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 Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 3:20 am
After an hour or so of walking they arrive to the deepest part of the forest. Just on front of them were a chain of mountains that were the tallest on Soul Society. Turning around to look at his pupil the young shinigami says:
"When I was a kid I used to come here with Mahiro and Yama-jii all the time, Mahiro and me created a small training ground just pass these mountains in a secret valley that is located between them. However that doesnt really matters now, you see the reason for the one I took you here is to give you a test of courage and strength...by looking at this mountains you can see how insignificant we are...they look so big so endless, just like our problems, just like our need to surpass other and just as big as out lack of confidence..."
Smiling softly Shinrei look up at the mountains that passed the sky height and then looks back at her student.
"You see...I want you to climb this mountain, this mountain that is as big as your insecurity, this mountain that represent your own weakness...you can either reach the top and see for yourself how far you can go if you believe in yourself, or you can just fall and die, saving the world the problem of dealing with a weakling like you, after all those that are not strong enough to climb to the greatest heights are burdens to those who do...now the decision is simple, will you challenge your own self, or will you turn around and admit your worthless ?"
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 3:33 am
He muses as he looks at the mountain itself. In a sense, it is very much like what he feels he has to push past..yet at the same time, he can't help but feel that there's something missing in the analogy, and he sighs. He supposes it's because of where he comes from; things where he's from are so much more..subtle. To be this direct..it really isn't like him, but then again, he supposes that he's been doing things that are unlike him anyway.
"To climb a mountain..I understand what you mean..but I don't see how going above a rock face will make anything different. No matter how strong I do get, I still have a duty to perform. Even if I overcome obstacles, when it comes to my family, my place is..in doubt. I might be considered weak for saying this, but.."
He shakes his head..
"I've never felt like I had a place in my family. Even before I decided to change my appearance, I felt in a way, like maybe I didn't belong there. Oh, I love the flowers well enough..to me, they're my escape. I love tending the gardens, and I love the things I am given. But you know. I just feel..empty there. Other than my mother, I don't feel like I'm part of my family. I feel like there's this emptiness inside..this cold, deep, emptiness that whispers that I don't belong anywhere. It tells me that my mother can't stand the sight of me, even though she does love me, that my uncle is trying to get rid of me, and my brother will turn on me.."
He sighs, and reaches up, brushing his painted nails along the rock face..watching idly, as little pieces, tiny rocks, crumble off..
"I feel like this mountain is me, rather than my obstacle. I feel like this. I have this solid appearance, unshakable, immovable. The happy young noble. Yet tiny pieces are coming off with every touch, and eventually, enough pieces come off that the mountain becomes smaller. Oh, it takes a great amount of time, true. Still, there's something I want to know."
He turns his head..suddenly seeming rather serious..
"Tell me. Have you ever had the feeling you're plotting against yourself? Sabotaging yourself? Like there's this..voice inside of your head, whispering little things in your ear, making you doubt every move you make? I do. I have this cold inner voice that tells me things..I don't know if it's just because of the way I changed myself and I'm resentful because of it..or it's something else..but it bothers me. Somedays I feel like I'm lost on the inside of my body, looking out with someone else's eyes. I don't like that feeling."
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 3:53 am
"You said you don't have a place to belong in your family, well at least you do have a family, me...I'm all alone in this world, I understand whan you mean with not having a place to belong in your family, I know what you mean with the mountain cracking down...I too was like you before, I was like this mountain, a piece of stone, with no shape, unoticed, with no place to go, no place to hide from myself..."
Taking sit on the hard ground Shinrei looks down at the ground and speaks in a lower tone.
"When I was a kid, I used to live in a small village, my father used to tell me I was a weirdo cause I used to faint in the middle of work, he called me weak and sissy...I used to go to the forest alone to search for food, in time I understand I had power...like a foolish little kid I got scared and decided to hide it from my parents...in time...my power stared to become bigger and bigger and hollows stared to come after me, deep inside I knew I was the cause of the problem but I didn't want to show my weakness to anyone, my power was my weakness, my power was the reason for so much suffering...until that man came and told everyone not to worry, he annihilated the hollows with his weird staff...in time he became the village savior and of course was treated like a god...he tried to convince everyone to become shinigamis and gave them test...my family used to live in a rural village so we were ignorant to everything...this man...his test..was an excuse to feet us to the hollows...in time he fell in love with my mom..."
Shinrei closes his eyes as he tells this and a deep sadness and sorrow covers his face.
"His love for my mom was never responded, however my father admired this man...and so did I...in time...our admiration became worship...and so he used his power to take my mom by force, he raped her in front of my blinded power...then tried to feed me and my mom to the hollows along the rest of the village...my mom saved me...but only part of me...that night...Yamamoto Genryuusai saved me and my friend Mahiro...he knew both of us had power, however he always treated me differently than he treated Mahiro...and in time I knew the reason for the one he did that was because of this..."
Placing his hand on front of his face he closes his eyes and quickly moves his hand down horisontally. A mass of reiatsu covers his face making a hollows mask appear into his face. The mask emanates a huge reiatsu that makes the wind blow heavily for a few seconds before he takes his mask off. Holding it on front of his face he says:
"I am different...I am one who became a perfect hollow...a perfect shinigami and a perfect soul...that is way Yamamoto fears my power...that is way Hueco Mundo wants my soul...and that is way I know your suffering, unlike you, I do not have a family, an idea, or a place to belong, I'm all alone swimming against the tides of fate and wondering if there is a reason to go on...but to tell you the truth...since I met you guys, you and the rest of the class, I knew I was alive to give others place to belong here in Seretei..."
Shinrei shows a small smile as he says this and looks at the hollow mask without shame, knowing that this is what he was and there was no way to reverse it, accepting himself was the only thing he could do for his own self to continue on.
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 3:59 am
So..his mother had also..but it's the last part that gets him..because when he forms that mask, that's when Megumi just slumps to one knee..and while Megumi's actual reiatsu level is fairly low considering his rank..there is a flash..of something. Considering what Shinrei is, it would be obvious..a second presence is staring out from behind those eyes..what Megumi mentioned, the voice..the cold presence, the emptiness..Shinrei may very well recognize that he's more than not alone in the world..oh no..here stands one just like him..
It was more than a change for Megumi; he was a hybrid, maybe the only one of his kind to be what he was because of the circumstances. His father wasn't a shinigami at all, and it would be easy to tell now..and maybe becoming a woman wasn't just for his mother's sake. That flash, that black aura that resonates from within him..is decidedly female in its presence, and using Megumi's face..it grins..she grins..though it seems that in this early stage, she doesn't form a mask..no, she's only there a moment..causing an icy wind..then she's gone..but it's obvious now. He's the same thing.
"I..I could hear it again..that hateful voice..whispering to me..whispering my pain, over and over..you..what are you..exactly? You are a Shinigami and a..Hollow? Such a thing..I didn't know such a thing was possible."
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:13 am
Placing his mask on the ground he smiles and stands back on his feet. He rises his left leg and stops on the mask breaking it into pieces. "When I was in hueco mundo, I learned a few things, a shinigami and a hollow are separated by a huge wall... that wall makes our reiatsu and abilities rather different as you know, however in hueco mundo many hollows are staring to take off their mask and by absorbing shinigami souls they are trying to obtain shinigami powers, these are called the Arrancar, of course their power is not true and so they are rather weak, however in my case, I'm what soul society normally calls a vizard...a shinigami who uses forbidden arts to become a hollow...yet again, I was never exposed to any of these arts, I was transformed into a vizard when my mom soul was eaten along half of mine, the other half of my soul became a hollow and so I became a vizard...however...because I am a true vizard my power are greater than those of a normal vizard...if you felt my reiatsu a moment ago you must have notice that the way is feel is nor hollow nor shinigami is just black and deep like the sea...now I will ask you straight, is this voice that calls you telling you to succumb to your weakness ? do you ever loose consciousness for long periods of time without knowing or for no reason ? "
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:18 am
"A..Vizard..? I've never heard of such a thing. And yes. There have been blackouts. My mother is always terrified after one occurs. Like she's seen some kind of devil. I always thought maybe it was because I lapsed into some kind of temper fit and got violent, and scared her. The voice I hear is a woman's voice. I thought it was an..alter ego. The part of me I forced to be like a woman. A manifestation of my self doubt. She whispers to me, how I will just hurt people..she tells me to lie down, forget about it all..she says my uncle is going to try to kill me..that I'm a burden..I feel beaten down by that voice somedays.."
He muses..leaning against the mountain..feeling suddenly very cold..his eyes close, and he lowers his head..
"My mother..she never told me who he was. My father, I mean. Just that she'd been attacked..I figured she didn't mention him because..it was a terrible memory, but I always wondered. When the voice is strongest, I black out, and wake up later...I can never remember what went on, but wherever I happen to be, usually something ends up broken.."
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:27 am
Stroking his shin as he listen to his pupil's story he smirks and says:
"I see...as expected...I new you were a special one...one who seeks power to control power, just like me before..." Rising his face to look at the sky the young shinigami smirks and says: "you are the same as me...a vizard...you too have a hollow living inside you, trying to make you weak as he becomes stronger and stronger...if you don't stop him, then he will claim your body, and you will become a hollow...in time you will be killed by other shinigamis and thats where your story ends...the fact that you are a vizard and that you were born one, must mean your mother abuser was either a hollow or most likely and arrancar...the mix of reiatsu...must have caused you this...in other words...you are the same as me and for that reason I will tell you this... Never give in to your hollow, become strong, stronger than anyone and sit on top of your hollow, use him as your horse just like you use your zamapakutou as your sword, you are the king of your own soul, but your horse is trying to claim the throne to make you the horse !
With those word Shinrei takes out his small zampakutou and say:
"If you don't have the balls in the right place and give in to this voice as you call it...I will be the one to kill you befoe you harm anyone else"
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:34 am
Waraku hummed slightly, in the air as if sensing something. I looked around. There was apparently nothing. I decided to give up on the idea of looking for a hollow and ran, back to the edge of the forest where I could garuntee the horse would be waiting for me.
I ran fast and quickly, I slashed at one or two G-grade hollows as they tried to attack me, and killed them. It seemed that the big hollows had very much retreated at the moment, probably something to fear.
I came to the edge of the forest, and low and behold the horse was waiting for me. Fully packed. I nodded and jumped up and landed neatly on the horse.
"Hii..YAH!" I said and the horse set off at another gallop.
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:35 am
There's a bittersweet smile on his lips at that..so that's why his mother never told him anything..the fact that his father wasn't a shinigami, or a soul..but something worse. The devil itself, it would seem. He leans back on the rock and watches..
"An internal Hollow. It's mind-boggling. It explains the voice..heh. You know, I'm of two minds about this..part of me..is screaming in fear at this..I just want to go insane..run around screaming until I just pass out..the other part..well..in a way expected something like this. The circumstances behind all the secrets make sense now."
He shakes his head..chuckling..
"Kill me? I can't let myself die yet. I have prestige to bring to my family. Even if I am a monster, and I don't belong, I can't just let them down now. But if what you say is true..I've never found a mask like that on my person. I don't think this Hollow is that developed yet. I think for a while it was sealed, or supressed. But one thing I do know. It's female. it's a she."
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:46 am
"A female huh ? Just like my zamapakutou..."
Smiling softly he rises his sword on the side of his arm and a soft sweet smell like flower perfume comes out of his sword. The perfume turns the air red and so a woman forms from it. She was extremely beautiful and well formed in all the parts of her body, wearing almost no cloths and holding a sword that seemed more like a whip she smirks and hugs the young shinigami surrounding him with her arms.
"Soon...you just wait my dear...I will take care of you soon enough"
He said in a soft tone to the woman that was still holding him with her arms. His eyes move to look at the his pupil once again and so he says:
"I will start training for Bankai two days from here, if you like I can training you for those two days, it might not be a long time but I feel like you have the potential to archive a lot and put yourself in the head of the race for your soul throne..."
The woman slowly start to turn into smoke and so she returns to her real form inside the zamapakutou. with a warm look he looks at the sword and says:
"Well is a decision for you to take, for now, I will climb my mountain, just to see how much I have improved since that day...and just to climb over my fear of failing to get bankai as well"
With those words he sheaths his sword and rises his hand to grab a stone on the mountain wall, using it as base he pulls himself up and starts to climb.
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:51 am
He raises an eyebrow..but says nothing. Bankai..so few achieved it. He'd heard of it, in legends. He nods then..
"Alright. I'll follow behind. I just have to get ready. It's not as easy for me as it is for someone of a much stronger level..heh..after all, I'm still at the bottom, despite the training I've gotten from my tutors in the Clan House."
He smirks then, and slides into a cross-legged position..attempting to center himself as he would in his fighting lessons..so for now, he meditates.
(and that's all for tonight. x.x tired. Zzzz.)
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 5:19 am
"Hehehe do not worry, I will see ya later then, be careful we don't want a falling rock to kill you while I climb !"
He said in a sarcastic tone as he stared to climb the wall of stone. Of course his climbing was faster than that of a normal person, not to mention he had climbed this very same mountain since he was a kid so he knew it like the back of his hand. Within minutes the young shinigami was already out of sight. His hands and feet moved at quick phase as he got closer and closer to the top. However it wasn't until the death of the day that he reached the top, Falling back on the ground he looks at the rising moon and smiles.
"Seems like I'm not alone after all, this kid, a vizard...same as me...is weird however is better than staying alone forever...I should training him well...as well as those other girls. They all have the reiatsu and the determination to be one of the first captains...however to do so I need to find their weakness and kill them all so they might be able to reach the top..."
He slowly closes his eyes as he meditates deep withing himself. He was high in the top of the world, he felt almighty, and he knew that this was the fated place to train for bankai, but was this the right time and place ? Materialization was completed, hollow control was completed, however he could only hold his mask for an hour or so, maybe that book that he stole held the answer...but was it a good idea to go beyond the knowledge of soul society and seek that forbidden power..?
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 9:54 pm
Megumi muses for a moment. It seems like the mountain is a good way to train, though it isn't something he's all that used to. He's never been much of a climber, to be honest. Still, it's something. Megumi knows a thing or two about grips and leverage, and using this, he tenses himself..then takes a leap and grips a protruding rock that seems to have a good solid surface, without being loose. Shifting, he uses this to pull himself up a bit, climbing using mostly his arms, instead of his legs. He only gets about fifty feet before finding a small ledge, and scurrying up onto it. It's enough to hold him for now..and he looks about, pondering his next move..
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 10:06 pm
Shinrei goes out of his concentration for a second as he feels the approvaching reiatsu.
"Heh...seems like he finally decided to give it a try, not a bad climbing speed either...well guess I just have to wait for a while longer up here."
Standing back on his feet, Shinrei turns around just so he is facing Seretei in the afar. A smile forms on his face as the wind blows moving the sleeves of his shinigami uniform forward and backward.
"Such a nice view...these peaceful times...I hope they last long..."
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Posted: Sat Nov 04, 2006 10:35 pm
Megumi may not have too much power, but he has speed, and flexibility. He utilizes this, gripping with deft fingers after a leap to a different rock, moving in twisting motions around the stone. Each time, he attains another fifty to sixty feet, then stops..analyzes his surroundings..and guages where best to leap to the next. It's slow going compared to that of a seasoned climber, but Megumi displays a grasp of tactics with the way he climbs, rather than raw strength. He analyzes weak points on the mountain, and avoids them..
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