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 Posted: Sun Sep 25, 2005 1:04 pm
Pretty much my life since i was 16 so this might be long
I'm 18 (19 in January) and have been with 3 guys since i was 16.
Guy 1...Johnny. He was my first and i was his first. i was 16 and he was 18 at the time. we had been dating for 3 months before we first had sex. I remember it very vividly...my parents had gone out for the night (like they do every friday and saturday) and things got a little heated neither of us had a condom so sadly enough i ad to run out to my dads car to find a condom (dont ask why he kept some in there...i really dont wanna know myself). it really hurt for me since he is well endowed. but anywho...our relationship lasted 11 months untill he cheated on me with some @&%$#...but he ended up cheating on her and another girl with me...both which i never knew he was either still going ot with or even started going out with untill it was too late...but now we act like we are brother and sister...we beat the crap out of eachother, fight over stupid crap, and annoy eachother like siblings do...his girlfriend right now is pregnant and is only 2 or 3 weeks behind me and me and her are like best friends
Guy 2...Malvin. he just happened to be a friend of Johnny's. i had known him for almost a year and a half before we started dating. i always thought he was creepy and scary. he's a big dude that looks like he would kill you if you looked at him wrong. but actually hes just a big teddy bear with a perverted mind once you get to know him. anywho...for a couple weeks before we started going out i was hearing from his bestfriend that he liked me and wanted to go out with me. so i got his screen name to find out if it was true. he said it wasnt. a week later Johnny and my best friend all wanted to go to the movies so we invited Malvin and another friend of ours to go. my bestfriend is a hardcore druggie and had gone to the drugstore inside the mall and picked up these cold pills that when you take enough they get you high. i wanted to try so she gave me some...well both me and her were pretty high and so Johnny and Malvin had to help us walking over to the movies. at first i asked Johnny want was wrong with Mel and he said he didnt know and told me i should go talk to him since he liked me. while we were walking and talking i linked my arm with his which then went to hand holding. when we got acress the street to the movies the pills were really hitting me so i was lying on him during the whole movie...i think i got kinda annoying though since i kept asking him out even after he said yes.
anyways...about a week after we starting going out we started having sex...most of our relationship was drug induced...we were popping pills and smoking up every day. him and I have never faught, gotten mad at eachother or anything like that. but he dumped me out of the blue for his ex-girlfriend who lives 5 hours away and who he never met (online thing). but now he tell me he regrets dumping me and wants me back be hes SOL.
Guy 3... Erik. Hes Johnny's current girlfriends ex...we met at a mutual friends place...me and johnny had come down to her house so she could counsel Johnny because he was feeling depressed. and i was sitting out in her living room talking to my now bestfriend. Erik walked in and my bestfriend started busting his chops about something. he sat down and tried to start and conversation with me...with new people i dont talk much so that didnt go so well. a week later Johnny and I were back at our friend's apartment to spend the night since there was a party across the hall. Erik had work that night so he wasnt there but the next day he was having an Erik is great/football party at his apartment the next day. it was only 5 of us there and we were really bored so we started playing Truth, Dare, Or Firehouse.
(explanation of Firehouse: the asking Truth, Dare, Or Firehouse, gives you three people that you know. with those three name you say which one you would marry, have sex with, and kill)
anywho...someone Dared me to make out with Erik (im very shy). it took me a half hour to work up the nerve to do it...the whole time i was making fun of him though. afterward he asked me out/proposed to me with a ciggy. twas kinda funny and i said yes.
My Pregnancy
about 2 weeks before my 18th birthday i conceived. Erik is the father. the realized i was pregnant a little before the end of my 3rd month. i hadnt had my period in a while and when i finally though i did it was very light and only lasted a day. Erik had moved an hour away and the whole week before i had went to visit him there i was getting sick. once i got up there i was getting cramp type pains but i wasnt bleeding like i had my period. he started scaring me by saying that i was pregnant and all...well me decided that if i didnt get my period within the next few weeks i was going to have a pregnancy test done...few weeks went by and i hadnt gotten my period so me and my friend went to planned parenthood so i could get tested. the lady said i was pregnant and just frooze. I called him and told him and that night he had his friend drive him down. we talked a bit and dicide he would mova back in with his mom so he could save up money to get an apatment for us. when i told my mom she was disappointed. i didnt even tell my step-dad. but when he found out he flipped and said he was going to press charges on Erik. (which he couldnt do since Erik was 19 at the time and i was only 2 weeks from being 1 cool a week before Erik was to move in with his mom he was arrested for something he didnt do...but none the less the world sucks and hes still being tried for it. after he got out of jail he moved in with my parents friend. neither one of my parents know about his legal issues. anywho. me and him have had our ups and downs.
in my 6th month i was hospitalized because they found something wrong with my cervix. its short and thin and when the doctor did an internal exam he said the sac was trying to push trough. also they found out i have gestional diabeties so ive been ordered best rest untill the baby is born. But as of a few weeks ago ive had to stop bed rest because my mom went into the hospital. and this past friday i found out Erik will be going to Jail for 2 years or untill the trial is over as of this up coming weekend. so im kinda hoping the baby comes sometime this week or sometime after my mom comes home because if not then ill be alone during labor.
i have fears about after the baby is born. I have been diagnosed depressed about two years ago and ive seen this one comercial where this woman asks this other woman if she just loves being a mom and the girl starts saying how she has horrible thoughts, she crys more then the baby does, she doesnt eat or sleep, ect. and im in fear that that will be me. lately with everything going on ive been very emotional and ive been crying alot. my step-dad doesnt make it any better by being an a** toward me and stressing me out.
damn thats long...sorry for babbling so much...
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Posted: Mon Sep 26, 2005 10:39 am
hm .. i'm currently 17 years old .. love the boyfriend i'm with at the moment whom i lost it to .. but throughout my preteen life .. yeah i had a lot of crushes on a lot of those cute little boys that i would chase around elementary school .. never really had any luck with them .. but middle school .. i finally met some good friends .. and met this guy whom i thought i could last a lifetime with. but during middle school years .. when i was around 12 my grandma came over to check out the house and my grandpa came with her .. and i was on the couch doing my homework .. and my grandpa would sit next to me and reach into my pants and touch me and flippin' kiss me like i'm his wife and crap xp and i had no idea what the ******** he was doing .. i had no clue at all until i was around 14 years old .. and by then .. my grandma divorced him and he moved back to another country .. and i know that my parent's wouldn't believe me .. so i told my friend's. and freshman year i finally went out with that good friend of mine whom i thought i could last a lifetime with .. but it seemed like all he wanted to do was to spend time with me and i didn't have any time to myself so i had to let him go .. and i felt down so i talked to my current boyfriend .. and my ex thought i played him for my current boyfriend .. sweatdrop but i really didn't. anyways .. that guy is still a good friend of mine .. i can spill my whole heart out to him .. but before i went out with my current boyfriend .. i had a crush on this other guy which was my first boyfriend's friend .. and i'm still not sure to this day if he liked me or not .. but i used to go over to his house and we would just chill and make out and i remember once he even said he loved me but he never asked me out so .. yeah .. but i invited him over one day .. and i was on my period and still a virgin .. and he wanted to have sex but i was scared .. and he ended up just leaving .. and yeah i was sad but that was the end of that .. and after that .. there was a guy that i tripped with .. but he's a total jackass .. and then i started tripping with my boyfriend .. and i love him very much and yeah im only 17 and this may make me sound crazy insane but i know i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i know he's not ready for that yet ... so i keep it to myself. xd but yeah .. we're having our ups and downs now neutral i dunno what i'm doing wrong .. -_-
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Posted: Mon Sep 26, 2005 7:45 pm
ExpliCiTxbEby hm .. i'm currently 17 years old .. love the boyfriend i'm with at the moment whom i lost it to .. but throughout my preteen life .. yeah i had a lot of crushes on a lot of those cute little boys that i would chase around elementary school .. never really had any luck with them .. but middle school .. i finally met some good friends .. and met this guy whom i thought i could last a lifetime with. but during middle school years .. when i was around 12 my grandma came over to check out the house and my grandpa came with her .. and i was on the couch doing my homework .. and my grandpa would sit next to me and reach into my pants and touch me and flippin' kiss me like i'm his wife and crap xp and i had no idea what the ******** he was doing .. i had no clue at all until i was around 14 years old .. and by then .. my grandma divorced him and he moved back to another country .. and i know that my parent's wouldn't believe me .. so i told my friend's. and freshman year i finally went out with that good friend of mine whom i thought i could last a lifetime with .. but it seemed like all he wanted to do was to spend time with me and i didn't have any time to myself so i had to let him go .. and i felt down so i talked to my current boyfriend .. and my ex thought i played him for my current boyfriend .. sweatdrop but i really didn't. anyways .. that guy is still a good friend of mine .. i can spill my whole heart out to him .. but before i went out with my current boyfriend .. i had a crush on this other guy which was my first boyfriend's friend .. and i'm still not sure to this day if he liked me or not .. but i used to go over to his house and we would just chill and make out and i remember once he even said he loved me but he never asked me out so .. yeah .. but i invited him over one day .. and i was on my period and still a virgin .. and he wanted to have sex but i was scared .. and he ended up just leaving .. and yeah i was sad but that was the end of that .. and after that .. there was a guy that i tripped with .. but he's a total jackass .. and then i started tripping with my boyfriend .. and i love him very much and yeah im only 17 and this may make me sound crazy insane but i know i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i know he's not ready for that yet ... so i keep it to myself. xd but yeah .. we're having our ups and downs now neutral i dunno what i'm doing wrong .. -_- Every relationship has ups and downs and my boyfriend is 17 and we're as close as we can get to being married. We both know we want to be together for the rest of our lives.
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Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 4:02 pm
I'm 14 years old, and I'm still a virgin. I don't want to have sex until I'm married - it's because of my religion. Sometimes I really wish to give in and have sex with my current boyfriend, and it's hard not to. I love him, but that doesn't mean I'm 'giving myself' to him.
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Posted: Thu Mar 02, 2006 4:01 pm
I used to feel like a loser for this, but now I think I understand that a relashonship in High School isn't going to be for me. I'm 16 and had one b/f in middle school, but he doesn't really count because we didn't go out for long and didn't even hold hands (found at later he was "forced" into dating me... crazy) I find I'm really emotional unstable so I know I couldn't handle having a b/f. I'm really loyal and when people betray me, it takes me along time to forgive them. Anyways, I think most people have b/fs and g/fs for security reasons and I don't want to get attached like that. I did fall madly for one guy, but I was training for the Canada Games and he left to be a concellor for the whole summer... we ended up transferring to the same school for gr.10 where I found out he has a girlfriend. It's hard to except sometimes how fast people can get over you... There are always ironic moments with us for instance my name is Kate and I heard about a song by Ben Folds Five called "kate" so I downloaded and one part is I wanna be kate/ Down by rosemary and cameron" his name is cameron. well, this ramble was long enough...
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Posted: Sat Mar 25, 2006 9:08 pm
I'm not much of a dater...I've had two boyfriends. My first boyfriend was when I was a freshman in high school, 14. That's an...interesting story, much too convoluted for one post. Short version: it wasn't a happy relationship on my side, so I finally got the guts to just go ahead and break up with him instead of trying to make him break up with me. Sophomore year, he asked me out again and I agreed, but I was too shy to tell my friends and family, and it only lasted a month or two.
Oddly, he's now one of my best friends, and my prom date (even though we aren't boyfriend/girlfriend anymore...I'm basically saving him from his psycho ex). People think he's gay, and I'm more than happy to assure them that no, he's most definitely turned on by girls. wink
My second boyfriend...he was a piece of work, even more so than the first. He's my "best" friend's ex, which spells trouble, because she's extremely...passionate, concerning him. So she made snide comments about what a whore I was, and how he only wanted me because I'd sleep with him (irony of ironies: she hung over him like a freakin' blanket and I'M the one who's been accused of frigidity, in the past...). One day, he couldn't take it anymore and punched her in the face.
I really should have broken up with him then and there, I know. But she'd been making me so mad, being so jealous and immature, that I was beyond caring what he did to her. Not that I thought it was right, but...come on! He was a guy defending my honor! That's how I saw it, anyway. We dated for five months after that, and he'd always been very focused on the sexual aspect. It put me through a lot of emotional turmoil and self-discovery, as cheesy as it sounds. I never slept with him (and I'm glad I didn't), but he made me go a lot further than I thought I was willing to go, but at the time...it feels good, you know? I liked it, then; it was afterwards that I realized there was a reason I said I wouldn't let him do that. It was a vicious sort of roller coaster; I wanted it, I craved it, but there was this overwhelming guilt afterwards.
And I was so alone. No one supported my decision to be with him, so I couldn't turn to anyone with my problems. Finally, my mind wrapped itself around the concept that if I was feeling guilty and he wasn't, there was a problem. I broke up with him, saying that he was more focused on sex than on cultivating a relationship. He flat-out denied it, then, but he said recently that he was beginning to see that I was right. I assured him that I was always right smile .
So there's my sordid tale...I've had a few other flings, one of them being with a guy who shipped off to the Army. Before he left for basic training, he actually pulled the "I'm going off to war" line. I said the war out there is nothing to the war he'd encounter here if I got pregnant. He agreed to let things be. Still, he's the sweetest guy and he's built, even before he went to training. Ah well. We still write a lot, though; he's the one guy I've been with that I have no regrets about. I met him at church camp and he's had sex before, said he could live without it (until he had to go live with 80 other men, that is) and never made it very important.
The End.
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Posted: Tue Apr 04, 2006 9:46 pm
Well, I haven't had to many boyfriends, I suppose it's because I scare men becuase I am so much like them. I also think that it's because I have had a fairly large fear of commitment...anyways, I suppose my experiance really is about the fact that I am commitment-phobic. It really effects the sexual part of all relationships, don't have sex if you can't committ, thats my experiance.
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Posted: Wed Apr 05, 2006 7:35 am
Well I am 15 and never had a gf. I go to an all boys school, so I don't even have a female friend.
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Posted: Wed Apr 05, 2006 9:08 am
HearHerCry3 I'm 14 years old, and I'm still a virgin. I don't want to have sex until I'm married - it's because of my religion. Sometimes I really wish to give in and have sex with my current boyfriend, and it's hard not to. I love him, but that doesn't mean I'm 'giving myself' to him. I like you. 3nodding
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Posted: Sun Apr 16, 2006 12:49 am
well i am 18 and back in july i found out that i was pregnant but i didn't tell my mom about it until i knew for sure and by then she didnt really believe me about it so she took me to the doctor and they did the test and it turned out positive. then ame the whole i can't believe you got yourself into this and then she started pushing for the abortion while the father pushed for keeping the baby. What it all came down to was we had some friends come visit me and they helped me put things into percpective on what would be the best thing to do cause i was leaning towards keeping the baby. now im bipolar and i did some reaserch throughout the entire time and i discovered that the medication im on causes sever nuro tube damage. i got in touch with my psycologist and he got me in touch with the womans mental health unit at emory and they told me that at that point there was a very high chance that my baby was already damaged. so they took me off of my meds in a crash course of 9 days about 7 days into it i started freaking out i mean my world turned upside down. So i decided that the best thing for me and my baby was to let him go to a higher plane and let him come back at a later time when he would come back whole and healthy. SO i went through with having the abortion since it was better for my baby and my health and i'm still having problems with dealing with my grief cause the guy i was with at the time is no longer in my life and my mom cant talk about it for her own reasons. however i do remain hopeful that one day i will be able to get a handle on my grief.
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Posted: Thu Jun 29, 2006 7:51 pm
eww, someone stretched the page.
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Posted: Sat Jul 08, 2006 3:02 am
My mom ws adopted so I don't know my familys geneology which wasnt a problem until three years ago ehen I got cancer a 13 Now that i'm over it i'd like to know if my faily has a history of cancer or if this was some freak thing. Also i'd like to know so that IF I have kid in the future I'll know if they could get it. I don't like bringing up the subject with my mom but I really want to know.
What should I do
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Posted: Sun Jul 09, 2006 8:56 pm
littleLirin My mom ws adopted so I don't know my familys geneology which wasnt a problem until three years ago ehen I got cancer a 13 Now that i'm over it i'd like to know if my faily has a history of cancer or if this was some freak thing. Also i'd like to know so that IF I have kid in the future I'll know if they could get it. I don't like bringing up the subject with my mom but I really want to know. What should I do You could try talking to her so you can voice your concerns. It'd probably be pretty hard to trace your family's geneology without her at least knowing about it. So just ask her, because you probably won't get an answer to your questions until you talk to her. Although I have never had cancer, speaking as someone who has a history of cancer in her family, I would presume that if you've had cancer, your child would be at risk for it as well. My grandfather on my dad's side has had cancer twice, and lived both times. Because of this, his son (my dad) is at an increased risk for cancer, as is his son (my brother). The males on that side are all at an increased risk of cancer, as the people on my mom's side of the family (both male and female I think) are at risk of heart problems. Therefore I would theorize that if it runs in one side of the family, all future generations would have the risk of getting it. ' BUT talking to a doctor would be best. I'm not a medical professional and all I can offer you is my opinion.
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Posted: Sat Sep 02, 2006 9:38 pm
Alright, I'm 19, bisexual, live in ireland, and don't exist to the government, and here is my story.
I lost my *kissing, so to say* virginity to a boy one day in my freshman year of high school. I cornered him in the boy's restroom and kissed him. Thank God he liked me back. Then, in my Sophomore year, I lost my virginity, to a girl this time. My father didn't like me having intercourse so early, so i did it again just to piss him off. Then, in my senior year, he was diagnosed with testicular cancer. That hypocrite. But I still love him, and thank god he is still alive to this day. Then i started driving, and could go on road trips, like one time i went to dublin*I live in Kilkenny* and got hooked up with gorgeous beauty. And he was a handful in bed, if you catch my meaning ^_^. My father didn't protest to my bisexuality, so long as I still liked girls. Now, I'm saving up the money to go to college, preferably get a dual citizenship to the USA and ireland, and go to probably harvard or maybe Notre Dame.
Now, to explain why I don't exist to the government of ireland. Well, since my father didn't want the government interfering with my life, he decided to use his position somewhere in the government and fake my death. Apparently, I died 5 second after I was born, thanks to a doctor's slippery medical gloves. Now, in ireland, I don't have to pay taxes, follow drinking laws, nor is it REQUIRED I go to school, but my father wanted me to have an ecuation for the USA and junk. but enough about me, tell me about you.
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