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Asphiel spend some time hidden in the house, thinking why his powers were changing to dark magic. He tried keeping his energy and feelings hidden and tried to relax by going to the river to see the children. Seeing them play always made him smile. When he got to the river he saw the kids in a circle looking down at something, the boys with sticks poking at something while the girls laughed. When he got close enough he saw the children that had taken a fish out of the water and as it died started poking it with sticks. “Kids what are you doing? Stop that, NOW!” he made some of the kids move away and tried picking up the wounded fish when an inu boy stabbed the fish right in half and all of the children burst up laughing. Asphiel kneeled down and looked at the tiger girl that braded his hair the last time, “Kids you can’t do that. That was an innocent animal that didn’t do anything to you all.” the girl scratched him and moved to the others. A kitsune boy threw a stone at him, hitting him in his forehead and made a trickle of blood go down his face. As the kids laughed those feelings that he was hiding started resurfacing, until in his head he could see all the children’s bodies dead on the floor, their blood running down the river. He got up and went back to Aitru’s house and looked for some ice and some food to try to make his thoughts concentrate more on making sandwich that to kill anyone that would mess with him.

After the accident back in the Muffin with Sapphire, Asphiel didn’t know where to go. He looked around him as if lost. His thoughts were all messed up and everything around him felt dead or fake, as if nothing was there. He felt like there was a wall around him and the world. He fell to the ground and just screamed, he started ripping out the grass and the flowers from the ground, later dying when they hit the floor. He felt his heart shatter and all that he thought kept him alive, made him breathe, move, felt worthless, empty, and not part of him anymore. He got up from his self attack and slowly walked back to Aitrus’ house, going thru the front door and looking around, trying to feel something from there, maybe some goodwill. Nothing. He walked to the room Aitrus decorated with swords and looked at all of them with empty eyes. He stopped in front of a curved sword with gold lining and took a dagger made of ivory and gold. He moved the rug that was in the middle of the room and the furniture until the middle of the room was empty. He looked at the things, making sure everything was right. He fell to his knees and placed the dagger on his right side and took in hand the sword. He looked at his left arm and, with dead eyes and hand, started slicing his wrist and arm, deep wounds where his life came out of and dripped to the floor. Aitrus and Li’ad will understand, he thought, he wouldn’t like me to suffer, right? After a while his vision started fading and he fell to his side, his long blonde curls being entwined with the flowing blood.

He sat up and saw the bandages, "Aitrus." his eyes turned dark again and he removed the bandages and tried standing up, "I have to get out of here." he fell next to the bed, his soul empty affected his body as well. He got back on the bed and lay down, his eyes going back to normal, but they were dead; he kept them slightly open but wasn't looking at nothing. He was lost in himself.

Hearing Aitrus' voice he blinks and lays there on his side. He moved his wings to cover his face from Aitrus. He moves the wounded arm up to his face to look at the wounds and used his nails to remove the scabs and open the wound.

"I'm dying. I don't wanna see me die, is all." he reached inside his wings looking for a small horn like thing that some angels have to fend people away, "And maybe the fact that...I tried killing Sapphire." he said the last part in whisper as he tried ripping out the horn but to no success.

"I was born from grace, from good. I live around it and it keeps me okay, now I don't know what to live off. I'm dying." he screamed and a beam of dark energy shot out but only knocked over the night table, "Get me out of here!!!" he sat up and grabbed his hair, almost like ripping it out.

He started laughing and pointed up but looked down , "Even if I am dying, I still have energy to blow your house up. Let me out, Aitrus and I promise your house will still be here. What you say? Aitrus please...I can't stand being here."

"They're accepting the dark aura. I was doing it until I tried to hurt Sapphire and I lost it and...I stopped and it felt like my soul was gone. Do you get it? Hell with it I don't even get it." he got up and walked to the door and watched Aitrus. He pressed a hand to the barrier, "I don't want to lose myself like they did. Keeping me here won't help or get me injured. Come on, please, let me find a way to the light realm."