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 Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 2:59 am
i suffer from depression and i do want to end my life but i wont,ive tried seeking help but the people i have seen were horrible which is sad because im doing what im being told should be done,why do i want to end it because i have a dysfunctional family that doesnt love understand or support me i have issues from my past things that are to deep fo say,i was tormented and bullied through school and idk people are cruel to me and i dont deserve it
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 9:01 am
I was there... 18 years of it, and everyone around me knew something was wrong, but nobody cared. Certain people even clung on to what was already tormenting me and only made it worse for shits and giggles. I was bullied, used, betrayed, and felt so alone. I tried so hard to think positively, and to work hard at getting myself out of that situation, but I still felt dead inside from years of nonstop pain. I am still working on getting better, but be sure that there are others like you who will understand you and love you for who you are. I know it's difficult to see the light past all the dark, I know I tried to end it on several occasions, but in the end I am glad I didn't. If it helps at all you have people here who do care. I am sure you don't deserve what they have done to you but I am here to talk if you want as are others I am sure. o^.^o
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 11:29 am
Because I live with an illness that pretty much effects me in every way (yes every way, hormones can actually do a lot) and been like that for years. I have depression and tried to get help. I don't really have friends I cam hangout with or talk to and even my own mom told when I few times that I was useless and tired of me.
I tried belly dance classes as it was something I enjoyed and gave me something to look forward to, but with the physical pain, it makes it hard to go all the time and a end up Skipping at least a month so far. Due to new rules with payment, I can't really afford to do that. My mom got pissed at me the other day because I didn't want to dance because I felt terrible. She just tells me to suck it up, as if it is no big deal.
Growing up, I was always bullied and harassed for reasons I am still trying to understand, most of them were girls but guys harassed and bullied me as well. There's more, but I don't want to talk about it.
I've seen councilors before, my elementary school actually made me see someone while the other schools just made me take these special classes.
I don't have much going for me right now, but I can't bring myself to commit suicide either, so I am stuck.
People say it gets better or there are ways that it could, but how, when? I waited long enough. I can see why people turn to suicide, as many feel there is no way out. Maybe there is but who knows?
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 1:51 pm
I find I only have one person in life I live for anymore, and even then its loose bcause of our emotional instability. Still, she stopped me the one time I got close to doing the deed... Counts for a lot.
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