|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
 Posted: Sun Apr 14, 2019 10:49 am
  
xxxThe comment about Seans parents mistaking the gender bender for a boy hurt a little but Sean did not show it. Sean did not even know what she was born as into this world as. She had never met them as not long after she was born they put Sean up for adoption but Sean never did get adopted… She was just bounced round from foster house to foster house. " Actually it is a unisex name but I guess you are right, it does sound more of a boys name." She simply said with a light laugh and left it at that. There was no point getting upset over it or anything. It is what it is.
Now that the two were sitting with their tea and snacks in Seans garden the young owner let out a sigh, enjoying the the smell of the flowers around them and tea. " Why yes it is. Have owned and lived here for about… Three years I think it has been. My time flies." It had been three years now since Sean had bought this place. She remembered how empty it was back then. It took so long to fix place up just the way she wanted it. The inside was the easy part but this garden, greenhouse and all the plants inside the cafe took most of the work, more so seeing Sean was doing everything by herself. In the end, the hard work paid off and Sean had the garden and cafe that she had always dreamed about. The gender bender loved baking, cooking and gardening so why not put all those things together and have a cafe full of plants?
As Kaden tried the tea, Sean glanced over with a smile, hoping the man enjoyed the tea. " I made the tea myself and even grew the tea leaves myself." The owner said as she motioned a little to the green house where she grew most of her tea leaves. He then grabbed a croissant and mentioned there was chocolate in it. She worried for a moment that he did not like chocolate and thought it was a plain croissant. She was about to ask him if he maybe wanted a plain croissant but he then turned to her with a small, confirming that he liked it. Oh what a relief! Sean smiled, delighted that he liked it. " I am glad you like it. Everything is made this morning so have as much as you like."
Sean was just taking a sip of her tea when Kaden asked about her new bra. The gender bender almost spat out her tea from the question. Blushing, the gender bender looked at the man to see his ruby eyes looking at her busty chest. How did he know!? Sean covered her chest a bit with one arm as she watched the teasing man. " I am but not for you… Nor the one that you saw." She cleared her throat before turning back to her tea and taking a sip. My, this man sure was a tease. It had been some time since she had last spoken to anyone like this.
  
Gender: Female
xxx
Wearing: Blue DressandWhite Cardigan
xxx
With: Kaden
xxx
Where: In my back garden
xxx
Mood: Happy and slightly embarrassed
xxx
Status: Single as Ever
xxx
Ooc:
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Apr 14, 2019 11:37 am
 KADEN The Leader
"Three years...huh?" He repeated while he pondered over what he was doing back then. Who wasn't part of their little group yet? Definitely James. He was by far the newest--until recently obviously. Kaden didn't consider all the exile members part of their group though. They had to prove themselves. A couple of general tests would never suffice. "Do you like it? Being your own boss." He might have actually been curious since he was a boss in certain situations. The ruby-eyed man preferred to think of it as him being a leader, however. The title of boss was for Nasya after all.
"Oh, did you?" He said before taking another sip of tea. "Maybe that's why it has a certain freshness to it. Richer even. I like it." He gave a small smile before the croissant incident occurred. "Fresh is always best." He commented even though he was definitely not an expert. Kaden didn't even care about the intricacies of cooking or baking. He wasn't picky. Fuel was needed, but there were some things he liked better and he could actually taste the difference in this case. "It's cute how delighted you get when someone enjoys what you made."
Kaden was impressed by how the woman didn't spit out her tea after hearing the question. It still caused a small chuckle to escape him. The villain didn't actually know. She was gone a long time, just brought a bra and seemed more comfortable than before. It didn't matter if she switched or not. The question was more meant to tease than anything else. Sean was so honest. A smile had spread across his features. "Are you sure?" He continued to tease her lightly. "Mentioning the fact that you put on a different one makes me think you want to show me." Having finished his chocolate stuffed croissant he grabbed a macaroon and took a bite before leaning back in his chair all comfortable. A smile played at his lips.
Location: The back garden with the owner.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Apr 16, 2019 9:24 pm
xxx" Do I like being my own boss? Hmm… I never really thought about it. I guess I do, I get to make what I want and how I want. Pick my hours and who I work with but… I don't really look at it all that way. Being a boss I mean." Sean said as placed a hand lightly on her chin, thinking about the matter. " I made this cafe because I wanted to create a safe place for all, no matter who you are or where you came from. I love to bake, cook and garden so why not create a place that everyone could like? I did not make this cafe because I wanted to be my own boss or anything. I may be the owner of this cafe and be the one who pays the workers here but I don't see myself as a boss, more of a leader maybe I guess? Maybe that is not even the right word…" The female turned her head to look at her cafe for a moment before turning back to Kaden with a smile. " I don't see myself at higher rank or anything like that is what I guess is what I am saying. But I do enjoy what I do." Maybe that was not the answer the man was wanting or a little to much info for him.
As the man explained how he liked the freshness, the blue haired woman started to smile even more, happy to hear that Kaden liked the food she had made. " Oh I am glad you feel the same way. Everything here is made fresh every morning and nothing is waisted. What does not sell goes to my staff and the rest I take up to the orphanage." Sean wanted the best for her customers and there was nothing better then fresh food. The owner would never serve anything that was a day old to her customers, it was all fresh and it always will be. Kaden then called her reactions cute made the young owner blink a little surprised. Did he just called her cute? My, Sean was not use to being complemented so much. Would Kaden still call her cute if she was in her male form? He most likely would treat her totally different if she was a male right now. A laugh came from the young gender bender as her smile just grew more. " Really? Thank you Kaden." She said happily, taking the complement because who knew when the next time would be when someone complement her in either male or female form. " I enjoy seeing people like you smile because of something I did. Even if it is something small."
Kaden seemed to be enjoying this bra conversation a little to much. Sean's cheeks started to slowly get a little bit of a darker shade of pink to them of the idea of her showing him what bra she was wearing. She would never! Not to anyone! " Either way you will never know." The bender gender said as calmly as she could, still covering her chest. She took the last sip of her tea before Kaden asked another question that might actually make her spit out her tea. Placing the tea cup down, the outside garden lights started to flicker on for the evening. Was it that time already? The owner looked up to the sky and remembered that it would be a full moon tonight, reminding her something. " Do you have any plans this evening? If you are free and would like to, I have something you can only see on the night of the full moon." Of course he did not have to stay. Sean would not be bothered by it at all. She was just enjoying her time with the man in the garden. It had been a while since she talked to anyone outside of work and that was not a staff member.
Gender: Female
xxx
Wearing: Blue DressandWhite Cardigan
xxx
With: Kaden
xxx
Where: In my back garden
xxx
Mood: Happy and slightly embarrassed
xxx
Status: Single as Ever
xxx
Ooc:
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Apr 18, 2019 5:25 am
KADEN The Leader His eyes stayed on her as she thought and talked. Another macaroon was taken. So far they had no hobbies in common. Kaden never cooked or cared about gardens in his life. A leader? "I guess we do have something in common," he said in a quieter tone than usual. It wasn't meant to be responded to by the other. The man took a sip of his tea before asking something. His eyes had shifted to some greenery earlier. "Even villains?" Ruby orbs looked back at her before he clarified. "Is this place a safe place for the scum of the city as well?"
"The orphanage?" He repeated not because he cared about her kind deeds. No, there was another reason a slight smile appeared on his features. "Do you go there every day?" There was a bit of disbelief in his tone. The orphanage was not close in the slightest. "Or just a set day each week?" He added before the other really had a chance to reply.
The topic switched to have a more lighthearted flirting type of nature to it. The woman took the compliment without becoming a blushing mess. It was refreshing honestly. In response to the thank you he merely gave a light smile before sipping his tea. Those light blue eyes really did seem to light up when she laughed. "People like me?" He asked not knowing what she meant in the slightest. Soon coloring came back to her cheeks at full force--causing a grin to grow on his face. "Mmm I wonder about that." He said as he continued to tease. Another sip of his tea was taken. "You don't have to cover your chest like that. I'm not going to be ogling them like a perv." He said as he put his teacup on the table. She might have caught him looking, but he wasn't one to stare unless that's what they wanted.
Any plans? Kaden leaned forward as she finished. Did this chick like his company that much? She didn't seem sprung at all. Then again, she didn't seem like the type to fling herself at someone either. "Are you going to turn into a werewolf?" He said in a hushed tone as if it were a secret even though he was obviously joking around. "Because that's something I'd love to see." He gave her a smile before he sat up straight. It was his way of saying he was free to see whatever she wanted to show him If he had to clarify he would.
Location: The back garden with the owner.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Apr 18, 2019 11:50 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Fri Apr 19, 2019 6:43 am
KADEN The Leader She sounded like the type to get manipulated and walked on. Too kind and accepting. Kaden didn't comment on it though. There was no reason to since he didn't care. The woman could put herself in potentially shitty situations all she wanted. It was no skin off his back. s**t. She was giving food to the orphanage. The one they were looking into. What were the chances she could walk up when s**t was going down? They'd take care of such unexpected situations of course, but it wouldn't end well for her. Ruby orbs shifted from the moped back to her. "Cool ride. Must take you a while to get there." They weren't the fasted things in the world after all. "Who, me? No, but a couple of my friends were looking into the kids there. You know...to get a feel for them so they can help make a decision." It was all true, but of course it sounded more related to adoption than anything else. There was no reason to think anything different was going on.
He didn't respond to the bit about enjoying his company. The woman never gave off a vibe indicating she wasn't. It would have been stranger if she confessed to being uncomfortable and wanting him to leave. A chuckle escaped him when she overreacted. He didn't bother to respond any more than that, however. It wasn't long before the werewolf comment left his lips. A smile spread across his features when she busted out laughing. "You should laugh more often. It gives you an attractive glow." He said. Giving yet another honest compliment.
Soon they made their way over to the edge of the garden. Sean had started to whisper as if she wanted to keep it a secret from anyone hiding out nearby. He assumed it was because he did the same earlier. A light smile sat on his face. His hands were already shoved into his jacket pockets. At the moment, his eyes were placed on the vines like he was told. The light of the moon slowly began to brighten up the area around them. It had a strange ethereal feel to it. He felt like this should have been a date instead of a first meeting. A brief thought which had crossed his mind. He didn't think any more about it when the flowers began to bloom. It was something he never saw before. A flower blooming. He figured they just happened over time. These were completely different. It was quite magical. The small smile on his face grew as it took it all in. His hands were taken out of his pockets at some point. Only when they finished blooming did he take a moment to look over at her. A certain light in his eyes. "That was amazing!" He gave her a smile before looking at at the vine wall now covered in flowers. Kaden couldn't explain the feeling which had washed over him, so he didn't bother to try.
Location: The back garden with the owner.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Apr 20, 2019 4:45 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Apr 20, 2019 6:02 pm
KADEN The Leader He had a barely-there smile on his face as he looked off in the distance. Kaden was listening to her finish talking about the lovely children. "They did talk about a couple who caught their eye." He said before looking at her. Soon the chuckle escaped her. It brought a smile to his features once more. This time the laugh seemed a bit guarded for some reason, however. Why was that? He would not know because he didn't care to ask. It was a wonder why he might have even noticed something in the first place.
The laugh which came after the flowers bloomed was much better. "Really? I never paid attention to flowers before. What kind of fragrance does it have?" It switched to the question at the end when the other finished inhaling the scent the flower gave off. Kaden stepped closer to her. A smile on his face. "I did." He said in a hushed tone. Stating how he did, in fact, enjoy it despite the fact that he didn't care about such things. His hand moved to reach up. It might have seemed as if he was going to touch the hair beside her face. Instead, his ruby orbs shifted to look at the flower his fingers grazed a moment later. He leaned forward to take in the scent he was just asking about. The scent of a flower which was positioned slightly to the side of her head. Slowly, he pulled away. Eyes shifting to look at her as he stood up straight. Not making a move to step back out of her bubble. "This was a lovely first date." He said in the same hushed tone. His fingers actually taking strands of her hair this time. His tone might have had a light tease to it if it had one at all. A soft smile played on his lips.
Kaden let the moment last long enough for something to happen without feeling awkward if they both just stared in each other's eyes. He wasn't going to make an actual move. Instead, he stepped back and let his arm drop to his side. "I should get going." He said in a normal tone. "Thank you for everything." Then he turned to leave.
Location: The back garden with the owner.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Apr 21, 2019 12:46 pm
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Jun 01, 2019 12:00 am
 "My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh, how I wish to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything"Daisuke ✵ Amsel
"Loony Toon" Stress and guilt had gnawed all the way down to the very marrow of his bones for days after the whole age revelation calamity occurred, and per his nature, he took these feelings out on himself. He didn't sleep for two nights afterwards, and it wasn't until the third full day later that he started eating again. By day he was a good little tour guide, but by night he worked out most of the time until his body could barely hold itself up any longer. The pain...that was irrelevant. No, he deserved it; he always failed the people he loved, and he was the only one who would punish himself for it. Why did everyone else have to be so benevolent? Why did they look past his eternal procession of failures? Yet whenever Hei-chan was around, or even when they were texting, he was back to his normal self, at least for those moments. Well, almost back to normal. It seemed almost as if he was just a little quicker to respond to texts, quicker to pick up the phone with calls, and always just a little closer when they were out together. No dramatic changes as of yet, just little things.
His family had left for home yesterday, so today was the first whole day he had to himself, or rather, first whole day he could devote to his Miracle. They were going to meet at the cafe downtown. He would make it the best date ever, somehow. First things first, he actually took some time to pick out what he was going to wear. Over the week, Nils and Sayuri had helped him weed out some of the more unfashionable items from his wardrobe, and pick out some outfits that sort of went together. Daisuke and fashion went together about as well as an earthquake in a china shop, but damn it he was going to try to be better. He grabbed a pair of jeans that they had approved, and...really? These were considered the right size? But they were so form-fitting, how could that be appropriate? Screw it, it was probably a good sign that he didn't think it was right. With that was a deep purple long-sleeved collared shirt, untucked and with the top two buttons undone. He felt like he was barely a step above naked, but he would give it a try. Neither his cane or his crutches really went with the look, so they were left behind. Hopefully that was not tempting fate too much.
He was a mere fifteen minutes early, but that wasn't too late, probably. Standing outside for a little while, he pulled out his second to last cigarette from that pack. That was another good bit of influence: he hadn't been smoking nearly as much since he met Hei-chan. Though he had never been explicitly told, he got the feeling it would be a bad idea to smoke around him, and love was enough of a drug to keep him distracted while he was with him. Of course with the recent self-loathing, the habit had picked up again. Come on Daisuke, you've got to make things right. You lying about your age nearly cost you everything. I don't care if he punishes me, but I can't let him be mad at himself. Your very existence has brought back painful memories to your divine cherub, how could you let that happen? Your purpose in life is to love and support him, protect and sacrifice for him, not screw things up! Do better if you want to be able to live with yourself. He hadn't even noticed he was on his second cigarette in a row. Once he had finished that one up, he went ahead and went in to secure a table for them. Hopefully the smoke smell hadn't clung to him."We are the children you reject and disregard
These aching cries come from the bottom of our hearts
You can't disown us now, we are your own flesh and blood
And we don't disappear just because your eyes are shut, now tell me
Love, loss
Like a bullet's path
Tear through
The cavity of my chest
Lights out
Because the fuse has blown
As their castles crumble slowly
We watch them fall
Their crown slips from heads unworthy
As we gain control
This is the family that we crossed or never had
This is a war that was lost the day it began
'Cause it's the race we run, but it keeps us at the start
And it's the song I sung from the bottom of my heart, that's how we
Read you
Like a polygraph
Not one
Single bone in your back
Own up
To how you let us down" With: No one yetxxxxxxRelationship: DatingxxxxxxPain: 0/10xxxxxxOoc: I swear I didn't plan him to be this psycho...
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Jun 03, 2019 10:42 am
  𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:The Big City - Blue Skies Cafe 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄: Both 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃: Worried
𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒: Dating Dai-chan~ 𝐎𝐎𝐂: --
▐▐ ▐▐ ▐▐
Though things had gone off without a hitch for the rest of the day when he conversed with Dai's family, there was still this heavy atmosphere between them. Daisuke seemed greatly bothered lately, and he was faster than ever at replying to anything Heisuke sent him. Somehow, he felt like that was stemming from Daisuke's fear of the age situation they had reached. Was his fault that daisuke's behavior became so erratic lately? He truly felt like it was. That is why he wanted to meet at the cafe. He wanted them to move past it. Id Heisuke could work through his demons on the age issue, Daisuke could work through whatever phase of trauma he was going through right now.
Walking into the cafe, the man made his way over to Daisuke's table. His hand rest on the man's shoulder as he leaned down to give him a quick kiss hello. He couldn't help but recoil a little afterwards, his expression a little sad. (("You'll hurt yourself if you keep up that habit. Take it from someone already suffering from tumors...radiation is not a fun thing to go through. And I doubt lung cancer is pleasant in any sense." )) He chastised the man just a little before giving another kiss and sitting down at the table with him. (("I am glad that we could meet. I want to get straight to the point. I don't think I can wait to have this conversation." ))
He took deep breaths in and out, looking uneasy. As if he were planning to break things off with Dai, even though he was here to strengthen them together. (("I noticed that ever sense the age thing came up, things between us have been really tense. I don't want that." )) His hand reached over to take Dai's, his hand resting over the other man's. (("I have decided that I don't care about our age difference. Sure, it is a rather large gap of about 20 years....and that is still a little hard to wrap my head around, but I don't want to ruin a great relationship that I am happy with over something like that. We are both adults, who are both consenting, so I don't see a problem in this." )) He sighs softly as his eyes looked down at their hands, his fingers lifting Dai's so he could kiss his knuckles softly as if to reassure himself.
(("I am sorry I made a big deal about it before but...back home...I was known as a ***** for a very long time because of what that girl did to me. I spent many years being treated as some vile being that even I started to believe I was guilty. I lost my son, my wife, my reputation and my dignity as a person and a hero. I was broken. Age became a very important matter to me, because it is what made me lose everything in the span of just a day." )) He gave a soft a shaky sigh. (("I know that I shouldn't blame myself for it anymore, because they proved my innocence and even went as far as to completely clear my name and provide income for the time I spent living a lie in a cell. But sometimes when I look at my daughter, it is very hard for me to believe that I can be entirely forgiven for it. I may have been forced, I may not remember a damn thing about it, but it still happened. When you said your age, I felt embarrassed in front of your parents. Because here I was, the same age as them, dating their child who is younger than even my own son. And I had not once, asked an important question. What your age was. Just because you were a teacher, I assumed that you were closer to my age than you actually are. I felt like I failed as an adult, all over again. I am sorry if my fears, and my own judgement made you feel on edge or that you had to prove something to me. You don't. You are wonderful and I enjoy being with you. I just want to go back to the way it was before this happened. When we were relaxed around one another and were happy." ))
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Jun 03, 2019 11:18 pm
"My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh, how I wish to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything"Daisuke ✵ Amsel
"Loony Toon" He brightened as soon as he saw his Hei-chan enter the building. He simply couldn't help but beam when the light of his life was around; the man made him complete, and without him he was nothing. He started slightly when Hei-chan pulled away so suddenly, was there something wrong? Had he offended somehow...oh wait, cigarette smoke, that stuff had a tendency to stick around. Getting chastised wasn't exactly what he was hoping for, but it was said with love so he could not even be annoyed. [b((]"Occupational hazard of the front lines, I'm afraid," )) he said with a slight smile. (("But, if you want me to quit, then I will quit. I'll just kind of be a pain in the process." )) It was going to be a pain, quitting, and he was quite certain he would end up lashing out. But he wouldn't lash out at Hei-chan, he would try to rein it in as much as he could when he was around. He would do anything for his angel. The second kiss reassured him that everything was going to be ok. That is, until he heard the words (("I want to get straight to the point." )) Nononono, that was not how he wanted things to go, that path never lead to anything good. Hei-chan seemed to be having a hard time making himself say whatever it was that he wanted to say. Had he really set this all up to tell Daisuke that he had changed his mind and he couldn't bring himself to be with someone who lied to him so easily and/or someone who was barely old enough to be on his own? He kept a calm exterior as best as he could, but his heart was racing and it felt like the lump in his throat was so large he might actually choke to death. Biting his lip, he had to look down when Hei-chan mentioned that there had been tension between them. s**t, I've been too obvious. My insecurities have hurt him. Why can't I do anything right? As soon as his hand was grabbed, he forced himself to regain eye contact. Whatever was going to happen, he would face it like an adult.
And...he was worrying for absolutely no reason. He gave a sigh of relief as Hei-chan declared he didn't mind the age difference, or rather, their relationship was more important. E-exactly! They were both adults and both could give legal consent, so everything was above the board legally speaking. No one could pin anything on his angel, and if they tried, well, they would have to go through me, and I am willing to fight for him to my last breath. He would have been happy with just that, but Hei-chan continued, explaining why age was so important and why it had bothered him so much. He understood why it would bother him, who wouldn't be worried with such a tragic past? Yet here this perfect paragon of a man was taking the blame for something he didn't do, just so that they could both move on. He stroked the back of Hei-chan's hand with his thumb, such gentle, graceful hands...how could anyone have ever thought they could commit such a horrible act? He sighed, (("please...don't apologize. I just...meeting you was the best thing to happen to me in my entire life. And for a moment, I thought I had ruined it all, all because I was too...I don't know...stupid? ignorant? completely lacking in social skills? You are the most important person in the world to me; I would do anything to make you happy. Yet my mistakes have caused you pain, made you remember events I'm pretty sure you didn't want to be reminded of. You have had to tell me things I don't think you were willing to confess, yet I can't say I have done the same. So please, don't apologize, I'm already struggling to deal with my own shame, seeing you take the fall for me would completely break me." Great, now he really had probably ruined his chances."We are the children you reject and disregard
These aching cries come from the bottom of our hearts
You can't disown us now, we are your own flesh and blood
And we don't disappear just because your eyes are shut, now tell me
Love, loss
Like a bullet's path
Tear through
The cavity of my chest
Lights out
Because the fuse has blown
As their castles crumble slowly
We watch them fall
Their crown slips from heads unworthy
As we gain control
This is the family that we crossed or never had
This is a war that was lost the day it began
'Cause it's the race we run, but it keeps us at the start
And it's the song I sung from the bottom of my heart, that's how we
Read you
Like a polygraph
Not one
Single bone in your back
Own up
To how you let us down" With: Hei-chanxxxxxxRelationship: Dating Hei-chanxxxxxxPain: 0/10xxxxxxOoc: ____
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Wed Jun 05, 2019 11:13 am
𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:The Big City - Blue Skies Cafe 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄: Both 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃: Happy/Nervous
𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒: Dating Dai-chan~ 𝐎𝐎𝐂: --
▐▐ ▐▐ ▐▐
They were in public, he tried to remind himself of that, so he tried holding back in his displays of affection. But as Daisuke tried to take some blame for the whole thing, Heisuke couldn't hold it in any longer. He stood up and moved closer to Daisuke to give him a semi-tight hug. He didn't want either of them to feel like they were at blame for something. It was a misunderstanding on both of their parts. After he pulled away from the embrace, the man gave Daisuke a lingering kiss before he sat back down in his spot like a good boy. Albeit, he was a little flushed and embarrassed by his little outburst. This was a private situation in a public place. What was he supposed to do? (("Neither of us is to blame in this. We both misunderstood and that isn't our faults. I wanted to talk because I felt like it was time to stop letting both of us withhold blame on ourselves or each other. I don't blame you for not telling me, and I don't want to continue blaming myself for not asking. I just want to be together, no matter what strains our relationship may bare." ))
He took Daisuke's hand gently and kissed his knuckles once again, making himself hold back once more on just smooching Daisuke's entire face. Ahhh, they really should have done this somewhere private.(("I wanted to tell you what happened before anyways. It may not be pleasant memories for me, but I still wanted to share that piece of me. I don't want to feel in the back of my mind that I can't tell you, because you may hate me if you knew. You had every right to know what you were getting yourself into." )) He said before giving the man a soft smile with his slightly flushed cheeks. (("I hope that whatever it is that you are trying to push through, in time, you can come to confide in me over it. I want to be there and support you. Which is why I have decided that maybe I should go back to Japan to get my mark removed." ))
He spent months and years with the mark on his face, telling himself that it is what he deserved. He could never forgive himself, not entirely. But he felt like he could forgive himself enough that he could remove the seal on his body. It wasn't fair to Mitsuru and Seiji, Stich or Daisuke, to continue being selfish and worrying them. He already knew the fear that they had in their hearts. That he would just let himself waste away. (("In 2 weeks, I am going back to Japan for a few days. I already made an appointment with the officer who issued the mark and I made arrangements to stay at Mitsuru's home in Japan until I come back." )) He gives Daisuke's hand a gentle squeeze. (("I want you to know, that I was only able to come to such a tough decision for myself, because of you encouraging me. I may not be able to ever forgive myself entirely, but you have helped me gain more faith in myself. That means more to me than any disagreement or misunderstanding over something so trivial." ))
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Fri Jun 07, 2019 10:36 pm
"My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh, how I wish to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything"Daisuke ✵ Amsel
"Loony Toon" He was in such a slump after admitting how at fault he was, certain he was going to get chastised. No, that wouldn't be characteristic, now would it. Instead there were arms wrapped tightly around him, but oh so expertly the pressure was mainly on his shoulders so his spine was perfectly fine. His eyes fluttered shut as sensuous lips pressed against him. He could stay like this forever, genuinely wished it would last forever. It took him a moment to recollect his thoughts after the kiss. Oh, so it seemed that Hei-chan didn't care too much with particularly public displays of affection, that was information he could use in his eternal quest to keep him from calling himself old. He wasn't entirely sure if he was ready to forgive himself for making things awkward between them, but he could never defy his man, and his words were always so reassuring and convincing. Fine...he would let it go, for now, until he messed things up again. They really should have met somewhere more private, after having to behave so long while his family was around, he was having a hell of a time keeping himself off of Hei-chan. If it weren't for the fact that he too was waiting for the right moment...and they were in a decidedly public place...he might have gone down on the god across from him. They might just have to go back to his place afterwards, would be too awkward in Mitsuru-san's house, his apartment might be small and dull but at least it was sufficiently private. Then they were back to not keeping secrets from each other. Damn...that was the exact position he was in. The logical part of his brain said that Hei-chan would totally leave him once he found out what Daisuke had done. But at the same time, some hopefully little corner just knew that Hei-chan would never leave him. It was such an internal struggle, but he knew he would have to confess once they were somewhere more private.
But absolutely none of that mattered now. Ha-had he just said he was thinking about getting the curse mark removed? That was the best news he had heard in eons. He waited with baited breath to hear the whole line of reasoning, wondering if Hei-chan would lay out the argument or just leave it at that. Instead, he found out it wasn't a maybe: Hei-chan was going to get the mark removed, and what's more, he was going to do it in two weeks. He couldn't bring any words forth, just sat there in rapt attention, his nerves still vaguely aware that Hei-chan was holding his hand and that pressure had increased for just a moment. Wait...it was because of him that Hei-chan was forgiving himself enough to get better? He had no clue how he had managed to do that, perhaps constant care and concern actually paid off? Still too stunned to formulate his thoughts into words, it was his turn now to move from his seat, slide over to Hei-chan, and wrap his arms so tightly around him. He only let up for just a second to plant a kiss on Hei-chan's lips. Damn he was so tempted to linger, but that would be rather cruel out in public now wouldn't it? (("You don't know how happy I am to hear that! Do you want me to be there with you?" )) He would never admit it, but there was a definite burning sensation in his eyes that was causing him to blink a bit more often, and there was not foreign object in them."We are the children you reject and disregard
These aching cries come from the bottom of our hearts
You can't disown us now, we are your own flesh and blood
And we don't disappear just because your eyes are shut, now tell me
Love, loss
Like a bullet's path
Tear through
The cavity of my chest
Lights out
Because the fuse has blown
As their castles crumble slowly
We watch them fall
Their crown slips from heads unworthy
As we gain control
This is the family that we crossed or never had
This is a war that was lost the day it began
'Cause it's the race we run, but it keeps us at the start
And it's the song I sung from the bottom of my heart, that's how we
Read you
Like a polygraph
Not one
Single bone in your back
Own up
To how you let us down" With: Hei-chanxxxxxxRelationship: DatingxxxxxxPain: 0/10xxxxxxOoc: Aww you made him cry in joy!
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Wed Jun 12, 2019 11:06 am
𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍:The Big City - Blue Skies Cafe 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄: Both 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃: Happy/Nervous
𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒: Dating Dai-chan~ 𝐎𝐎𝐂: --
▐▐ ▐▐ ▐▐
There was a special thought in having Dai-chan there with him to brave the onslaught of pity the man would receive if he was spotted. He was known as the man who was victimized in japan, and everyone wanted an interview with him. The father of the famous Mitsuru Akiyama who was framed from statutory rape and wrongfully imprisoned for a crime he didn't commit. Though he appreciated his name being cleared, he really didn't like the publicity it brought to the table. It was too much to handle for him. He just wanted his life to calm down for at least a ew years. As soon as something more major came up, he was sure to be in the clear. Though with this mark, it was something that was always hanging over his head and Mitsuru's head. Instead of Mitsuru keeping his popularity for his music, he was becoming known as the damaged son who was caught in nasty affairs. Even his abuse from his mother somehow came to light. Probably by the cop on the case, or the child services lady who took care of Mitsuru's adoption and caretakers.
His focus didn't tay on that too long, as Daisuke moved closer and kissed him. It was a gentle kiss, but one he felt like was suppressing desire behind it. It made his cheeks flush and his heart beat a little, as his hand gently gripped Daisuke's shirt.(("What about school? Your semester doesn't end for another 10 weeks right? You can't just leave in the middle of the semester to go to Japan. Its only for a few days, but still." ))
Though he seemed like he was protesting Daisuke going, in his heart he kind of hoped that he could go. That they would find a way for him to go. To be able to show Daisuke what he can do, or to no longer cough up blood, feel weak, have treatments that render him unconscious. To have such things would be a godsend. He knows why he put off getting it removed so long, but still...he knew that when he got it removed, he would wished he had done so sooner. (("If we can find a way, then I would be happy to say yes. But I don't want to inconvenience the school." ))
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
