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 Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 12:33 pm
Rylenn glared at him, tears falling. "Weiyuan. I expect you to be nice to the people I care about." He pulled away. "And if that is domesticating you, then I fully apologize. I'd tell anyone else in the same situation to be civil." He wrapped his arms tighter around himself. "You don't ******** manhandle everyone in existance. I don't give one good goddamn WHO they are. You don't stomp around like a ******** CHILD because I'm giving someone else attention."
He looked to the side. "I don't ask you for ANYTHING. I accept you for who you are.." He looked at Weiyuan. "I'm sorry I expected you to be nice to the people I care about. Treat them like s**t if you want. Just don't expect me to like it. Don't expect me to respond well." He looked down.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 12:43 pm
"Nice? To a twenty-something year old who is fully accepting the flirtatious remarks you give him? Date? Sleep over at his place? Like I didn't hear any of that!" He turned clutching at his hair. "I don't know how to make you happy right now!" He growled to himself.
Was he so bad a person to not know how to be socialable? Did he forget to mention to Rylenn that he grew up ANTIsocial? That, no, he did not play nice with the other kids. He didn't even play with the other kids. He was in the corner with blocks or crayons or a mathwork book trying to look productive while the other kids were out running and scraping each other up.
"You pretend as if I was nice to you the first time I met you. Remember? My defenses rose, I was quite the a*****e then too wasn't it I? I'm not someone who is insta-nice. It takes a shitload of time for me to get used to a person! Let alone be nice."
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 12:50 pm
Rylenn growled. "I WAS KIDDING AROUND WITH HIM!" He snarled. "You act as if this is new the way I act. Or did you forget I act like that around everyone. I play with people, touch them, flirt with them. That is just me." Rylenn glared. "You want to make me happy? Act like a human being!" He was beginning to really cry now. "Yanno what? ******** you, Weiyuan. ******** you to heaven and beyond." He went back down to where they had been and sat on the log. He curled in a tight little ball and sobbed silently.
He tucked himself into a little ball, his hands slipping to the back of his neck, holding it in place. He was shaking fairly hard, keeping himself on the path.. keeping himself from running ahead.. running as far away from Wei as he could get. No... this was a big huge mistake.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:04 pm
'You're not human man.'
'What the hell's wrong with you?'
'Again? Like a robot?'
'Gods he is a robot!'
'More like a rock.'
'What a nerd.'
'He doesn't have any friends, Mom.'
'Don't talk to him, he might bite off your head.'
'You know, his parents did the right thing with giving him up. I wouldn't want a son like him anyway.'
Yeah. He wasn't human.
He really wasn't.
Wei stomped on the ground. Before sitting down. The two of them were really opposites. But he felt as if he was the only one who had to change to make this relationship work. He missed Rui right now. His brother understood him. Especially in this place. He sighed. This is how it would have to be.
He stood, moving back. He knew where Rylenn would be. Spotting the elder, he stood behind him, keeping his eyes hidden underneath his bangs. "Rylenn. I can't be the person you want me to be...not instantly at least. So...I think it would be best...if you continue to be yourself without worrying about my actions. And I will be myself without worrying about your actions. You're at your best when you're amongst others who you can socialize with. I'm at my best when I'm alone. Be careful then." He turned, not going anywhere. But he didn't want to see Rylenn. He felt like he just ripped out his own heart and dropped into a fire.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:11 pm
"Best?" He looked at Weiyuan and stood. "So it would be best for me.. for us.. seperately and together... to forget that the other exists? Or at least pretend? You really.. don't want me." <********. No one did.
"I'm sorry I ever even wasted your time. I.. I'll always love you Wei. I'll always remember.. the beach.." He stood and walked back to the group, not caring who saw him crying. He was too busy... too busy trying to lock away the pain... He felt dizzy. He didn't realize his breathing had become irregular. He swayed a bit. Too much.. too damn much.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:25 pm
He hoped death wasn't this painful. He stayed where he was, hands curled into fists. His body trembled and tears ran down his face in a violent manner. He whispered to himself. "" He brought his arms up, hugging himself, finally letting himself cry.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:36 pm
Rylenn sat down and curled against himself. He stayed between Weiyuan and the others. He had to.. He didn't want to be near anyone. The only thing he wanted to be near were those Lunar Caps. And they weren't much of good company.
He tried to keep his father's voice from his head.. but he failed. He sat there, silently sobbing, listening to those words of their major fight.. He said them softly in unison with the voice in his head.
"You're useless.. you stupid homosexual. I'll beat it out of you boy.. like I should of beat the whore out of your mother... I was soft on her, boy.. not on you. You'll get yours Rylenn. Your sinful ways.. God won't suffer them.. you'll suffer... and never find love.. Why? Because you're a goddamn f*****t. Nothing more. You're a disgusting waste.. waste of flesh.. bone.. marrow.."
He paused. "You were right, Daddy.. right all along. Good for nothing.. stupid... emotional.." He cursed himself.. a thousand times over. He should of never.. given his heart out. even if.. he was warm when the other was close. Even now... he felt warm.. staring at Weiyuan's back.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:46 pm
Wei just wanted to just beat himself up, literally. He just...basically broke up with Rylenn didn't he? It hurt. It hurt so much. He didn't think anything could beat how bad he felt when his father died. But it did. And he couldn't control it.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:52 pm
When Rylenn realized that Weiyuan wasn't going to turn around.. wasn't going to hold him and tell him everything would be okay.. he got this overwhelming sick feeling. He got up and threw up, and hard. He bust a capillary in his throat, causing blood to be present. He stared at the blood, tasting it faintly in his mouth. He prayed he was bleeding internally.... that he was dying.
"Ugh... " He panted a bit before throwing up again.
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 1:58 pm
He felt as if his ears twitched. That...was an odd sound. He sniffled, turning a bit. What....the...
He felt his heart seize, his eyes growing sharp. In an isntant he was next o the red head. Arms wrapped around the other, panic bring forth ugly lines upon Wei's face. "Ry! Ry! Baby, love, what's wrong! Are you okay? Baby please...please." No. No. No. He couldn't lose him. He looked to the sky, looking for the moon. He must be crazy to be asking for the Goddess to look down on her non-believers. ""
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:03 pm
Rylenn clinged to Weiyuan, not quite sure who was actually holding him at the moment. He was muttering his fathers words still.. "I'll... beat it out of you boy... like I should of beat the whore... out of your mother... I was soft on her boy... not on not on you. You'll get yours Rylenn.. God won't suffer them.. never.. never find.. disgusting waste.." He wasn't out of it.. he just chose not to be there, preferring to go back to then... that didn't hurt as bad as this did. He looked up at Weiyuan. His eyes were unfocused. He touched his cheek, revealing a small cut on his wrist.. that he had just gotten or so it looked it. It was bleeding.
"Wei.."
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:12 pm
These eyes saw Lina almost die. Did they have to witness this too?! He sat down, pulling Rylenn into his lap. He pulled a towel from his knapsack, wiping at Rylenn's face. His eyes were shaking, not knowing what to focus on. He spotted the cut. Gods no. No!!! He cleaned the cut, bandaging it as properly as he was able to. "No baby. You're not waste. Your the most beautiful person in the world. I love you Rylenn. I love you. I promise, I'll be good. I'll be everything you ever would want and need just don't leave me. Please just don't leave me. I love you. I love you. I love you. And when this is all over I'm going to marry you. It doesn't matter who sees just don't...don't leave."
He kissed Rylenn's cheek, his tears falling onto the elder. He reached into his bag, taking out a little band. It was one of those cheap rings that looked fancy. He asked his father to buy it for him when he was young. Because it was pretty and he really liked he colors. A green gem with two red ones settled beside it upon a simple silver band. He smiled, sniffling, placing it around Rylenn's left ring finger. "I love you."
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:17 pm
Rylenn's eyes fluttered some as he was brought back to this time. He looked up at Weiyuan. He blinked for a moment. "Wei... why are you crying?" His eyes were fully alert... no longer foggy. He sat up and looked at the ring on his hand and back at Weiyuan. He was... very confused. "What just happened?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:24 pm
Grey eyes were filled with tears, thick trails of tears down his cheeks. His face was red, his mouth set in a frown, lips trembling. Like those images of complete ukes. Like Shuuichi in Gravitation. "Ry!!!" He pounced the red-head crying into the other's body. "Don'tscaremelikethateveragainIthoughtyouweregonnadiebut
youdidn'tbutIwassoscareRylennnnnnndon'tdothattomeyooucan'tit'snot
fairhowcouldyoumakemeworrysososososomuchthat'ssomeanofyou
butI'msogladyou'reokaybecauseIcouldn'tlivewithoutyouIwouldjustdie
andIpromiseI'llbeagoodboyandobeyoureverywhimandiwillmarry
youandmakeyouthehappiestpersonalivejustdon'tleaveme!!!!!!"
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Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 2:29 pm
Rylenn looked at him for a long moment before. "All right. I'm dreaming. Who the ******** are you and why the hell do you look like Weiyuan? Did I pass out or something?" He peered at his wrist. "Oh..." Then he looked over at the vomit. "Oooh.. I see.."
He looked at Weiyuan and took his face in his hands. "Calm down. BREATHE, Wei. First off... I got that scratch on the way here. Hooked my wrist on metal. Not on a tree... but thank you for your concern. Secondly.. the blood in my vomit is from my throwing up too hard... I bust a capillary in my throat probably.." He sighed. "So you can calm down. I'm okay.." He slid up. "Sorry to worry you..." He looked sad as if the death sentence on their relationship still stood.
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