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Chrissy:

I used to be an angel, but you broke my wings,
I tried to forget it, but deep down it still stings,
We used to have something really wonderful,
But I'm sorry I can't be as beautiful,

Even though it's hard sometimes, I still love you,
And I'd still like to believe that you love me too,
Sorry I'm not perfect like you want me to be,
And I'm sorry you have to be a prisoner of my jealousy,

I gave you a new chance, I tried to set you free,
The truth is, you would be, if it weren't for me,
I've held my breath, and tried to do things your way,
But I just can't do it, though maybe I can someday,

I can't sit and think about you being in someone else's bed,
And I can't pretend that my feelings for you are dead,
This might sound crazy, but I have to tell you how I feel,
My feelings of jealousy are just too strong to conceal,

You said you'd stay with me, but is that your final answer?,
I too am a prisoner of my mind's dark and fatal cancer,
It's a sickness called love, and maybe I love you too much,
But I can't imagine what life would be like without your gentle touch,

Whenever I'm in your arms, I feel so safe and so warm,
When you are with me, nothing bad can happen, no evil can form,
And all of this is why, no matter what you do,
Even if you're untrue, I will always love you.

Alex:

You were the best and truest friend I've ever had,
One of the few things in this world that still made me glad,
Even though you're gone, in my heart you are still here,
You did your best to chase away all the pain and the fear,
Maybe there was something I could have done to keep you with me,
You've only been gone a few days, but it still seems like an eternity,

I keep hoping that I will see you again someday,
But that day will never come, if it will it's far away,
Until the end of forever I will continue to miss you,
Our paths crossed for only a short time, but how much you grew,
I'd give anything if we no longer had to be apart,
No one could ever know how much your death hurts my heart,

And no matter how things are, you will never be dead in my eyes,
For on this cruel earth, everything and everyone eventually dies,
I will miss you forever, you always were my best friend,
I hope that i still made you happy, until the end,
All I want is for you to come back and chase the pain away,
But I know that's impossible, for you're in the ground to stay,

You were always there for me,
Just when I needed you to be,
I will always be thinking of you...


(This is my saddest most heartfelt poem in my opinion. Even now, every time I read it, I cry.)

Dead Inside:

It seems that what we had existed so long ago,
But I somehow feel the need to let you go,
It drives me crazy, and no matter what I do,
No matter how I try, I just can't get over you,
I would give up everything just to be in your arms again,
I just want you to take me back into your world of sin,

Swallow me once more into the depths of your ocean,
Without you, my desolate soul has nowhere to run,
I am a nomad, lost in a land of eternal darkness,
It's been a long time, but I still don't love you any less,
Without you, lie has no meaning, existence is hollow,
Wherever you go, know that my heart will always follow,

Until the end of forever, my soul is yours inside,
The first time that I lost you, a part of me died,
You've always been so special, and close to my heart,
It eats away at me, and drives me mad when we're apart,

All I've ever wanted from you,
Was for you to love me too,
My heart is black,
And I want you back.

Rage:

Like a moth, to a flame,
Only I am to blame,
Like a dog, beaten down,
In sorrow, I will drown,
In anger, I proclaim,
People are all the same,
Trying to control you,
Why can't we all be true?
We borrow other's dreams,
Like magic, it so seems,
The battle never ends,
My own will shall not bend,
People hate themselves so,
Kindness they'll never know,
They have stolen from me,
Things you can never see,
So to them, I reply,
Not one tear shall I cry,
As it was, I once swore,
I would love, nevermore,
Sought shelter on your shore,
For love is forevermore,
Seek the truth within lies,
Hear my sorrowful cries,
The anger... never dies.

As Always:

With sadness, the only means of my expression,
I let myself go into a deep depression,
Yet only a short time I allow it to last,
So that I can be with you, return to my past,
If only for a moment, our love appears true,
It is worth all my pain, only to be with you,

No one can control me, yet somehow you can,
The first time I realized I wanted you, I ran,
Though we may grow old together, as two sad old friends,
We know that the sorrow of our youth never ends,
Sometimes I hate myself for the things I've done,
But with you, I'll find my place in the sun,

The warmth of which grows coldly into shadows, as always,
Our meeting as brief as a moment, it loves me for all days,
My memory will always turn to you to comfort me,
As always I have expected, it can never truly be,
All is lost and shattered, just as soon as this dream will shatter,
How will you keep uo with yourself? So many lies to flatter,

This sweet illusion blends with agony to lead me to hatred,
We exist solely aprt, but only because your memories are dead,
Or maybe it's your heart; I only wish that I knew,
The real way for my twisted soul to get back with you,

I only want to return to the beauty of what used to be,
I've tried for so long, but now i realize you will never see,
My heart belongs to you, yet still you reject and deny,
Just remember my words to you when I am gone; Liar, you are a lie,
You are a vile creature destined to remain forever cold of heart,
The spirit of our haunted past comes to me, as always, whenever we're apart.

His Eyes:

The darkness in his eyes follows me everywhere,
When I ask him why, he pretends not to care,
It's crazy, the torture he puts himself through,
Every day, he gives me another false clue,
He wants to make me his, from what I've heard,
But when I ask him, he denies every single word,
The last thing I want is to tear him from his destiny,
But I can tell by the look in his eyes that he wants me,
Why does he have to make things so difficult?
He doesn't have me, but that's not my fault,
I gave him a chance to own me, but he blew it,
If he ever gave me half the chance I'd do it.

Stay Here With Me:

How can someone stand to be so beautiful, and so proud,
Possessing more splendor and grace than should ever be allowed,
In my heart, you're like an addiction, like a disease,
You will always be my favorite, out of all of these,

You were, and still are, the only thing I've ever really had,
No one has any idea how I want to be with you, so bad,
I never want to be without your touch again,
You are far too beautiful, to look at you is a sin,

It drives me crazy how you will not can not stay,
When our souls remain together, I dream of the day,
Oh, the ages of poems in your name have I written,
By your own deadly serpant I still remain bitten,

Love is often naught but what the soul wants it to be,
The heart wants what it wants, when will the victim see,
The pain is eating away at me, it is true through you,
The color of my sorrow cannot be shaded any hue,

The sorrow of longing for you has led me to desire,
But lately you've destroyed me, set my heart on fire,
You know nothing because you see nothing, so there's nothing to tell,
I only know it has been far too long since I was locked in this hell,

The torture is knowing that you're not going to be there,
Not because you don't want to, just because you don't care!

Mine:

The shrieking of the demons
Tells your tale well,
Tells of your constant turmoil,
Between agony and despair.

For you, child,
Only for you.

Hatred is the only way
To be at peace
With pain.

Thou art a murderous blend,
Of despair mixed with sin,
How very sinful you are.

What a condemned and wicked heart
You possess,
Within your sign.

So shallow is the pool
From which your soul drinks;
So hollow is the heart
Of which your soul shares.

For one of such beauty,
The only truth is a lie,
Within the competence
Of his only desire,
To kill; and to deny.

Just as you have helped
The murder of your own soul,
You are a poor, miserable aura
Of despair.

But who would ever believe,
That your very soul
Is a part of that
Which is forever entangled...
With mine!