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 Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2012 2:31 pm
I'm thinking I should do some of the stuff on the 60 small ways to improve your life in the next 100 days list. I think it may help with my pre- going to school anxiety. Oh, and I got a call about school today. So that helped too. I adore Clara (the TA for the room I do work in). She's more than great. I should knit her something. heart
Next comes the bank, the education building to pick up texts, then grabbing some course packs. School is coming much too soon.
[edit] From the list I think I'm going to work on:
1. Create a “100 Days to Conquer Clutter Calendar” by penciling in one group of items you plan to declutter every day, for the next 100 days.
2. Live by the mantra: a place for everything and everything in its place.
3. Walk around your home and identify 100 things you’ve been tolerating; fix one each day.
5. Make a list of 20 small things that you enjoy doing, and make sure that you do at least one of these things every day for the next 100 days. (Modified to be "record 1 small thing - or big - that is enjoyable that I've done that day" - it'll probably encourage me to journal in my paper journal more too.)
9. Make it a point to learn at least one new thing each day. (I'll also be recording this in my journal.)
12. For the next 100 days, keep Morning Pages, which is a tool suggested by Julia Cameron. Morning Pages are simply three pages of longhand, stream of consciousness writing, done first thing in the morning. (Possibly, but I also may not since my morning is already pretty full - we'll see.)
13. For the next 100 days make it a point to feed your mind with the thoughts, words, and images that are most consistent with who you want to be, what you want to have, and what you want to achieve. (I'll probably just end up working on a goal image board over 100 days and see if I'm satisfied with the product at the end - maybe add one thing a day?)
24. For the next 100 days, plan your day the night before. (Including making my food that I need to take with me - I didn't do enough of that last year.)
25. For the next 100 days, do the most important thing on your To-Do list first, before you do anything else. (After my morning rituals which will probably include working out, eating, and whatnot - I'll most likely apply it to school work in general combined with shadow classes.)
26. For the next 14 weeks, conduct a review of each week. (More journaling xd )
29. For the next 100 days, every time that you switch to a new activity throughout the day stop and ask yourself, “Is this the best use of my time at this moment?”
42. For the next 100 days, get at least twenty minutes of daily exercise. (I'm taking PE so that shouldn't be hard.)
45. For the next 100 days, set your watch to beep once an hour, or set up a computer reminder, to make sure that you drink water on a regular basis throughout the day.
46. For the next 100 days, make it a daily ritual to mediate, breath, or visualize every day in order to calm your mind. (I already have a plan to make one day a week about regrouping/planning and meditating but a little bit each day could be helpful - especially when I go on anxiety spirals.)
47. For the next 100 days, actively look for something positive in your partner every day, and write it down. (I have a "relationship book" that I doodle in or write memories that are important to me or express my love for Sir in. Once I'm done it I'll be giving it to him. I can see this working towards the goal of finishing the book.)
52. For the next 100 days, when someone does or says something that upsets you, take a minute to think over your response instead of answering right away.
53. For the next 100 days, don’t even think of passing judgment until you’ve heard both sides of the story.
54. For the next 100 days do one kind deed for someone every day, however small, even if it’s just sending a silent blessing their way. (I'll probably journal about this too.)
56. For the next 100 days, practice active listening. (Good practice for Child and Youth Care - I'll probably have to do it for my work experience stuff anyway.)
s**t, that's about 20 things. o-o I'mma have to see if they'll all work together without overwhelming me. I want them to.
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Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2012 7:05 pm
That is so cool Milk! Thank you for sharing it.
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Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2012 8:05 pm
You're welcome. smile
I rather like the site but it takes a bit to sort through what will work for you vs what wont work for you.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 6:44 pm
I joined fitocracy to help with tracking my fitness progress at Sir's suggestion. In a way this is sort of training - he wants me fit and healthy and physically capable.
Making fitness and fairly accurate tracking into a game? My inner little is pleased. It'll also help me carry my PE activities out of school when I'm done this year. emotion_dowant
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:31 pm
Raspberry Flavored Milk I joined fitocracy to help with tracking my fitness progress at Sir's suggestion. In a way this is sort of training - he wants me fit and healthy and physically capable.
Making fitness and fairly accurate tracking into a game? My inner little is pleased. It'll also help me carry my PE activities out of school when I'm done this year. emotion_dowant
I'm doing the same thing- but not because Magian wants me to, though I bet he's happy for me.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:33 pm
Huzzuh for fitness~! whee
I'm actually excited to weight lift now. It was something I was scared of before.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:36 pm
Raspberry Flavored Milk Huzzuh for fitness~! whee
I'm actually excited to weight lift now. It was something I was scared of before. Will you do free weights or machines?
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:39 pm
I'm going to be going for free weights.
The squat rack actually looks fun rather than intimidating.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:42 pm
Raspberry Flavored Milk I'm going to be going for free weights.
The squat rack actually looks fun rather than intimidating. Free weights scare me- I like the stability of the machines better, and I feel less like I'll damage the equipment, the floor or myself if I "drop" the weight by accident.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:49 pm
Ahh. I feel like I'd be losing something if I went to machines. Probably some bias from the articles I've been reading though. sweatdrop I'll always have a spotter 'cause it's required for the school gym and safety first so I'm not too worried on that front. Start light, work up, use good form. Some exercises you're supposed to "drop" them anyway - it's the safe way to do 'em. They're usually set up on flooring to take it and the equipment is meant for it. I think Sir would slice off my ears - figuratively - if I went to machines. He's a purist in some ways. xd Scratch that, I've been okayed for assisted dips and pullups. xp
I know the clanging is going to get to me at first though. Loud noise and/or not being able to hear triggers anxiety for me. gonk
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 8:51 pm
Raspberry Flavored Milk Ahh. I feel like I'd be losing something if I went to machines. Probably some bias from the articles I've been reading though. sweatdrop I'll always have a spotter 'cause it's required for the school gym and safety first so I'm not too worried on that front. Start light, work up, use good form. Some exercises you're supposed to "drop" them anyway - it's the safe way to do 'em. They're usually set up on flooring to take it and the equipment is meant for it. I think Sir would slice off my ears - figuratively - if I went to machines. He's a purist in some ways. xd Scratch that, I've been okayed for assisted dips and pullups. xp
I know the clanging is going to get to me at first though. Loud noise and/or not being able to hear triggers anxiety for me. gonk I think I make up for what I loose on the machines by doing yoga and stuff- the core and the balance work is more about muscle memory than weights and I find it more relaxing.
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Posted: Sun Sep 02, 2012 9:01 pm
Ah. I'm going for muscle gain. Depending on my school program I'll probably end up running and doing yoga as well. 3nodding The stretch and cardio are good additions for the ever impending zombie apocalypse and good for making sure my muscles don't go all urg. xp
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Posted: Mon Sep 03, 2012 10:32 am
Sir had a "I'm pretty sure poly will never work for me" moment last night. It's hard to discuss in some ways because some of his concerns aren't things I can relate to even if I do have a decent understanding of them logically or mentally or whatever. I can't always relate but I get the idea for a lot of his concerns and desires. We're not even 100% sure it's not him wishing to be physically closer due to our distance and the jealousy that comes from the idea of another that could be closer than he is, physical distance -wise. I already have reinsurance on his end that I'm significant in his life that he's not going to run off with another girl just because they have a happy relationship together - it's happened and he didn't even think twice from what he's told me - but he doesn't have that from me. So trust has come up in ways it hasn't before. I think I've sort of helped with it during our conversation last night but I don't know.
Overall it's sort of endearing in its own way and I'd love for monogamy to work for me and be able to just be with him... but I have a feeling it wont and attempting to do so would set us up for failure. Perhaps not failure... but I'm not sure I'd be really happy. I'm sort of wondering if I'm a commitment-phobe or something now but... I don't know. I think it's a possibility but it doesn't really make sense as much as simply having strong poly desires does.
Ahh. We're talking now. Bah. [edit] Scratch that, he's grocery shopping first. [/edit] I hope I'm not forcing him into something he's really really against. T-T
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Posted: Sat Sep 08, 2012 4:28 pm
Spent the day with Sir yesterday. I would consider our relationship stable again. There is still a possibility that poly just wont work for him but it's also very possible that it'll be workable so my "should I break up with him? should I risk staying together?" inner debate alleviated. In some ways he has said he feels a bit backed into a corner but communication there has been opened up. I really really don't want him to say yes to something that would hurt him like the way he's expressed it could so we talked about that a fair bit. A lot of his insecurities relating to our relationship have to do with my terrible ability to initiate physical affection beyond hand-holding and the occasional snuggle-a-thon. He's acknowledged that that isn't something to be placed solely on me and that he needs to accept that just because I don't initiate such things often that it doesn't mean I dislike him in any way or that I'm upset but that he should work on accepting that it is a part of who I am. That his insecurity needs to be worked on. It's sort of funny 'cause that's something that seemed to hold us together when we first started dating - I'm not very clingy in that way. When we're together I'll try to show him some more affection as well though. I don't think it's the real issue, which was also brought up - I think there would be less issues if we could see each other more often. That helps with the insecurities he feels and it does help with some of mine too. A lot of things seem to boil down to a stronger desire to be physically closer while our physical distance stays the same. Long distance sucks. Sometimes the relationship feels a bit fake or role-play ish (lack of face-to-face with insecurity has done that to me a few times as well - especially in the beginning). I'm sure we'll be able to make it through though. We've made it this far after all... though, we're going into the dreaded fifth year. dun dun dun xp
Also - my muscles hurt. Darn beginning of getting fit. -shakes fist- Can't wait until DOMS doesn't affect me as much. Hate it when it hurts to walk up stairs.
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Posted: Fri Sep 14, 2012 4:51 pm
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