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It was hard to keep from crying despite the fact she knew it had been a bad dream. She continued to hold on for dear life, afraid if she let go she would plummet right back into the nightmare.

"You were gone...turned to stone.." Mitsu managed to choke out. "I couldn't help anyone." She never could. The dreams always varied in how things came about but the theme was always the same. Mitsu was powerless to do anything and couldn't save a single friend and was usually left alone.

Being in Shun's tight embrace was doing enough to calm her for the moment though she still held on tightly. His words though were only partially reassuring. True she had pulled him to safety but she hadn't be able to keep him from getting injured in the first place. That had she had wounded him in the process.

Almost unconsciously her hand went to his arm where she had bit him, feeling for any lingering traces of damage. "I...I don't...I wasn't able to keep you from getting hurt in the first place." She held on for a moment before it felt like she was trying to pull back. Her eyes looked tired again as she began to rub at them to rid them of the tears. "I...I need to go train." And by the sounds of it she meant now.

When he asked what she could have done Mitsu looked away slightly but shook her head. She didn't know but surely there was something. There was always another option wasn't there? Though, when Shun mentioned what he considered to be his own faults Mitsu continued to be silent for a moment. "T..those were accidents we weren't prepared for....we lunged into a fight I should have been..."

Mitsu trailed off then when Shun mentioned training until he collapsed, that darkened gaze making her ears fall back. It had been a while since she had seen that look especially directed at her. She knew she was tired but sleeping wasn't going to help anything and sleeping only brought on more nightmares. At least when she was by herself. "I..I can still train..." She mumbled.

It didn't seem like Shun was done listing off all the things that he couldn't prevent from happening. Mitsu didn't blame him for any of it but like her he seemed to hold on to his failures. She was already on the decline to relenting, just agreeing and letting it go but the reaper wasn't done. His words became harsher, voice sterner, he was giving her no other option now. She had hated to see him that way, exhausted and training well passed the point of injuring himself. Mitsu didn't want to find him that way again, though somewhere in the back of her mind she wondered how plausible it was to tie him down. He could teleport though....not a good plan.

Then Shun said the one thing that had Mitsu's heart stopping in her chest. Her eyes grew wide as she stared at him, fresh tears starting to gather. "W...why..." Streaks of liquid began to pour down her face her body suddenly trembling. "Why would you say that?" She finally got out. "P-please don't say that. T-take it back." Her voice was desperate as she gripped his shirt, her teary eyes pleading. "Don't say that again. Please don't, I'll be good." She sobbed. That had been too far.

The change in his facial features was enough, Mitsu wrapped her arms around the reaper, though paused patiently as he brushed the tears away from her face. As soon as he was done she pulled him in tightly. "I..I don't care if you're good or not....I just....I don't want to lose you." And she truly meant that.

There was a sniffle as Mitsu hid her face in the crook of his neck, holding the reaper tightly despite what he said. She didn't want to lose him too, what would she do then?

She only nodded slightly to Shun's comment to not be to hard on herself, keeping her face buried by his shoulder. It was best to just agree least he threaten other bodily harm to himself. Now she was just going to be worried and nervous about him training again. Would he push himself to far?

It took a moment but Mitsu finally pulled back, her hands coming up to rest against his cheeks. It was going to be hard for her to forget no matter how she tried. Those words were going to haunt her. "Promise me, you'll always come back. You won't leave me." If it wasn't obvious she had abandonment issues before it certainly was now. "Promise?"

Mitsu waited for a response but the pause made her tense. Was he going to avoid making a promise because he knew it would be broken? Her heart leaped into her throat and she swallowed hard against it. There was relief in her features when Shun finally spoke, her body finally relaxing.

His apology earned a weak nod, Mitsu leaning toward him to press a soft kiss to his lips. It was her way of saying she forgave him. As she pulled back she collapsed back into the bed, her crimson eyes staring into Shun's dark eyes before she looked away almost shamed. She thought that sleeping here would make the difference or she would have liked to think it did. Somehow the fact that she still had nightmares made her feel weaker somehow, like she didn't trust the reaper to keep her safe even though she really did.

"I...it's never quite the same... though it is. The scenario is always different but I can never seem to help anyone in time....and then I'm left all alone." The last few words came out as a whisper. Truly it was her greatest fear. Turning she cuddled against Shun, burying her face in his chest, though that only made her more difficult to understand since her voice was muffled. "I usually slept well when I was with you...I thought...I had been sleeping well, I felt like I had been but something changed." She didn't realized Shun had left the bed, all she knew was that her dream had shifted from something pleasant into a nightmare.