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Eyes closing for a moment, Kalore leaned against the door, biting his lip as he thought about how to answer this. His eyes were shifting quickly, a sign that he really was thinking, and that he really was trying to piece together all of his memories so that he could tell Monty the truth. "I... I started this, from the beginning, because I needed a safe haven, and my boyfriend at the time, Eri, was it. No, I did not start as a dancer, but I started as a bartender and waiter." Kalore bit his lip before continuing.

"I... I needed someone that I trusted, and... at the time he was it, beside Rave, but I couldn't rely on him this time." His eyes closed again as he shook a bit, biting his lip harder before continuing. "I... As time went on, Eri changed. I don't know why, but he did. He slowly had me on stage, and the place's popularity skyrocketed. it's why he was so damn adamant on me being here, and why Rave was so cautious about the situation."

The elf took a small break before his eyes opened. "I didn't like it... but.... you know how the more you do something, the more it becomes a part of you? That's... that's what happened. I don't mind it in small groups when I want to show off... but to be shown off for money... it's why I left. Well... one of the reasons..." Kalore couldn't believe that he was telling him this, but Monty deserved to know the main parts of what caused this.

"Why didn't I tell you this?" He finally looked directly at him. "I told no one about this, Monty. Kit knew because she worked here... Dusk and Rave knew because I needed their help once, and Rave forced me to explain what was going on... As did Dusk." Kalore continued to look pained. "This isn't something that I want people to know about... It's... it's something that I'm ashamed of... something that terrifies me that I actually allowed myself to go through... If asked, I change the subject... but... I... I can't do that with you." Another soft sigh and Kalore looked back up at him. Did he leave out anything?

Quickly, Joker was grabbed, "That's enough, Joker!" Glaring at him, Kit had a firm grip on his arm. "You will not go there and bother them. Obviously they're talking about it, but what was exposed is something that you honestly don't need to know about. It's one of those secrets that are painful, and you can't be butting in anytime that Red or anyone else has a problem." It was harsh, but that was just how things were most of the time when concerning Kalore and them.

Standing there, without anyone around her, Kit looked almost as shocked as Kalore had looked moments ago. She soon turned livid though as Kit went searching for Eri, not surprised when he wasn't in his normal place. He knew that what he had done was messed up, but that didn't do anything to save him. Green eyes sharp, deadly, Kit soon was knocking on Eri's door, "Open this f*cking door before I kick the damn thing in."

Kalore looked pained as he nodded, "I know that it was going to come out eventually, and please believe me when I say that I was trying to think of a way to bring it up..." He knew that eventually the question of what he did was going to come up, but Kalore just didn't know how it would work out in explaining all of this. Biting his lip, he shook his head, "I mean... I trust you more than I do most people, Monty... And that... for me, that's huge, just like I know you trusting me is huge... But.... Dancing like a step above stripper? For someone that I want killed? It's hell for me." Especially when he remembers why he needed this safe haven anyway.

Eri opened the door, looking bored but then was shocked as Kit's fist hit his jaw, sending him to the ground. He was about to yell until the look in her eyes sent him silent. Kit didn't lash out. She only did when she was furious. "If you ever hurt my friend like this again, Eri... then I promise you that you will regret it. I will quit, I will find where you keep those damn contracts, burn it, and bring Kalore with me. You will go out of business and I will laugh. Am I understood?"

"I..." Kalore bit his lip, but then looked confused, "How could I have told you from the beginning, Monty? How do I bring that up?" He took a step, trying to at least get to where he could even partially touch the other man. "I didn't mean to make a fool out of you, and I will do anything to make up for that. You are not the fool here, Monty. You never have been the fool." No, Kalore was the fool, and Eri was a puppeteer that didn't care who he hurt to get something done.

Kalore's eyes showed more pain as he had to force himself not to shout at the man that he was starting to really care for. "Damnitt, Monty, don't you get it?!" His voice was panicked. "I say that I dance in this club, and I'm treated as a damn whore, okay? You may not do that, the others of the group I trust enough so that I don't think that they will, but every other person here does, okay?" He was panicked, shaking a bit. "I don't want you thinking that of me when it isn't true."

But then Monty remembered and Kalore almost lost it, shaking a bit more. He didn't want pity, but he wanted Monty to understand why he was trying to keep this under wraps for as long as he could. "Yes, Monty... When we went to dinner, that was me. It's why it took so long, because Eri knew that I couldn't leave the stage until the song ended and he kept lengthening the set." Kalore's green eyes were blurred a bit, but he did his best to keep calm. "It's why I had glitter on me and it's why Eri won't just let me go. it's not because he loves me or he ever did... It's because I make him a profit, and I can't do s**t about it."

Hearing Monty simply call him 'elf' instead of his name caused Kalore to visibly flinch, taking a step back as well. "M-Monty... please..." Panicked now, he continued to watch him. "I'm sorry... I told you that I don't think of you as ignorant... I was scared and it's just... it's something that terrifies me, okay?" Kalore continued to bite his lip harder, freaking out a bit but trying to keep himself calm. Tears and panic would do nothing for him now.

Glancing up at him, Kalore bit his lip harder, looking so small when he glanced up at the man. "I'm s-." He stopped himself, sighing softly. "Then... now I know, Monty... I'm not going to allow that to happen again, okay?" Kalore's hand reached out to touch Monty's arm, biting his lip, hoping that they could still work well, even with this information. "What can I do to fix this, Monty? To get you to... to forgive me?" He knew that he would do anything.

Eyes widening, Kalore soon had his arms around him tightly, obviously relieved and thankful as he kissed his cheek, "Thank you, Monty!" He smiled at him, blinking cutely. There was still fear and worry in his eyes, but that was normal. He just wanted to make sure that the man was being serious, but Kalore knew that Monty wasn't someone that would mess with him like that. He really was starting to trust him. Hopefully Monty would trust him a bit as well.