ahh no life-ing games. I used to be able to do that, until family and whatnot starts scolding me for it. I dont know. I take solace in video games and it gives me that sense of a new world like.. Escaping the reality to a new one and living up to it. I dont know how to describe it. I don't just play video games because i play it to run away from reality and i guess entertainment and i appreciate the character developments and plotlines and sometimes i learn things about myself through the characters themselves.
Oh dang. 753 for a month. I wouldn't be able to handle that. I only make 1,000 a month. and that's only getting paid 500 every two weeks. I have rent coming up soon so i not much for fun money either. i have to save up.
uhh pretty much. i have nothing for pain. I mean i havent had the need for heavy painkillers such as vicodine, norco, codein or morphine. So for regular back pain, headaches and whatnot I have to deal with it or deal with an allergic reaction to my eyes. My eyelids (both upper and lower) get really itchy and slowly swell up. First looks like a bug bite then the rest of it swells up and i can barely see a thing because i can't open my eyes.when that happens, I just sleep and wait until the medicine goes away.
I did say goodbye to my little "goblin" granpoops at work. (i call them all granpoops because they're always pooping and theyre all old) but this resident used to be livelier and he has a high pitched voice and he just reminded me of a goblin when he walked around the facility, but now he's in hospice. He isn't eating anything, drinking anything, he's dying. I said my goodbye to him yesterday. he was one of my favorite residents too.
I had to lighten the mood though! the lady -- lets call her 403W was teary eyed and sad, i was getting teary eyed and emotional and i didn't want that in our parting, so i made the joke saying "goodnight now '403W' stay well and alive until i come back, okay? Take care of yourself now." OSHA prevents me from providing names. Its kinda illegal xD
Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2015 1:55 am
iSaltyMilk
The odd thing was my family loved watching me play, so they never scolded me. They often encourage me to play. Strange huh? There is nothing wrong with that. I can kind of see video games being a window to a new world. I mean they have story to them and have their own world that takes you into it. Like you said enjoying them for the plotlines and character development. I think that good games make us think and touch us somehow. Well some of them… I’m not sure how much you can relate to some shooter games or killing games, where the plot is just kill everything in sight. I digress though. But I can totally see what you’re talking about.
I’m lucky enough to have my apartment over my parents’ garage. I get away with a hundred dollar rent along with maintaining the lawn and shoveling snow. So, I get off pretty lucky in that department. However, I did pay for 75% of my apartment, the rebuilding that is. It was a stripped down layout, which we turned into an good apartment. I really hope that you’re not broke for too long. I mean you’re moving right, so I can see you needing the money for moving.
Ouch, I’m sorry you can’t use anything. I would be such a wimp if it were me, because I don’t take pain well. I would probably sleep it all off but never get anything done. Your allergy sounds pretty intense, I’m glad you can just sleep it off.
Lol strange nickname, but kind of fitting. Sad to hear he isn’t doing well. I bet it was hard to say good-bye to him.
Okay that is sweet of you for cheering her up, or at least I hope it cheered her up. Also, I totally understand not naming names. My friend is a Cna and we call people Mr.Bob and Mrs.Sally.
That's something i guess. My family complains to me about how im a good for nothing and i dont do anything but play video games. Scolding me for that only makes me want to play more to get away from them haha. Oh yeah ehh. Shooter games/ games with a lot of violence i dont really appreciate as much. Im not a big fan of excessive violence so i go with final fantasies and games of the like.
i suppose that's not too bad at least, right? im trying to get a job while im at school so i have some money saved to keep me afloat. I got thiss
nah dude. you have things worse than me so its understandable how you wont be able to handle it. I mean.. i guess I have a decent amount of pain tolerance? Its different for each person.
Well I call him a goblin because he just kinda sounded like one and sorta looked like one. a cute one per say. not an ugly one? haha. His wife reminded me more of a lich than anything... but thats besides the point. it was sorta hard to say good bye to him. I felt really sad and i hugged him and kissed his forehead and whispered goodnight and goodbye to him. I dont know if hes going to make it through the weekend and who knows how long he'll last.
haha. 403W (400 wing, room 3, window side) is her room number and letter i guess so i just used that. though, hope it cheered her a little. it was night time and she was sleeping and it was just a sad night. I remember hugging her and she kissed my cheek. she was telling me how she was grateful for all i did and i take care and she loved me like a grandson. It was really emotional. haha.
Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2015 11:26 pm
iSaltyMilk
Rebellious, weren’t we? Though, I can understand them being concerned if you gamed all day and night. That’s all in the past now, right? I’m into those kind of games too. Right now, I’m playing “Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep” I’ve played it for the psp, but now that I have “Kingdom Hearts 2.5” I can show my parents the game. They’ve been enjoying it. I really, don’t understand games that are all about violence. I mean, I guess it is cool to blow things up, but there is little story in them, and the story that is there is full of crap.
Nope, it isn’t bad at all. Good luck with finding a job. I bet you could probably get one since you’re a CNA. That shouldn’t be too hard as long as you can get it to work for you.
Well, that is one way of putting it for me. A good pain tolerance is a good thing though.
So kind of like a cartoon one: cute and friendly kind. Lol, a Goblin and a lich, which is kind of a strange match, isn’t it? Aw the poor man, I bet your goodbye and goodnight meant a lot to him, or I’d like to hope that it did. Though, if he passes then he’ll be in less pain and be happier.
Lol that makes sense that you’d use that. Wow, that is touching, because she said you’re like her grandson.
Rebellious, weren’t we? Though, I can understand them being concerned if you gamed all day and night. That’s all in the past now, right? I’m into those kind of games too. Right now, I’m playing “Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep” I’ve played it for the psp, but now that I have “Kingdom Hearts 2.5” I can show my parents the game. They’ve been enjoying it. I really, don’t understand games that are all about violence. I mean, I guess it is cool to blow things up, but there is little story in them, and the story that is there is full of crap.
Nope, it isn’t bad at all. Good luck with finding a job. I bet you could probably get one since you’re a CNA. That shouldn’t be too hard as long as you can get it to work for you.
Well, that is one way of putting it for me. A good pain tolerance is a good thing though.
So kind of like a cartoon one: cute and friendly kind. Lol, a Goblin and a lich, which is kind of a strange match, isn’t it? Aw the poor man, I bet your goodbye and goodnight meant a lot to him, or I’d like to hope that it did. Though, if he passes then he’ll be in less pain and be happier.
Lol that makes sense that you’d use that. Wow, that is touching, because she said you’re like her grandson.
I don't mean to be rebellious but.. They do make a valid point. I honestly can play video games for hours unend. It's ridiculous. Sometimes i forget to eat. Ohh daang son. 2.5. I really want a ps3 for the 1.5 and 2.5 hd remakes and the FF X and FF X-2 HD remasters though. Like AHHHHHHH Final Fantasy X-2 was the start of my addiction to final fantasy games and RPG's in general. Im surprised you have chill parents who appreciate video games. yeah.. I mean its fun for a short while, shooting people and blowing things up but... what progress is there? it just seems so much anger and senseless violence. I don't understand how people appreciate those games.
I might work with my aunt while im lviing downtown, but thats still in progress. I really need to catch up on life right now and stop playing video games.
pretty much lol. yeah its a weird combo but i mean.. her face was always in the mix of anger/confusion/pain. and her mouth was always gaping open but exposing her teeth not just an "o" and her facial structure too.
The Lich from adventure time (fan art)
Thats generally how i saw her as xD She wasnt creepy but if i had to categorize it, thats what she would be. I don't know. I hope it does. The thought counts. He doesn't know anymore. he has horrible confusion and hes just not as cognitive.
She was one of the sweetest (and easiest) residents that ive taken care of. I mean i was kind of a caregiver, but she cared for me like family and it made me really sad to leave haha. but i mean. im visiting soon. my coworkers told me i didnt get a formal goodbye party so i should visit again in the weekend and they'll celebrate with me.
Posted: Thu Aug 06, 2015 12:49 am
iSaltyMilk
Lol! Not many people would admit to “trying” not to be rebellious. I can see why they would worry about you if you forgot to eat. I never got that bad. Okay, once I did, but I was really young and it was summer. I bet you could save up for one now that they are a little cheaper. You could always get one from a pawn shop too. I bet many people pawned their old one to get a ps4. Also, I heard that the ps4 lets you buy any ps3 game so you could be ready for Kingdom Hearts 4 and FF7 remake. I’m gonna do that next year. -nods- The Final Fantasy games are great. Have you tried the Tales saga? My mom got me into playing them. I would play Zelda ever since I was small. So it’s kind of their fault. My mom loves it when a new Zelda comes out and she literally asks me to play. She can’t really play anymore cause the 3d gaming bugs her. Nor can I. I literally made my ex-boyfriend pick Halo or hanging out. I won but still it was annoying that I had to make him pick.
That is good, what would you be doing with her? Yeah, that might be smart.
Wow, that does sound like a weird person. Nothing against her, I’m sure she can be pleasant but from what you say, she must look a little strange, especially when you call her the lich. Yeah once the brain starts dying it hard to remember things. Of course, you probably knew that.
I’m glad that you had someone like a second family. I bet it means a lot to you.
It’s a tannish yellow color. I’m waiting for a second coat.
That is true. I used to love doing it. I should get back into the habit of drawing again. I really miss it. No, I have a drawing tablet, which is like a mouse but with a pen so you can draw in art programs. I guess it can be cute. Not everyone can draw chibi. My friend is an artist and she can’t do it.
I know that feeling. I get mentally tired a lot. I see, I don’t like Tuesdays or Thursdays because I have to work on those nights.
Sorry, Raven had medical stuff and the past day and a half have been... to be honest he has no idea how to explain it, he just couldn't bring himself to get online, sorry meow. cat_sad You should draw meow, especially if you miss it. Raven draws a lot, recently he had a break, but as of yesterday he started drawing again. A Drawing Tablet? So you draw on your screen? Um... wouldn't tha screw it up cat_confused or is it like a DS? Raven is an Artist too, and he has won lots of awards too but he couldn't draw a Chibi or color to save his own tail. cat_crying He is mentally tired right now, and sort of indifferent too. All around unsure of how to feel. Sorry if he isn't the best Cat to talk to, his mood dropped a lot since we last talked, so much can change in a day. cat_surprised You don't like Tuesdays or Thursdays meow? Raven doesn't either! cat_xd Can he ask wha you do fur work?
Posted: Thu Aug 06, 2015 2:23 am
Raven Wind KuroNeko-Chan
You’re fine. I’m sorry to hear that you had some medical stuff. Hey, if you weren’t feeling good in any way you shouldn’t force yourself to come online.
I’ll think about it. I should doodle more, but I need to find my tablet pen so I can draw. I’m glad you got back into drawing. this is a drawing tablet it’s like a digital paper and pen. Not on the screen though that is happening now of days. I plug it into my usb slot and draw like on paper.
I’d love to see some of your art.
You’re fine really. If you need to talk, I’m here to listen to you.
I work out as in the gym. Though when I do work it’s for a funeral home
You’re fine. I’m sorry to hear that you had some medical stuff. Hey, if you weren’t feeling good in any way you shouldn’t force yourself to come online.
I’ll think about it. I should doodle more, but I need to find my tablet pen so I can draw. I’m glad you got back into drawing. this is a drawing tablet it’s like a digital paper and pen. Not on the screen though that is happening now of days. I plug it into my usb slot and draw like on paper.
I’d love to see some of your art.
You’re fine really. If you need to talk, I’m here to listen to you.
I work out as in the gym. Though when I do work it’s for a funeral home
Mew Mew... not being online and having no one to talk to is depressing, even if he isn't in the best of health. Doodling is fun meow, even if it comes out sloppy hehe. Can't you just get a new pen? Oooohhhh so tha is wha you used to draw. It looks sorta cool, and it sounds pretty cool too. You can draw just like paper. Can you change the colors you draw with? Raven cannot really draw on tablets or laptops or anything like tha. He does art with Pencils, Charcoal or Blood-Drip. Sure meow, wha kind of art would you like to see?
He's not really the Mushy-Share-Problems-&-Sad-Mewing kind of Cat, but he does feel like talking to someone, so he might take you up on tha Offer. Raven has actually never been to a Gym befur, but it sounds like fun. cat_4laugh YOU WORK AT A FUNERAL HOME?! Raven wanted to be a Mortician.
Posted: Thu Aug 06, 2015 3:43 am
Raven Wind KuroNeko-Chan
Well, I’m around if you want to talk. I kind of know that feeling of depression.
Yeah, it is fun even if it sloppy. Um for 50 buckets. They aren’t just pencils you can use, they technical pens that act like a mouse. It is pretty cool, because you can draw and color all on the screen. Yeah You can do a lot. Like how hard to draw thin the lines are… A lot things if you’re wondering what it looks like look up speed painting movies on youtube.
Those are cool medias. I used to dabble in oil painting I want to get back into it. Whatever you feel like sharing.
That is okay, not everyone can be touchy feeling. I’m glad that I can be there for you if you want it.
Really I’ve been in hotel ones before working out at my gym, they are kind of nice if you like working out .
Well, I’m around if you want to talk. I kind of know that feeling of depression.
Yeah, it is fun even if it sloppy. Um for 50 buckets. They aren’t just pencils you can use, they technical pens that act like a mouse. It is pretty cool, because you can draw and color all on the screen. Yeah You can do a lot. Like how hard to draw thin the lines are… A lot things if you’re wondering what it looks like look up speed painting movies on youtube.
Those are cool medias. I used to dabble in oil painting I want to get back into it. Whatever you feel like sharing.
That is okay, not everyone can be touchy feeling. I’m glad that I can be there for you if you want it.
Really I’ve been in hotel ones before working out at my gym, they are kind of nice if you like working out .
Yep I’m a trainy volunteer mortician.
Raven wouldn't say he is depressed, more feeling down and out. Sorry you know wha it is like to feel depressed, it isn't nice at all... Ohhhh alright meow, so they have to be a special pen! Alright, tha kind of sucks tha they are so expensive though meow. Tha sounds awesome meow, how much is one of these Tablet thingies? Youtube doesn't always load fur him though meow cat_sad You do oil paintings meow? cat_surprised He has seen oil paintings, they are very beautiful. If you finish a new oil painting, would you show it to Raven? Alright meow he will see wha he has and share it with you. Thank you meow, you are very sweet. cat_biggrin If you want to about anything, Raven will listen. You are willing to listen to him so he is more than happy to listen to you if you need to talk. He hasn't been to a lot of Hotels, but the ones he has he was too busy to go to the gym. Are hotel gym's nicer than normal gyms?
You have Raven's dream job... cat_emo
Posted: Fri Aug 07, 2015 3:36 pm
Raven Wind KuroNeko-Chan
I see that is still rather sucky. I know the feeling all too well… I’ve been feeling somewhat down and out myself, so I know what you’re going through.
Yeah, it does suck that they are so much. A tablet can range anywhere from 70 dollars and up. It depends on what brand and how much you are gonna use it, but, if you really thinking about it they are worth it in the end for an artist. At least, one that is wants to try to get into digital art.
If I ever finish on again, I’ll gladly take a picture or scan it for you. It haven’t picked up a brush in many years, so I’m probably bad at it.
Thanks, I just try to be a good person because that is how I’d want to be treated. You know the whole “Treat others how you wanna be treated.” Thanks, I might have to take you up on that.
No, they are smaller or at least the ones I’ve been to. My gym is pretty nice. I bet you could google a gym.
Well you could always go to school for it and make that dream come true.
I honestly try not to be rebellious but what my mom does is like.... It's suffocating. It's that common rile of " It's my house, my rules. get out if you dont want to follow it" although empty threats, That's just too much drama and yelling to deal with. I don't want to do that. That's too tiring.
I honestly could have bought a ps4 or something, but I have college to take care of. That comes in priority first. I need to get my gpa up so thats a necessity, not my hobbies and leisure.
I am in love with the final fantasy series. Spin offs and other games by square enix I appreciate (not all. haha), but no i happened the tales series. I've playeda few minutes of it but i couldnt continue because it was an emulator and whatnot.and i didnt buy it haha.
she can get the 3d out for the ds. it doesnt matter. AND ZELDA IS LIKE THE MAIN GO TO FOR GAMERS AND I NEVER FOUND APPRECIATION FOR IT. I DONT KNOW WHY. LIKE... I PLAYED IT AND I WAS ALWAYS LIKE... eh.. its linear but open but like... I dont know. I didn't appreciate it as much as most individuals do.
Oh i would take her one day to work and give her a day off and work for her instead as a private care giver. her pay is about $15 an hour and for 12 hours. once a week. thats about 180. under the table. so for 4 weeks thats 720. more than what ive ever made.
ehh. She isnt creepy or anything its just her facial expression just reminded me of that art. her personality wasnt anything close just a facial expression and whatnot. Yeah.. I know well enough that when the brain ages and gets dementia/alzheimers the connections in your head decrease and dissappate thus causing you live in a permanent timeline and forget things faster and thats why they repeat everything over and over and over again. Theres no more neural connections.
It really does. Having a second family is really weird to me. I honestly, soemtimes, feel like im betraying my own family because i'm accepted into another family like their own. (im speaking about my best friend not the resident) but yeah its really weird to me.
I hope itll be fun. i mean its my goodbye party from my coworkers. I hppe itll be good haha.
ps. im sorry for late rely. I honestly had thought i replied to this. apparently i didnt. @ A @
Posted: Fri Aug 07, 2015 10:03 pm
Non-Adult Situation
Raven Wind KuroNeko-Chan
I see that is still rather sucky. I know the feeling all too well… I’ve been feeling somewhat down and out myself, so I know what you’re going through.
Yeah, it does suck that they are so much. A tablet can range anywhere from 70 dollars and up. It depends on what brand and how much you are gonna use it, but, if you really thinking about it they are worth it in the end for an artist. At least, one that is wants to try to get into digital art.
If I ever finish on again, I’ll gladly take a picture or scan it for you. It haven’t picked up a brush in many years, so I’m probably bad at it.
Thanks, I just try to be a good person because that is how I’d want to be treated. You know the whole “Treat others how you wanna be treated.” Thanks, I might have to take you up on that.
No, they are smaller or at least the ones I’ve been to. My gym is pretty nice. I bet you could google a gym.
Well you could always go to school for it and make that dream come true.
Very sucks indeed meow. Sorry you are similar with the feeling, it is a horrible one.
Hmm... $70 fur a Tablet thingy? Well tha doesn't seem too bad, most easels can cost more than $100 easy. To be honest Raven doesn't really know anything about new Technology brands and stuff, so he will probably get screwed on tha but wha ever. cat_rolleyes Ehhh fur now he will just still to wha he does now.
Yaaaaay! cat_blaugh Thank you meow, Raven likes seeing art, especially oil paintings. It doesn't matter if you think you are bad at if meow, if you enjoy it who cares? Also most of the world's greatest arts had "Bad Art" and later on they became priceless and worth millions. Purr-spective can change everything maui. cat_3nodding
Raven feel the same way you do with treating others the way you want to be treated. Alas it seems even though he treats others nicely he still doesn't always get treated nicely back. Alright meow~
*Googles Gym Images* ..... yeeeaaaahhh there are more photographs of toned, females wearing skin-tight mini shorts bent over from rear view then anything else. cat_stare Raven doesn't need to go to a gym to work out anyway.
It is a bit late fur Raven to become a Mortician now, but thank you mew mew.
I can understand why you might act out, even if you were trying to. If my mom were suffocating, I would have totally rebelled against her, which is probably why I rebelled against my dad… Anyways, I hate empty threats, because I find them very tiresome although, that makes me a hypocrite because I use them all the time. I guess using them and having them done to me are two different things.
I impressed that you have your priorities set. I don’t know many people that can do it, and that’s including myself. I think my problem is related to my illness, which is a lame excuse, but my disorders make it hard to keep things in balance. I always find myself picking hobbies over priorities because it keeps me calm… Terrible huh?
I can see that, and have to agree with you on enjoying/appreciating their games and spinoffs. If I didn’t I would have bought so many of the games. I am missing a few of the FFs but I have all the kingdom hearts games. That’s okay you didn’t like the tales games. They aren’t for everyone. I just knew they were kind of like FF and wondered if you’ve tried them.
It’s more the 3-D graphics she can’t stand. She’s more into 2-d graphics. Wow, I’m surprised, but then again it not for everyone. I just love Zelda, especially the newer ones. They seem to have more emotion in them.
Oh, I see. That is cool that you could give her a day off. I bet she’d like that a lot. And 720 isn’t bad pay for working a little.
Okay, that helps me out a little. I was really thinking you meant something creepy and not just something else.
Sorry, I didn’t mean make it seem like you didn’t know anything about it. You should know better than I should, after all I only deal with dead people.
Why would it be weird? I mean it should be nice for you to be accepted by someone else family. I mean… I guess… that I can understand betraying your family, but it’s not like you have to pick between them
Raven wanted to be a Mortician.