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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:29 pm
"I know. I know everyone has lost a lot because of this place." Amaya said, not spotting his tears. "But I wanted one thing. One thing. I wanted to have a family some day. A real family. And I thought I could have that even looking the way I do. But... not..." The humiliation and pain of giving birth to a clutch of lifeless eggs came welling back and she started to cry along with him, rubbing her eyes.
She went to say something more but finally spotted the wetness in Alec's pitch black orbs and gave a little sob. "Don't..." She whimpered out, but couldn't get anything more as she sobbed tearlessly again.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:56 pm
Her words were all but masked by the sick feeling that was etched into Alec's entire body, even as she continued speaking. Anything she said now was just icing on the cake.
At her 'command' he lowered his head quickly, staring at his own lap as his vision clouded over more and more. It took awhile for him to say anything at all as he fought back tears to prevent the entire confrontation from degrading into one big incomprehensible mess of tears. It was clear he was choosing his words well for once, piecing out exactly what he needed to say. Finally, with a sharp inhale of breath, he found the courage to look back at her again.
"A' want ye t'eat, and a' want ye t'go outside, and a' want ye teh be 'appeh." He began slowly, but his eyes were slowly sliding away from hers as his resolve was breaking up once again. "A' care abou' ye. A' care abou' ye alot, an' a' don' want ye t'starve yeself t'death anehmo'. A' thought... a' thought me carin] would matteh..." He paused, painfully frowning as if speaking was too difficult a task. "Bu' a' guess its all o' nothin'. Ye d'n 'afteh take care o' me anehmore. A' W'NT SIT 'ERE..." His voice breaked. "... and be a PITEH CASE...." Again he paused, only to quiet his tone. "If ye w'nt t'die... because... ye diff'rent o'... ye sad.... o' ye c'nt see a' reas'n teh... then fine, a' guess. Nu' a' won' be the reas'n ye sad. A' c'nt be..."
She shook his head and abruptly turned his chair, wheeling himself quickly back towards the pool like he meant to escape just as she'd tried to.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 4:16 pm
Amaya watched and listened in silence. Yellow eyes watched him turn away and start towards the pool - running like he always did. She opened her mouth to say something, but couldn't bring herself to lie anymore. She needed to confess to him bluntly, even though she knew it would hurt him.
"You always run away..." The girl began, but didn't stop him as she stared at his retreating form. "You wanna know why I'm sad? I'm sad because I love you and you'll never feel the same way. I'm sad because I'm a monster, and people see me like one. Even you screamed when we first met. I'm sad because I'm not even human on the inside anymore. She swallowed, trying to choke back sobs.
"I've tried just... forgetting about my feelings. But... I can't. Living together makes it that much harder. I thought living close to you might make me used to us just being friends, but..."
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 4:33 pm
Alec stopped short of the water's edge, not wanting to get close enough to accidently tumble in when it wasn't his intention just yet. He reufsed to look at her, glaring through teary eyes at the ripple hues of green and blue that shimmered around the pool deck. He made no comment to her accusation, refusing to admit it while selfishly justifying it in his mind. Everything was easier when he ran away from it all, why couldn't she understand that? He knew it wasn't the right thing to do but the alternatives didn't feel any better.
"A NEH-W." He groaned, bitterly stretching the syllables out before slightly canting his head around to stare at her in his peripheral vision. "A' run aweh from wha' scehs me but YOU. DO. TEH." he spun around quick, a somewhat hazardous maneuver seeing his percarious position near the water's edge. "A' c'nt love ye. A' c'nt love somne'un tha' c'nt stand t'love 'erself." He paused to gather the courage to continue. "Weh ALL monstehs 'Maya, when will ye learn this?! Weh've ALL lost some'un... someTHIN'!" His eyes seemed to change for a moment, melting into a pleading look of compassion. "No 'uns pointin' n' laughin' anehmo' 'Maya. We're all 'urtin... All o' us are 'urtin'..." he shook his head as if he already predicted he was wasting his breath. There were many issues lying in the shadows, haunting Alec so that he drove himself to distance himself from the iguana girl. But this was one ghost he needed to banish for good, one fight he was tired of losing.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 4:50 pm
A' c'nt love ye. A' c'nt love somne'un tha' c'nt stand t'love 'erself.
Amaya stared at his back and swallowed hard. "I can't run away from what scares me anymore..." The look on her face was as if she was crying rivers of tears, but nothing was coming out. "You know what's going to happen in another 6 months? The same thing that happened the last time. And it'll keep happening... probably until the day I die."
"I can't run away from my own body. And... I..." The girl sobbed and went to open the door. "I can't love that!" She opened the door and stepped out, shutting it behind her with Donner at her side.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 6:18 pm
Alec gave a gurgling sigh as he pushed himself into motion, quickly rolling after Amaya out the door. With a rattling bump he took the threshold of the doorway a little too fast though recovered from the jostle in time to close the door behind him. "UH?" He yelled out to her fleeting form as tried to focus on maneuvering while figuring out what the hell she was talking about. It hit him right after he closed his mouth again and grimaced hard. A sensitive subject he never liked to touch upon, having dealt with it by forgetting it more than anything else. Not this again/
"We've all go' things like tha..." He tried to sound comforting as his voice lightened in tone. "Ye neh 'ow many pehple a've 'urt? Its 'orrible!" It wasn't much of a struggle to match her pace as she still lumbered about slowly as she walked away, though it took a moment to dodge Donner before he wheeled up beside her.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 6:27 pm
Amaya slowed down once Alec was close to her, in heavy sobs now as she kept Donner close to her side. The dog growled at him, tail erect as he blamed his master's upset on the boy. She stopped and stood, sobbing loudly while rubbing her tearless eyes.
"H-How many people had to give birth to a bunch of hollow sh-shells!?" The iguana asked him, her quiet voice barely able to yell at all even though she meant to. "I-I've never felt so h-humiliated and-and disgusting in my entire l-life!" Her body racked in sobs as she couldn't get grips with herself and what had happened.
"Then they took me away and d-did so many humiliating tests and th-they all looked at me so hor-horribly!" She was finally breaking down, sobbing uncontrollably. No one had wanted to comfort her over such an awkward affair. Amaya no longer had a female role model to go to. "I just w-wish my m-mom was here." She whimpered like a small child, wanting someone there to hold her and comfort her to tell her everything was alright.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 6:56 pm
Alec winced and rolled to a stop, somehow feeling as if his analogy wasn't quite holding up in this sort of situation. Having an incontrollable tendency to attack indiscriminantly was a pretty heavy burden to carry guilt-wise but as immobolized as he was without feet to walk on, it wasn't much of a concern on a daily basis. The sharkboy rubbed teh back of his neck, struggling hard with words sufficient enough to say. He had no experience with these things. Like a regular guy, he didn't even want to be concerned with a girl's period let alone the freak disturbence that occurred in the cafeteria that day. He couldn't even begin to imagine how it felt to be treated with such indignity. He felt like mumbling a "Touche" but for the life of him he couldn't recall the right word to use.
"Listen t'me," He sneered, pointing a webbed finger at Amaya as Donner began to fuss and growl. Puffing his back in irritation, he continued. "Them Lab bastehds'll burn n' 'ell fo' th'shite theh put pehple through." His gills flared for a moment without realizing until he sat back in his wheelchair seat, watching the iguana girl tremble horrible infront of him. He sounded tired when he sighed again, letting his head droop slightly and his marble eyes close halfway. He hadn't thought about his father in... forever, it seemed. His mother on the other hand, the woman that abandoned her family so long ago, she was always lingering somewhere in his mind. "Me teh." He mumbled though it wasn't his intention to comfort this time.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 7:05 pm
The girl continued to cry, hiding her eyes with huge scaly hands despite the fact she wasn't crying. She sobbed and whimpered, the white dress she wore hanging baggy on her sickly body. She couldn't think of anything else to say for what seemed like the longest time. But eventually she spoke up, looking down at Alec pleadingly.
"I don't know what to do, Alec. I'm lost." Of course, the shark boy might not have been the best to go to for advice... but he was all she had at the moment.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 9:16 pm
Alec tapped at the armrests of his wheelchair and stared at his fin-like feet as they hung limply off the edge of his seat, looking oddly out of place. He heard her loud and clear but he didn't respond right away, feeling awkwardly at a loss in direction.
Eventually he looked back up at her and realized she'd been staring at him all along, waiting for some sort of response to help her. Doing what first sprang to mind, the youngster innocently reached out his arms though his expression was filled with hesitant uncertainty. At least he thought that was what she needed.
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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 9:24 pm
The girl could see the uncertainty in his eyes and could tell by how he held himself that he wasn't all too sure about giving her any kind of embrace. But right now she didn't care. Amaya nearly fell forward into his arms, sniffing and wrapping her scaly appendages underneath his own, squeezing him close to her while burying her head into his chest.
Right now she didn't care how awkward it might have felt for him. It was contact that she needed. Physical contact. Donner didn't seem to approve and gave a tug on his leash which was ultimatly ignored.
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