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 Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2005 12:31 pm
Everyday, every minute every second... everything changes. But our brains trick us into thinking it's the same so we don't go crazy from too much information. And the changes are not always visible from our point of view, but they are there.
3 main constants in this world: space, time & change. And maybe space + time = changes.
2nd revelation:
I want to know everything. I want to be everywhere. I want to ******** everyone in the world. I want to do something that matters.
(okay, song quote, but it's the core of my thought machine)
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2005 12:15 pm
I want to be alive.
I don't want to be alive.
I want to exist.
I don't want to exist.
I want to be filled with immense hatred.
I want to let my anger and pain go.
I want to tell her how I feel.
I know I shouldn't.
And yet...
Yet somehow...
I feel yet more alive than ever before.
I am truly in my element.
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Posted: Sun Oct 23, 2005 4:29 pm
Hubris: Loose definition, Pride.
Specific definition, The inability to accept the limitations of being human, including mortality, inadaquacy, and enslavement to emotion.
You can't control who you love. There are millions of battered women out there who are sad examples of this. I wish I were a squirrel.
Yes, I do have a large hubris, thank you.
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Cougar Draven rolled 2 6-sided dice:
1, 6
Total: 7 (2-12)
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Posted: Thu Oct 27, 2005 7:04 pm
...HAX!
Sorry...I've been keeping that bottled up in me for close to six hours...people would look at me funny if I actually shouted it.
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Socrates in Disguise Captain
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Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2005 11:40 am
~~Wow...I've been gone a long time...sorry guys, been real busy.
~~The whole myth about the freedom you gain when you turn 18 is a lie. You'll never be truely free gonk
~~I hate parents, and someday I'll probably be one. Therefore I hate me.
~~I miss her smile, I miss her touch, her sweet taste and aroma, but most of all, I miss the sound of her voice that brings me back from the depths of sorrow in this lonely city...I can't wait to hear her again. sweatdrop ((if she'd just stop getting grounded...))
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 4:38 am
Something that just... I could never figure it out.
You turn 18, get a driver's license, and you can drive.
For some reason, people seem to think this is the greatest thing ever.
I have my driver's license, and I don't have a car that I can drive. I also don't want to drive, and have it only as identification. Even if I needed to take lessons again, I would rather just have an ID and figure out a safer and cheaper means of transportation.
Having a vehical to drive.
Again, for some reason, people think that you magically receive freedom as a result. "I can drive!" 4laugh
But... what I thought when I was offered a car as a graduation gift wasn't "sweet, free car". It was "Free car! 4laugh Wait... gas... sad Insurance. sweatdrop Can't afford in the long run. gonk "
I now own a digital camera. 3nodding
I can't understand the concept behind "having" to have a significant other.
Even though I have a friend that would want me as their boyfriend (and them my girlfriend), I kindly refuse.
I would, in my honest opinion, rather have a friend for life than lose one over petty argument.
21. Oh boy...
Why people would want to shove alcoholic beverages down themselves to get drunk, or "have a good time", I doubt I will grasp.
I suppose it's fine... but I'm not partaking in that. sweatdrop
Stuff that bounces around in my head... questioning the logic of others.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2005 7:12 am
today i realized that self defeating logic gets you know where. i also realized that to bask in misery hurts you more then you will ever realize. when purpose is lost religeon is gained, i will not give up my purpose for religeon!
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2005 7:24 am
aaarhus Something that just... I could never figure it out. You turn 18, get a driver's license, and you can drive. For some reason, people seem to think this is the greatest thing ever. I have my driver's license, and I don't have a car that I can drive. I also don't want to drive, and have it only as identification. Even if I needed to take lessons again, I would rather just have an ID and figure out a safer and cheaper means of transportation. Having a vehical to drive. Again, for some reason, people think that you magically receive freedom as a result. "I can drive!" 4laugh But... what I thought when I was offered a car as a graduation gift wasn't "sweet, free car". It was "Free car! 4laugh Wait... gas... sad Insurance. sweatdrop Can't afford in the long run. gonk " I now own a digital camera. 3nodding I can't understand the concept behind "having" to have a significant other. Even though I have a friend that would want me as their boyfriend (and them my girlfriend), I kindly refuse. I would, in my honest opinion, rather have a friend for life than lose one over petty argument. 21. Oh boy... Why people would want to shove alcoholic beverages down themselves to get drunk, or "have a good time", I doubt I will grasp. I suppose it's fine... but I'm not partaking in that. sweatdrop Stuff that bounces around in my head... questioning the logic of others. why can you only love one person anyways, and what about all the different types of love, just because it's different doesn't make it better. to be with a person is to be intimate i think, to show them the true you... some people don't do this with others and can only do this with people they feel safe. to date a person is in other words saying i feel safe with you and care about you and i think you care about me enough where i have nothing to fear by showing my true self. its either that or people just want the excuse to have sex with another human being and hide it behind pretty words. also their is also possessiveness where the person is possessive and doesn't want to share a good thing with someone else for fear of looseing it or changeing it. what i don't understand is all the laws people make up to govern human behavior these laws are imaginary at best. drinking allows people to get away from themselves and an excuse to be someone or something else for a night or to just reach oblivion so ou don't have to think anymore because thinking hurts. yay for walking and hey look i'm not spending money on a car or a treadmill! woot! a car would be convienent if i could afford it as i wouldn't be so freakin cold in the winter and if i miss the bus sometimes a person just doesn't feel like walking ten or more miles in the snow
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2005 9:50 am
Once again, back in meh element.
The final year of high school isn't really worth enough to care about it, is it?
Existence defines essence. Haven't I said that before?
And, finally...this is something I actually figured out several days ago, but I've let it ferment in my mind, and become a powerful oracle, if you will.
There are only two sides to every coin. No more, no less. To top that off, everything is a coin. People, places, decisions. All are just multiple flips of the same coin. Love, hatred. Pain, pleasure. Madness, sanity. Happiness, sadness. All are opposite sides of the same coin.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2005 11:34 pm
Sometimes the thing that you move entirely across the country to escape is only magnified upon arrival.
Friendship is, apparently, more important to me than identity.
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Posted: Tue Nov 15, 2005 9:39 am
ochimaru Everyday, every minute every second... everything changes. But our brains trick us into thinking it's the same so we don't go crazy from too much information. And the changes are not always visible from our point of view, but they are there. 3 main constants in this world: space, time & change. And maybe space + time = changes. 2nd revelation: I want to know everything. I want to be everywhere. I want to ******** everyone in the world. I want to do something that matters. (okay, song quote, but it's the core of my thought machine) ok... my take on this isn't that time exist but change exists and we jugde time by change, in a second a million years could pass but we'd still count it only as a second
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Posted: Thu Nov 17, 2005 3:18 pm
Cougar Draven There are only two sides to every coin. No more, no less. To top that off, everything is a coin. People, places, decisions. All are just multiple flips of the same coin. Love, hatred. Pain, pleasure. Madness, sanity. Happiness, sadness. All are opposite sides of the same coin. Yes... but is it not possible for a coin to balance on edge? Not a side... but an occurance none the less. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Nov 26, 2005 12:34 pm
People's attempts to make you feel welcome often make you feel like a bother, like you're in the way.
But if they weren't to extend those courtesies to you, would you feel out of place? Ignored? Like an outsider trying to impose upon an exclusive activity?
You can't force yourself to be something that you you're not. People acknowledge this. So why do people try to force me to be sociable when they know that it induces panic attacks?
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Posted: Mon Dec 05, 2005 5:49 pm
Death amongst humans is a good thing... For then we can't totaly destroy the planet.
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Socrates in Disguise Captain
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Posted: Tue Dec 06, 2005 5:48 pm
Fools-luck Death amongst humans is a good thing... For then we can't totaly destroy the planet. I am a firm believer that population control is a good thing.
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