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 Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 2:09 pm
She erased the message after Taelence read it.
She wrote: For years, it's been falling, and people give me so much attention. They won't leave me alone, just like you! I've been holding up that floor with all my strength and I'm fine. Yes, I'm not happy, but I'm doing fine. You are like the others Taelence. In the sense that you don't truly understand.
She sang softly and sweetly:
"Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me"
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 2:20 pm
Taelence read what Kaze wrote.
"Pain and sorrow is a heavy burden to bear alone though. And you are right, in a sense. I don't understand, not truly," She flicked her tail and watched a breeze make the leaves on the nearest tree ripple. "But, Kaze, who's fault is that? I can't understand fully if you won't let me in. I'm not asking you to spill every detail of your life, and I'm not asking for us to be complete best friends. I'm asking that you understand that there are things I can't help with if I'm not given something to work with and then there are things that I can help and I don't need to know a thing." Tael moved just a little bit closer. "I care about how you feel. I care about how you're doing. And I want to be someone that you can depend on, for the littlest or the biggest things. Someone who will catch you when you fall, help you pick up the pieces, and laugh about the mistakes made."
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 2:27 pm
She brushed away the message and wrote: I can't trust. Words aren't enough to prove things. I'm not wanting you to do anything for me, though. In fact, if you disappeared out of my life, I'd be just fine with that. Honestly, I could care less what others think about me.
She moved away some. And wrote: You have a life. People who care about you. Go live it. Why worry about a pointless quest to help, when the the other end is building up it's walls, just so you won't? You needn't worry about me, when you have everything going for you.
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 2:45 pm
Taelence barely read what Kaze wrote before she was answering.
"Yes, I understand that. Trust is earned, not freely given. I'm not asking you to just give it to me. I want to earn your trust as much as I want you to earn mine. And do you think that if I cared what others thought about me that I'd be out here? Alone, with you? They don't like you anymore than you like them," She scratched doodles in the dirt in front of her. "And if I was going to disappear from your life, I would have done it by now. But I'm not."
She chose her next words carefully.
"Yes, I have a life. I have friends and family who love me," she smiled. "But I want more. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Brothers, Sisters, Sons, Daughters, Nieces, Nephews! People a billion times removed! My "Family" is ever growing, ever extending. And I like it that way."
She looked into Kaze's eyes, full of happiness.
"I want the crazy Uncles whom make you laugh at all their stupid jokes. I want the Aunts who pinch your cheek till they hurt," she looked pointedly at Kaze. "I want the Sisters who've had their hearts broken over and over again. I want the Brothers that beat you up for fun. I want it all."
"And I care because of who I am. It's as simple as that."
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 6:01 pm
Kaze moved further away and wrote: Long time you stuck around. Now, it's only polite to give you a choice. Would you rather be hurt in many ways by sticking around,
She stopped writing for a moment to show her teeth. they were bright white, and extremely sharp. She continued writing again: Or, would you like to leave me alone, and be able to have that family you've always wanted?
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 6:43 pm
Taelence didn't have to read the message to get the point: leave me alone or suffer the consequences. She grinned widely, wickedness glinting in her eyes. She walked past Kaze and picked up a flat rock. She sent it whizzing hard over the water, managing to skip it at least seven times. She turned back to Kaze, still smirking.
"What do you think?"
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Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 1:28 pm
As soon as Tael asked that, Kaze had already wiped the last writing. Her claws dug into the ground. She jerked one of her claws out to write: You are not my friend, nor my sister, nor family, your not an acquaintance of mine either. Don't ever expect me to trust you. I am not going to ay anything to you or anyone else, regarding my actions. It was you choice. Just letting you know, it's gonna be your pain.
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Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 1:42 pm
Taelence laughed after reading Kaze's words.
"Right, my choice," Tael paced the grass, batting at fireflies. "You'll end up talking to me, if only to tell me to go away. For now, that's enough. But there's going to be a point, Kaze, when you'll want me, for some reason or another, and I'll be there, waiting with open arms. You can't stay this way forever."
She swatted at a few more fireflies and said nonchalantly:
"By the way, I really do like you. This isn't just because "you're some lost soul" or whatever. I really find you interesting."
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Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 1:48 pm
Your choice, she thought. You're too optimistic. Realy? Well, stick around and watch me stay like this. That's the worst part. You're attracted to me....
She grumbled and stood. A firefly landed on her nose. She swat at it with her claws. It just fell to the ground dead.
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Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 2:06 pm
Taelence sighed and shook her head at Kaze.
"You're not supposed to kill them," she looked around and saw her target. She dashed after it and leapt, catching it neatly in her paw. She walked back to Kaze, careful to keep her distance yet close enough so Kaze could watch what she was doing.
She opened her paw and held the firefly out.
"See?" she said, watching as the firefly flew out of her paw pad and fluttered around Kaze and herself. "They don't mean any harm. They're pretty to look at, sometimes if you look carefully they'll fly in patterns." she pointed as a bunch of fireflies created the formation of a star. "Look. They're actually pretty smart for bugs." She smiled at Kaze.
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Posted: Thu Jun 05, 2008 8:40 pm
Kaze didn't want to hurt Tael. She didn't like hurting others. More emotionally then physically. As her claws dug into the ground all she could think of was how much she hated bugs.
Hastily she scribbled: How can you stand bugs?!
She quickly finished and planted her claws back into the earth. Don't do it Kaze. You'll only have to leave again. I can handle that. Don't do it. I'm trying! Her face showed internal conflict and that's spot on. She was arguing with herself in her mind.
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Posted: Fri Jun 06, 2008 10:53 am
Taelence ignored Kaze's obvious internal struggle. The easiest way to get Kaze to accept her was to give her a sense of normalcy. To recognize that something wasn't right, but to not mention that Tael knew. Kaze would talk about that stuff when she was ready and not a moment before.
"Well the thing is," Tael said as a firefly alighted onto her ear tip. She glanced up and flicked her ear, dislodging it. "That they're probably just as scared of you as you are of them, maybe even more so. Suppose that you were their size. The world's a pretty big place for such little guys, don't you think? Giants trying to squish you all the time, either because they want to or by accident because you're too small to see."
She watched the fireflies twinkling along.
"Mind you, I wouldn't treat a mosquito or a black fly that way. I'm just as likely to squash those as anyone else. But the bugs that don't mean any harm? I guess they just don't bother me as much."
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Posted: Fri Jun 06, 2008 2:19 pm
I hate bugs, harmless or not. she wrote.
Kaze sighed. She couldn't take it anymore. Her mind was overwhelmed. She didn't want to hurt Tael, but she knew if she stuck around she would. Crap. Let me leave, she thought. It was her choice to be around me. Her decision, her pain. Not my fault.
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Posted: Fri Jun 06, 2008 4:33 pm
Taelence nodded.
"Everyone has their own opinion. You don't have to like them," Tael frowned noticing the sigh. "Do you need me to leave for a moment?" she asked. "You've done really well, and I wouldn't want to overwhelm you."
That was the truth. She couldn't help Kaze if she got too strung out. That would just create even more problems. So even if she saw Kaze just a little bit every so often, it would be enough until Kaze learned to control whatever it was that ruled her mind when she was around Taelence.
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Posted: Fri Jun 06, 2008 4:46 pm
Kaze swished her tail, wiping away the message, and wrote a new one: Yes, but I need to leave, not you. Me. Bye. ~Kaze
She pulled back her claws and ran back to her house. She didn't turn to see the fox, just kept running. Finally, the black fox skidded to a stop. She slowly walked into her house, a little tired.
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