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biggrin Air conditioning is fixed

biggrin Have a decent work schedule for the next two weeks.

sad Massive fight with my brother continues; it's been two weeks and we still haven't spoken. Do I cave in and call the a**, or continue to be somewhat petty and let messages be channeled via my mother?

sad No rain for many, many days. I'm getting desperate.

biggrin : Scored a perfect 99 on my placement exam. In 23 minutes. For an exam that was supposed to take an hour.

smile : I found out that hot corned beef on a rye bagel with mayonnaise is very close to heaven on earth.

neutral : Due to financial aid issues, I can only take one course this semester, but at least I can take one course this semester.

sad : My registration slot is eight hours after Final Registration begins.

emo : My heart has no idea what it's doing. My mind has a rather hazy notion of what my heart's doing as well.

biggrin Hooray for irresponsible fun!

sad It's early in the morning and my brother stole my shower

confused Flute lesson today

Happy: Going to the movies today with Isaac and his friends. Tomorrow starts the weekend, which means I get free minutes (and no roaming) on my cell phone, so I can call my friends back in Pennsylvania.

Crappy: He's at work again. I get so damned bored when he's at work, and I can only watch the Nicktoons channel for so many hours. Harumph.

Indifferent: I hope his friends don't think I'm a nutter. ninja

biggrin It's a bank holiday weekend so, even though today's Sunday, no work tomorrow.
neutral I could do with an extra half gig of RAM on my own Mac. The system I use for generating the October pressies for peoples in the Mericas uses 1.04 GB of RAM to render, leaving my system with only half a gig to play with.
cry It's raining. I had planned on bringing a load of people to meet my Forest and the weather's just not condusive. She only really shines during the sun, I love Her all seasons, but I know how to tread Her paths without getting mucky.
crying My shoulder's have been tense all week and I don't have the time or money to get to a chiropracter.

I'm sorry you feel hated...if it's any conselation I don't hate you - trust me though - I know how it feels.

I feel really sick, and the end of summer quarter is this Thrusday - which means work work work. Ugh.

biggrin Um. I don't know. There was a cool sword class at my dojo tonight.

sad ******** menstruation.

:X I've been generally feeling terrible for the past few days.

scream I have gotten so little writing done this summer. And I feel like it's over. And I feel like I should have worked harder all my life and been a ******** doctor or something. And I feel like the rest of my brother's life is just going to be a miserable shithole, and that isn't ******** fair and it will never be fair, and yes, life isn't fair, but why the ******** does it have to be unfair to him? Because even though he's 18 he's just a little ******** kid, he has the mental capacity of a 9 year old and soon he's going to be all alone and it isn't god damn fair. He's going to be a nine year old for the rest of his life and then he's going to ******** die, a nine year old boy trapped in this tiny body with a beard and crow's feet around his eyes, and he's going to ******** die, probably before he's thirty. And there isn't a single thing to be done about it. He's not going to suddenly grow up and get a job and find a girl and settle down and have kids. He's going to live in my parents' house and then he's going to die. And there's nothing to be done about it. And I could have been a doctor or a lwayer or a politician or a mother ******** astronaut if I wanted to, there isn't a single ******** thing in the entire universe that I couldn't do, because I'm ******** smart and I'm healthy, and I just didn't.

And there isn't any god or any justice in the world, or anything good that's going to come out of it. It's all just bullshit. Everything is ******** bullshit and I can't even ******** take it. I can't even listen to him talk because of the way he sounds. He's alive in that way that nine-year-olds are and he's going to be dead some day, and there just isn't anything out there for him. It's all just nothing, and some day he's going to know that and I think that's going to ******** kill him. It's like maybe, you know, that's why the kids with his syndrome die so young. I know it's idiotic. But I just feel like one day they wake up and they're like, "Holy s**t, there's nothing for me. I'm never going to reach the top shelf. I can never move out of my parents' house. I'll never get married or have kids or maybe get a job," and then they just lie down and ******** die. I know that's stupid, but I just feel like that. Jesus Christ.