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It's called masochism. A word from which the word masogasm originates.

Anyways...

As all of us see the insanity from my dark phase still remains.

Again, I believe that insanity is true genius.

Oh, that phase got all doubt of my mind... about food at least.

I did drink others' blood and I don't have ANY problems with cannibalism.

Are we seeing where Vas came from?

I only had one depression phase which started when I went out with *her*, somewhere in the middle of the relationship, after she told me that I was objectifying her. It finished about two weeks ago.

But I don't care for *her* like I htought I would. I loathe her. I am secretly wishing deep emotional pain upon her, although I know I shouldn't. I try not to.

Psychosis? What exactly is that? Why does my case sound like it?

I value my life over the lives of others. Is that so wrong?

Anger disorder? I'm like the most peaceful person around.

It's just that anger can only be bottled up for so long.

But I don't want to...

Is it just me or do all us crazies seem to float onto gaia? ^_^ s**t Shazzer, I have no idea how you can live the way you do... you have my heartfelt sympathy. Honestly, I'm tearing up just reading this. I really am! When I read the problems you have I feel like such a bad person for complaining about the things I deal with. I mean, do I even have the right to complain when compared to you guys? I've never cut myself or burned myself.... I've been beaten and tortured mentally and physically but never to the extent of some of you....never that far. Why do we do these things to each other? ******** human race. I hope everything turns out for you guys... How can a mother hate her child so much as to wish they were never born? That's just not ******** right. If you don't like kids you shouldn't have them. I hate those people. How can anybody betray their kin? I pray for your success Shaz.
2k_style, phycosis isn't an anger problem. I have an anger problem but that doesn't make me phycotic. Phycosis is simple a state in which one has lost contact with reality. It is a symptom and not a diagnosis. One who has not slept for days and is halucinating is considered to be suffering from a phycosis.
You may be refering to phycopathy. Phycopathy, also known as Sociopathy is an anti-social disorder. A sociopath lacks a full range of human emotion and has no empathy for human beings. They do not feel the rules of human etiquette apply to them and may see nothing wrong with harming another as long as it benefeits them.
Anger disorder bites a**. Jar, having a problem with bottling up anger and then occasionally releasing it in a violent and random outburst IS an anger disorder. It's one of the few that I have actually. It bites because it can get to a point where you fear yourself. You become like the hulk, or Dr.Jekyl. You live in fear of your other side and begin to have paranoid episodes about yourself. You become afraid to let people close to you and shy away from people so that nobody gets hurt. It's like killing yourslef slowly. You could also turn out like me and pretend everything's alright. It's obviously not but you try not to let others know. It's one of the things that led to my anxiety disorder...and my depression. Through personal experience I can tell you that if you are normally an outgoing, friendly, and social person; an anger disorder is like ******** kryptonite man....

How right you are. Not like normal kryptonite, it's like red kryptonite. I'll confess, I know what happens when I'm angry. I release it, but never fully. I'm all peaceful and hippie like during the school year, but during the summer, no one sees me. I am absoulutely insane. The summer vacation is the time when I release all my anger. I jump around the house, I flame people like bloody murder.

I only recently began to fear it. The thought of how act, and whatever I do, being lost to me, utterly frightens me. How do I know what I did if I really cannot remember?

Killing yourself to live.

A black out is the same as fainting.

That's not the correct term to be used. Whenever that happened to me, I was around people, mostly in fights.