of the details because I freaked a bit and called her. I will say this--it's weird because it works, rather than because it doesn't. You see, he's...straight. Well...anyway, I think he's straight. I mean...we kissed for a long, long time, and he definitely wasn't...weirded out by it...that is to say...I could tell that he was enjoying himself. redface
Anyway, nothing else happened. Weird, because normally, it's the opposite. I don't kiss people. On the lips, anyway. And especially not younger guys. Now, I've broken quite a few rules with him. Including skinnydipping, which I'm pretty sure is ill-named in my case. And he wasn't grossed out by that either.
Anyway, I care about him a lot, and now he's saying that he might have led me on. But the truer statement is that I deceived myself. Now, that's kind of unimportant. I know he liked it--it was easy enough to tell--and usually, when I like someone, and I know they like what's happening, I...ah...go for it. And kind of forget the rest.
But...I care about him. And it kills me that he's torn. But, still...I know that I want him. And I know on some level, he wants me. And I just...want to break through. I want very little right now but to hold him and kiss him. And I don't do romance. Ever. I don't date. I fling. But...he's changing everything.
I want to kiss him. Hard. And hold him. Hard. And never let go.
-Andrew
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Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2008 6:58 am
I feel so dull and boring reading all these posts... Everyone's either got drama or stress or something to take up their time.
I did throw a party for my two friends on Saturday which went really well.
The only thing I think I'll complain about is the fact that my buddy, who is more like my little brother, keeps finding ways out of dumping his girl friend. Now before people jump to conclusions, let me tell you she's insane. This girl calls my buddy at least ten tens a day and even more when he's with either me or his other friends. She's told him to his face that she doesn't even trust him, she rags on his friends and she's manipulated him into this spineless terd and its pissing me off.
Now before any of you believe I'm be exaggerative, I was at his house a week ago and she texted him 28 times, called his cell 23 times and called his house 18 times in the span of three hours, I counted. Saturday night she called my sister's cell demanding to talk to him when we were on our adventure to MACK's, a convenience store about 30 minutes from my place in the landing. I could hear her screaming on the phone and crying and wailing, it was embarrassing and I don't even like or know her. She's a sneaky little tramp and she's got her nails deep under his skin and knows exactly how he operates and I can tell she's done this before.
I've had hours long conversations with him, since Saturday, normally I don't try to break people up, but this is my exception. Its bullshit and he deserves better and he keeps saying he doesn't even want to be with her anymore so why he doesn't just do it is frigging beyond me.
GAH! I hate stupidity!
Justin
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 7:47 pm
Let's make this a short note.
Sunday, he texted me saying that he thought he was leading me on. I told him my skills of self-delusion are legendary.
Yesterday, we talked for hours about everything--including kissing. I was surprised to realize that he was actually concerned that he thought it meant that he was going to do other things.... Needless to say, I set the record straight--well, sort of--and told him that I don't expect anything from him. But we set some ground rules--mostly lack thereof.
Today he came over. And we kissed for three hours--while watching movies and playing video games. And reading articles about Barack Obama (God save him) and Mugabe (the opposite, please).
He's coming over tomorrow. And spending the night. I'm so excited.
Love and Vale!
-Andrew
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 8:57 pm
Woohoo! Nothing interesting or dramatic going on for me. Just doing some illustrating and getting ready for Otakon '08!
Leav, when are we going to finish that book?
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 9:11 pm
I know, I'm getting to it! (And to commenting on your latest chapter as well.) And I'm sorry about the L & V Composition holdup. Can we put off the watermark for a bit?
But...really...this is a good experience for me. I can't pass it up. I feel like...for the first time in a long time, I'm on the right path. And I like myself. I'm still growing up, I know, but I feel like I've grown so much in such a short time. I feel like I'm a better person now. And believe it or not, that helps me be a better writer, too.
How do you feel about "Velvet Kiss"?
L & V,
-Andrew
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 1:44 pm
Someone had to bring up writing...
I'm sad, and sort of happy, to say that I've begun restructuring New Fantasy again. For those who aren't counting, this will make my 8th revision in 9 years of writing.
I think, and hope, this will be the last revision and I will be putting it up for review tomorrow if people are curious and wish to read it.
If it comes to another revision, I think I'll just leap off my building.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 4:44 pm
god and I haven't even finished my first book all the way through and I've been working on it for like 5 years or so. Yeah, no don't jump off the building, just throw the book off or shred it, burn it, do whatever, that is if you have a printed version of it.
Man, I'm in California right now and I'm loving it, don't have to worry about work or anything really, going to farmers market in a well an hour or so, not really sure when, listening to the new colplay album now, we didn't bring anymusic and the stations here are all alternative any way (College town - Cal Poly). Any way, it's so nice, I mean when we left Utah at like 9 in the morning it was already 90 degrees out, and here the high is like 78, *runs outside to dance a bit* the only thing is with all the fires in the state it's been a bit smokey, almost gagged me and my mom when we got off the plane.
Went to the Madonna Inn in San Luis Obispo, and holy god, too much pink... they actually have a room called the pink room, I have pictures if any of you want to see, just let me know, I'll upload them onto deviantart. On other news I opened the writing contest in the main forum, I feel it may get more publicity there, sorry LD, but the corner hasn't been swarming a whole lot lately. Which reminds me, I need to post an announcement in this subforum about the contest.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 7:09 pm
Haha! Everything is falling together quite nicely.
L + V,
-Andrew
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:27 pm
OMFG! I got the best picture tonight, now I know most guys don't go for sunsets, I think they're cool, got the best pic especially with it on the beach. Imagine, a sliver of sun just barely over the water as it's going down, the sky painted with blues and yellows. The timing was, oh, just right I mean, I love pictures with the mountains from where I live, but you just can't beat the beach. I'll post in on my deviantart if you want to take a look: http://nickch87.deviantart.*eitd: pics are up!
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Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 1:39 am
Leavaros Haha! Everything is falling together quite nicely. L + V, -Andrew
Leavy-kun, that sounded so... evil. xd Were you twirling your handlebar mustache?
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Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 5:46 am
No. I was licking my paws free of any lingering canary tidbits.
*sigh* That's a bad joke.
I love him, and I'm so glad he (at least) likes me back (and in the same way!). And everything is falling together perfectly.
-Leavy-Kun/Andrew
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Posted: Fri Jul 04, 2008 4:41 pm
hahaaha, i'm at a bbq right now, using my cousins computer drinking some corona, not getting drunk off my a** though... yet. Any that's good news Andrew I hope things work out for you and that it all does just fall together nicely.
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Posted: Wed Jul 09, 2008 8:33 pm
ha lol, so apparently (according to Muse) I have a sexy voice, though I don't have a girlfriend... idk... i wouldn't mind dating this girl I know, other than I already know her dad goes after her boyfriends that get really close. She's pretty awesome, smart, good looking, funny, we have similar interests, she wants to be an actress, which I think is awesome, I'd think that'd be fun to date an actress...
I'm home now, after being in California, for a week. It was so nice, i mean here it was already 90 degrees when we left to go to the airport at 9a. there, the hottest it got was like 75. We went out on a boat on the fourth of July and watched fireworks being set off from the pier, which was AWESOME, it was actually clear, no fog, and the fireworks were apparantly more than other times my aunt and uncle went. Snapped a few good pics, other than those, the rest are all blurred, cause the water was kinda rough and the boat kept swaying up and down, especially when they moved to get us back in a good position.
and so i close with "WHERE THE H*** IS EVERYONE?!" post more... kinda getting worried...
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Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 1:18 am
It's called life issues. gonk
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