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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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 Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 6:37 pm
Savith stopped at the touch and the send. Eyes blazing suddenly. **No,** he replied. Though his send was soft, the undercurrent was a raging torrent of agony and loss. **My son is not in the past,** he continued, rounding on Dancer. His eyes narrowed and while he still managed to not to look the elfess right in the eyes, the glare shoots daggers none the less. His upper lip curled away from his teeth in a sneer and one fist was brought up, clenched tight, in fury **My daughter is not in the past,** he pressed, each statement forcing the send tighter and tighter until it was nothing more than a razor sharp sliver of a locksend being forced and twisted into Dancer's mind. **My soulmate is /not/ the past! I want nothing of you ladies, nothing of your fetid closeness or attempts at coy glances. I desire nothing but your distance. Thrice has my soul been torn assunder. Twice have I felt the overwhelming vertigo of another's last breath. I refuse to feel it again, if I must live a half-life to do so. So if you had any sense of respect, you will kindly not make the slightest mention of such in my presence or where I might hear again.**
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 6:50 pm
Well if he desired to make her recoil, he did. If his wish to make her cry, her got it. Of course he must have had family at his age. She now felt a bit stupid and pulled back into a dark corner holding up a hand as if to say no more. She buried her face in her legs and sobbed. He could see if he looked that she was trembling and weakly ever so timidly like a frightened child her mind touched his. *I... I'm sorry... How could I know? I'm sorry... I'm sorry.....* The send trailed off and stopped as she still sat in the dark corner sobbing and would not face him.
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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 7:12 pm
**No. How could you know,** Savith pressed on, rising to his feet and stalking after her, following her to her corner to glare down at her from on high. **You don't stop to think how others might feel, that others might not what to talk or laugh or smile and that there must be a good reason for it. No. It's all about you and your inane wish for everyone to be as perfectly happy and content as you are. Well, that's not the case. So don't recoil now, hatchling. This cave you've dug for yourself. You wanted to know? So now you know, and now you recoil? You think you've had enough? I've had millennia without family. Of wishing I had family like everyone else. And now, that I finalyl have it, it's gone. For all I know, they're crushed under more rock than you can imagine. And the simple fact that I'm me, born of Recognition, son of two of the principle shapers of the Mountain, without even the slightest hope of ever being able to taste the magic of the rocks, means that I stood there at the heap of what was my home, and I wasn't even able to shape in to try to find their bodies. I wasn't even able to sense if another had shaped them into safety..... and you want me to Laugh?**
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 7:28 pm
"And my family is lost in a hole deeper then I ever saw or swallowed up by water taller then any tree in the jungle. We have all lost people we loved more then our own lives." Dancer was getting angry now. She didn't back away from him before because of what he said but how it was said. The send, sharp, painful and full of his own hurt. Now she stood as she tried hard to find the tiger deep within herself. "We all have reason to cry and sob and stay lost in out sorrow. You are not special in that way but how would you know what others have lost when you are lost in your own hurt and self pity. Yes I smile, yes I want everyone to be happy because if we weren't we might all go mad with grief and swim out into the vast deep with the hopes that we are with the ones we love soon." Her tone was never loud but even and angered. Pushing past him she went to the mud and picked it up. "This is all of us at the moment. We can be shaped together to become something stronger or" She dropped the mud flatly on the ground "We can all just let ourselves become cold, hard and empty. So call me a feather head or whatever name you like. I choose to remember the ones I loved so dear by celebrating their lives and not morning the moment I lost them.
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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 7:48 pm
Hope is not something easily found in the mountain. Nor is Change. "Stop trying to get me to feel better. I didn't see her fall. I didn't feel her fall. I just don't know," he says aloud, each word harsh and throaty. He turns toward the opening to compose himself.
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 8:01 pm
The exausted elfes lets out a long breath and speaks in soft tones to show she is over being angry. "I'm not saying you can't be glad when you feel ready. I am saying that if you have a pain I only wish to share it with you so that you do not have to suffer alone. I only want to hear what you have to say Savith. Be it good, bad, beautiful or ugly. I am stronger then you think. Your pain will not make me recoil or freaful again. Just know you are not the only one who holds pain and sorrow. Yours is not greater or more special than that of the rest of us. It is just unhealthy to get lost in the darkness for to long." With that she picked up a blob of mud and threw it at his back lightly. "I think we should let this go for now and maybe clean up."
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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 8:16 pm
At the blop, Savith just sighs and moves to head out. **I'm done talking to you. Leave me alone.** And once clear of the cave, he lifts off and flies away.
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Posted: Thu Jul 17, 2008 8:25 pm
Dancer shook her head and watched him leave. A smile slowly came to her lips because no matter how it was done he still shared with her and that made her happy.
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2008 1:57 pm
So ends a wonderful fight... The first of many... blaugh heart
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 10:35 am
It was about two days after the late night celebration. Crosscurrent had gone to the sea and Dancer was fussing in the cave that would be her den. Fuss fuss fuss she would forever try to make it what she saw in her mind. The water was pooling nicely and streaming slowly through the middle of the cave where her and Savith had dug a trench to the opening. It made her frown slightly as she recalled his face during her dance for him. A slow sigh leaves her as the young elfess wonders what to do. Reach out to him or let him come to her when he feels comfortable to do so again. She looked at the small pile of rabbit and squirrel furs in a corner and some thick lush leaves as well. Still it seemed gloomy. What did it need? It needed many things. A few stag skins would be wonderful and it made her wonder if any bigger game had come near by since the foul village was burned to the ground. Still Saviths slight frown pulled at her mind till she could no longer stand it. Her mind reaching out to lightly touch his. *Savith, are you upset with me again?* The send clearly showed the unhappy look on his face from the celebration and floated on the heartach it caused her.
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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 12:00 pm
**No, kit,** came the reply from across the way dragging a faint sense of 'why? what did i do this time?' with it like too much excess baggage.
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 12:20 pm
In her dark cave she smiled lightly but still didn't understand his sour face. She chalked it up to that is just how Savith is. *Are you feeling ok this day Savith? What I mean is.* She lost her thought or pulled it away. *Did you enjoy yourself the other night?* A clear feeling of wanting to move on to something else. Not wanting to pry or push him into a subject that could go well or cause a fight. Her mood after being with the Wavedancer was high and she wanted to bask in the joy for as long as it would stay.
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ChosenSavith Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 12:23 pm
**No worse for wear,** teh glider's mind answered with a faint sense of fatigue. **And I didn't not enjoy the time with others.** But did he really enjoy it is a whole other answer.
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 12:32 pm
*That was a vague answer my friend but I will not push. I will just try harder next time.* The send held a hint of sorrow at not getting a better answer. Her question should have been did you enjoy what I did or said but he made her fearful of the real answer and so she withdrew the question all together and tried to move on. *Did you strain yourself? Is your ankle hurting and you need something?* She wanted to help if she could but Savith seemed to suck the joy out of her at times and she could feel it happening.
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