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Um... ... I guess Soloist's out of the question then, since he's your cousin or ... some such thing. xd

Well then, I guess Kozo's gotta be the scapegoat.

I'm bored.

Someone entertain me. sad

... Riiiight.

O.o;

For basically my entire tenure in high school, I was head over heels for this girl, although I didn't act on it at first. In fact, I even dated someone else who was friends with the girl I liked (this turned out to be a mistake of epic proportions) even though I knew perfectly well it felt wrong. So in the summer of my junior year, I finally decided that the time had come for me to stop resting on my laurels. Afforementioned girl had been one of my closest friends for five years at that point, and I knew I couldn't live with myself if I didn't at least take a shot at something that had (and still has) potential to be amazing. So I told her how I felt, she admitted to liking me, and turned me down all the same. Despite this, we stayed close friends, and to this day she remains one my closest, most exemplary friends. However, because she was my friend, I pushed all romantic pursuit of her aside, concluding that I'd take being her friend to being rejected outright eleven times out of ten.

So, with that, life moved on, and we both went off to college. As of November 28th 2005, I had a new girlfriend (It was actually about a week and a half before that, but this is the date she recognizes since there was a break in between in which we didn't see much of each other), and I was happy. Since I am an unthinkable nerd, me having a girlfriend is kind of cause for celebration among my friends, and I was happy to share the news with all of them. That's right. Including Girl 1. Of course, since I am an oblivious insensitive clod, I had no idea how deeply this hurt Girl 1. She had intended to tell me that she regretted her decision in our junior year on December 18th, when we were slated to see each other for our winter break, but that's for a little later.

Fast forward to February, 2006. My EX-girlfriend IMs me, having just heard news of my new girlfriend, and questions me about my feelings for Girl 1. I explained that they still existed, but I had moved on, and that I couldn'tve been happier with my new girlfriend (hereto referred to as Girl 2) She proceeded to get angry at me (she does this a lot) because that meant that I was hurting one of her closest friends, namely, Girl 1. So I spoke to Girl 1, who affirmed that she was beating herself up for lying so long. Being that I am both a coward and loyal friend, I tried my damndest not to hurt anyone's feelings. This has been recorded in history books as one of the worst decisions ever made.

Girl 1 and I had an extensive conversation, which established that she was livid with herself for not acting a month sooner, when I saw her for Thanksgiving Break (wherein I would've dropped my new relationship like a hot ******** potato for her), but that at the end, one of the qualities that invariably attracted us is that we were both loyal friends, and she agreed she would never make waves with my relationship with Girl 2. This was a rather weighty conversation, and since I am Girl 2's first boyfriend, I decided it was wisest if I just kept these events from her.

HAHAHAHAHA! God doesn't like THAT plan (it is SO not dramatic enougH) so he decided to ******** it in the head! One of my friends happened to have computer trouble the morning after this conversation, so he came into my room to use my computer for servicing ideas on his own. Since I was lazy and exhausted, I'd left every window open, including the conversation, which he read.....and relayed to Girl 2. Girl 2 proceeded to get wildly jealous. Not entirely wrongly, as Girl 1 was the dream girl for nearly four years, but she was convinced that I was about to leave her. I didn't, and still haven't.

Which brings me to my current predicament. I do not doubt my feelings for either girl, but choosing either leaves me with lists of pros and cons

While Girl 1 is easily the more compatible choice with me, three things make me hesitate:

1) First and foremost, she had her shot, and she didn't take it.
2)She goes to school in Massachusetts, and I go to school more than 1000 miles away, in Michigan. It seems unwise to start a relationship in the "long-distance" category. 3 months out of the year together seems like a recipie for disaster.
3) I care deeply for Girl 2, and it would pain me greatly to crush her heart like this. It causes me pain to see her unhappy, and abandonning her to "trade up" like an a*****e, makes me disloyal (which is probably one of the few things that I'm not), and makes us both very very unhappy, which would inevitably affect any other relationships I have.

So there you have it, while Lykus' words were certainly a tad more blunt, they are still fairly accurate at describing my current situation. BLAGH.

And then Girl 2 vanished from the world as Girl 1 was sacrificed for reasons unknown by a man in loose robes and an owl mask. From that day, Soloist was determined to destroy the 16 Colossi in order to save the girl.