Yondara the ChaosMage
Duct-Tape-chan
...eh, sorry, i always lie about my age online. I'm a tiny 15-year-old, actually. So i still have many more years to suffer through.
I'm going home tomorrow night. I could cry right now, but I don't like to cry in front of people. It's horribly awkward and everything.
I feel like falling asleep and never waking up again. Doing absolutely nothing. Laying there and staring at the ceiling, thinking about why my life is sucking so horribly like this. If i can fix things, or if i would just make them worse. I hate myself lately.
Hey, who wants to adopt me? sad
Oh and the girl named Laura that I loved so much.. she's emailing everyone now. But I've still not gotten a letter. It's sad. u_u AND my best friend, Caroline, is going to England for six months, starting this upcoming Friday. She's the girl I'm staying with right now. It feels like when she leaves I won't have anyone to be there for me in real life. Sure, I've got internet friends. But it won't be the same. If i get into a huge fight with my mom late at night, who's going to come pick me up in the middle of nowhere? Or sympathize with the s**t I'm going through? And wow this got way off topic. I was talking about Laura first of all. And it turns out that while Caroline's in England, she's going to Italy. To visit Laura. You're probably saying, "aw. well, thats not such a big deal, really..." It is when you've known this girl from the seventh grade. Caroline was my other half. The pretty half, the likeable half. Every guy I ever liked fell for her. I always felt invisible. And now I thought that I was over that finally. But now I'm feeling it again. Laura and her keep emailing back and forth, and I already tried to resend my letter to Laura, and no response. I dunno what's going on.
But yeah. There's more crap. Don't you just love how s**t keeps piling up like this? Things are only getting worse. And I don't know how I'll be able to handle going home tomorrow. Depression hurts like hell.
I'm going home tomorrow night. I could cry right now, but I don't like to cry in front of people. It's horribly awkward and everything.
I feel like falling asleep and never waking up again. Doing absolutely nothing. Laying there and staring at the ceiling, thinking about why my life is sucking so horribly like this. If i can fix things, or if i would just make them worse. I hate myself lately.
Hey, who wants to adopt me? sad
Oh and the girl named Laura that I loved so much.. she's emailing everyone now. But I've still not gotten a letter. It's sad. u_u AND my best friend, Caroline, is going to England for six months, starting this upcoming Friday. She's the girl I'm staying with right now. It feels like when she leaves I won't have anyone to be there for me in real life. Sure, I've got internet friends. But it won't be the same. If i get into a huge fight with my mom late at night, who's going to come pick me up in the middle of nowhere? Or sympathize with the s**t I'm going through? And wow this got way off topic. I was talking about Laura first of all. And it turns out that while Caroline's in England, she's going to Italy. To visit Laura. You're probably saying, "aw. well, thats not such a big deal, really..." It is when you've known this girl from the seventh grade. Caroline was my other half. The pretty half, the likeable half. Every guy I ever liked fell for her. I always felt invisible. And now I thought that I was over that finally. But now I'm feeling it again. Laura and her keep emailing back and forth, and I already tried to resend my letter to Laura, and no response. I dunno what's going on.
But yeah. There's more crap. Don't you just love how s**t keeps piling up like this? Things are only getting worse. And I don't know how I'll be able to handle going home tomorrow. Depression hurts like hell.
WEEELLL... If things get too bad... There IS always emancipation.
That tends to get rather messy. And there is no money involved. Just poor-ness.
