[NRP] Adriel and Jayoku's log

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Meeting Liberality  

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Learning to control the limbs  

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What I mean to say...[Adriel and Duncan]  

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This Stuff's HOW Old?! [Adhara & Adriel]  

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Just making sure... Adhara and Adriel msn rp  

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Hello Again: Part One

(( Duncanl belongs to Orpheus, RP done on MSN ))

His hands were starting to hurt from wringing them together in anxiety. HIs throat felt dry his heart was threatening to choke him and drown out all noise. But he had dragged himself here...to the laboratory...only for one reason. To see Duncan. Duncan had done so much for himl....and he...had done...THAT...to repay him. The memory of what he had done only forty-eight hours prior haunted him dark circles were under his eyes as he couldn't forgive himself for his actions. And now he was standing in the hall...wringing his hands together in front of Duncan's door. He had to tell him...it would hurt...more than anything..he figured he would probably be on the pian receiving end but he couldn't blame or stop Duncan if he did fly into a rage. He was sure he would feel betrayed as well.

Still ..he couldn't ,,,no he wouldn't lie to Duncan...he was always honest with him and he wasn't going to let that one incident stop him. But...still..he himself had only just gotten over the minor wounds he had inflicted on himself from the kidnapping. Duncan had received so much worse....Still... he reached out tentatively and lightly rapped on the door. And waited.

Duncan was feeling a bit better now. When he had first come to the Labs he'd been out of it, unresponsive for the first day and as though his body knew it needed to compensate for its weakness it had gone through a growth spurt. The spurt of growth had helped a great deal, gave the wrath spawn the boost that he needed to really start to recover... when he woke he'd been a bit confused as to where he was, what had happened, only knew that his back was aching something fierce as were plenty of other places. He'd felt as though he'd been hit by a Mac truck... but he was getting better. He could get up and around on his own, a good thing as he didn't want anymore help from the techs then was absolutely necessary. The visits from the Fallen were frequent and a bit annoying, he didn't like being checked on so often as it made him feel like a child.

When he heard a knock on the door he figured that all it was, turning his three eyes to give it a glare. It was a miracle, if a half demon could believe in such a thing, that he had all his eyes intact despite the wounds he'd sustained there. He pushed to his feet and walked over to the door, lifting one clawed hand to run it through his hair.

It was much shorter now, the techs having just cut it off due to the blood that was matted in it, it was tucked behind his ears and horns which had grown out before he opened the door, "Look Fallen I don't need anything damn it. Just go... away..." His words trailed off as he found himself looking down at Adriel instead of Almas, something that had his anger subsiding and he leaned against the door, "Ahh, its you." He murmured.

Adriel looked sharply up as he heard Duncan's agry voice, he winced outwardly at the sound and smiled sheepishly as Duncan recognized that it was him.

"Ah..I hope I am not intruding...?" He inquired in a small voice. Despite being comfertable around Duncan his nervousness stemmed from his confession he had to make. Even Chii and Fuu were acting bizarrely as they only reached out and brushed Duncan's hands for the briefest of touches before retreating back to Adriel's side. He tried to look Duncan square in the eyes...but felt that glower of his third and turned his head aside in shame. His face flushing only slightly.

"I...w..was hoping to see y..ou up...glad to s,..see you feeling better." He continued unable to make Duncan's gaze.

The red skinned male gave a shrug of his shoulders as he moved away from the door, walking away from it so that Adriel could come in. Walking away from him would reveal the markings on his back. They were held together with a multitude of stitches, to two long marks where his wings used to be, "I am doing well enough." He said, settling down on the end of the bed in a slow manner that said while he was moving around it was a new thing, something he was still getting used too, "What about you? Are you doing alright? He didn't hurt you to much, did he?"

Adriel hadn't really realized just how big Duncan was till he was walking away, a bit intimidating by his growth spurt he dallied in the doorway before finally edging inside. One would think he was approaching a cliff edge rather than entering a room. The scars on his back made him blanch....a shudder ran down his spine as the questions were turned to him.
"N..n...ot ...in..the ..sa...ame way.."

He murmured as he took another couple of steps inside trying to steal himself against the urge to flee. He hadn't really told anyone what the spider demon had done to him..he was sure the Technicians figured it out..they had been rather thorough in their examination of him. He moved closer he really wanted to put an arm around Duncan to comfort him. Maybe he shouldn't tell him today...maybe when he was out of the labs. But..he knew that if he didn't tell him now it would eat away at him...it had been since it had happened.

"A...are...you in a lot of pain?" He inquired out of politeness.

Duncan gave Adriel a very strange look before he lifted a hand up and gave him a pat on the head, "Your lucky that your cute." He told his friend with a shake of his head. That had been a question with an answer that should be very obvious and as such he didn't bother to answer it. Instead he looked his friend over closely, inspecting him. He looked as though he were doing alright even if Chii and Fuu were behaving in a way that was odd for them... then again they had been different every time he'd run across them the passed few times.

Adriel was comforted by the touch, his face flushing slightly as he knew that he really wanted those strong hands to wrap around him...pull him in.... he winced...remembering why he was here...it was his ...genetics that got him in this situation in the first place.

"Um....d.do you mind if i sit ?" he inquired he felt as if his was breathless...his lungs weren't behaving properly it felt like they were trying to choke life out of him. Every day he felt more and more in-tune with his nature. He couldn't help it. Maybe his..hormones hit a tad late...but he certianly knew that what he wanted wasn't exactly agreeing with his brain the conflict was agonizing. If he didn't tell Duncan...well he was certian they could develop a relationship....but if he did..he felt his little dream sinking into the black depths of despair.


Duncan nodded, using his arms which hadn't been to terrible scraped up to help to move himself over so that Adriel could sit next to him, "Here you go." He said, deciding that he should probably do just that. He claimed to be alright but he looked rather weak, breathless. Maybe he'd been hurt more then he'd claimed?

"Are you sure that your alright? You and them," He motioned at the tentacles, "Seem a bit... off today."

He licked his lower lip nervously Duncan could be unsually perceptive at times. He at first nodded his head and then shook his head...he was so confused with his mind and what his body wanted it took him a couple moments to gather himself together enough for him to saw something.

"N...ot...really...t..thats..wh..why I am here.." he murmured finally the works sounding choked as if it was too hard to really say the words.

"Ahh... haha. I suppose that's true, huh?" He said, lifting a hand to scratch the back of his head feeling foolish. He really had no idea that Adriel had already gone home, having no idea how long he'd been here himself. He was recovering by sleeping away a lot of his time so everything was kind of blurring together for him. The days were all mixed and blurred, "Do you know when you will get to head home? I am told 'we will see'." That was said in a grumbling tone, he wanted to leave but the date he could go kept getting pushed back.

Adriel felt a pang of guilt. He looked down at his hands he was twisting them again a new habit he seemed to have developed when he was nervous.

"I...i've already been home...i...its been about...three..days...Duncan....I..m...sorry.." He mumbled. He felt like he was going to cry. He really wasn't good at this. He felt like a child coming to confess to the boogie man that he was terrified of him. He felt guilty for getting off with so little done to him. He felt guilty for what had happened int he three days he had managed to go home. Still...Chii...reached out and lay a limb on Adriel's arm trying to still him...Fuu on the other hand snaked over to gently prod against Duncan. Even their actions seems...so...weird...nearly sympathetic...or apologetic.

Duncan's eyes widened slight, "Three days?" He asked, sounding a bit as though he didn't quite believe it before he nodded, "Been sleeping so much I really didn't realize. Ahh... well I guess that's good, that you could head out." He said, "No need to apologize, I will be heading home when they think I am strong enough." Strange to find himself unable to be strong enough to do something. Strength normally something he had in abundance.

He looked down at at Fuu who had finally started to act more like the tentacles used to. He lifted a hand so that he could stroke his fingertips over Fuu gently.

Encouraged the limb nuzzled into Duncan's palm. There was...something almost pathetic...like it was begging to not be hurt.

"I...D...duncan..." He started but he stopped feeling his heart thud into his throat again.
"Duncan...if...I.....told you...I...apprecai..te you coming to find...find me...that out...of everyone....I was...the most relieved and yet devastated...that it was you...would you understand?" He started a sigh lingered at the end...as if he was finally coming to terms with what he had to tell Duncan.

He watched Fuu, lifting the tentacle up to press a kiss to it as though he were trying to assure it before looking over at Adriel, "When I heard about it on TV I couldn't just sit by." He murmured, "Didn't think I'd actually find you... I was just lucky." He gave a slightly pained laugh, "Well... somewhat lucky at least."

He starred down at Fuu before he finally asked, "Why... devastated?" That part he didn't so much understand, why would his trying to save Adriel being something devastating? Surely he didn't want to stay with that violent spider?

Adriel took another breath in between his teeth slowly as if he was trying to relax, Fuu continued to beg for some sort of attention whilst Chii went to stroking Adriel's arm.

"I...couldn't...b..bare it. I....didn't..want...out...of..everyone...t..to see you get....hurt. I...h..ad been...with..'him'...for..a while. I..k..knew what he could do...i.seeing you..c..come through..th..that door..beat up...bloody..wounded...it..made m...my he..heart w..ant to scream..yet...am..I selfish for...being elated beyond any common sense...t..hat...you came fo..for me?" He finally moved his hands to his forhead and pushed his hair out of his face it dropped back into his face stubbornly. He licked his upper lip again before he finally forced himself to look at Duncan.

Duncan gave a little growling sound, "I am... disappointed in myself... that I like that spider beat me up so easily." He said between clenched teeth. He hadn't wanted that, wanted to be able to protect Adriel, to save him, and he'd gotten knocked around as though he were just a child. He hated it so much, that he'd had to wait until the spider was completely distracted to even be able to wound Reshmi, "I'm sorry I failed at the rescue... that I didn't get there fast enough." He said, his attention on Fuu, petting the tentacle, nuzzling and kissing it, ways to distract himself from his own failings.

Adriel squirmed a bit the attention Duncan was giving Fuu....well he was a bit annoyed and jealous. He wanted those lips on his own.."Don't...be..sorry...it..c.could of been anyone..that...d..demon got ahold off...I..was..j..just unlucky." He murmured he didn't want Duncan to shoulder the blame. "i..am..g..grateful...t..to you Duncan.. m..more than I ..c..can express in words. " He continued in a low tone. It took him a bit of a hesitant moment to remove his gaze from Duncan kissing Fuu. He felt his throat close up...tears were welling in his eyes.

":I..." There was a sharp crack in the word...his voice wasn't stable enough to really express what he wanted to say. He balled his hands into fist and shoved them into eyes trying to stop the tears. He couldn't act like this...it felt like he was saying goodbye rather than expressing his love to him. And in a way it was both true. He was expecting the anger expecting Duncan to feel betrayed but he wanted Duncan to know how much he meant to him...even if it seemed trivial.

Duncan lifted his gaze to look over at Adriel, hesitantly but seemed to be assured by the other spawn's words. He wasn't mad at him for being unable to do more... even if Duncan was mad at himself for it. It was a nice feeling, to know that Adriel didn't think him weak despite how easily the spider demon had trounced him, "I am glad that your free of him. Hopefully someone will deal with him, so that he can't catch or hurt anyone elses." As much as he loved to dream about the spider demon bleeding out from the wound he'd gotten but he doubted something so slight would take him out.

He shifted, turning when it looked as though Adriel was suddenly trying to fight off tears and he lifted a hand up to stroke a hand over his hair, "Its alright. Just take a breath." He murmured, not wanting for Adriel to cry.

The touching was a comfort he felt himself leaning into the touch, nearly yearning for it. He hated himself more for it. It took him...several minutes...to finally regain his composure, and even when he pulled his hands away from his face there was evidence that tears had leaked out anyway. His breathing was becoming more even, but he still looked distraught.
"D..Duncan..." the word was nearly breathless as it left his lips. He went back to twisting his hands together again, pausing only a couple of times when it looked like he was going to speak, but nothing came.

"...w..would...y...ou..believe me...if I..told you...I ..loved...you? Bel..believe...that...i..if anything ..w..were to happen t..oo.." His voice cracked again and he had to pause...and breath again...until he was able to continue
"t..oo..you...I...my...w..world...would...mea...mean little...?" He inquired his voice small as if he was too scared to speak above a whisper or loose control of his voice again.

The wrath spawn's trio of eyes got a bit wide at that and he turned away, a bit of a flush on his cheeks, "Ahh... I suppose I would believe it." He murmured, then again he knew little about love and stuff like that himself, always so wrapped up by his anger... but he knew he cared for Adriel, that he got possessive of him at times, enjoyed being with him. That stuff was balanced skewed when he recalled the times he felt the overwhelming desire to leave marks on his friend or the desire to make him cry when they were younger... his perceptions of things were a bit skewed by his weird nature... so he would believe Adriel because he didn't understand the stuff himself and believed if anyone could it would be someone like Adriel.

He moved his hand to lay it over one of his friend's hands, giving it a squeeze, "I'm... sorry I rushed in without thinking... sorry I got hurt and made you worry about me... I have times where its a bit hard for me to think and plan ahead." He sounded a bit embarrassed by his haste.

Adriel quivered under Duncan's hand, his trembling was evident. Chii stopped stroking unsure of what to do, Fuu even paused with its insestant need to attention and pulled back from Duncan, both looked unsure confused.
"...D..on.'t..." He managed to gasp out he wanted to pull his hand away suddenly angry with himself for letting Duncan think it was his fault.
"I...i..its .n..not y...our...f..fault." He breathed between clenched teeth. "P..l..lease...s..stop..b...blaming..y..ourself." His own nature was to love..not fight. Perhaps love in a more bodily way...but he knew he cared for the boy..no...man, more than anything else in the world. And it was like a bleeding wound...punched through his lung causing him to want to break down and cry.. it took him another couple of minutes to compose himself once more before he finally dredged up the reason why he came here.

"D..uncan...I..know...and..accept who and what you a...are..:" He started..perhaps seeking a bit of sympathy but he didn't expect any.
"B...but...I don't...e..expect..the..s...ame..f..for me.." He trailed off...the words on the tips of his tongue...but he swallowed them down. Unable to speak them just yet.

It confused Duncan, how easily people could accept him despite what he was and all of what he'd done in his life... he was a dangerous creature and yet everyone always saw him in a good light. It was odd... and weird to him, he used to dislike himself greatly and what he was capable of though he was starting to finally at least grow to be content. He gave a little smile, "Thank you for that... accepting what I am." He murmured, before he turned to watch him closely again, "Why... don't you expect the same?" He asked, a little curiosity showing in two of his three eyes, the third one just suspicious as it always was.

Adriel took another deep yet...shuddering breath...as if it hurt to breath.
"B..ecause...w..h..at I ...do..is..inexcusable..." He had wanted to say unforgivable. But he couldn't bring himself to say it out loud, it hurt too much to even think it..
"Du..ncan...do...y.you know...Adhara?" He asked finally, the topic seemed to shift suddenly...he hoped it would be obvious enough why the shift.... but he couldn't count on it.

Duncan couldn't help but give Adriel a strange look, "Inexcusable? I can't exactly say that between us what you've done is worse." At least nothing he knew of or could imagine off hand could be worse then what he'd done in his time... not that he wanted to share any of that with Adriel. It was a private matter that very few people knew. He didn't want anymore people then was necessary to know he had blood on his hands.

"Hmm? Adhara?" He gave a nod of his head, "I've met her on a couple of occasions." He said, wondering where that came from.

While he looked a little confused the Yellow eye in his forehead set to glaring at Adriel in an untrusting sort of way.

Adriel swallowed the lump in his throat he looked to Duncan spotted the glaring untrustful eye and instantly averted his gaze. It made him shiver uncontrollably. Like the eye knew...but wouldn't share its information with Duncan.
"D..duncan..." he managed to squeak out...he hated to speak..he hated how he sounded,
"I....we...had..."..he couldn't bring it out. that dreaded word. Sex.
Ironic that he couldn't form a three letter word with his mouth.
"A..adhara...and..I...." He couldn't do it ..he was trembling so hard that when he finally did manage to squeak out the words it was so soft..even he wasn't sure if he had spoken them.
"H...ad....s..ex.."
He paused ready for the explosion.

Duncan tilted his head to the side, two eyes going wide and the other gave Adriel a sort of glare that if looks could kill the Lust spawn would have been knocked flat. Duncan lifted a hand up to his chest as though he were trying to figure out where the pain had come from. It was... a strange sort of pain, something different then physical pain so it was weird for him. He looked away from Adrielfor a moment, down at his feet on the floor, "I see." He murmured, pushing to his feet.

He felt slightly... dizzy. It wasn't a good feeling... his temper was a half step behind the pain that had flared in his chest and he had to take a step away from Adriel, a rushed one that caused the wounds in his back to twinge. That pain caused red to tint the edges of his vision, "I... see... so... you like her to then?" He asked, trying to figure it out. It was... infuriating. Did he love Adhara? Was his love for her different then the love Adriel claimed to have for him? Maybe it was greater, more important? After all Adriel had only ever kissed him nothing like that... was he jealous? He blinked rapidly as though he were just now realizing the twinge in his chest was just that, it was jealousy... and he felt an almost blinding rage that was focused at someone who wasn't here. Adhara... she was his friend but she had done that with Adriel... was trying to steal Adriel... Duncan clenched his hands into first, his nails biting into his palms as a growl escaped him.  

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Hello Again: Part Two

He had expected it...but he still cringed and tried not to curl up into a ball so he could just die. Nothing...hurt as much as this...seeing Duncan angry and upset at him was more than he could bear. And when the question was hurled at him he physically flinched like Ducan had thrown a book at him.

"D..u..duncan..." he squeaked out he looked to his hands in his lap Chii and Fuu shuddered in the in the air around him as if unsure if they expected an attack on Adriel or not. Adriel couldn't bring himself to meet Duncan's accusing look.

"I...d...don't...w..want..you...to.be..angry ..w..with her...i..its..my..fault...I..older..." he could take the blame...even if he felt the both shared part of it..due to their...annoying genetics.
"P...l...lease...don..nt ta..take this..out...on .h..her ..I..." He stopped his breath shuddering in his lungs, "I...s..she....o..nly...s..stopped..b..by..to...s..ee..if...I...w..was okay..." He murmured knowing having to explain all of this was going to be like under a torturers device. "I....was..in...t..the...shower..a..and..she..sn..snuck into m..my room. O..ne ..thing...led...to..another.." As soon as he said those last words he regretted it. it sounded like he had done it willingingly, eagerly even. He covered his face with his hands, unsure of what to say now or what to do.
"I..if..you h..hate me...I..und..er.stand...bu...t do..n't...hate...her...its..not..h..her fault." He managed to breath between fingers.

Duncan's body shifted and there was a scraping sound as the claws on his feet dug into the tile floor under them, a trembling started to become visible as well as Adriel spoke... and he said more and more, far to much for his own good. He never denied it... he did like Adhara! He shook his head when he started to defend the girl, wanting him to stop, to stop defending her... but he didn't... and then to say that he could hate Adriel but not to hate her... his body gave another shiver, teeth clenching as he took a step forward toward the other spawn, "You should... go now." He snarled, lifting one hand up and pointed at the door to his room. He would give him one chance to leave.

Adriel looked up once he saw the anger on the others face the rage there. He knew he was pointing to the door he resisted the urge to cheat and use his pheromones...he had some what control of it now...as long as he wasn't startled anyway. He opened his mouth to speak feeling like the world had open up around him and was now swallowing him whole. But..one stubborn piece of him refused to let go of that ledge.

Chii..surprisingly enough moved forward and so did Fuu simultaneously, there was nothing aggressive in the way they moved, it was more...sad. Like they realized that ..they had been apart of what caused this mess.

"No...do what you want to me..." He whispered his face still looking at his hands which now were clenched into fists.

"I..if I le..eave now...I..w..won't...you...wont... want...to..s..see me again." He murmured he finally brought his gaze up to meed Duncan's if a bit timidly.

"I..don.t...want..that...I...can't....express..how...s.sorry I am Duncan...nothing...I..can..say...or..d..do..can..probably erase..w..what I have done..." He continued another shuddering breath coming along like he was drowning in a countless billion things he wanted to say.

"But... I..love YOU..." He put as much emphasis on the word as he could. "N...nothing..can..or..will ..change that..." He finally lowered his gaze...unable to focus on that accusing raging third eye.

Duncan tried to calm himself, dragging in breaths but Adriel wasn't leaving... it wasn't making anything easy to have him still there, still talking, and it was getting harder and harder to understand him. His rage was causing him to only hear the thudding of his heart in his ears, the rush of blood, and his vision was tinting red. When Adriel lowered his gaze, showing to submissive of an attitude to the wrath spawn.

He meant only to take one step toward him, wanting to intimidate him into leaving by moving closer, by growling... but he moved faster then he meant to, farther, and his hands lifted up to grab hold of Adriel by his shoulders... a few more steps and he had the smaller, younger spawn against the closest wall.

Even if he had ..mentally prepared for it, expected it ...it wasn't anything like experiencing it. He breathed rushed out of his lungs as his back smashed against the wall he was having trouble trying to breath the claws in his shoulders only a too painful reminder of what Duncan was capable of. Chii and Fuu reacted out of instinct. wrapping themselves around Duncan's wrists in order to yank them off of Adriel. Adriel struggled to speak but could only shake his head his forehead slits opened since he had no control even as he shut his eyes tightly willing the pheromones to not come out. He didn't want Duncan to ...feel cheated out of his anger...he deserved nothing less than this. Adriel knew he deserved much worse. He tried to smile past the pain but it faltered, when he was finally able to breath properly he raised his eyes to look at Duncan as if he was wondering what he was going to do next.

Duncan was breathing hard, what he'd done required little effort given his strength though his body was still weak after what he'd been through... it didn't stop him from pushing Adriel harder against the wall and up, taking him off the ground... and then his form started to shake harder as he tried his damnedest to catch his breath. He was gulping in air and was seriously trying to calm himself, to keep himself from hurting Adriel... he didn't want to even though he could feel his claws digging into him. When the tentacles grabbed him it only caused his emotions to go more haywire... they were trying to stop him... it was a good thing, he needed to be stopped... what he thought was being smothered by what he felt and what he felt was the cause of what he was doing.

He could smell something sweet all of a sudden... it was a familiar scent, one that belonged to Adriel and caused his head to spin that much more, another growl coming from him even as he tried and failed to calm himself.

He was trying to calm himself as well...he knew what was coming, but still..
"C..chii..Fu.u...l..let..go.." he ordered the tentacles to release Duncan's wrists and they hesitated as if wondering if Adriel had lost his mind. But...they did...if reluctantly.
"D.un..can..I..love..you.." He whispered the words but they were close enough no one else need to hear them but the one lifting him off the ground.
"I trust you...I deserve whate..ever it is..you plan t..to do..to me..just...be..lieve..that I only..love...you..." It felt like a wasted breath when the wrath based child was in such a blinding sort of rage...

Duncan's eyes narrowed as he looked up at the span he had pinned to the wall... then all of his eyes narrowed at once, as though being told repeatedly that he was loved was annoying him, causing his emotions to get more and more skewed. He was... loved. Adriel loved him but he'd done 'that' with someone else. He didn't like it, didn't want Adriel being so friendly with others, didn't even like the idea of Adriel being nice to other people! Adriel was his friend, his... he felt another twinge in his chest. He didn't want to share him! Why should he have to share? If Adriel really loved him why did he do things like that with other people? He gave a low growl in his throat as something suddenly came to mind, whispering to him an idea... and he was to far gone, lost in his swirling emotions to even consider how bad the idea was... he stepped closer, leaning closer and his mouth opened up and then snapped closed, sharp teeth sinking into Adriel's shoulder. He had always had the move overwhelming desire to leave marks on Adriel to who the spawn was his... maybe if hes given into that desire earlier others would have realized that he wasn't up for grabs, maybe then that Spider and Adhara wouldn't have taken what was his...


Adriel's eyes widened, he certainly hadn't expected that. He let out a gasp of pain, it hurt...so much. He wanted to squirm and wriggle out of Duncan's hold. But he forced himself to stay still, this was his punishment for betraying Duncan..he kept repeating to himself. Even so Chii and Fuu were not liking this turn out.. the writhed in the air, knowing that Adriel had ordered them to not hurt Duncan but Duncan was hurting Adriel. It hurt to move but even so he tried..tried very hard to lift a hand... move an arm...with a shoulder not currently being bitten upon to grasp at Duncan's pant leg. He needed to grab something...anything the cloth would do. he clenched it like he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes trying to focus past the pain..remind himself that he deserved it. The leaking of pheromones was twisting around the air around them, Adriel had thought that with Duncan biting him it meant it was withheld, he was sure it was still.. inside of him...there was no way that Duncan would react this way...to it...would he?

Duncan snarled around Adriel's shoulder, able to feel the way the tentacles were moving, the way they wanted to react but weren't being allowed too... and then he was backing off. Adriel was released, dropped down from where he was pressed against the wall and left in a heap where he landed. He then took another step back, lifting a hand to wipe it against his mouth as he started to slowly come out of his swirling rage as he felt a sense of triumph.

The bite ...once released gushed blood for a moment it dripped down Adriel's shoulder soaking his shirt, he felt dizzy his hand still clutched to Duncan's pant leg like it was a life preserver, his whole body trembled perhaps from the shock, perhaps from memories he didn't want to remember welling up. The spider demon had bit him in such ways...now ..Duncan did. It...was different though..more ruthless perhaps one could say even careless but he only slumped his head down wondering if Duncan's anger was fading or only getting warmed up.

"I won't.... you know." Duncan murmured, kneeling down in front of Adriel before he leaned forward and pressed a kiss to the shoulder that he'd just injured before he drew back, "I won't share you." He collapsed into a sitting position, his form trembling a little. He looked at the wound before he lifted a his hand up to run it up to touch the wound as though his conscience mind was wrapping around the fact that he'd done it... he'd actually done it, he'd left a mark on Adriel.

Adriel flinched, he had tried very hard not to.but he did anyway, the pain was a bit too close to old memories. His breathing was ragged as Duncan's words seem to seep into his brain he licked his upper lip not trusting his voice, "I..am..yours..." He managed to murmur completely submissive at this point. He'd do just about anything for Duncan.

Duncan nodded, leaning forward to rest his forehead against Adriel's chest, "I'm... sorry... that I hurt you but... not..." He murmured, a little confused about it. He didn't like it and yet it made him somehow happy. His mind was spinning a bit and his chest was heaving but was slowly starting to ease, he was starting to calm down again. His anger came in spurts but now that his rage was easing he was starting to feel exhausted.

He was starting to regret so much movement so soon after what had happened with the spider demon.

Adriel took an uneasy breath, perhaps now ..he could explain..but it didn't matter. He supposed the details would only muddle things..and make Duncan angry again. He knew what was important..what had transpired and that was enough. His small frame shuddered as he finally went to press a hand to the wound. It hurt. A lot. It would probably scar...and he didn't seem to mind, His other hand moved to stroke Duncan's hair.

"I...i'm sorry I ..did..t..that to you...I...should..of waited..till you were..b..better..but...I..couldn't...bare the..t.thought of keeping it..f..from you any...longer." He murmured.

He shook his head, "Better this way..." He murmured, lifting his gaze up so he could look at Adriel and gave a smile, "I am... tired, weak... I am not as dangerous now." He murmured, glad for the fact that he was so tired that he couldn't really attack as he normally might. He would hate to think what he could have done were he feeling good, were he no longer in pain, able to move like normal.

Adriel still felt like he had cheated out of a true punishment, he swallowed a mouthful of air a low chuckling that even surprised himself escaped his lips.
"I...wonder how..I am going to ...explain..this...to m..mom.." He spoke shakily as if trying to shake off the pain even though he knew it wasn't going to ebb much.
Instead he felt somewhat relieved, relieved that Duncan...still wanted him.
At least..he thought that was it.
"Dun..can..do...y..ou forgive me?" He inquired in a small voice

Duncan let his eyes sink half closed, "I... don't know... its hard to do so." He murmured as he nuzzled against him for a moment before scooting closer so that he could lean against the wall next to Adriel, "I think I could... easy to forgive you... I feel like I want to stay near to you but her..." He gave a shiver at the thought of running across Adhara anytime soon, "Need to avoid her for a while."

Adriel went to cup Duncan's cheek he forced Duncan to look up at him, "D..duncan...believe me...I am at fault...she is..only a minor...and didn't...know...any better..." He felt like he was a broken record he didn't want to start things afresh with Duncan but he had to get it across it was his fault not hers.

"Be angry with me...please.." He murmured as he leaned in to kissed the wrath spawn lightly on the lips.

Duncan gave a soft sound at the kiss, feeling himself relax further, "Its harder to be mad at you." He said, "I know you to well... and like you." He leaned into him, careful not to press to close to where Adriel was wounded, "Do you need something for that? A bandage?" They were in the right place for it, to have Adriel's wound looked at and wrapped up.... maybe cleaned so that he didn't get an infection or something.

Adriel winced yeah it hurt like a thousand knives still stabbing at it. Why did Duncan have to ruin the mood? He felt a bit saddened at the word like, but he guessed it would be a long while before 'love' flowed from Duncan's mouth.
"I guess it.should be looked at...its...still bleeding?" He asked as he couldn't bring himself to look.

He moved closer to him, looking at the wound and gave a nod, "A little yes." He murmured, it was only the fact that the wound hurt Adriel that made Duncan regret what he'd done... even if his rage had fueled the attack it was a thought that was always lingering in the back of his mind. He pushed up to his feet, giving a little hiss as it caused a twinged to go through the two marks on his back. He had to put a hand against the wall to steady himself before he held the other one out to Adriel, offering him a hand up off the floor.

Adriel looked up took the hand offered too him as he wasn't exactly sure if he could manage it on his own either. Chii and Fuu ...were still reluctant to react...not sure about Duncan...and what had transpired between them. They kept their distance. Adriel wanted to lean into that muscular frame and lay there a long while. Instead he sagged against the wall.
"Yeah...looks like yo..you got a room mate...for the..day.." He smiled half heartedly.

Duncan nodded, "I don't mind... though I should probably lay down soon. Don't think I will be able to stay on my feel much longer." He murmured, going to seek out some bandages that had been left behind in the room, as often as the techs had to come by to check his wounds for a while there they'd just left the supplies to make things easier for themselves. He motioned for Adriel to come over to him "You might want to take off your shirt so I can wrap you up. Then we can nap."

Adriel didn't argue he stumbled his way over to Duncan and Chii and Fuu ..apt at removing clothing had his shirt off effortless in moments. They dropped the rather ruined shirt on the floor and were now poised ready for anything. Adriel only batted them down and went to sit on the bed heavily. He felt very tired...though probably no where near as tired as Duncan he fathomed.

It took all of Duncan's current determination and concentration to get the wound wrapped and when it was done he plopped down on the bed. He sat there for a moment looking almost as though he would fall asleep right there but forced himself to moved. He scooted back so that he was all the way on the bed and sank down onto his side, "Mmm... sleepy." He muttered, patting the bed next to him to offer the space to Adriel if he wanted to lay there.

Adriel looked at Duncan dumbly a moment, at the gesture...it took a moment for it to click in that perhaps he wasn't 100% forgiven but at least he would allow him to sleep next to him. A surge of happiness flowed through him as he moved to lay beside Duncan happily. Chii and Fuu knew this drill...and they promptly wrapped themselves gently around Duncan.

Adriel was asleep promptly it didn't take him long as it was his nature to be sleeping with someone than alone.  

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Unloading on the Best friend sucks...

(rp on msn Mareike belongs to LadyUmbra Adriel belong to me.)

Adriel had left the facility a little worse for wear than how he had arrived, at least he was bandaged up and taken care of. He hated to leave Duncan but he knew that he would recover better if he wasn't sleeping in his small bed. Now...he had no desire to go home. He needed a reason a fib really to explain how this ....wound appeared on his shoulder. He felt very lonely...and then wondered if Mareike would hate him if he were to suddenly appear on her doorstep asking for a chance to talk with her. Musing as the weight on his chest was lighted by a lot, he still felt guilt...horrendous guilt for what he had done with Adhara. He wanted to dicuss it in detail with someone...and Duncan was definately not that someone. He wondered if Mareike would hit him telling him he was stupid...he would deserve much more than that...expected it. What he had done was a sin, it only made him suffer more to realize that Adhara herself had not understood how gravely bad it was. Taking a breath he tried to slow his rcing heart and then trotted off to her house. It was... a bit far but he had time...time to word his thoughts into careful sentences so he didn't appear an huge idiot. An idiot still of course but at least one who was begging for understanding. Sooner than he had thought he was there...he blinked furiously as he was face to face with her door. Chii reached out and rang the bell whilst Fuu knocked on the door. Adriel stood there cursing...

Mareike was lounging on the couch when she heard a knock and the doorbell ring at the same time. She had a science test in a few days but all the words and thier meanings refused to stay in the maroon skinned girl's head. For now she was taking a break for atleast an hour before attempting to study the terms she needed to know for the test.

" I swear if it's those ******** church people again " She growled getting up to check the door " Require saving do I?" she shook her head, while she might be more demon than angel Mareike had no interest in being saved nor was she interested in joinig any church.
Prepared to give whoever was standing there thorough chewing out Mareike opened the door and opened her mouth to start yelling when she paused, blinked and stared at Adriel. Her childhood friend wasn't in the best of shape but it was better than the last time she'd seen him. " Adriel, what are you doing here, are you ok?" she asked steppign back into the house to allow the boy to enter " come in " why was he here? Not that the girl minded but she still wanted to know why, she was always the oen having to go to him.


Adriel nodded his head allowing his small timid smile onto his lips as she answered the door in all her huffiness that he loved about her. She was his best friend...he only hoped he could understand what he was going to try and get off his chest to her.
"Uh..is ..this a good time? I would..h..hate to be bothering you." He murmured as he stepped into the house eyeing the books that were heaped up but Chii and Fuu were only thrilled to see mareike and they reached out pausing to actually 'look' at Adriel as if wondering if it were okay.
"Th..they want to hug...you...i...is that okay?" He asked feeling a bit embaressed to ask for them...they seemed to do whatever they wanted usually.


Mareike closed the door and shook her head " It's fine I'm on abreak from studying anyways, can't concentrate." The girl eyed the tentacles warily but then nodded " Sure, they seem to be behaving better than normal." Clearly whatever adriel had been through in the past had granted him the abilitiy to actually make the troublesome tentacles listen

Thrilled Chii and Fuu didn't waste a second as they encriceled around Mareike and brought her close to press against Adriel's chest. They didn't hug hard or tightly, they actually seemed very happy to see her.
Adriel coughed a bit and they abruptly let go, going back to his sides his face lightly blushing. Something...seemed wrong with his posture...he seemed to be favoring his one shouder...there was frezze gauze there...and...a small bright red spot of blood showing the bandage should probably be changed soon. Moving his one side seemed very painful to him, but he was trying very hard to mask it. He didn't want Mareike to be too worried.
"U..h...I..know..thi..s isn't..entirely fair to you Mareike...b..but I could really use..a friend..right now." he spoke his voice sounding tired and older than he was. "D..do you mind if..we talk?" He asked looking up into her tri colored eyes feeling that he was being unfair to everyone as of late.

Even the boy hadn't been favoruing the shoulder, Mareike could smell the injury on him. Adriel was a trouble magnet it seemed and always in need of rescuing.
Her eyes narrowed a bit at his request and she gave a soft sigh " I dragged your heavy a** out of an alley while you were tyring to bleed all over me Adriel, I think I can handle a little talking " she chided him " besides you have have a lot of explaining to do." though her words were were rough there was a small smile on the girl's face, she had infinite patience when it came to her best friend no matter how often she wanted to smack him and tell him to learn to be careful and stronger.

She headed for the stairs and motioned for him to follow " We should go up to my room or we'll get interrupted every few minutes." Now mareike was curious clearly Adriel was in trouble again but this time he;d coem to her which was shocking and sort of heart warming a little to know that he trusted her enough to coem to her for help.

Adriel let out a breath wondering if the bed room was....such a great idea. He would sit on the floor he managed to rationalize in his mind. And keep a firm control over his...rather annoying talent. He didn't have it in him to have to go back to Duncan to confess another problem that had occured because of what he was. Besides...he couldn't do that to Mareike. He wouldn't let it come to that Moving he followed her keep a safe distance that didn't seem rude and allowed himself to revel and envy her gorgous wings. Finally breaking his gaze from then he realized he had never properly thanked Mareike for helping him...he would need to thank Litural as well..if he ever got a chance to see the other wrath child again.
As they entered her room he promptly went to sit on the floor where it would be convenient for Mareike to sit on her bed. He looked at her with doeful eyes pleading for help.

Mareike flopped belly first onto her bed stretching out and not having left any room for Adriel even if he had wanted to join her. She turned her head to look at him and gave the older boy a reassuring smile " Relax nothing can hurt you here ."

He wasn't really sure of that...he could hurt her...if he lost control again. He felt nervous all of a sudden, and his mouth dry but he tried to smile back at her attempt of trying to make him feel better.
"Thanks Mareike...I really missed you.." He responded honestly. How was it he always attracted the wrath types? Maybe they all felt sorry his his weak self. He wasn't exactly sure.
"I...know i don't really deserve your friendship...there is no reason for you to have to put up with me...I..i'm sorry." he breathed feeling the first of his confessions getting out. He was sorry, very sorry he had left her out of his life for a while. He had thought it best, he didn't want to hurt her while he struggeled to figure out his pheamones.


Mareike shrugged " You skipped lessons with me and Idragged you into girl's changing rooms. it's an unbreakable friendship thing" the girl bit her lower lip a little " I mean it did hurt when you were ignoring me and you were always sick and I worried about you but you were my first friend, you didn't care than I was mean and bossy and you were more afriad of looking silly when we did stuff than you were of me" There was a soft sigh " there are still days when i wanna shake you and ask why you keep disappearign but I dunno as logn as you keep comign back i don't mind."

It was weird but for Adriel the girl would tolerate a lot

Adriel couldn't meet her gaze it hurt what she said but he understood how she must of felt. Abandoned alone..with no reason why. He was older now...at least he owed it to her to try and explain. Drawing his legs up to his body he tried to take a slow steady breath. this wasn't nearly as hard as it had been with Duncan. Course..he knew how Duncan would react, and thus he had been afriad, and nearly terrified he would lose him forever. It was't the same with Mareike, he felt like he could pour out his soul to her and she would...still...be there for him. He depended on her a lot, and he was grateful she was his best friend.
"I...am really sorry about that Mareike, I can try and explain...." He offered trying to figure out the best way to explain it.
"Those drugs I was on.. they..helped a bit, but they..also left me...rather..uh...exciteable at times. I ..really didn't want to risk your friendship if I did something very stupid against you." He started trying to phrase it in such a way she may understand he was just trying to protect her.
"Then...I..ran out of pills altogether...it got worse...I didn't want to go back to the facility to get more...but..everyday I couldn't stop myself or my body from reacting to my genes..my mom had to lock me in my room for hours at a time until...my body was satisfied..." he lowered his head into his knees , this was embrassesing but he knew it was...needed for he to understand.


Mareike stared at Adriel somewhat shocked, she knew he was a lust kid and knew it eant he was well a pervert but she hadn't really though about how bad it could get. She'd never imagined he'd have a harder time harnessesing his sin then she did hers. a small part of her was still annoyed, tried to insist that she'd have not let him be a pervert withher but another part argued that she was way to tolerant of him to really hurt him if he tried something. it was frustratign and enlightenign and the best Mareike could do was nod slowly. At least he was better now though or she assumed he was or he wouldnt be alone here with her .

" I'm not mad anymore" she said softly " and I think " can sort of understand" the girl ruffled her feathers "I'm sorry " she was goignto killy vampy when adriel was gone. she was going to find the man and rip him to shreds for creating her friend only to let him suffer like this.


Adriel looked up as she ruffeled her wings and smiled a small smile. "don't be sorry...I am the one apologizing remember?" He laughed and Chii stroked her hand a bit. Fuu continued to rest on his arm looking...'thoughtful'.
"I...was on my way to the facility to get more pills....I couldn't stand it anymore...when that...thing found me...and caught me." He murmured those darker memories snarled together in a mesh of his life he wished had never happened. But..if it wasn't for that...would of he been able to gain control of Chii and Fuu? It seemed to have been a breaking point...something that forced him to take command. He explained it all to her, what the spider did to him everyday while captured, the true horror of it still captured in his eyes when he described how the demon bite him penitrated him, he thought idly if he should be embaresed but it felt so nice to confide in someone. He didn't even let his mom know entirely or the staff, though he was sure they knew after examining him, what had gone on. Still he continued until he got to the point of the story where he got to go home. Then he grew quite. THe next part was probably the most horrbile part.


Mareike watched Chii with one eye though at this point she pretty much trusted the tentacle to behave itself.

The girl barely surpressed a growl as Adriel began to dwell on the events that had lead to his highly injured condition the last time she'd seen him. She wanted to hurt the bastaerd who had hurt her friend. A red haze clouded her vision as she desired to spill ever last drop of blood from the creature who had dared to take Adriel's and who had dared to to, to touch him in that manner. The thought of such an act committed against anyone made Mareike's stomach churn. To make someone so defenseless and then to... she would kill him, she would find the b*****d and he would die by her hands. The fact that Duncan had not been able to kill the monster did not deter Mareike, she was a different blend than him, younger but determined. She would avenge her friend.

Gently she wraped her and around Chii and squeezed the tentacle a little ." I"m sorry i didn't find you sooner" she murmured not sure what else to say and able to tell her friend had yet more to say


Adriel was trying to NOT dwell on it, but would much rather think those memories than the story he was about to tell.
"D..dont be sorry." He breathed, "You...may hate me when i tell you the rest..." he murmured letting his head sag between his knees. Chii was asking for attention, no begging for it, like a whipped dog asking its master for forgiveness. Fuu remained silent on his arm. He was silent a moment as he gathered his thoughts trying to reject the memory from his mind but knowing it was all too real.
"When I got home....my mother was so happy and relieved to see me, she didn't mind Chii and Fuu on her and she just kissed me and hugged me tightly." He started and then describe dhow she ordered him into the shower and then to bed. He explained how he had heard the doorbell ring but didn't know who had come at this hour, recalled his shock when he entered his bedroom with only a towel around his waiste to find Adhara there. He explained how she had snuck into his room cause she had been worried about him but Jayoku wouldn't allow her to see him. explained how...everything went so wrong. He went silent as he finished off, he had tried to defend himself very little ust stated the facts. Pheramones were in the air and in her blood...they both didn't stand a chance. He waited for her anger his head still bent between his knees.

Mareiek was torn between smacking the boy and asking him how the hell he hadn't managed to control himself given what'd happened to him and hunting down Adhara for being an idiot and putting him in the position in the first place. " i'm going to kill vampy" she muttered as she slid off the bed to go and hug her friend carefully. " I think you're both at fault here but i wouldnt say it was exactly the same as before" she said softly. It wasn;t rape but it wasn;t exactly consensual either it was, well it was screwed up as what it was. Really these sorts of things were just typical adriel too.

Mareike wasn;t really sure what to think as she hugged the boy. Just that he was her friend and she could practially feel the guilt rolling off him. He was still to blame at least a little for his little sexcapade there but it could have been worse.


Adriel hadn't expected her to sound calm. She spoke true words and even came to wrap her arms around him in a hug. He ...trembeled wondering if he would cry. Yeah that would probably make her angry...he already felt the tears gathering.
"Th..the worse part..." He croaked his body now indeed trembling under her touch, "is..i enjoyed it...the whole thing, i couldn't stop myself once we started, it wasn't until we were done and the faded after glow that it hit me. I just had sex with a minor. I was a *****." He sobbed against his arm, "she didn't understand the problem, just smiled said she was okay and left...I hate myself...so much. Every ounce of my being...how could I let that happen? Don't I have ANY self control?" He snarled...it was ...a disturbing sound coming from someone like Adriel but his self loathing was apparant boiling at the surface of each word. "Am I doomed to just end up molesting any girl I come in contact....." He stopped abruptly and went rigid in her arms. "hold your breath." he whispered weakly as he then smacked a palm against his forhead a small curse escaping his lips.

Mareike shook her head and rolled her eyes " you're not strong enough to molest me and i can yell for my brother if i need too" Taylor was supposed to be able to counter lusts pheramones so Mareike felt very little danger from her friend. thuogh she was midly agitated by the snarl he;d uttered a moment ago even if it had been directed at himself. " I trust us" she said firmly " Nothing will happen."

The girl was still a bit disturbed by adriels confession althoughthe fatc that he'd liked it didn;t bother her as much as she thought it would. perhaps becuase the girl got her own thrilling makign people bleed or feeling her fists mee thier flesh. There was a limit to how much any child could flight thier demonic side.

He looked over at her and was actually glaring, didn't she not think this was serious? He felt a moment of...anger. He hadn't experienced that...towards someone else anyway for a while long time. Then he realized he was being stupid. Of course she wasn't worried...she was wrath after all and could probably over power him in an instant. His expression softened and he looked away guilty.
"sorry.. I...I am just angry with myself...and my situtaion.." He sighed and let his shoulders sag. "I..just...can't agree with it being..nothing will happen? how do you know? I will try my best to not...let anything happen to you...I can't risk losing you too...not like I almost did with Duncan." He mumbeled into his arms allowing his forhead to be pressed into his arm. "I just..hate myself."



" I'm not going anywhere " Mareike promised " and while i can;t predict if you will try anything I can promise you it wouldn't get to point where you'd regret it" Possibly becuase the Wrath child was still at odds with her own sexuality at the moment, she was startign to understand it better what she liked and didn't what she did and didn't want. still she wasn't really likely to let adiel molest her nevermind have sex with her.

"and what's duncan got anything to do with this?"

His face flushed at the mention of Duncan's name even if his head was between his knee he was sure his purple skin was darkening right up to the tips of his pointed ears. He struggeled for words to describe how he felt about Duncan but could only desribe it bluntly.
"I...love him." He murmured, not ashamed just a bit in awe of the emotion still.  

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Unloading on the Best friend sucks... Part 2

(rp on msn Mareike belongs to LadyUmbra Adriel belong to me.)

Mareike stared at adriel " You love him and you.. with a girl?" Now the wrath child was just plain confused. How did that even work?

Adriel buried his head into his arms again. "I..don't feel that way towards Adhara....that was....just...I wish it never happened." He concluded tears threatening his eyes again. Trying to explain that it had been beyond his control seemed like a very hallow excuse.

Mareike nodded slowly " Your pheromones clearly don't care which gender you prefer " she said softly. " I should be insulted you don't like me instead but I'm just glad your happy and maybe he can keep you out of trouble." At least another Wrath child could protect Adriel and Duncan had clearly tried in the past. " and you said you lmost lost him so clearly he forgives you "

Adriel chuckled a bit grimly at her words. "No..they apprantly don't care about age or gender...as long as it gets what it wants..." He sighed thinking over her words nodding slowly.
"He's...forgiven me...though at the cost of a bruised back and a rather ...sore shoulder..." He stated with a bit of a remorseful pained look as he recalled Duncan's teeth sinking into him.

Mareike growled at that and stood " excuse me while I hutn him down and explain why your loving him dosen't give hiam free pass to hurt you."

Adriel starteled by her sudden standing reached out and grabbed her hand. "no! please! I ..don't want you two to fight. I ...deserved his reaction..he doesn't understand...like you did how...I could love him yet...go..and....do THAT with Adhara." He could bring himself to say the word sex. He tugged her gently wanting her to sit with him. chii and fuu hadn't reached out and grabbed for her instead they stayed in his lap quietly. Knowing it was best they stayed out of it.

" Violence is not not the answer" Cheap words coming from Mareike who found the solutions through most of her problems through beating something until her mind snapped and gave her what she needed. Still, she sat down again not wanting to distress Adriel more than he already was. she blew out a frustrated breath and nodded slowly " if he ever hurts you again " she growled " I care about you adriel I'm not going to let you be a doormat just because there were mistakes you made " mistakes he would have to live with for a a logn time she imagined but still mistakes not intentional betrayal which was unforgivable.

Adriel nodded his head glumly, he didn't like seeing her stressed either, it made him feel like an idiot for making such a big deal. It was to him...maybe he should of played it down some. He fingered the wound gingerly on his shoulder thinking about it a moment,
"I....am not mad at what he did. I anticipated his reaction and got what I deserved, I know Duncan well enough he doesn't quite have a handle on his anger like you to Mareike." Adriel professed as he gave her a small smile. He wanted to make her feel better now, he didn't want her angry at Duncan or Adhara. He still blamed the whole situtation on himself.

Adriel nodded his head agreeing and disagreeing with her. Loving someone beyond the limit of your soul was something he never wanted to experience with anyone but Duncan. He loved Mareike too, but in a sisterly way.
"It really isn't all that bad...I am just..not very good at it." He sighed, "good at handling it anyway." He continued feeling a lot better and noticing she was still disgruntled. "Hey Mareike...can ...I ask a huge favor from you?" He inquired softly wondering if THIS was really a good idea.

Mareike raised an eyebrow but nodded " Sure" She still thought love was more trouble than it was worth and that Adriel was headed for more disasters in his future but for now she wanted to be happy for him


He took a deep steadying breath and looked her squarely in the eyes, he titled his head to the side as he appraised her.
"If...you..would allow me..I want to test something. I ..want to see if...I can you know...only let a small bit of pheramone out...I just want to see how you react." he mumbeled yes this was a stupid idea. But he knew when his pheramone was out it tended to ...calm Duncan down somewhat. What is..just little doses at a time he could manage to keep his..sin side in control and be able to NOT be molested by everyperson nearby.

Mareike debated this, on the one hand she disliked the concept of being in any situation in which she might not have full control of herself. On the other Adriel was trusing her to ask her for help here and that was important to the girl. " i don;t suppose it'll hurt anything" she said nodding slowly. A little shouldn't make either of them get out of hand

Adriel squeezed her hand tightly in appreciation.
"I promise if it goes to far I will leave immediately. I can turn them off the pheramones but the ...scent is still in the air for a while so...if it gets bad..I will just simple remove myself." He assured her, he hated doing this. But he was also curious on how she would feel when exposed. He licked his lower lip in concentration and then the slits on his forhead opened. A very ...faint sweet smell filled the area. It wasn't strong and it was barely noticeable unless you were sitting right beside the lust child. He watched feverishly at Mareike's reaction.

Mareike breath normally figuing that purposefully sucking the pheromones in was probably not a good idea even for her. The wrath child found that her innate instincts upon exposure were not to jump adriel and molest him, which was good, but they were to do nothing either. The things seemd to make her feel warm a a bit fidgety she was protective? or more over possessive of the boy in front of her. " it;s weird" she murmured " s'not bad " she clenched her hands " but i wanna punch duncan" possibly becuase the absent wrath child presented a threat her her mind to her keeping adriel all for herself


He was curious very curious he squeezed her hand wondering how it felt...he knew how it felt vaguely with Adhara...but that had been strange...he had gotten it through the blood on her lower lip when she kissed him. It had been like being hit by a truck it was so powerful. He...tentatively increased the amount, but a smidge...he didn't want to push his luck. Not with his best friend.
"and..now?" He breathed almost scared of the answer.

The wrath child growled a little " seriously want to hurt duncan, think you're kind of cute right now" she frowned " but weak" She blushed . She was supposed to be helping Adriel not insulting him. it was her fault that while she was susceptible to the pheromones an she did sort of maybe want to kiss Adriel the wrath part of her still kept trying to tell her that he was hers but not really an acceptable choice in partner.

Adriel nodded his head, he hesitated, "I...don't want to put you through more...unless you want to." He murmured easing off a bit so she could think more clearly. He really wanted to know the levels of these pheromones. If there was a chance he could use them safely or not.

The girl looked down at her tightly clenched fists " we can try" she said softly. If she ignored Duncan and her desire to chase him off than she could focus ont he fact that adriel was sort of kissable except he didn't like girls and oh great her brain was going stupid now.

Nodding his head he opened the slits further, the scent was becoming stronger now he...wasn't sure if he was a smidge past what he had done before...dammit he shouldn't of stopped what he had started..he looked to mareike desperately hopeing he didn't go to far.

He was hers and she could do what she wanted with him, that's what Mareike's body was telling her right now. She wanted.. well she wanted power and control and adriel was so very biddable and innocent and .. In a flash the wrath childhad reached out and hauled her friend into her lap." don;t fight" she growled warningly " i,, wont hurt .. don;t fight" If she could get him to submit to listen mareike hoped she could ressaert her control over her body but if adriel panicked and fought her she wasn't sure what she would do.

Adriel's eyes went wide as suddenly he was in her lap his instinct was to get off of her of course misinterpreting that she was trying to control her self with being out of control. Chii and Fuu reacted on instinc and Adriel had to hoarsly whisper them to stop. They managed to only touch Mareike breifly before retreating back grumpily. He looked up at her chewing his lip. should he stop the pheromones? probably the best idea but he was stil curious.
"Mareike?"

Mareike blew out a slow shakey breath and raised a hand so she could gently pet Adriel's hair. If she could touch him and he didn't freak out. If she could hold him and he didn't try and bolt everything would be fine. She just needed him to know that her will and her wants were more important than his becuase she was dominant.Though it was only the small desperately strugglign logcial part of the gril that kept her from hurting him in ways he'd never forgive her for. "stay still" she whispered roughly

Adriel could tell this was...hard for her...he had gone too far but still was amazed by her restraint. He envied for that sort of strength, and abruptly he shut the phermones off. He didn't want to keep exposing her to it if this was hard.
"Wow...a...are you okay?" He inquired forgetting that...despite the phermones were off...they were still hanging in the air and still effecting her body, and she had told him specifially NOT to move. He went to sit up....

The girl growled and moved so both arms encircled him tightly again " You move when I say you can and not before" the words were harsh and there was no longer a hint of the friendly nice girl Mareike had been struggling to be in them. the lust child had in her mind deliberately disobeyed an order and he was just asking to be punished. the wrath child stood hauling adriel to his feet in the process. All three of her eyes locked onto his ." You're very bad at listening"the words rumbled from her throat and Mareike watched adriel with the eyes of a predator

Adreil wodnered what kinda of creatrure or emotion he had just unleased upon Mareike. He felt his heart thud against his chest, he couldn't stop this, but he had to try.
"Mareike..it..its okay. You..can...let go of me. Everythings fine." he tried to he soothing, but the one stutter seemed to convey his nervousness with her actions. Chii and Fuu reluctantly hung at his sides ...remembering he had ordered them to NOT attack her. But they were trembling...trembling with the urge to. He didn't like that feeling. His tentacles..had never con vied an emotion before. Something so strong...as hatred coming from them...was unheard of..they loved Mareike...he soon realized the difference. They loathed this version of her.... He tried to move...another stupid mistake... he winced and stopped himself mid move.  

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Unloading on the Best friend sucks... Part 3

(rp on msn Mareike belongs to LadyUmbra Adriel belong to me.)

Fear, he was afraid fear was not submission, not what the girl wanted, She wanted to be dominant for him to behave so she could priase him when he did the right thing. Instead he made mistake after mistake and tested her pateince, her loyal and love for him were all that kept her fromshakign him untill he realised he was leanring. Still it was the fear in his voice that reached the girl becuase what she wanted and craved could not be gotten through fear. He would submit willignly or not at all.

This time when he moved she restrianed herelf biting her lower lip till it bled " window" she growled fiercly blood drippig down her lip. he wasn;t leavign yet oh no if eh tried to ruly leave hte room she would not, could not allow it but if the air could just be a little clearer maybe mareike could fix the damage she had caused.

Getting the jist of what she wanted he nodded his head eager to move to the window it it would help her.
"Anything Mareike, please please be ok." He murmured hating himself and his stupid experiment. He inched a foot over waiting for her to move before moving again.

The girl walked in the opposite direction to guard the door lest her friend decide to try and run after opening the window.

Adriel swallowed and then felt his heart return to a somewaht less accelerated pace. He moved to the window and jerked it open he let the cool air seep into the room and turned around to make sure Mareike was okay. He found her actions a bit unnerving..not what he had expected at all. BUt then again...maybe it made some sense. She had been violent..just like Duncan just in a different way. Maybe there was some sort of connection...he couldn't be sure.
"Mareike?" He questioned her position by the door. Didnt she want the air?


"I'm fine here " Mareike grumbled dropping her growl for now, the air would clearly slowly but it would be enough and untill then it was easiest to pacify her urges by blockign the boy's only safe means of escape. " I , sorry," she muttered " and you never listen " she added for good measure refusing to take full blame for her actions. Honestly adriel was her friend but sometimes. soemtimes the urge to show him the proper way to behave was overwhelming still " don;t hate me ok"

Adriel breathed a sigh of relief, the tensness in his body seeping out of him. "Oh Mareike I could never hate you. I am sorry to put you through that I won't ever do it again." He promised urgently, he didn't want to see her like that again. Never. He gave a small smile at her complaint, "I've, never been good at listening apparently..." he laughed a small laugh just happy to have his friend back.

Mareike shook her head slowly as she began to return to normal " You need to practise and now we know how i act so if you could just behave yourself it'll be ok " mareike was not going to let her friend down just becuase she needed to leanr to control her own damned nature. if he didn;t hate her for this she couldn;t hate him for being the way he was either

Adriel sighed in relief as she came around more and more like herself every moment. " No we arn't doing that again. I won't let myself do that too you it was too painful to watch ." he mumured in response. "I think ...maybe I should go. I will think of a different way and then tell you about it and see what we can do from there. " He offered as an alternative.

Mareike sighed but nodded slowly " you have a week to think of soemthing else" mostly becuase she demanded to see him atleast once and week " and you can;t leave without hugging me " she grinned at him " i promise to be gentle this time" she wanted to assure the boy that he was still her friend that she could still be cautious and carign with him

Adriel had hesitated only cause Chii and Fuu were still acting strangely. But he took long strides and covered the distance easily and tentatively wrapped her arms around her.
"thank you for putting up with me Mareike." he whispered in her ear a content sigh escaping his lips.

mareike hugged the boy gently " anytime you're my friend, all three of you." Really from class skipping to rescuing to this, there wasn;t any way mareike could avoud adriel and she didn;t ever really want to. it was hard to fidn friends this exciting and forgiving

Adriel nodded his head and ..after a moment kissed her cheek.
"Thanks, you the best person I could have as a friend." He murmured happily befor he released his hold on her and then went to slip out of the room.
"I will call! Hey you know we should get together, you Duncan and myself. I bet it woul be a lot of fun." He sounded enthused by the idea.

"Sure anytime" Becuase what the boy really needed was two wrath children trying to claim his affection at once. Mareiek grinned , Adriel had the worst self preservation instincts of anyone she'd ever met. "let yoruself out ok " she said cheerily  

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A Visitor

(( Duncan is Orpheus's, RP done on MSN ))

He was chewing his lower lip, gnawing incessantly as if hoping that it could somehow calm him down. Instead he tasted blood...and knew that he had done enough damage to them. He sighed walking through the halls of the labs, trying to prepare himself emotionally for anything. The last time they had met....Duncan had gotten mad at him because he had told him about having sex with Adhara. But... after throwing him into a wall and leaving a very nasty bite mark he seemed to have calmed down and they were even to nap on the same bed together for a while. He was getting mixed messages..but he knew he was not doing much better than Duncan was. He wanted to let Duncan know about his experiment with Mareike, and ask he Duncan often had the same feelings like she did when he used his pheromones. He was trying to understand how it effected people. Everyone was different...but wrath children seemed quite intent on harming him rather than molesting him.... He took a deep breath and was startled out of his thoughts as he suddenly found himself at the door that led to Duncan's room. Wow...that didn't take long. Of course he wasn't as guilt ridden or nervous this time.

Raising a hand he knocked gently on the door, Chii and Fuu were curious as ever, they seemed back to their normal selves... though he still had a bandage on his shoulder from where Duncan had bit him..it was mainly to not let his mother see the extent of the damage.

Duncan jerked his gaze toward the door in an almost guilty manner and scrambled up to his feet... no, no of course he wasn't exercising! He was doing nothing that he hadn't been told not to do two of his eyes seemed to say as he made his way over to the door. His third eye didn't seem to care and wasn't trying to hide the fact that Duncan was doing what he shouldn't. It helped in building up his strength and stamina again.

"What is it?" He asked, somewhat breathless and annoyed... until he saw the one standing there in the door. He starred at Adriel for a long, silent moment before motioning to him, "Come on in." He invited stepping back.

The silence wasn't too reassuring, but at least Duncan hadn't slammed the door in his face. He fidgeted on the spot a bit before he entered the room voicing his thanks before looking around taking in the room as if it was interesting...despite having seen it before. Finally he turned to face Duncan, his posture seemed more relaxed than last time, though the nervousness screamed from his eyes he tried to not show it.

"You look a lot better Duncan. I ..I am glad.. you think you will get to go home soon?" He inquired politely.

Duncan nodded going to sit down on the edge of his bed, "I hoping so... getting bored with this place." He muttered, wanting to just get the Hell out of this boring room... he looked over at Adriel and tilted his head to the side. He was half wondering about his appearance but he couldn't really find himself bothered by it... in fact he was happy. He was in fact just thinking about the lust boy.

Adriel nodded his head not sure what else to say he had to keep the conversation going though...else it was going to get awkward. He moved closer to the bed but he only touched the frame with a hand, "I.. could imagine it must be driving you crazy stuck in here all the time." He murmured before he looked over the sheets a moment, "I am sorry I didn't come more often...I was...a bit afraid you would still be mad at me." He responded, "Plus I wanted you to heal faster....I seem to cause you a lot of stress.." He murmured his apologey his gaze flickering to meet Duncan's gaze before moving to look at something else in the room. Chii and Fuu were frustrated...with Adriel not acting all guilt ridden and terrified they wanted to be near Duncan, touch him stroke him...just make contact with him! Chii stayed close to Adriel though, as if worried Duncan may suddenly get violent again. Fuu on the other hand snaked forward just able to prod Duncan's knee.

"Just a little, I will be so happy to be home again." He told his friend before falling into silence at what he said next a sighing sound escaping from him, a sound that was very much not something that was normal for him... he reached his hand out to stroke his finger tips over Fuu who seemed to be the one who came closest to him, even within arms reach... the most forgiving or the least intelligent... which Duncan wasn't sure yet.

"I've been thinking about your last visit." He told Adriel, finding it a little harder to look at him to look at him.

Adriel's attention suddenly was rivited on Duncan his heart gave a spastic stutter and he wondered if he was going to have a heart attack. He swallowed nervously, he was hoping naively that Duncan hadn't thought too much about it. For fear of Duncan rejecting him outright. He nodded his head a bit dazed and then went to sit on the bed at the far end. Fuu still was able to touch Duncan and stroke his fingers and wrap around two of his clawed fingers much like a small child may.

"hmm....w..wha.t....h..have...you ...thought...a..about?" he managed to get out hearing the anxiety in his voice and was trying to get control of it.

He watched Fuu as it wrapped around his fingers and he moved his other hand to continue petting the tentacle as it helped him to think, to distracted himself while thinking, "That is... really wasn't my place." He said, still not looking at him, "I got mad at you for something... and it wasn't by business to get mad at you. You should be able to sleep with whoever you want..." It... caused made his mouth taste bitter saying such words and made his hackles rise telling Adriel to do whoever and whatever he wanted. It... was against everything he felt but he couldn't just randomly claim his friend it wasn't exactly fair.

Adriel shifted on the spot feeling uncomfortable and yet a bit in awe that Duncan had really thought about it. Admitted that perhaps he had acted rashly...even if he still felt like he got off easy.

"You...gave me an out Duncan...I didn't take it. I accepted what you may do and I am not angry at your for it." He started taking a deep breath and releasing it out slowly he reached a hand over to lightly take Duncan's in hand, much to the annoyance of Fuu since that meant that Fuu had to let go.

"You see..." he tried to figure out ...how to explain it...without making Duncan jealous or more angry at him."..what happened with Adhara was an accident...I had no intentions of...sl..sleeping with her..." He explained wondering if this would just anger Duncan. Making it sound like it was an accident made it seem laughable. How do you just accidentally have sex with someone?

"I am... hurting you wasn't what I wanted..." He murmured, feeling as though he were getting a bit of an ache behind his eyes, "I... mean it wasn't my place your not mine so you should be able to do what you want."

He glanced over at him when Adriel took hold of his hand, "Accident or not... you shouldn't have to answer to anyone save maybe your Mom." Most definitely not him.

Adriel gathered his thoughts listening to Duncan after a moment and was silent.

"Regardless....oh whom I should be answering to...I felt like I had betrayed you...." He replied sounding a rather bitter about it. "Your the most important person in the world to me...yet I didn't have enough self control to prevent...THAT from happening with Adhara." He took a deep breath releasing it through his teeth that were now clenched in anger with himself.

"You keep saying...that I am not yours...I wish I was..." He whispered again his voice was very low, his gaze was staring at the floor as he did, his hand squeezing Duncan's lightly.

Duncan felt a flash of some sort of strong emotion, one with potential to be dangerous, "You don't... shouldn't wish that... There are better people out there that you could find to be with." He murmured, turning to better face Adriel and lifted his hand to poke a finger against his shoulder, "With me there is always the chance of that... I have tried everything to get a handle on my temper but it overwhelms me at times..."

Adriel shrugged off the poke, the wound didn't bother him, sure it would scar but he could live with it. "Despite what you think...there is no one else for me...I've adored you a long time now...I just can't believe I ******** up a chance to be with you." he sighed running his free hand through his hair. It was getting too long...perhaps he should cut it. Chii in a desperate attempt for attention reached around Adriel's body to touch Duncan's hand. Fuu went to rest onf Duncan's knee stroking it lightly.

"Adored...? Me?" Duncan dropped his gaze and looked at Chii instead to try to distract himself, stroking his hand over the tentacle. Adriel said he was the only one for him...? It was... something that had his heart quickening a bit at the thought, "I don't know how good of a person I would be have... so close to you. I don't want to risk hurting you I never did... and I did some... stupid things to try to keep from doing so, things you don't know about and..." He shook his head, not sure about talking to Adriel about things. He just... never wanted to hurt him.

Adriel squeezed Duncan's hand again feeling that he was stressed he didn't want to stress him out. He stared up and across the room thinking on something a moment before replying.

"Duncan...the only thing that hurts me is being distant with you. Its like having a festering wound the refuses to heal. Every time I am with you..the wound heals a bit more..." he trailed off not sure if the description was appropriate. He then went back to looking at the floor and swung his legs a bit.

"Duncan...can I ask your permission for something?" He inquired his face going pink a bit.


He turned to look over at his friend and looked a little... unsure, "Permission... for something?" He asked, wonder what it was that Adriel would need to ask permission for.

He nodded his head slowly trying to word what he wanted in his brain before speaking.
"I...want to use my pheromones on you...I want to see how you react. I tried it with Mareike...and she responded violently...I am curious to see if you respond similarly.." He explained his gaze fixed on Duncan finally, his eyes seeming a bit worried, "I want to make sure I am...not the one messing with you and your feelings and emotions...I want to ...know how you are when you are just you and when or if you are under the influence of my genes." He explained nearly expecting Duncan to get angry again.

Duncan's nostrils flared showing a bit of the expected anger before asking, "Why her?" He sounded as though he were trying to not sound jealous but it was there in his tense tone, "Why... try it with others? Was that what you did with Adhara?" Her name was spat out as though it were some sort of curse word. She was person he'd thought was a friend but he was as mad if not more so then he'd been at Adriel... and now he found out that Adriel did such a thing with Mareike too, "How many others do you tease with your scent?" He snapped.

Adriel flinched but waited for Duncan to finish his rant before replying.
" No...Adhara...was...a accident. I can't control my pheramones one hundred percent...though I am getting it under control. Surprises tend to let them leak out..." He explained patiently he then fixed a look on Duncan though it wasn't angry it looked a bit pleading.

"Mareike is my best friend. I trust her, I promised myself I wuold never do that to her again...not after I saw how she reacted. I want to find my limits..know how to deal with it. " he explained again, removing his hand from Duncan's reluctantly and placing it in his own lap. " I don't want to hurt any more people, but if I know how my pheromones react to people at least I can find a way to counter-act it." he continued.

Duncan gave a growling sound, lifting his hands up to cover two of his eyes with them and started to drag in deep, steadying breaths... he was getting angry again and knowing that seemed to only make him more angry. He didn't like the idea of Adriel going off and testing such things off with others, girls especially, "And if she had reacted the same way as Adhara? Then what would you have done?" He asked when he could speak somewhat evenly again.

Adriel frowned a bit though he was still looking ahead.

"I wasn't going to let that happen. With Mareike it was a controlled situation. I can release small amounts at a time...with Adhara ...we had no chance to resist it. Think on it...two lusts in the same room...both producing pheromones of a sorts..." he thought about and shook his head.

"There should be a rule stating that children of Jher shouldn't been in the same room together...its too dangerous." He muttered bitterly. Fuu stroked Duncan's leg, whilst Chii petted his arm as if trying to comfort Duncan.

"think..of it this way. when you lose your temper...its hard to control yes? you know what your doing is wrong...yet you can't stop yourself.....its similar when your under the influence of the pheromones. Your brain is screaming at you to stop what is happening...but you can't, your lost in the hormones and everything seems to mean nothing except the passion of the moment....Its not a good excuse....but just how it felt. " He concluded not sure if telling him about Mareike was a good idea.

"You really should be kept on a leash Adriel... teasing wrath blooded children... one of these days your going to get ea..." He lifted a hand to clapped it over his mouth to shut himself up... telling Adriel that he was going to get eaten wasn't exactly a good idea... given it had already happened once. Of course that only proved his point, didn't it?
"A leash." He muttered, looking down at the tentacles that were loving on him.

Adriel gave a grim smile and nodded his head.
"yeah....your right." He gave a bitter laugh before finally looking back to Duncan his eyes searching Duncan's expression a moment.

"I won't press you Duncan. I love you...and I hate to have you mad at me. But...you should know what I am capable of...manipulation emotions...isn't exactly something I am proud of being able to do." He sighed sounding very annoyed with himself. Still, he leaned forward a bit his face leaning up to Duncan's as if he was going to kiss him, he so desperately wanted him, wanted to have him hold him and kiss him and love him back. He wasn't sure if Duncan could ever feel that way towards him and he was resisting the horrible temptation to manipulating him.

"I don't want you practicing on me or using them on me." He said, quite seriously. He wouldn't let himself being messed with that way, "What if it goes wrong? I could hurt you... your kind of a wimp Adriel and I can't see you overpowering me very easily. If you mess with me with that stuff... or even thing about it..." His yellow eyes was giving Adriel a dark glare that seemed to be warning the lust child what might happen if he tried.

His anger seemed to dissipate when Adriel was suddenly leaning up closer to him and he blinked a couple times, feeling a bit... confused and unsure of himself... he'd yet to kiss Adriel when his brain wasn't being addled by that sweet scent he gave off... a kiss when he was free of them hadn't really ever occurred to him despite his possessive feelings for his friend.

He lifted a hand to catch hold of his chin and leaned down to brush a kiss over his lips as though testing what it would feel like... not so bad, was interesting to feel his heart race for reasons other then anger.

Adriel's felt his own breath catch in his throat, he knew Duncan was still on unstable ground with trusting Adriel..and his feelings were still not clear to him apparently. But...to finally feel a kiss that wasn't tainted was like a shock to the system, his own heart began to race, his eyes slid half closed as he brought himself closer, nearly sitting in Duncan's lap. Chii began to wrap itself around Duncan's waist whilst Fuu stroked Duncan's hand. He breathed out slowly and then licked Duncan's upper lip experimentally. He didn't think he could stand having Duncan push him away now.

Duncan's cheeks flushed a little bit and he found himself sliding an arm around him, pulling Adriel more tightly to him, having to concentrate to keep his claws from digging in to keep him from fleeing... as if he just might do that, "Adriel..." He murmured, feeling a little dizzy when Chii wrapped around him, Fuu pet on him, and Adriel licked him. He felt... good, good was nice... even the dizzy feeling was nice compared to what he was normally feeling. As such he was more then eager to try another kiss, less of just a brushing of lips and more of a real kiss this time.

Perhaps it was just in his nature to be passionate about such things. He felt his arms move to wrap around Duncan's neck to keep Duncan there, his lips kissing his own was nothing like he had experienced. Having clear thoughts was a bonus. He kissed back his lips eager for more, his own body coming to press against Duncan's in need and want. He had wanted it for so long...for Duncan to touch him and hold him because he wanted to..not because of his stupid ability.

Fuu moved to trail down the length of Duncan's leg and back whilst Chii wrapped itself around Duncan tightly. Its strength was apparent though it wasn't crushing...more possessive.

Duncan was lost in the kiss, enjoying it immensely and as such he seemed to start forgetting him... and his nails dug into Adriel as his hands tightened on him unconsciously due to the stroking that Fuu was doing and the sensations it evoked in him.

Adriel felt the pain, dimly aware that Duncan was causing it. He let out a whimper struggling against the emotions. The want to pull away from the pain...mixed with his desperate need to stay there. He wasn't going to let Duncan go. Even if he had to experience some pain. It was well worth it in his mind. A sharp intake of breath indicated that the pain hadn't been ignored completely. But he withdrew his lips from Duncan's lips and went to kiss his chin, jawline, and then slowly worked his way down the side of his throat. It was as if Adriel had done this before....even though he hadn't...he was an expert lover....perhaps it was a genetic thing...like instinct. To know what the other needed or wanted...but somehow he doubted it could be explained that easily.

The sound of Adriel's intake of breath seemed to reach Duncan if only a little and his grip on the other male eased somewhat... and when he drew back to move his kisses to other areas helped him to realize what was going on and he was suddenly moving, putting an arm between them so he could push Adriel back. It wasn't him... it was a suddenly realization, "Wait... Adriel..." He said, pained over having to push the two of them apart even as he did it.

Adriel resisted his own passion drowning out common sense for a moment. Chii strengthened its hold on Duncan as if sensing that Adriel did not want to be separated from him. He kissed Duncan again and again light kisses until finally stopping when he realized Duncan wasn't reciprocating. His breathing was rapid and a bit ragged he tried to let himself calm down but he only felt disappointment flood through him. He lay his head against Duncan's chest blinking slowly...realizing that there was now a sharp pain from where Duncan had held him. He numbed it out...not wanting to think on it.

"....y..yes?" he finally managed to speak out...afraid of what Duncan may say.

"We can't do this." He murmured, resting his chin on Adriel's head between his horns and he gave a bit of a sigh, "I am... pretty sure that they are watching and..." He shook his head, having no desire to perform for whoever was watching on the other side of the security cameras... the idea of being watched just put him on edge, making him want to find the people watching to maul them... but that would have to wait.

Adriel numbly nodded his head, he supposed that made sense....he wouldn't want to be watched either. Feeling the weight of Duncan on him he only sighed in frustration.

"Your..right. I am sorry...I got carried away...I am not even sure if...if that's what you want..or how you feel about me.." He apologized as he had perhaps been jumping the gun before actually confirming Duncan's feelings for him.

Duncan drew back a little bit so he could look down at him, "After I get out of here, we will get together and be able to talk easier... and I will have figured it all out by then... my own feelings are just... jumbled." He murmured, it was hard for him to tell what he thought exactly about Adriel... possessive yes but was it fair to either of them to be with him for only that reason? Surely there should be more but he had a hard time with feelings, understanding them and he wondered at times the extent of what he could feel...

Adriel nodded his head and then pulled away, he knew getting his hopes up would be dangerous...and getting carried away like that only made it hurt worse. He tried to smile and failed, it was to hard. He waved Chii to let Duncan go...who did so if a bit reluctantly and Fuu came back to Adriel's body as well h stroked the pair absentmindedly a moment.
"I..yeah...I won't bother you then...until you have things figured out. " He left the invitation for Duncan to come to him open. Though it may drive him mad worrying and waiting.

"I don't want to confuse you anymore. All I know is I love you...and only desire to be with you...." He let his gaze sink to the floor wondering if he should leave.

"Once they let me go I will come to see you." He murmured, leaning into Adriel for a moment before he pushed to his feet, "I will get out of here soon... they can't keep me forever for wounds that are already healing over just fine so... wait for me, alright?" He was a bit worried Adriel wouldn't want to wait, would find a better offer before he could get his mind sorted.

Adriel looked up to Duncan the pain evident in his eyes, he nodded his head at his words but seemed unconvinced Duncan would come to a decision so quickly.
"Y..ou know where I live.." he tried to make it sound light, like a joke, but it only seemed to come out wistful.

"I hope they don't keep you locked up for much longer...I think the wait may ...madden me." He whispered honestly as he pushed himself to his feet as well. He looked at Duncan again chewing on his lower lip wanting so much to kiss him again but knew better than to.
"I...guess I should go." He stated finally not wanting to admit it.

Duncan nodded, reaching a hand out to brush his finger tips over his cheek, "Yeah... sorry..." He murmured, letting his hand fall back to his side.

He bit his lip...hard when Duncan touched him. It was a sharp reminder that he couldn't touch him back...else he knew bad things would happen. Giving a weak smile he turned and silently left the room. Many things were on his mind...and his desire to have Duncan only smoldered more...it didn't seem fair..  

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A Wish?

(( Luthor jr is Orpheus's, RP done on MSN ))

Adriel was deep in thought, he didn't want to go home yet...and thus wandered around the labs aimlessly. Going home meant admitting that he had to wait for Duncan to figure things out. If he stayed at the labs long enough ...it felt like he could prolong the dreaded wait. It seemed to surreal and he wanted to keep his feelings distant but found it hard. He chewed on his lower lip again while he wandered. Going no where specifically....just not wanting to go home just yet.

Luthor was walking sitting in the middle of a hallway, in the way but not really caring... he was waiting for someone. Pepper was sure to come down this hallway at some point and he would wait for him until he finally came. He was going to kick him when he did... why was it that he couldn't seem to find his friend? After what had happened to him while he slept his strange, bitey friend was the first one he wanted to see after... and he was no where to be found, "Stupid Pepper." He muttered, messing up one of his letters as he grumbled that and had to lift his pen off the paper for a moment, taking in a deep, steadying breath, then continued to write. It had been letters first, then small words that he thought would be useful in the creation of wishes and contracts. He wanted to get good at it all so that he would be able to do it, to make wishes happen, to help people and one day figure out how to help his Daddy.

Adriel didn't noticed the child until he had nearly passed him, but...it was that glowing white hair that dragged him from his stupor and forced him to look. He blinked...a couple of times before realizing that..this was a child from the labs, but not one he had ever met before...or had characteristics he was familiar with.
"O..oh..hello." He murmured not wanting to be rude with all his staring.

Luthor finished the letter 'G' that he was writing and lifted his brilliant blue gaze to look up at Adriel, taking him in, then lowered his gaze back to his papers, "Hello." He said, working on the H, "Your big." He told him, something obvious but he hadn't see anyone as big as him before, "Are you one of the demons that lives here? I thought that only Enki was allowed to wander around as he pleased." He whispered 'Enki' as though he were sure if he said the name to loud it would summon the one the name belonged too.

Adriel blinked a couple of times, did he appear to look so much like the demons at the facility that he appeared to belong here? ....the thought gnawed at him.

"Uh..no..my name is Adriel." He replied feeling a bit unsettled by the child's alarmingly blue eyes.

"Do..you live here?" He asked wondering why the kid was here by himself with no grown up around.

"Adriel, nice name." He murmured, "My name is Luthor." He finished up the row of letters he was working on then reached the hand without the golden pencil in it out to pat the floor in front of him, "Sit with me? My friend is missing and Daddy is working." He told Adriel, glad for the company and even more so glad for company that seemed talkative. It was nice to have someone to talk with when it was currently to quiet.

"I do. Live here I mean, with Daddy and Pepper."

Adriel tried to not look surprised but he obliged the child and went to sit down beside him, crossing his legs to peer at what Luthor had been working on. Chii..reached out first, tentatively to touch Luthor as if curious but careful. Fuu was already poking at Luthor's hand for attention.

"Chii..Fuu..stop that." Adriel spoke but didn't put much strength into the command and thus the tentacles ignored him.

"Sorry." He murmured, "I just can't seem to get them to listen today.." He apologized offering the small boy a smile. He..couldn't help but marvel at how...beautiful this child was. The hair, the strange little horn...and the scales...he didn't really seem to fit into the labs.

"Who..is your daddy?" he asked wondering what demon or angel it could be.

Luthor set his papers and pencil aside so that he could turn his attention to the two rather friendly tentacles, reaching his small hands out to pet them, "Mmm, Trinket has these... they didn't seem as friendly as yours." He murmured, quite amused by them.

He looked up at Adriel for a moment, a little unsure about it but finally said, "My Daddy's name is Almas." He told him, the waited to see what Adriel said and how he reacted... to see if he needed to kick him... to many people said to many mean things about his Daddy and he wouldn't allow it now that he was bigger and better at kicking!

Adriel's eyes widened slightly as he recalled the fallen. He blinked a couple of times...seeing similarities between him and the fallen..but..then wha was his other half?

"Oh..I didn't know he had a son. He is pretty lucky to have you though." He replied slowly whilst Chii and Fuu were elated to have someone want their attention.

"Who is Pepper then? Your brother?" he asked quite glad to have someone to distract him.

He gave a smile, "I like you." He told the lust boy when he didn't have anything bad to say about his Daddy, instead he said that Almas was lucky to have him... it was a nice comment that had him beaming. Luthor shook his head at the question, "Pepper is my friend. Hes a demon." He said, pretty certain that Pepper was nothing like him... he just didn't have anything to him that said 'angel'.

Adriel raised an eyebrow but tried to keep the shock from his face.

"O..oh?" He said after a moment before he tried to switch the topic, "I am sorry I seem to have interrupted what you were doing. Practicing your spelling?" He asked trying to look interested. He didn't want to look like he was insulting Luthor's choice of friends...who knew what this Pepper was like after all. But it still unsettled him nonetheless.

Luthor seemed to beam, "Yep! I am learning how to write neatly so there won't be any mix ups." He said with a happy sound, "With this I can help people." He waved his shiny, golden pen with the pretty hair tied around it. His eyes seemed to shine with excitement as he lifted up the papers to show off his letters. They were getting much, much neater now, clearer, there would be no mistakes when he granted wishes!

Adriel listened politely although he was a bit confused. Mix ups? Help people? He gave a small laugh wondering if the kid could help him with Duncan but he didn't bother mentioning it.

"How do you help people?" He inquired again finding the kids enthusiasm a bit catching. A smile twitching at the corners of his mouth, he liked Luthor...he wished he could have a child like him someday...it then dawned on him that...if he was to be with Duncan...they wouldn't be able to have kids...sure they could adopt...but...it wasn't quite the same.

"I'm gonna grant wishes!" He said with a bright smile hugging his pen and papers to his chest, "It will be nice... I want to help." Since Adriel wasn't his Daddy it should be alright for him to tell him about the wishes that he was going to grant for people.

He smiled at Luthor, he was playing a cute game, and he couldn't bring himself to tell the kid that wishes couldn't be granted by people. Or anyone for that matter. Otherwise he would of tracked them down already.

"Oh? That's pretty neat. And its really nice that you want to help people." He said with a smile, yes he really liked this kid he reached out a hand and patted his head lightly. "I wish I could have children." He stated out loud not realizing he said his thought out loud. "Ah...I mean your so nice, it makes me wish I could have some of my own." He explained trying to figure out why he had said it out loud. It may just confuse the kid...hell it even confused him.

Shouldn't he just be concerned with Duncan liking him first? He was kinda jumping ahead there....

"Wish to have... babies?" He murmured, lifting his pen up to tap it against his lips... was that a big wish? Or was it one that he should be able to handle? And could what would he ask for in exchange for babies? He seemed to be thinking hard... or at least as hard as a child could and then got himself a fresh piece of paper and set to writing down on it, it was a bit slow going as he wanted each and every word to be clear he turned it around for Adriel to see. It was simple but said that Adriel would in exchange for all the doughnuts stolen from staff break room get to have babies.

Adriel thought that Luthor would laugh or question his weird outburst but instead he watched as he went about writing on a piece of paper. When he showed him the paper his eyes widened and then he smiled. Ah so he was still playing his game. He wondered if he should just humor the kid and play along....sure what could it hurt? Luthor was cute, and right now doing him a huge favor by keeping his mind off of things.

"So...to get my wish I need to go and steal doughnuts from the staffroom?" He asked to make sure he understood. He gave a good chuckle inwardly. Kids...they had the most simplest of desires. How he wished life could be so simple for him again.

"Yep, your a lot bigger then I am and with these two to help you will be able to steal the treats easier then me. They don't much like me... cause they don't like my Daddy." He murmured, giving a sighing sound then held the pen out, "Sign here on the X and then get me the doughnuts and your wish will be granted!" Or at least he thought so... he was still young and had no idea what all was involved in making babies...

Adriel laughed and then nodded his head.

"Well I think that is very mean of them...hoarding all those treats to themselves. I better go take them so they know better." He agreed as he paused getting up when he noticed Luthor wanted him to sign the little peice of paper. To humor him he took the pen and then scrolled his name beside the X. He gave another chuckle, vivid imagination this one.

"I will now go complete my end of the bargain. Did you want to come?" He asked as he was now standing and Fuu was offering itself as a hands up.

Luthor hopped up to his feet with the help of the tentacle while looking down at the paper curiously... hmm... must need to get his payment before it disappeared like how it did with Auntie he thought to himself, "Yeah, lets go." He said, giving Adriel a bright smile. He wanted to finish off the wish, to see if it worked or not.

Adriel led him to where...he thought the break room was. He was lucky he had passed it so many times in the past. Approaching the door which was closed he patted Luthor on the head again before opening the door boldly. There were a few staff members in there...who all paused when Adriel opened the door. Of course...they didn't know exactly what to say or do when an apparently Lust child was suddenly in their midst. So Adriel stroke over to the counter, scooped up what doughnuts were laying there and then loaded Chii and Fuu up with the treats and well burdening his own arms before moving back out of the room. No one had said a word...perhaps they had all been holding their breath...remembering Adriel from long ago when he had surgery....

Luthor peeked in around the corner, eyes going quite wide as Adriel with the help of his his two tentacles stole all of the doughnuts as requested and left with them. He gave a happy, giggling sound of delight as his new friend came out the door and Luthor started to clap his hands, "Awesome! You did it!" He cheered Adriel on then moved away from the staffroom door and motioned, "Come on, this way." He told Adriel, leading the way quickly from the staffroom to the room he lived in with Daddy and Pepper, "Doughnuts on the table, please."

Adriel juggled the treats until he was finally able to set them down. He gave a smile at how pleased Luthor was at him. yeah he definitely would like being with this child more often. So carefree and innocent. He gave a small laugh at his thoughts. It was nice to not be worrying...agonizing about things.

"There we go. I got what you wanted." He said resisting the urge to chuckle again, "see anything you want to eat first?" He asked already dismissing the 'wish' as he knew nothing would come from it.

Luthor turned to shield the paper from Adriel when he brought the doughnuts in and gave a little sound like a squeal when it fizzled away, vanishing... then turned quickly to look at Adriel but... he didn't look like he was having a baby... he blinked a couple times. Hmm... maybe he wasn't strong enough to make people have babies yet? Yeah... that must be it he thought then turned his attention to the doughnuts, "Ooo... there are so many tasty kinds." He murmured, grabbing on in each hand and set to munching on them.

Adriel gave a laugh and went to pick Luthor up so he could sit in his lap when he sat down. Chii wrapped itself around luthor to keep him from sliding off and Fuu eagerly reached for doughnut and offered it to Luthor trying to be helpful.

"Ug..Fuu...you don't know he wants that kind." He lectured the tentacle trying to sound serious but a hint of laughter was in his tone.

"No, no that kind is good it has jelly in it." Luthor said, happy to be sitting in Adriel's lap, he was an affectionate boy and when Almas was busy he normally only had Pepper who's idea of affection was normally biting and headbutts... This was nice. He leaned back against his new friend's chest, taking a bite of the doughnuts that Fuu was offering, "This is nice, I normally only get hugs from my Daddy and my Auntie."

What Luthor said made him feel a pang of sadness. Only hugs from his father and wait..aunt? he struggled to figure out who the aunt was but failed and only disregarded it.

"Well everyone is entitled to free hugs from me. Kinda goes with the tentacles." He said with a laugh as Chii only squeezed to empathize the claim Fuu was too busy trying to stuff the doughnut int Luthor's mouth...and making quite a mess of it.

Luthor set to giggling as he tried to eat the doughnut that the tentacle was so eagerly trying to feed him, ending up painted with the jelly in the middle but was more amused then anything... he looked over the mountain of treats still left after eating the two he'd picked up and the one Fuu shared and grinned. So many and they were all his! He should do this wish stuff more often he thought to himself with a grin.

"Really? Well when you visit the Labs I would be more then happy to get more of your nice hugs." He said happily, swinging his feet in a pleased manner. He liked having a nice, snugly friend... Pepper was only snuggle able when he was asleep.

Adriel nodded his head feeling...rather pleased with himself for being able to make a new friend despite his earlier distraught. He leaned his head gently on Luthor's not really wanting to go, but he figured that...he should probably wander on home...else his mothers send out a search warrant for him.

"Sorry Luthor..." he started with apologetic look, "But I should probably go home, my mom may be worried about where I have gotten to." He started he then looked to the small child again.
"Is your father close by? Or your...um friend? I would hate to leave you alone..."

Luthor shook his head, sliding down off of Adriel's lap, "Its alright, I am alone a lot... Daddy has to work hard and Pepper... well he is always chasing techs and getting lost." He said, giving a soft sigh, he didn't want to see Adriel go but... it was alright, he was glad to have gotten to hang out with him even for a little while and he'd been able to do a test run of a wish. It didn't seem to have worked but... it was good practice, "I will get back to working on my letters, never know when the next person with a wish will appear." He said with a giggle.

Adriel laughed with Luthor's single minded quest to help people. He patted his head and let him slide off of his lap, Chii released him a bit reluctantly and Fuu covered in icing sugar patted Luthor's cheeks as if making sure the boy didn't miss any of the jelly. Adriel let them give their goodbyes a hug from them both before he took a step back.

"I will make sure to come back more..often." He promised. He liked Luthor and hoped despite age differences could remain friends.

"I would like that." He murmured, sure that he would love to just hang out with Adriel and get snuggles from him in the same manner that he did with Auntie. Adriel wasn't quite as soft as she was but gave hugs that were just as good since he had those cool tentacles, "Have a nice day, Adriel." He said, giving his friend a bright smile. He was so excited and wanted to tell someone all about his new friend... though he would have to catch up with someone first.