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*leans over bar*

Well, flashbacks actually happen with any type of drug that you've taken for a long time. It's very rare when people don't have them. Unfortunately there's nothing you really can do about them, for as far as I know. I'll ask the mom of a friend of mine. She just came back from rehab after having been a drug-user for more than thirty years. She's now on meds that can kill her if she uses again (that's how desperate she is). She's also quite knowledgable on after-effects and what to do about them.

In the meantime, your body is probably best helped with healthy food, light exercise and a lot of sleep. As you probably know, meth drains energy like mad and the aftereffects often get worse in an unhealthy body. If it's your cup of tea, you could also try some meditation to calm your mind. Flashbacks don't last forever, that's the good thing. Eventually they'll become less and less and then pass completely. Hang on in there.

There are two questions I hate being asked.

1. "What kind of music do you listen to?" - None, really.

2. "What are you majoring in?" - Physics.

Whenever I answer those two question truthfully, I get startled eyes and worried frowns. I hate it. I consider lying and making stuff up whenever I'm asked those questions.

That was my rant for the day.

For the first one, I don't get that much of a reaction usually. Maybe it's the people I talk to.

Yes, but I like nothing.

That's worse then everything : I own two cds, one by styx, one by supertramp.

I sometime listen to them, but rarely. I will often obsess over one song, but it's not frequent.

Try conversing music with someone! gonk And people think you're a freak for not listening to music.

How the fuzz do you do that O.o *oogles pretty colors*

I hate my Mom. She is the kind of women who believes if you stress to much you will get wrinkles. She is pushing me very hard to lose weight, for everyone else in my family (or house hold, because I have aunts and uncles who are over weight.) is not over weight and my Mom wants me to be like my brother (who is my twin and we look nothing alike.) and my Dad. She has pushed so far to hiring a trainer without talking to me about it. She locks the closets where food is kept with a speical key and when dinner comes along she does make me a different meal then everyone else. She is always negative to me and telling me I'll never be a famous Broadway actress being over weight and I'll never have dates and go to the prom. My self-esteem is not growing anymore and I am thinking I am a freak, because I'm being treated like one. My Mom is a kind women though and she does love me, just in a way most don't see. My self-esteem is shot, and I'm sick of people telling me so..for I know. I posted somewhere in this guild about how a guy will never like me, and then I got a respond saying, "I have to love myself and crap.." If I did, then I would be so depressed and I wouldn't be going to a local corner store hiding food in my closet in my room or under my bed and eat it for I'm an emotional eater. Gah..Sometimes I hate myself so much now..

Wow...now that's extreme. I'm sorry that your mom is so..anal about this. I can tell that she loves you because she goes to such an extent to try and help you lose weight. Mom's are like that sometimes..they think they're doing the best thing for you but they don't realize how much they hurt you. The things she says to you are highly inappropriate. Have you tried sitting her down and really talking to her about what she does.

Communication seems to be the problem here. If you can't sit her down you can possibly suggest to her that you want a therapist or counselor for a reason that she'd agree to. Once you get there maybe you can set up some group sessions, that way it'd be a win-win situation. If she says no to that you can go see a school counselor on your own.

Your mom sounds like mine...totally spacey and aloof to the world around her. Sadly there is nothing we can do about it. When I talk to my mom she seriously zones out every 2 seconds and just doesn't get anything I try to tell or ask her about.The only thing that you can really do is keep trying..maybe one day you'll get through to her.

Maybe if you tried an unorthodox*sp?) type of therapy your dad would be more open to it. There are many different types out there, one I know of is equine therapy. If you did that it would help you with your mental anguish, you could play with horses and the activity would probably help you lose some weight,then your mom would be happy. My question to you is do you really want to lose weight? It doesn't sound like it. Since there seems to be very limited options for you considering therapy I guess a support network would be essential, such as us. Alot of people here know what you're going through. I know it's hard to want to open up to people online but maybe it'd be good for you just like you're doing now. Just some ppl to offer encouraging words. Friendship can be theuraputic anyway.

Can you possibly live with another family member who isn't so concerned about your weight? At least that way your mother couldn't bother you as easily and you'd get time to think about your dreams and how you want to accomplish them.