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 Posted: Sun Dec 06, 2020 3:23 pm
“If I knew what would make my head not go there, I promise I’d tell you.” He lifted his face to press a kiss to Priam’s jaw. “It… helps some to know you didn’t think it was stupid, or that I was just a brat.” “I just hate that I feel that way, I don’t want the kitchen to feel like it’s off-limits, I… I don’t want to sit in here like a rabid dog, and I hope I never make you feel that way. He sighed and leaned slightly into the embrace. “…I think some people are just, good at what the system -wants- to hear maybe. Or maybe there are just parts of the system that are bad. I…I know there are parts that aren’t, I’ve seen people go through and turn out fine. Maybe it’s just luck, shitty or otherwise.”
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Posted: Sun Dec 06, 2020 6:43 pm
Priam smiled at the kiss on his jaw, like it was some little thing that just tickled him, like the gesture was so welcome and adored that he visibly brightened.
"Maybe," he agreed. "...One day, I think I'd like to adopt."
He didn't want to get his hopes up, and it was something he hadn't really spoken about with either of them. If he couldn't adopt a child on his own, he was certain they'd reject him for this positively deviant lifestyle. Maybe Sterling would have more luck, but Priam didn't really humor the thought and instead said, "Maybe. I think I could be happy with just you two and some gentle, quiet, animals. I know I'm enough trouble as is. Do you think, could we put a little decoration here? They have those color changing lamps. Sterling likes all those rainbow colors, we could probably find a nice one and set it up here in the kitchen. If you're feeling overwhelmed and want space, or want to give a secret 'proceed with caution' code, you could turn it on?" he suggested. "That way it helps us know when you need a little extra gentleness? And love."
Priam pecked another little kiss on Yu's cheek, just in case he needed one.
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Posted: Sun Dec 06, 2020 7:12 pm
“I… think you’d be a good dad.” He said carefully. He hoped if that day ever came, Priam could find someone who got the bad end of the system and could turn it around for them. “….No, I think you’d be great.” He added after a moment. “I hope they let you.” The idea of the light though had him leaning back slightly, trusting Priam’s arms for support. “I… uh…” He started. “I…I might have to…practice remembering it.” He said carefully. But… it was a really good idea. “Would, you… like something like that?” He offered. ‘For ….you too maybe? Days you feel like, anything.”
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Posted: Sun Dec 06, 2020 7:58 pm
He smiled again, reassured by Yu's words. "Well, it's not just what I want. It's both of you, too." He suspected the three of them were in it for the long run, unless the fates had something else planned for them.
His arms were steady as he held onto Yu, finding as much comfort in supporting him as he did with Yu doing the same.
"Practice makes perfect, or so they say. There's no harm in trying. Even if it could help just once, I think it would be worth it. I'm fortunate that my 'get away' spot is--well." He faltered for only a split second. "My very comfortable living room chair. It's a shame you didn't get to feel it. It was perfectly worn in, so comfortable to curl up in, with a good book. But. Maybe my new get away spot will be your arms," he hummed, mostly in jest.
"...Probably my room, though. I suppose I could hang something up on the door if I was feeling out of it?"
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 8:17 am
“It… sounds, like we should look into good comfortable chairs.” He said quietly. “Also like you need to hug Sterling more.” He said with a small laugh. “you’re both good at hugs, it’s probably like magical hug moments when the two of you hug.” He teased. “I’ll try the light though… it can’t hurt with the…holidays and late nights.” Kyuseisha no Hikari not my best tag I'm sorry!
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 12:38 pm
"I will hug Sterling more," he said, like he'd just decided it was something he was going to do. "...And you. And maybe the three of us can get together some times and see if we all fit into each other's arms, because that might be a magical thing. We should look for lights on my phone, when we get back into bed. We'll see if we can't find something pretty to ship here. And--I was going to wait until then, until I was nice and safe and warm in my bed, tucked under the blankets, with your hand in mind, and hot chocolate to be my liquid courage, but."
He didn't need to see Yu's face, not when they were chest to chest, heart to heart--or close enough, at least. His voice was soft, but not quite timid. Just gentle, and vulnerable, and honest.
"I think now's a good time to say I love you."
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 1:37 pm
“We will absolutely have to try that.” He assured Priam. He wanted that, a want that hooked its fingers in and tugged at the painful thoughts that soon enough he’d be pushed aside for better things. But for now, for now, he had this and it was good. “I love you too.” the word slipped out in reply, easy, maybe too easy. They were quiet and careful like it might cause offense to turn the words back in turn. “You’re wonderful, you both are I know but… you are.”
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 5:50 pm
Priam smiled again, melting. His heart was pounding in his chest and he felt giddy, with an affection pooling through him in a way that made him feel like he'd never been hurt by love at all. It crept into the cracks of his heart, gluing back pieces he thought lost to time and giving him such strength that he felt like he'd gotten a good night's sleep.
He felt like this was okay.
He felt happy.
"My heart's skipped a beat," he said--and laughed, softly, into the crook of Yu's neck. "It feels like a key's fit into a lock on a door I forgot I had. It's the strangest thing. It's wonderful, though."
There was a warmth in him, chasing away the cold.
"...I don't really want this moment to end, actually. Please tell me you're free for the rest of the afternoon. I don't want to leave your side."
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Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 6:20 pm
“Yeah, I’m free.” He promised. “I won’t answer if they call either, I’m too tired for over time.” He murmured. “And this is too nice… We could leave a note for Sterling, tell him to join us.” He whispered. “I like you…I like your dogs, I like … being here. So…let’s stay like this, as long as we can.”
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Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2020 9:02 am
"Mm. Yeah," Priam agreed. "I'd like that. Let's make the hot chocolate, I'll let you do that and I'll text him. Maybe he can pick up dinner or something for us too? We can take it easy. We deserve an easy night," he decided, because someone needed to say it.
"No worrying about anything. Just us, relaxing, and taking the opportunity to appreciate the good in our lives. Because, I have to say, you're so good for my life. I want to pamper you. Even if all I can do is offer my bed and pay for dinner and tell you how much you mean to me."
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Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2020 10:10 am
“An easy night sounds… amazing, like too good to be truly amazing,” he admitted. “It’s also, ironic that this started out because I was trying to paper you with hot chocolate.” He laughed softly though he was trying to ease that little more tension out of his shoulders with the joke. “Next time I am…absolutely using the veggie peeler. promise.” “I’ll …also try and pamper with like, finding new cool things for dinner or something.”
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Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2020 7:08 pm
Priam laughed softly and just drew back a bit to pull out his phone so he could text Sterling.
"Next time I won't sneak up on you in the kitchen," he promised. "Next time, we'll do this right. For both of us. Thank you for being so considerate, though. But you know, it is pampering me when you make dinner. Even if you were just making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Anything you make tastes like it's come from the heart."
He smiled at Yu and hastily texted Sterling, something simple, just asking if he could pick up dinner on the way home and if he could join them for movies and cuddling when he got in.
He wasn't giving up on a nice night. They were close; they could end it on a good note.
...He couldn't even find it in his heart to be upset or alarmed about earlier.
Standing next to Yu, there was only peace.
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