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He gave a nod as his eyes slowly opened, the green hues glistening with something unknown as he was trying to stop thinking, trying to stop his body from going into this overdrive mod that he didn’t even realize that he had. Why did the pills have to be brought to his attention? He wished that it hadn’t happened, wished that he could just go back to being the man that had been happy and peppy and… not at all him. Kalore bit his lip as his body calmed, the thoughts now something that weren’t so much saddening and petrifying as they were… solemn. He hadn’t been himself and he knew it, but why hadn’t he noticed it before?

Closing his eyes again, his thoughts were only interrupted as he heard where it was that he was going. Frowning some, he opened them slightly, watching Monty as the darkness around them seemed oddly darker than it should have been, Monty’s frame perfectly brought out with his pale skin and fiery hair. He could barely focus on the words as he was realizing that he was now looking at the man that had been in his mind for months now. Eyes widening at the brief reminder, his had shook for a bit before he frowned again, trying to focus on the words instead of the other’s looks. “What?”

He listened and continued to look confused, “The one by Joker’s house?” Kalore had thought that the shed was where the man lived, knowing that it wasn’t something that was too small to live in but he knew was just a bit odd to live in. Where else did the other live, though? “Or… Or is it somewhere else?” Kalore now had three homes - - if Gambler let him keep the one that she had had built for him and the others as well - - so it shouldn’t surprise him that Monty had multiple.

The words confused him more as he let himself be dragged by the other, finally noticing just where it was that they were as he glanced around again, biting his lip softly. “Wait… But isn’t this your shed?” Looking at the other, he frowned more before he noticing that they had ignored Joker’s house and had moved into the garage and to where there was something covered. When it had been uncovered, Kalore’s brows raised before he slowly ran his fingers over the car’s hood, looking it over, “You have… so many different cars…’’ He had been in two of them already where Kalore only had one and ad had the same one for a long time.

Looking up at the other, he smiled just a bit, sighing again as he felt his body going back to that calm sense that it had been in more. “I wanna go with you…” His words were whispered as he smiled just a small bit, the smile being something that once again wasn’t really his. Now that he was thinking of this, thinking of something that wasn’t hellish and horrible, he could focus again on this happiness that the drug allowed him to have. It wasn’t real but… it was better than feeling shitty.

Biting his lip softly, he nodded some before he shook his head. He said nothing but Kalore didn’t really want to be left alone for any amount of time, though he got into the car and sunk into the seat as he glanced around. Biting his lip softly, he looked at the other and watched him leave, tense and almost panicked until Monty came back. Nodding to him, Kalore was still huddled against the seat as he bit his lip softly again.

“The um… the store?” He didn’t really want to go inside anywhere but the elf couldn’t take being alone at the moment so he simply nodded. “Okay.” Who was he to go against this? It wasn’t like Monty had to help him so… he wasn’t going to make this harder on the demon. Instead, he simply said nothing more, mostly because he didn’t know what to say but also because he just didn’t want to risk saying something stupid and ticking off the demon more than he already had.

Kalore didn’t even seem bothered with the other parking where he did as he soon shook his head again, biting his lip. “I…I don’t wanna wait here.” He bit his lip harder before he soon was gripping Monty’s arm again, trying not to freak out more than he had to. It was hard seeing as he knew that he shouldn’t be freaking out, logically he knew it, but at the same time he didn’t know for sure. Something had to be freaking him out… something that was real. Surely the drug couldn’t b doing all of this? He hoped not but then again… who knew? He bit his lip harder before he soon was releasing the other.

“Maybe… Maybe I shouldn’t…” With other people, people staring at him - - something that happened often enough to make him freak out more already - - he definitely didn’t think that he would be able to handle that. Closing his eyes, he took in another breath as he sunk back into the seat, muttering again, “Just… hurry, pleas?” Looking at the other, he felt shaky, panicky again, but Kalore was trying to work through the drug. Knowing that it was there, it was easier to control it, easier to take a hold of himself, but it was still something that he needed to work on. Hopefully he wouldn’t get much practice in it.

Nodding at the other, the man tried to do what if was that the demon had instructed but if was damn near impossible. Hedodnt want to be calm, he didn't want to be in some car, alone, while he waited for someone to do something that was oddly domestic for him. At the same time, however, Kalore knew that there was nothing else that he really could do. Thee was no way that he could take being in that store an he wasn't going to risk a damn panic attack in the store. He was freaking out too much already. He didn't need to add something else to it.

Shivering and trying yo concentrate on the music and nothing else, Kalire was nearly ripping his hair out by the time the other finally came in. Glancing over at the other, Kalore gripped his arm again but said nothing this time. He didn't want to feel like more of a fool, bug it was hard... Really hard. Biting his lip harder, his eyes closed as he tried to clear his mind before he spoke. It was hardf than it should have been. "D-Did you... Did you get what you...what you needed?"

Biting his lip softly, the man glanced around as gd tried to think of ehere it was that he had seen all of this. When Monty had spoken, a lot of it came back to him. He had been brought here before... But it had been a long time since he had been here. When he had, he hadn't stayed in his own room, but with the demon himself. Would he allow that again? In the back of his mind, he knew that hd wouldn't. Monty had to still be pissed at him. That couldn't stop him from asking, however.

"could I... Could I stay with you?" Whispering his words, he bit his lip harder, hoping that he wouldn't be turned down but knowing that he would. Kalore was soon shaking his head before the other could even reply. "I... I know that... That that isn't something that you probably want but..." He looked down, the panic coming back before he could stop it and even realize what it was that he was doing. Just how much damage had Eri done to the man? A lot. He had done a hell of a lot if damage.

Listening to the other, his eyes widened as he looked over at the demon. "I... I can?" His voice was soft as the panic began to slow in his mind, his hand reaching out to touch Monty. There was a shadow of Kalores real smile as he was soon in front if the other, nodding. "I Wang to stay with you, Monty..." He bit his lip before hd was near the other again, briefly wondering why it was that he was do much calmer when he was touching the demon. In the back of his mind, The elf knew why. He cared so much for this man... So much that it hurt. The time gone from him... It had been hell.

He almost leaned on him, much like what he used to do, but he stopped himself. Monty wouldn't like that, right? He knew that the other had told him not to assume anything but surely the other found him...repulsive. The thought had him biting his lip softly, shaking his head before he thought of it too much. Thoughts at this point were dangerous, deadly things. Kalore especially needed to remember that, remember and not continue to freak out and get a hold of himself. Shaking his head again, he whispered, ".I... I need to rest..."

Biting his lip softly, Kalore kept close to the other but he didn’t allow himself to get as close to him as he wanted to be. He didn’t think that the demon would want him anywhere near him, which was saddening but at the same time he could understand why. Monty didn’t like those that were on drugs or anything like that, but it wasn’t like Kalore had done this on purpose! He hadn’t wanted to fall back into the drugs and he hadn’t wanted to get into things like this again, but apparently Fate didn’t believe that he should have had a choice in anything that he wanted. The thought was near painful as he closed his eyes; not noticing the food that was being placed properly behind them.

He sighed, instead, and finally opened his eyes when Monty began to speak. Looking surprised, the blonde blinked, glancing over at him, “You… you kept it?” He blinked more before a soft smile was on his features and he sighed again, beginning to move away from Monty to take the items that he had placed on the bed. “Thank… Thank you, Monty.” Kalore’s voice was soft before he glanced over at him again, feeling almost shy but with that small edge of panic at the edges of his mind. It was as if he was some prisoner that was so far okay, so far not having been touched or bothered, but the much worse things were around and he wasn’t completely sure on how to act.

The analogy was something that went through his mind too quickly to process it in real-time, thankfully so as it avoided another panic attack, but the glimmer of meaning was still in his consciousness. Monty was doing this… why? Why was he helping the person that he apparently couldn’t stand? Biting his lip harder, Kalore shook his head -- but to nothing that the demon had said – and soon began to back away to the bathroom again. “I… I’ll just take a bath…” Whispering his words, he was in the bathroom before Monty could even finish his command of the elf drinking plenty of water. The world was spinning almost and he felt like he drifting in… in something. Kalore wasn’t sure what it was but he knew that the drugs in his system weren’t going to go away soon, or even easily.