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Paralyzed

To this very second
I am bewildered
that one so graceful
pretentious, and naive
Could leave ingrained, acrid engravements
on this volatile form
so induced with comatose
from annihilating words
you fed me
weary marks my disposition
since "I love you" is no longer
my alibi to you
For love comes with faults
and it's as if
you come with disimulative perfection

It disorders me more so
that the smell of your nicotine breath
still clutches the pillow
with bitter scent.

Freedom

It is the end of the end,
and the beginning of forever,
a new and better future,
has birthed it's arrival.
Within me it lights the way,
for the glowing hand's travels.
It is the end of me,
and the beginning of her
of which is embraced.
I am versified now,
with the light of happiness
echoing largely within my eyes.

My strength is eternal,
coenciding prior time.
I do not need
what I desire,
I can be gaily,
without my appetite,
but my desires
for bread are not,
to be gaily without.
I wish to share
my barge of life,
with an aqueduct,
deep in my heart.

Puzzle Solving

I'm missing you again
I'm content with living,
in general,
but what do I do,
when all I see is you
Our time will come again,
someday,somewhere, somehow
I see you in the distance,
at the end of any road,
And I hope that's not only,
the mirage of my longing,

My heart is shattered,
and lying on the road,
but then you'll come
and help to grab the pieces.
We'll carry them back home,
careful not to lose them
where our family will help
to put the puzzle together again
as we laugh and joke with our children
given by you,
sprouted from me
with you by my side

Screaming Silence in Your Ear

Running through blurred epiphany,
of past, that mirrors evolution,
I falter here as I try to breath,
The renewed air of solace.
but it is all
so toxic to my lungs,
I inhale shots of furious venom.
Leaving my insides to collapse.
I stagger, for I wish not to be prey,
to the whims of suffocation.
I fall to my knees,
and look to the distant, empty sky.
The stars rage down,
so fallen, evaporate the ground.
"Hear me, God. ******** LISTEN,
Get me through this.
Make my blood thick,
black and bitter,
numb to the passings
of your vile earth.
make this helpless weak,
linger elsewhere.
for I wish
to yield to the dead in me."
exhale, I need, I scream.
and still, you're silenced,
to me.

We're Only Two


We'll call you when you're six years old
And drag you to the factory
To train your brain for eighteen years
With promise of security
But then you're free
And forty years you waste to chase the dollar sign
So you may die in Florida
At the pleasant age of sixty nine

The water's getting hard to drink
We've mangled up the country side
The air will choke you when you breathe
We're all committing suicide
But it's all right
It's progress folks keep pushin' till your body rots
Will strip the earth of all it's green
And then divide her into parking lots

But there's nothing you and I can do
You and I are only two
What's right and wrong is hard to say
Forget about it for today
We'll stick our heads into the sand
Just pretend that all is grand
Then hope that everything turns out ok

You're free to speak your mind my friend
As long as you agree with me
Don't criticize the father land
Or those who shape your destiny
'Cause if you do
You'll lose your job your mind and all the friends you knew
We'll send out all our boys in blue
They'll find a way to silence you

But there's nothing you and I can do
You and I are only two
What's right and wrong is hard to say
Forget about it for today
We'll stick our heads into the sand
Just pretend that all is grand
Then hope that everything turns out ok

And I'll end for tonight with my FAVORITE poem I've EVER written:

That's What it is You Give to Me

There you sit
smiling
And it's you I watch
yearning
For the day to come
enjoying
All our life together
loving

Every time I look at you
Every time I talk to you
Every time I smell you
My heart dissolves
melting
And I am forever
dreaming
Dreaming of me and you

Whenever you hole me tigh
Whenever you caress my eyes
Whenever your lips touch mine
I feel like I want to cry
So they'll run down and dry
That's what it is you give to me

Your eyes
gleaming
And your lips
pleading
Your hands
elploring
While my hearts
exploding

Everytime you look at me
I know just what it is you see
Everytime you talk to me
And I hear that beautiful voice
My knees get weak
My stomach flutters
My chest collapses
My neck hairs tinggle
My heart stops beating
Just in that moment in time
That's what it is you give to me

As I sit here
dreaming
I imagine us
sleeping
Where I can hold you endlessly
Forever through eternity

And I'll continue
dreaming
As long as you are
living
earthly or in heart
As long as you are
breathing
visibly or in heart
As long as you are
being
physically or in heart...

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