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Kashan thought for a time. After all that had just happened he did not know if he really could just leave now, no matter how important his mission was. In the end he figured that things could not really be as bad as he thought. The manor still stood and the presance lingered so maybe he was over reacting, besides, The team they ahd here would be enough to tackle anything. Especialy after what they all had gone through during their last little trip to that ended in the plain of torment. "I am not going anywhere Sam, not leaving your side for a long time yet." Kashan said.

Shadow could not bare to watch this fight, really he would have prefered it to have gone the way it did with Felicity, one side just giving up. It pained him to see two woman that he loved basicaly trying to kill one another but that did not apear to be the aim of the little game. For either of them to truely win Shadow would need to make a choice, a very difficult choice wich was proving difficult since the scent of blood everywhere was effecting his thoughts. Luna's blood was sweet on its own and would drive him into a frenzy when he was weakened but Cassy's blood would always drive him to different lengths. Ever since he sired Cassady he craved that blood, constantly fighting a battle within himself when he was around her so he did not drain her completly dry. His mind drifted to the different sirings, The one for Cassady was stuck firmly in his mind and would never leave him. He done it to save her life out of pure fear of losing her altogether, because of how he felt for her. Luna's siring was more of a bestile thing, driven to lengths thanks to his hunger, really Luna was lucky to have been sired while Shadow was in such an unstable state but he grew to love her over time as he trained her in the arts of old and put up with Selena denying him so much. this choice would be incredibaly difficult to make. If he stepped in and tried to stop it they would just fight around him so for this he would need to find a different solution. All of this fighting would have to end sometime, at this rate one would bleed out and become even more crazed by hunger. The main signal for Shadow was Cassady speaking and using terms that her father had said to her back then. That little thing alone scared him more than anything. Just hearing those things again made him angry, the thoughts of that man mad ehim angry even though Cassady herself killed him and his little assistant durign the incursion with Marquis, it still made him angry. There was no time for that now, no time at all. he would need to come up with a way of tiring the two out without them killing one another and he could nto do that here, not enough space for him to do what needed to be done and now with Luna sitting on him he was even more restricted. The time would come soon but it was just not right now. All he had to do was wait just that little bit longer and then he would try to solve this.

Shadow let out a sigh, this was not as easy as just picking one over the other. There was far more to it than that. This would require atleast some thought and he couldnto do that with all this fighting. "Tell you what, you two stop fighting one another and let me think on this for ten seconds without being distracted by blood and combat. Although by this point it may be a little impossible. I will lose something no matter who I chose if the last time this happened is used as my referance point. So just give me a couple of minutes to think in blissful silence before I have to restrain the two of you." Shadow said in a fairly calm tone.

Shadow shook hsi head. "I thik it best if I leave for somewhere the scent does not stick." he said as he moved to his window and opened it. "If I wish to preserve my sanity I need to think and have no fighting otherwise I will just decend into madness again and I might not actualy break free of it this time around and besides I need soem time to think on what you told me Luna. I never dove that deep into your memories because they were your personal memories. Now that you have told me, perhaps the trust is gone and my choice will be made easier." Shadow said as he threw himself out of the window and landed with ease outside.

Shadow had closed off his mind right now, using one of the many little systems he had for blocking out all outside interfernce along with other little thing to push everything bar the imediate problem to the side of his mind. Luna's thoughts were comming in but they were not regestering right now. He had to much on his mind at the moment. The choice between Luna and Cassady, the war, preperations for the war, what he learned on the plain of torment with the others, Amelia, the clans. Everything there just had to be worked on and pushed aside for now until he could thin clearly on just the one subject. His systems usualy work but right now they were failing him.

"You make this seem like torture." He teased as he watched the balls dance around the pool table.

"I'll be fine. Promise." He smiled and took a shot, just missing a shot.

Shadow turned to face Blade, his face filled with worry, with the pain of memory. It still help the tired and worn look that he had been carrying with him for so long now but amplified due to current events. "hey Blade... this isn't a good time. i can't try and kill you today. i have enough on my mind right now. A difficult choice to make and I already am swinging one way. i just need to be sure about this, i need to be completly sure that i am makign the right choice. One who has been there always and who has disapeared several times before but holds a great deal more over me... that is the wrong way to word it... one that makes me relive certain things. She does not mean to hurt me I know this but do I risk being hurt by her leaving me again?" Shadow said, this was mainly ment for himself, just voicing his thoughts but he was so distracted that he actualy forgot Blade was standing there by the end of it.