clean out
my thoughts have been surpressed
my feelings have been put to the test
i dont know what is what
i cant think i cant breath
there is no god to help us now
we are all going down
down in the misery of death
death is inevitable,
i do not fear death
and yet i fear free falling from the sky
i am in need of a cleansing
a cleansing of the heart
the mind
and the body
i need to be able to think
im shaken now
i cannot hold still for more than 2 seconds without convolsing
the only thing that has been able to calm me is gone
oh my, wherever you are god
just try to help us and our pitiful selves
we are need of being guided
we are in need of assistance
if you cannot give us this
then we are most definatly doomed
love turns to hate
hate turns to love
white turns to black
black turns to white
no matter what
live will ******** us all
we wont live to see the day of our glories
the inevitablility ahead of us is surpasing us with all its glory
the glory of death himself...
emptyness
i dont know what i feel
but i feel something
its not love,
nor hatred,
nor happyness,
nor sadness
i dont feel anything i recognize
but i do feel something and its not empty
my heart has been filled and yet it was tiped over
and nothing fell out
the glass has been tipped furthur
and still nothing falls
and then the glass has been tiped upside down
as everydrop of liquid that is in it
flows out of the glass
a different fluid takes its place
a glowing fluid that has no real color
as it blures from one shade to anouther
the fluid transforms into a solid
the glass will allways remain half empty now
for the center of the hardened fluid is hollowed out
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for the first time the only way i want to die
is falling from a plane
at 20,000 feet in the air
and im deathly afraid of freefalling.........