Vali and Dooma's Journal

[Dooma]

7. January 2011

I know that I have said that I would leave Vali to live on his own and I would try not to take too much action in it but I can not help but worry a bit about him. He hardly smiles and he seems to be drawing more and more into himself. I guess a few things that other spawn had said when he was a child still holds some kind of emotional hold up on him. He said that it does not but he seems to think very little of his skin and body. Though I know he does love it, he just fears that no one will want to touch him. And it seems to come as a surprise when others do want to touch him.

He still tries all he can to make people happy like always. And he hates it when he hurts or upsets other spawns. He might not smile much any more or talk as much but he will still give all he can to someone in need. And I even think that he might have found someone special. Though he will not tell me who they are. I hope that soon he will grow out of this funk and he will start to be more like the happy little Vali I took in. I fear that he might end up like me after all, despite my lack of involvement in his day to day life.

Dooma

 

[Dooma]

January 10, 2011

It seems like I have been a slump. I don't know how I got this way but I am finding that it is harder and harder to just open up and be as friendly as I one was. But maybe that is just part of growing up. Sooner or later things are bound to change. I guess I don't mind it too much though. I am still as nice as I can be and I enjoy being with other spawn. Though I guess for those who did not like me before, I am sure they are going to find that they like me a lot less now.

Speaking of other spawn. I have not seen my princess in a long wail. I hope he is doing well. Though I wonder what he will think of when I tell him that I now have a girlfriend. My king asked me the other day if I would be her boyfriend. I am still not sure if it was because we could not stop cuddling and she really wants too or if maybe she just asked me because her both caught up making out and she told Bleez that that was not allowed. I guess I will find out soon enough though. She might not have any wings and she did not like me at first but at least now she likes me and is willing to touch me. She even go mad when my tail wrote on me (She did not know it was my tail.) I am looking forward to seeing her again.

Soon I will have to look over the files of my biological parents. I think if I have to pick one of the two of them I would forgive or at least be someone interested in, it would have to be my Sloth father. It was not his fault he was killed. He did not just leave the children he did not want, or did not know he had and abandon his brother to take his place. I guess I should stop writing in this journal and start on my reading.

Vali

 

[Dooma]

Undated

I just got back from learning some basic fighting moves. I really enjoy it, though I don't know if I would ever want to fight another real person and try to hurt them. Sparing is fine because there is not heavy and serious. No real blows are meant to hurt or harm.

What I did not know is how many different types and styles of fighting are out there. I went out and picked up a few books on general fighting. So that maybe I can read up on some of the different style then maybe focus on one or two different types. I mean even with my blades, and more so because of them, I should learn to fight with some weapons I think. They do limit some of my movement because I would not want to stab myself and because they don't bend very well it is hard to shift my arms to certain blocks. But that is a good thing that I am finding out about fighting styles, you can work around your limitations and you can even use them to your advantage.

I think that maybe with some more practice I could even develop my own style of fighting. I don't know what I would call it but I think it might be cool. I could be a master or a champion of something for now no one else would be good in. Though I would gladly teach it to others with blades or barbs or what not on their arms. Not that I think I will get good enough to teach others.

It is a bit embarrassing when I practice alone. If I were younger it would just seem like I am playing around. But I am going to save up and buy me a punching bag and learn to make some ones I can practice cutting with and maybe then I would feel so foolish 'attacking' imaginary opponents.

Maybe I should learn something like tai chi. It is both a very effective fighting style as well as a meditation and a stretching and toning style of martial arts. That plus a work out routine and some boxing or cutting practice might not be as embarrassing. Though I don't know who I am going to be embarrassed in front of. Everyone looks sloppy when they start and this is to be able to protect my king as well as anyone else who might need it. Not that I really think I will need it. But it does keep me in shape and relaxed. It also gives me something to do when I am awake.

Speaking of being a wake, I am finding that I am sleeping less and less often. I mean I hardly ever slept as a child or when I was a toddler but now I am almost not sleeping at all. But I think that that might be because of my sloth father. It is a bit nice too that I don't have to eat as much at all either. It seems that that is becoming less of a necessity as well. Though maybe when I start to practice and work out I should be able to get some more sleep and maybe even eat a bit more. I don't think it would be so bad to sleep a little more. Though we will just have to wait and see. I might even hate keeping up in this melee practice so I might just be plan old non sleeping, non eating, and non fighting Vali. I guess It wont be too bad either way.

Vali

 

[Dooma]

Sloth Study Journal

Well I sucked it up and looked into the files of one of my biological parents. The one that was eaten by his replacement spawn. His name was Llewelyn. I am already at his 6'0 height. Though I weigh far more than he every weighed I am sure. I think that I am, personality wise, more like what he originally represented. Sadness, apathy and joylessness. I am not depressed per say and I think the biggest of those three that I can see in myself is apathy. I really don't care about much at all.

Back to the physical things I am envious that I do not have his wings. Though they are not feathered I would love to have wings. I have always had a fondness to them. But that aside I don't have his snake like skin, and though some spawn hate me for my smooth metallic skin I would not change it for anything. I love my skin, I think that is all I can thank my other father for. But I wonder if my sloth father had so much trouble with his own tail that I have with mine.

Sorry Llewelyn I do think you would like the fact that I hardly ever sleep. Though at least, apart from being naked in your photo you look like you enjoyed sleeping so very much. Being dead is not the same as sleeping but at least you never have to wake up again. I don't think you would have even woken up to meet me but I like to think that you might have opened your eyes and had a small bit of pride seeing me alive and well.

And I am glad that I don't make people sleepy but I think that I might make those few friends of mine a bit more relaxed when the are with me. But that is just what I think of them. As for the worksheet I was given here is it filled out.

Vali

1: What is the name of the parent that you picked to study this time around?

Llewelyn

2: What is the Virtue or Vice of the creature? Or was the one your studying a Neutral? Or is it Reshmi who doesn't fall into any of those categories?

Sloth

3: What made you pick this person? Was it because you were more curious about them? Or was it something else?

Well I am a bit curious about him, and I can't fault him for being eaten. I hope he rests in peace.

4: From the photo do you see anything right away that reminds you of you? Answer Yes or No.

Yes and no.

5: Name at least one thing you have in common with the one that your studying up on today.

We both have devil tails and are relatively thin and relaxed looking. But I wonder if he had as much trouble with his tail as I do with mine. And I have his ears.

6: From the reference material do you find that it sounds as though you have anything in common with this creature that isn't something physical? Answer Yes or No.

Yes

7: If you answered yes, what is it you have in common with the one your studying up on today other then physical traits?

I guess I can answer that by saying I feel a bit like what he represented and I guess in a way he was, his apatheticness.

8: What is it that you find the most interesting the one your studying today be it something physical or perhaps a skill that they might have.

Well I do long this wings and how easy going he looked. I know he was asleep but it seemed very peaceful. I think I would have liked to meet him even if he would not have been very awake to talk to me.

9: If you had one question you could ask of this person what might it be?

Are you or could you ever care about or be proud of me?  

[Dooma]

Lessons Journal Entry (Melee and Spiritual)

It might sound a bit odd but I have found that a certain amount of tumbling or gymnastics really helps when it comes to fighting. It might not seem like that much of a difference but it really does add something to fighting. I guess some would think of it as something that is just for show and makes the fighting a bit more silly or flashy. And yes some of the flips and turns are just a bit showy and nothing more than bluffing. Mainly because it is just not practical to uses them. Though sometimes I think that if you can bluff that is all you need. If you somewhat show off a bit of your skills people could just back down and choose not to fight with you. But you should never show off all your skills. Always just keep something hidden and as a surprise.

But not every flip or turn is useless. Thanks to throwing in a bit of tumbling I have found that I can increase the power of my blows or strikes. I know it has something to do with force and some kind of physical science something or other, and I am not really that good with science or math. So I just know what works and when I do a cartwheel, if my strike is aimed right, when it lands it hits harder.

Yes I will admit that I am a bit slow in movement. However I am finding out that I can still do a roll and even a flip or a round house without leaving myself too open for another attack. At least as far as I think. I have rather powerful arms and legs so I can push off fast and strong thus the action itself is not too awkward or slow.

This could just be my slothful side, but it also seems that I end up using less energy when doing attacks in succession with the use a roll or something like it. Almost like it makes or forces my body move and continue to move, very much like a dance. I believe it is all just momentum but it feels almost as if my body is moving on its own free will. Like maybe that I was born to fight. I wonder if all of us spawn were created to fight. Why else would we be 'requested' to attend melee classes. I should ask my next teacher if training with ranged weapons would count as melee classes.

Along with using thumbing to help my fighting I have started to use what I learned in my spirit class to help me as well. I think it is so freaky that I can manipulate and change my blades' shape and size. My teacher told me that I should be able to change other parts of my body as well. I don't know if I would really want too though.

I am a bit afraid that if I try to change an entire limb that it might get stuck that way. As if I am not already a big enough freak. I mean I love who I am. I love my skin and my body, I guess that is why I kinda think it is wrong that I can change it up. And besides I don't know what I would want to turn a whole limb into. Well anything useful that is. though I guess maybe being able to turn my fingers into keys could be cool. As long as I could turn them back.

I think that once I get more confident and I learn to trust my shifting my metal body parts around I might be able to really use it when it come to hand to than fighting. Maybe I can even learn to toss shards of myself at others. That would be both creepy and cool. I would think it would hurt thought for sure. I mean when I manipulate my blade it is rather uncomfortable so I could only guess how it would smart having bit of it torn from me.

I wonder if I could use my skill to somehow make something special for Bleez. Though I wonder if she would think it was too odd and weird wearing something that was once a piece of my body. It is a pretty cool idea though, that I could manipulate my body and remove pieces. I wonder though if i could end up removing too much of my skin and it it would cause permanent damage, or if it would replenish itself. Maybe I should sit down and start trying to do different things with my body and blades. And if I get stuck I get stuck. If not I will have a wonderful new skill, that could be more useful than just for fighting.

Well either way the only way that I will get any of these spiritual talent questions answered would be to keep practicing. I think that maybe the more often I work on shifting my body the more likely the uncomfortableness will go away. Well I am not sure it will go away, more like i will grow used to it and not notice the feeling as much. And if I can take pieces off of myself and it does hurt maybe I will get used to that as well. And I don't think it is that spiritual but I think that I might not mind the pain. In fact I kind of look forward to feeling the sting of removing parts of my metallic skin. It is kind of morbid I know but I can't help but wonder at the feeling. I know I can heal fairly fast and I don't know if, assuming I can make projectiles from my body, that I will scar up when I remove bits of myself.

I can't believe I am thinking about other's wearing parts of me. I don't think I would tell certain people. But if I could shape parts of myself into something worthy of wearing then I think it would be rather cool. I could give Gabriel a smooth round piece like a mini mirror around his neck. Bleez I could make a bladed dinosaur ring or pendent, one a bit more…adult than the one I bought her as a child. And I would tell her for sure. I would hope she would be impressed and not creeped out. If I were to see Pippin again I might try to give him one. but I could never tell him. I think he would freak out.

It just dawn on me. If I am able to remove parts of me, I wonder if I could re absorb them! I could end up being like the T-1000 in The Terminator. Man Fitzroy would be so proud of me. I really would be a super hero then. Because I would not use my skill for evil of course. Though I am sure certain people could tempt me to use my skills for evil. And I must say I don't think evil would be too bad a thing to be. After most people think the seven deadly sins are the worst. But without them there would be no spawn. And I like my sin side better for numerous reasons. Though my virtue side did give me my metal body which I have come to love even though not everyone does. As long as I can love me and those I care about do that is all that matters.

Vali

 

[Dooma]

Spiritual Journal Entry

I wonder what type of spiritual skill other spawn are learning. Maybe someone else can change up their body as well. I bet that my friends can do some really cool things. Maybe I should ask them the next time I see them. I don't remember ever seeing anyone doing anything 'magical' when I was growing up. Even with the older kids I saw. But I was told that everyone has skills that they are born with and can develop because we are what we are. I just don't really know how I feel about this. I know that everyone could accept their differences and embrace them but I can't help but wonder if it is natural to have these or develop these skills.

I mean clearly it is or we would not be able to do things like we can but I still find it odd. I don't really like finding out what I am good at doing. I mean it is not that I don't want to be special. I guess it is just I feel like I am unworthy to have some kind of gift.

Maybe if I go out more and get to know other people and what they can do I will be more interested in taking another spiritual class. As of now I am still waiting for the class to turn into something religious and preachy. It is not that I don't believe in religion. I know Dooma does not talk about what she believes and she lets me believe what I want too. And my parents are an angel and a demon. But when you boil it down I was born from a test tube. There is no real god or religious overture to creating life in a test tube. Well maybe the creator is acting like god.

Crap here I am getting all preachy in my our journal. Back to the classes. I have already found out that I can manipulate my body's composition and shape. I can't even imaging what else I might be able to do. Maybe that is why I find this class pointless. Though I might want to give it more thought seeing how I want to see if I can remove parts of my body without damage. And I have been practicing. Though i think I get afraid of ever actually trying to remove a piece.

Come to think of it I don't think I have ever seen my own blood. I wonder if it is like liquid metal. Maybe I really am like a T-1000. Maybe I could find away to cut myself and guide my blood around. Like if there is a locked room I could use my blood to sneak under the door and unlock it. Now that would be something cool to learn. I could get into so much trouble if I could do that.

I don't know if I should try to control my blood or removed parts alone. I would not even know how to begin to do that. But then again I don't think many teachers wold not how to teach me. So I guess this will just have to be one of those things I learn on my own. I am pretty sure my own blades can cut myself. Alright it is decided next time I am on my own I will give it a shot. I will try to remove a shaped item or cut deep enough to draw blood and see if I can control it or even the little chunk I pull off. I could make mini inch long or smaller spies.

Vali

 

[sevenofsevenmule]

It would be on a Saturday that you open your mail box (if you have one) and notice there is a rather thick envelope stuffed in there. There is no postage stamp and a very vague return address. But you recognize the font and the company's name. 'Seven of Seven Inc' scrawled in majestic font across the upper left hand corner. As you open it, you may strangely find yourself drawn to the letter, there is a mass of notes inside. They read as follows:

Letter

Congratulations! You have managed to succeed in raising your child. (IE: Not killing him or her or getting killed yourself. Haha we kid of course.) We would like an update from you on the following:

Guardians Name:
Child's Name:
Sin:
Virtue:
Gender:
Current Attitude:
Likes:
Dislikes:
Any abnormal growths: (if any, example: Feathers molting, horns growing larger, scars )
Current hair style:
Current clothing preferences:
Dominant celestial trait: (The sin or virtue)

Please summarize in your own words how difficult or easy it was taking care of your child. Did you manage to care for them in a kindly fashion? Or were you forced to discipline them?
As well do not be alarmed if you suddenly find your child achieving a massive growth spurt in the next little while. We are finding that the children from our facility have strange growing patterns and are rather unpredictable. Although please let us know if anything unexpected occurs.

Sincerely the technicians from Seven of Seven Inc.

Ps. Please just leave your letter back in your mail box one you have completed it our courier will pick it up.

Thank you.

You would notice the letter seems overly friendly...strange since the scientist were so ...cold before.

(Just take the from Guardians name to Dominant Celestial trait and pm it to the mule, the summarization doesn't have to be long just have fun with it.)