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its really frustrating. really lol. i mean.. i hardly use empty threats but when its used at every argument and its the same thing, i dont want to argue and deal with that. like no.

easier said than done, trust me. im easily distacted.
i generally pick hobbies but theres a lot of pressure this year to do good. A LOT.

ohhh. i see i see. i grew up with non gamer parents. i had the luxury of video games and video games became my hobby. its my character i suppose you can say that

i mean.. she said as long as im constant with working that way, its fine. so idk how this is going to work out.

oh no. sorry i didnt mean to be condescending. it generally helps me review things that i learned by telling people about it or along those lines.
I hardly deal with dead people but ive handled dead things for a short while. still intruiging nonetheless.

i dont know how to describe it. I guess its been engrained in my family morale that its like.. your own family is your own and whatnot. So having my best friend's family tell me straight up im like a son to them and i am family was the weirdest and happiest feeling. To be accepted by a family is a big deal in general to me. so idk how to describe it either.
Plus they're on the wealthier side, so when they spoil me, I feel really weird and theyre always like "don't worry, it's fine" and here i am thinking in my head "ahhhh theyre paying for me again ; ____ ; this is kinda embarrasing" i dont know thats just how i am.

I've been going on gaia less and less. I guess i come back theres some stuff to do and look forward to, but recently gaia has been bland and flat to me. I'm not exactly sure what im looking for here anymore. or what i want from gaia.

I dont really use empty threats but yeah. I never used self harm as a threat to be honest, but yeah. It's hard to just shrug the constant nagging off lol.

well its not really cheering more of expectations and I want to prove to them i can do this.

i hope it works well too. thanks haha.

I find the dead weird in an intruiging manner. like its weird but its interesting enough. The concept of it and the appearances to me. I dont know how well to explain it.

yeah its a weird feeling to be honest. Like i mean its nice and all but i dont know hwo to properly give my gratitude to them thats generally how i feel haha. they do so much for me and i cant give anything back in return.

I'm not going to lie, there is a chance that i might be MIA when schools starts. I mean we can contact with each other through mobile phones and whatnot but that's your decision to share that information haha.

haha that's okay. I suppose old habit dont die easy. I usually use empty threats with the hint of sarcasm and or as a joke.

I mean sometiems support is nice but like cheering from afar isnt going to do me any good. But yeah right now about 5 people are counting on me like big time. 5 is a already a lot. So pressure's definitely on.

pretty much. But the visionary aspect is also fascinating though. The processes of death and such like rigor mortis and whatnot are rather intruiging to me as well. Death in general is interestingly weird ahaha.
But you have the gist of it.

oh maan that's pretty much me. My friend's family is rich. His dad is an architect and he recently got a job offer at turkey with a salary of $15k-$20k a month. thats like $180 a year and then her mom works too at a company and she makes decent money as well (not sure what the aveerage is) and im liek o__ o I .. how... how do i even give my proper thanks to this family. i don't even understand.

OH no i meant texting and messaging through other forms of media. I usually frequent in facebook and recently ive delcined with skype. but texting is alright to me too. I don't usually call friends. Only really close friends generally I call. but for the most part I prefer texting.

*pets you gently* Raven completely understands the feeling. It's not a sad thing to admit, he is the exact same way. He hates admitting stuff like tha- so most of the time he just doesn't. cat_xp Yes meow, you are alright and tha is wha matters.

Hmmm... well Raven can do $90 tha isn't TOO fluffy. If it makes you feel better he doesn't have any easel, his was lifted. cat_stare Raven isn't worried about monies, he likes to get the best of things so he only has to buy it once. Sometimes he can be reckless with monies. As long as he can order it online he should be fine meow (Raven doesn't get out much because of his Photosensitivity).

Any picture is fine meow, Raven just wants to see. Sorry this reply was so late, he thought he replied to it already but guess his last reply didn't go through. Hehe.

Most humans aren't nice nowadays. Raven and Salty? Ohhh the other boy from the Guild you have been talking to. It is nice tha you have two of us to talk to. Tha is wha the GBG Guild is fur meow, support fur Gay Bisexual Guys from other Gay Bisexual Guys, tha is kinda in the title cat_xd (Raven is a Cat but he gets wha you mean.) Well it is a two way thing meow, you keep us Company too. Hehe thank youk, he looked fur a Kitty Image but alas there was none. cat_sad

Raven has never really been in a Gym befur but your Gym sounds good. He would probably go late at night too. Heh... yeah. Not tha he has a problem with seeing images of Women, just not their Asses in tiny shorts while they are bent over or leaning down working out. cat_burning_eyes

Raven is 21, so he is a little younger than you. His Age isn't the problem meow, its other stuff.

Do it. go for it. That sounds much healthier.

EW No. go away. I dont want anymore pressure on me ; A ; uwahhh theres so much to dooo. jk. No its totally fine. Your support is better than my family's their support is more... threatening than actual supportive.

Im not weirded out by dead people. Im not used to seeing them but the way they look is weird to me. Not creepy just weird. but at the same time interesting. especially dissected cadavers.

its ridiculous to be honest. I dont know man haha. I mean.. theres so much that they've done for me and so little that ive done for them that im like ; A ; waahhh if i suddenly back out there will be grudges with this family.

like i said. its up to you haha. would you want to text as well?

Oh yeah. I know. I've stalked your profile razz
I don't mind. I really dont see much of a problem in that.
I've read all the diagnosed stuff on you and yes you are a medical nightmare like you said.

ps. sorry if i never replied. Its because i would open this and things distract me and eventually i forget to reply ;_ ;

Good good. Proud of you. ;u;

its more threatening because of how there are terms and conditions with me staying in the apartment like.. im only given a few months etc etc and its just doesnt seem supportive.

I--I'm weird? ; A; how could you say that to me?
Jk jk. We're all weird individuals in one way or another.

I dont know. I spoil their daughter (my friend) with a Tori Burch bag for her birthday ($360) and they were like "WHAT? HAH? WHY'D YOU DO THAT?!? THATS SO NICE OF YOU, BUT WHY?"
i couldnt explain that this was one way i thought of to say"thank you"

ehh ill shoot it here. (773)-575-0112.

yeah theres a chance i might actually move out by thursday

that's good to hear. Im glad you're improving.

eh its mostly whatevers. i mean. i cant do anyhting about it. ill deal with it and prove to them.

dude, i love weird people. well weird to an extent of course. Im weird, you're weird. we're all weird.

I had money. I worked, I might as well and did it. Designer bags are not cheap. They are not ; _ ;

and yeah. its pretty soon. Its terrifyingly exciting.