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 Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 9:07 pm
"Tatsumi..." Watari found his amber gaze on the secretary's chest, his lithe fingers playing with the tie. "I'm not certain that there's another way... but it's the only option I can come up with, and we're running out of time. Saki can break free... and when he does, Tsuzuki has to be there to seal him again. That's why we can't put Saki in Tsuzuki's body, like he wants..." sighing, the scientist closed his eyes and simply leaned against the kagetsukai.
"Arigatou ne, Tatsumi-san... it took a long time to convince Tsuzuki... and the fact that you believe in me..." he sighed softly. "I won't be able to be left alone after the transfer, because it's not clear when or if Saki will take over once inside but... at least he won't have shikigami at his beck and call in my body."
Hearing the kagetsukai admit to being afraid however... to know that the man regretted not telling Watari his feelings until now...
"You couldn't have told me this before I decided... could you?" the scientist teased with a half smile.
~ ~ ~
Tsuzuki was sleeping... so peacefully... so soundly...
Muraki couldn't help but close his own eyes, and he soon drifted into the dark abyss of sleep as well.
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 9:23 pm
Tatsumi didn't say much for a few moments, but he did lean down and place a soft kiss to the top of the scientist's head.
"If that is what is going to happen, then I will be there to watch over you until the end...and then some."
Chuckling, the secretary ran his fingers through that long hair over and over, relishing the feeling, memorizing each and every strand it would seem...and hoping and praying that this would not be both the first and last time he would get to do so.
"No...I would wait until the worst possible time, wouldn't I?" he teased back.
Everything had been so out of control in the last few minutes that Tatsumi hadn't even thought until now to ask some key questions.
Looking at Watari with a curious expression, he asked, "How exactly did Tsuzuki get mixed up in this again? And you said Muraki was with Tsuzuki at his apartment? They aren't...well...you know...Kurosaki-kun would be devastated...." he left it at that. It was a strange situation...but he should have come to expect nothing less by now, especially if it involved Tsuzuki in any fashion.
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 9:26 pm
Watari pulled out of Tatsumi's grasp just enough to look up at him. "Ano... well... I'm not really sure but Tsuzuki-chan said that Muraki was different. From the um... well from how they acted... I think he and Tsuzuki are intimate but..." sighing, the blond shook his head. "Wakaranai... I don't want Bon to know though, Tatsumi-san. Not right now. Hell, I don't even want him to know Muraki's back if we can help it."
That tiny kiss to his head had sent a shiver of sheer happiness through the scientist.
Tatsumi cared... really cared...
For the first time in his afterlife... Watari was actually happy.
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 9:46 pm
"I see. Oh Tsuzuki....he's got such a good heart...but it always gets him into trouble. I agree though. Let's do what we can to keep this from Kurosaki-kun. That's not the sort of trauma he needs to be put through right now...I just wish Tsuzuki-san would take the time to understand the same....but he's never been one for thinking things through."
Bringing one hand up to Watari's face, Tatsumi stroked that soft cheek the way he had always imagined doing.
"No matter though, what's done is done. But...there is one thing i would like for you to do now..." smiling and cupping the blond's cheek in his right hand, he took his partner's right hand in his left and brought it to his lips, kissing it. "Stop calling me Tatsumi-san in private. Call me Seiichiro. Can you do that for me, Yutaka?"
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 10:04 pm
It sounded so strange... hearing his name.
His true name...
'Yutaka...'
No one had called him that since he was alive...
"Ha... hai... Seiichirou..." he spoke, dropping all name suffixes.
It felt so odd to speak to the secretary like this.
Blushing, Watari's amber gaze focused on Tatsumi's blue eyes. "W... why did you tell me? I mean... why now? Why now when..." but he didn't finish his sentence.
He didn't need to... the kagetsukai would know what he meant.
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 10:20 pm
"Because I got tired of lying to myself...of hiding from you, Yutaka. It isn't easy, going day after day, year after year, decade into decade, without being able to touch you, open up to you, tell you how much you really do mean to me...and even that...with every day that passed, you meant more and more to me. It was only a matter of time, but I should have said it so much sooner."
It felt so good, to be able to say these things to the scientist. Looking into those golden eyes like he had always wanted to, Tatsumi smiled, a great-big, super happy smile. Something nobody in the office had ever seen him do. Not even Tsuzuki.
"So I've been a fool...better late than never, they say." he chuckled. "Though by no means does that apply to paper work." he added jokingly.
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 10:27 pm
"But why didn't you just... I don't know... just... just open up before?" Watari asked in confusion. "Why now? I've always been here and I've always kept my feelings hidden, except I think Tsuzuki's figured them out but I tried. I didn't tell you because you always seemed like... well... like you didn't care..." the blond felt emotions welling within him.
But he'd be damned if he cried.
"It's not like I wouldn't have rejected you. There's a reason I keep trying to change myself in a woman, baka..."
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Posted: Mon Sep 06, 2010 10:43 pm
"Y...you mean...all those experiments...all those potions...because...you thought I would love you only if you were a woman?"
It was then that Tatsumi's heart broke in two for the second time in his existence. He hadn't thought about it, not once. so oblivious he was, behind all of his fears and insecurities, all the walls he had built to keep himself safe and in control...that he never even noticed that he was hurting Watari the whole time.
"Seems I've no room to talk, then..." he whispered, hanging his head and looking to the ground. "I'm no better than Tsuzuki when it comes to thinking things through. In all fairness...he's better than me when it comes to matters of the heart. Believe me though...I never meant you to think I didn't care. I was just hiding from...from everything, really. I second guessed anything that had even a remote possibility of me winding up hurt...and because of that, you wound up suffering. I am so, so sorry..."
The apology was heartfelt, and that was made even more obvious by the fact that the shadow master had tears welling in his eyes. He had never been quite so frustrated with himself, but the past wasn't something he could take back.
"I'd been building up to it for months, you know..." he said after a moment, "I almost told you last Christmas, when I had a few drinks in me at the office party. I bought you a box of chocolates for Valentine's day...but I copped out at the last minute and gave them to Tsuzuki as a friendship gift. I was going to ask you to the cherry blossom festival this past spring, but you seemed to have plans with Saya and Yuma, so I backed off. It was never you...only my own procrastination..."
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 5:28 pm
'No one really needs you, Yutaka. You know that. He's just saying this to keep you from going through with the spell.'
Shaking his head, Watari pulled completely out of Tatsumi's arms and paced to the office window, looking out at the ever eternal sakura on the grounds.
"I tried to tell you once..." the scientist spoke softly. "When Tsuzuki was recovering from the Kyoto incident. I couldn't stand watching you worry over him and... I wanted to somehow cheer you up so I was going to ask you to dinner but... then he woke up and it just... wasn't the right time."
Wrapping his arms around himself in a sort of hug, Watari couldn't help but stare out the windows. "Guess we're both to blame, ne? I just... damn it, I wish I'd known sooner, Seiichirou..."
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 6:55 pm
"I wish you had, too..." Seiichiro said, a somber tone to his voice, but then he smiled a small smile, sending his shadows snaking across the floor, wrapping them up Watari's legs like strands of silk, letting them circle the blond's waist, even moving onto his back and arms, where they began a gentle, smooth, soothing massaging motion.
"But...perhaps it is better late than never?" he said in a quiet voice. At the moment, the secretary felt awkward. He could tell that the scientist felt out of sorts as well. Of course, he couldn't blame his partner. It wasn't exactly an ideal situation.
"I know...I know that you're feeling a lot of things right now...but, if I may be so bold, let me say one thing I have been longing to say for so many years...you look so, so very wonderful, Yutaka. Won't you let me see you smile, though? Just to make a perfect picture complete?"
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 7:40 pm
Watari had never known that Tatsumi could do something like that with his shadows... but they were excellent masseuses...
A sad smile appeared on the shinigami's lips and he looked over to the secretary. "A perfect picture..." but then he seemed to blink, releasing his arms from the self-hug and turning fully to the other man.
"Alright then," Yutaka spoke, his usual cheery smile perfectly in place. "I suppose I can be happy about this, ne? After all, you've confessed that you love me, and it's what I wanted all this time. Sooooooo leads to reason I should be happy."
He was all smiles and back to his usual bouncy and genkii self.
Or was he?
Beneath it all... the blond felt completely depressed.
Tatsumi loved him... and now he had to throw away that love which he had so desperately wanted for so long... for Muraki Kazutaka...
Sometimes, fate was cruel.
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 7:59 pm
Tatsumi blinked, drawing his shadows back a bit as Watari suddenly came to life, it seemed.
"I...I...well, yes...I suppose it does!" the secretary smiled, taking a step forward, his arms open to welcome an embrace, if Watari chose to accept it.
"You did say that you had...wait...you said there was a demon...and an angel...at your apartment..." he paused, looking to the side as he let his brain process that.
"Well...I won't even ask. If they are of no danger, then...if you would like, that is, you could spend the night at my apartment...with me..."
Ok, so it was a come on...but the secretary tried to be as polite about it as possible.
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 8:04 pm
Every one to make those around him happy, Watari accepted the welcome embrace and wrapped his own arms around Tatsumi's waist.
"What? No date? No dinner? Unless... you're not gonna cook for me, are you?!"
This seemed to brighten the scientist's mood even more... especially since Tatsumi was the be-all end-all of home cooking.
Spending the night at the kagetsukai's... while he wanted it so badly that it hurt...
It was all so fast... so sudden...
"Seeing how the angel accidentally blew up my bedroom... I don't really have anywhere to sleep tonight. I had just assumed I'd catch a few winks in my lab..."
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 8:19 pm
Tatsumi chuckled, holding his partner tight.
"What do you think me? A barbarian? I intended to cook a full course meal for you, and then we can watch a movie, perhaps? So, what do you say...to pasta? I've some lovely recipes I had sent to me from a few Italian chefs that I've been waiting to try out." he said happily as he nuzzled his face into long locks of gold.
"And I'll have none of this sleeping in your lab business...from now on, you're welcome in my home whenever you wish....I hope you know how happy you've made me today, Yutaka."
And I hope we will have a future together...with what you are going to do... he thought to himself, squeezing the blond tighter as he did so.
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Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 8:44 pm
"Pasta?"
Watari suddenly recalled a rather infamous anime character by the name of Itaria, constantly saying 'Pasuta'...
"I would love to... try... it..." but the shinigami's words were somewhat lost on the fact that Tatsumi was squeezing him really tightly.
"Ah, Seiichirou... can't breathe..." the blond teased. "But I like sleeping in my lab... it's comfortable and warm and I don't have to go anywhere when I get an idea. I just have to get up."
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