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 Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 11:08 am
A flicker of curiosity had begun to spring in his eyes - he half wondered why his father let life and his sickness get the very best of him. Though, he had no time to reply to such, or even quesiton, for as soon as he opened his mouth there came a shouting the distance of his name. Not his mother, but a voice not so different, was calling him home. A grin split his lips as he leapt up, flicking his tail and shakin ghis lithe little body in one last aattempt to get rid of some of the mud. His Gamma would throw a fit at the looks of him. "I've got to get going, Gamma calls, nice to see you again.. Uumi." HE offered a little bow, and then with a bolt of energy, sped off into the direction his grandmother was calling from.
Syeira let her ears droop as she heard the shout in the distance, knowing that whatever sort of conversation the pair had been having must undoubtedly be over now. She had been sitting by the lake, tail tucked, lazing over the likes of a rather warmed rock. She had been sunken into a rather sullen mood. She was a proud thing, torn between raising her son without the moodiness of his father, raising him away from drama - and seeking out Uumi. She knew long ago she was falling for the silly git, he just became to stupid and blind to see it. She frowned, sighing, glancing back at the water - then, rather angrily, smacked her paw against the water. She was always her own undoing.
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Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 11:17 am
He looked a bit surprised that Taabu had to go, but the emotion on his face fled away. He didn't like those random emotions shooting up for all to see. "It was nice.. to see you too." He whispered, to himself, seeing as Taabu had already disappeared.
Uumi was confused why Taabu's leaving had suddenly made him feel so lonely, for the last ten minutes of being with his son alls he wanted was Sye to come and relieve him of his watching duties. He took a few deep, panicked breaths. He shut his eyes while doing this, calming his body. Foriegn is bad. After a few moments of this he rose, slowly slipping through the woods.
His legs carried him easily enough but he felt distant from himself. A ghost watching his own shell, that was how he felt. Unbidden came the thoughts of his past and of himself, and why he'd ever tried to lock himself up in the first place. What an emotional mess he'd become, or trying to force lack there of.
His nostrils flared and as Sye's scent filled his airway he let the worry and the loneliness drain from his face, trying to think of something to look angry over. The best he could do, though, was looking neutral. He moved toward her form, laying near the lake. "Your mother called him away." He muttered as his greeting.
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Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 11:56 am
She sighed so softly, eyes glimmering as she pulled them away from the lake to look at him instead. Part of her wished he would come and speak to her, but she knew that een if he did, everytime her came, that she only ever became disappointed by his lack of emotion. Lack of general care for her or her - their - son.
"I heard," she breathed softly, slowly tearing her eyes away. Though he may be delving into his own neutrality of emotion right now, Syeira had not the care or ability to do so. Her own melencholy air was right out on her pretty face, contorting it all into that of a painfully beautiful drama.
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Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 12:07 pm
Since when had he disliked seeing a bad emotion on that pretty face of Sye's? It made him uncomfortable. "I.. I was wrong to assume.. he was messed up." He murmered, referring to when he first learned of Taabu's little counting 'problem'. Uumi stood his ground, still away from Sye and now watching her back. He mostly said those words to try and get some type of conversation going with Sye, but that made his stomach uncomfortably. It wasn't fair, what she did to him. Though it was never fair what he did to her, either.
He didn't know what else to say, or wether or not he should ask if she was okay. It was clear that she wasn't okay, but Uumi was never good with that type of thing. Obviously.
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Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 1:51 pm
She frowned slowly as she shut her eyes, laying her head softly on her paws. Usually she would have som smart a** retort to make him eat his words, make him really feel the pain of saying something like that about her son, his son too. Right now, though, she couldn't even must up the strength to tell him that he was being a secluded p***k - for once, Syeira was wallowing in her own misery. Something that was completely unlike her, something that she had never really done, but then - Uumi had made her do so many different things. HE was responsible, really.
"You were, yes," she breathed, "but he does have some things wrong. He's not messed up, he's just very unique. I do as much as I can to make him feel normal and I don't need someone telling me that I'm doing a bad job," she breathed, swallowing hard. It wasn't mean, the way she said it - but slightly hurt. She did do the best she could to raise her son, and when Uumi said that something was wrong, well, that was her way of thinking she was doing something wrong. She was a single, young mother - what more could she do for her beloved child? She simply shook her head though and wiped away what tears were forming with the back of her own paw.
She didn't expect Uumi to give a damn one way or another.
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Posted: Sat Mar 18, 2006 7:08 pm
He watched her, half thoughtful and have in distress. Why was everything so confusing with Syeira? He was about to turn away, to walk away like he did best... but something just froze him to the spot. He wanted to make things right with Sye, but over the time in his life he'd never really figured out what was quite right.
"Y.." He almost started to speak, but it seemed to get swallowed up in the silence. His eyes flicked to the sky, his mind automatically looking to escape this world's reality, delve into worthless fantasies and thoughts. "If anyone is telling you you're doing a poor job with him they're sadly mistaken." He finally said, quiet but audible. His way of continuing to tell her she was wrong. Why was she acting so miserable? Surely he could do this to know lion, could he? But wasn't that what he often aimed to do, hurt them so bad they'd just leave him alone? That never had worked with Sye. It actually brought the attention he so desperately feared and sought, his fear and yearning seemed to contradict his being fully, but he couldn't help it.
He was taking deep, slow breaths, crimson gaze back on the coffee-colored lioness' back. "I'm sorry." The words seemed much louder than anything he'd previously said, partly because he full meant them and partly because he'd used his normal tone for them. He wasn't sure what he was sorry for, a number of things he was sure, but he knew he was sorry. For his whole life, because his life was his fault.
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 3:24 am
She hadn't been paying much attention to him, she heard his words but cared very little for what he actually said. Her paws cradled her face, and she could only lay there in her silence. She didn't know what she had suddenly gotten so down, why she had suddenly become such an emotional little thing. She never showed her emotions, but then, maybe now all the pent up feelings were swarming out in one horrible moment. Heaven forbid.
Though, his next sentance brought her head up, liquid blue eyes swirling as they moved back to him, watching him momentarily in a concentrated silence. "Thank you," she murmured weakly, trying to find her voice obviously as she concentrated more - wanting to speak something else alloud, "and I'm sorry too." She knew there were things she needed to be sorry for, even if she couldn't place them. She just.. knew.
Still, her eyes moved back to the water, staring at her own reflection, avoiding the sight of him, not because she didn't want to see him - but because she wanted to see him too much. "I don't mean to get this way, Uumi, it's just that.. things are so odd between us."
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 3:28 am
So Sye just prooved that all females were moody piles of mess sometimes, that was all. He didn't know if he should also say thank you to her apology, he supposed it would be the right thing. He stalked forward slowly, suddenly at her side and sitting, also staring at the water. "Thanks." He murmered.
"Things have always been odd between us though, have they not?" He glanced to her out of the corner of his eye. How could something feel so awkward and so good at the same time? Or how could anyone make him feel that way?
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 6:02 am
She had been surprised when he got up and moved, but as he sat down nearer to her, she seemed to calm down somewhat. A deep breath drew in her lungs and she almost felt the urge to smile once more. Almost.
She knew there were feelings for Uumi, though she couldn't understand if they had always been there burried down deep some place in her cold, frigged little heart - or if they had been born for him through her son. She suspected it of the first, after all, why else would she choose the sickly lion to sire her child?
"Yes, they have, but things are getting complicated now. For me at least. All this oddness makes all my confusion worse," she whispered, slowly leaning her head against his sturdy, upright body, shutting her eyes at the scent of his fur as it filled her nostrils.
Why did she want this all of a sudden?
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 1:10 pm
His tail flicked slightly, and he watched the calm water with a sense of envy. Why could life not be as simple as this water? Though he suspected it was really only as calm as one made it, wasn't it?
"Why does it make your confusion worse?" He spoke clearly, almost demanding. He wanted her to explain. Perhaps if she got it out of her system she would feel better, he did not like to honestly see her like this. It filled him with an awkwardness and an unease, because he felt it was likely all of his fault.
When she rested her head against him he took a sharp breath, shakey and on the verge of being a coughing fit. But a few more deeper breaths seemed to calm him. Why did this feel so.. so nice?
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 2:10 pm
She sighed as she heard his words, slowly letting her eyes open to concentrate on those reflected so perfectly in the water below her. True, she evied the placid surface, the calm precise movements of the water. Everything was predictable. Life, however, would be utterly boring as such a predictable sequence.
"Because I.." she frowned, suddenly finding that everything made much more sense in her head than it did when she actually said it, and as such, she couldn't find one single word to put into a coherent sentace. With a sigh, she squeezed her eyes shut again, as if the pressure would force out her thoughts. With a soft bubble of flowing, almost rushed, words, she managed, "because I've got all these stupid feelings that I don't know what to do with."
She sighed and tilted her head some, brushing her face into the soft crimson fur of his form. God, what was wrong with her?
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 2:19 pm
He shifted very slightly as she brushed her face into his fur, swallowed and trying to think how to respond. He knew exactly how she felt, didn't he? Stupid feelings, they were a lions most dangerous weapon.. weren't they?
"Why don't you know what to do with them? Feelings are feelings... and.." Well this was no time to contradict himself, was it? Or be a hypocrite. He always kept feelings inside. "I think I love you." His body was frozen in place, tense and not even trembling. He stared wide eyed at the water, as if he couldn't even believe his own ears.
It was almost laughable, these two right now. But at least it was finally said, right? Though Uumi still couldn't fully believe he let those words out, something buried deep inside that he wouldn't quite let his own self know.
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Posted: Mon Mar 20, 2006 3:13 pm
Now, to be honest, that was not exactly what Syeira had expected to hear from his mouth. Her eyes had widened considerably as she moved them back up to stare at him, those deep swirling eyes that could be so often filled with a disgusting hatred. She, however, pushed herself up into a more upright position and finally leaned down to nuzzle into his neck - to calm him. He suddenly looked so upset.
"I think I love you too, Uumikaji," she whispered, eyes concentrated on him before drifting away. This was akward, but pleasent, her heart lifted not that she could finally express the words. That he said it first though, that he even felt the same way, that was the miracle here.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 3:04 am
Strange words, those. Especially when he was hearing them being said to him. His tail flicked back and forth in a jerk, uneasy motion, very slightly leaning into the nuzzle.
"I don't know what else to say." He mumbled, almost a whisper. He glanced to her, crimson eyes meeting the icey blue ones, looking confused and scared, slightly mixed with some estatic feeling inside of him.
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Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 3:14 am
She could have laughed at him if she was temporarily stunned. The way he seemed so scared - it was almost cute. Still, she felt so odd, like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders and yet she could still feel the hard rough edges against her bones. She didn't know what to do, what she could do, or where she and Uumi were supposed to go from here on out. She just knew that he had the right to be scared, just like she did, even if she seemed slightly more calm now. It seems her walls were capable of being restored once that bug was out of her system.
"You don't have to say anything else if you don't want to," she whispered, slowly moving to lick his ear in an affectionate manner. He felt out of place with this, she knew it, because she did too - but she also knew that he was uneasy with other lions touching him freely. That was too bad, really, because Syeira felt the urge to touch him quite often - and now that those confessions were free in the air, she felt it was quite alright to do so. Even if she did do it in portions, she didn't want him to go into a coughing fit.
Where they would go from here was beyond her. She didn't know if he'd want to stay with her, stay with their son - would he become a father? Or would he find this all too much and just stay as exactly the same as he was now? Or worse, would he go back home?
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