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 Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 8:27 pm
Awen grinned as Chubbs wrote in fog on her tank. That looked pretty cool actually... maybe Awen should take a permanent marker to the side of it. She shook her head dismissing the thought.
Another laugh pushed it's way to the surface when Chubbs made a fumble with the last bit of his sentance. She gave him a look but ignored the stumble as she waved her hand idley. "Ah not too much...." She moved to the table and sat down, pushing a chair out for Chubbs. "Just you know hanging out with Lauren... meeting some people I hadn't before..." She would just stay away from the Billy incedent. "Swimming.... chatting with Sabin....oh playing my new xbox 360 isn't it kick a**?" She grinned.
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Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 8:40 pm
Chubbs shuffled over and turned the chair round backwards to sit on, for his tails sake and for something to lean on. He smiled and listend to what Awen had gotten up to since he saw her last. He smiled and raised an eyebrow and then smirked at the mention of Lauren.
" Ya like buddies now?, that's cool, umm next time ya see her, ask her for my pants?, I kinda need em"
Then when the mention of Sabin came along, Chubbs just blinked, and stared for a moment, not really focusing on her xbox. She'd been talking to the guy? what the heck for?
" Sabin?! wait, Sabin,... the staff guy? not like chit chat talk right?"
Had she not heard about him and his s**t he'd do to people, if Awen was that naive she was about to get a rude awakening.
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Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 8:50 pm
Awen was about to laugh and return a comment about Lauren and Chubbs' shorts but paled when she heard him say Sabin's name. Crap she hadn't mentioned it had she? Retracing her words she tried to remember if she had or not...she couldn't quite remember but she obviously had.
"Uh..er...well nooo nooo." She laughed a littler nervously. "Of course not! Gave him a rather good tongue lashing for what happened to Jamal!" She nodded, at least that much was true. And she wasn't exactly lying...she wouldn't call what they were talking about chit chat. "Asked some questions and things about the research. Seeing what the point to all this was...ordered some things... just ..business."
She glanced briefly to the flowers then to the table. Of course, what was she expecting... even if anything she had been thinking with Sabin were possible on his end. They would never be accepted.
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Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 9:07 pm
Chubbs just looked up at Awen, all he was thinking was that her ranks in bluff were really crap. He looked a little disappointed, it was obvious she was having some probable healthy conversations with the p***k. Sabin was the one thing he hated most on the island, even more than his friends suffering, and that made him sick at times. Chubbs sighed, he sighed like his dad did years agao when you knew he was upset and was trying not to go ballistic. He reached over and patted his hand on Awens.
" I'm not gonna upset at you for who you choose to be a friend, I just.... I'm concerned. He's done things... I'm not gonna exxplain... but I just know if I meet him in person.. the Chubbs you know will be replaced by something horrible and it will be after him"
He took her hand in his, he was worried for the girl. He was trying to be gentle about it. If he had bad mouthed Sabin, she would have probably deffended him, and that's not what he wanted. He petted her hand and smiled.
" Just be careful okay, for me?..... oh and umm what's this thing you were showing me?"
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Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 9:21 pm
Awen just slumped into her chair. "Just my xbox..." She mumbled and kept her eyes away. She knew those types of sighes. When her grandfather was alive he gave those kinds of sighes all the time. "I know what kinda stuff people've said he's done." She said softly. "But no one thought very much of Jamal at first either, and now people think he's a pretty decent guy."
She took her hand away from Chubbs' and moved to trace along a pedal of the flowers. "He has a streak of practicle jokes, but he doesn't mean anything by them... he just has a funny sense of humour like that and he's just strong in his beliefs on things. But he isn't as bad as people think. I doubt anyone who speaks ill of him has even tried to talk to him. He was really nice at the Halloween party and he was the only one there for me when Billy bloody well tried to kill me!" The heat was rising and Awen could feel it up to her ears. She stood up and moved to the window away from Chubbs. "No one else. Not Jamal, not Lauren, not you..." She tightened her fist on the sill and frowned. "But of course that never matters does it.... The good things never matter in people."
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Posted: Thu Mar 30, 2006 8:26 pm
Chubbs felt like he had just been stabbed in the heart, and it sank deep into his chest. He was hurt, he didn't know what to do. He wanted to yell at her, to say he didn't have hundreds of cameras and a button he could push. He wanted to say how bad these jokes of Sabin were, and how they made Joliette break down and cry, but he didn't. The worst part was he didn't see it coming, not from Awen and Chubbs looked to the floor.
He didn't need to hear it, for Chubbs, feeling usless was more horrible than the island and the transformations. Now is friend said that he can't protect her, and the man he hated most of all could. Chubbs couldn't breathe and he stood up. He tried to swallow but he couldn't and went for the door. He tried to hold back the tears as he opened the door.
" Sorry"
That's all he said as he left the duples and walked away.
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Posted: Thu Mar 30, 2006 8:47 pm
She had expected him to come back heatedly. Awen thought Chubbs was going to rebuke her somehow for what she said. Gripping the window sill fire in her chest right now she didn't care. No one ever except her choices, first Lauren with Jamal and now Chubbs with Sabin. She knew he had faults but she could deal with these and maybe help them a little bit. She was ready to stand up for that choice this time.
But as the silence stretched Awen's determination began to waver. She could feel the tension in the air..but it wasn't the kind she had been expecting. She could hear her heart beating she could hear every breath....time felt like it stretched on and on. She heard the chair pull back and finally she turned around.
Her eyes went wide seeing the look on Chubbs' face. It was something she had never seen on him before. Realising all too late how her words must have sounded Awen sat dumbly in her own regret.
He moved to the door and she took a hesitant step. Chubbs spoke a single word.... one word and Awen had no idea one word could hurt so much. She held up her hand and started moving forward again.
"Wait Chubbs I didn't mea-"
But it was too late. the big man had shut the door cutting her off. That click sounded like the bang of a gunshot to Awen's ears feeling a bullet pass right through her heart.
"-it."
Tears welled up in her eyes and she covered her mouth with her hand. What had she done? What the hell had she done...? Chubbs was the most kind and sweet man she had ever met in her life, how could she have hurt him like that?
She felt sick as her stomach lurched, forcing Awen to take support from the wall, now behind her. Still in shock the tears came so quickly she hardly felt like she was crying, no sobs as her heart ached, just an overflow of salty drops. She slid down the wall and curled her arms around her legs.
"I didn't mean it...." She murmured to him though he would never hear it. "Chubbs I'm sorry I didn't mean it!"
And that was it her breaking point. Awen hugged her legs as close to her as she could as she was overcome with wracking sobs. She hadn't meant it as it sounded....she never meant to hurt him...
Awen had ruined an amazing thing that man had. She had seen him upset, she had seen him concentrating, thoughtful, doubtful; but one thing she never saw was Chubbs so upset he had to leave. She had never seen his heart bleed and tears well up.
The blue haired girl had hurt this man terribly. And hated herself for it...
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Posted: Thu Mar 30, 2006 9:06 pm
Chubbs heard the words as he left the door, he didn't want to hear them, he just wanted to get away, to find something to stop the hurting and that meant to get away from Awen. He was in shock still, he didn't believe it was her that could hurt him so much.
He sniffed, trying not to cry, he hated to cry, it was something people picked on you for. To see a big guy like that cry, others would just call him a p***y, that's all he needed to hear right now.
Instead he heard something ele, his ears twtching slightly as he turned back to the duplex. He could hear Awen, through the walls and the door, he didn't know he could do that. He heard Awens voice and her sobbing and he felt his heart shatter into pieces. Chubbs really cared more about others than he did himself, and he brought Awen to tears.
No matter how much he was hurting right now, he couldn't sit by and cause someone to cry like that. Chubbs finally breathed and walked back to the door. He opened it and stepped inside, he didn't slow till he got to Awen. PArt of him wished he'd still left, that she should feel what he did, that she deserved it. But the part that mattered made his sit down beside her and pick her up, sit her in his lap and wrap his arms around her.
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 8:26 am
Awen hardly heard the door open and only realised someone else was there when she felt the arms wrap around her. She blinked in confusion, the tears sticking to her eyelashes, as she looked up at Chubbs. Without another moment wasted and wrapped her arms back around the big man and squeezed.
"I didn't mean it." She choked out. "I didn't mean it like that Chubbs I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm such a horrible person. I don't want you to be upset. I didn't mean for it to be so... mean Chubbs. I'm sorry."
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 8:58 am
Chubbs held Awen tight and tried to pet the back of her hairwithout hurting her with his claws. He bundled her up like kid in his arms and tried to calm her down.
" Shhh, it's okay Awen, you don't need to cry"
He was thinking about what she said, how hard it dug inside him and hurt. He knew Awen, he knew she didn't mean to hurt him, it just did. He really should be upset at Billy for trying to hurt her, or damn Moreau for the island in the first place. He thought about what he could say to let Awen know it was okay, or at least lie about it, for he truely wasn't.
" I wish I could be superman, then I can be where people need me, and I can take you and everyone away from this place and know you were safe. But I'm just a guy, or what's left of one.... I'll be here when I can... like I am now. Sabin has more than I can offer though, he has money, resources and around the clock monitoring I bet. He has power in this place I don't, it's easy to be impressed by him, rather than me, a fat a** ex-boxer with the smarts of a brick"
He cuddled her to him, rubbing her back with a fist so his claws didn't scratch her in any way.
" Don't worry about me, i'll be fine, I just want you to be okay"
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 9:20 am
Awen shook her head vigourously. "No, no, no!" She pulled away to look up into Chubbs' eyes. "Chubbs... this isn't about you not being good enough! You were the one there to help us all survive the blackout, right? You were the one man selfless enough to give up the food you desperately needed to me and Joli and Lauren. You hardly knew Lauren and you were doing your best to protect her too. Chubbs I am impressed with you, terribly impressed with you! You do do everything you can and cope better than anyone in your situation." She brushed a hand along his furry cheek. "I didn't mean to compare you directly... Sabin might have the power, the resources, the money..... but that is not what impresses me about him at all. Back on mainland I came from a family with money, power and resources... so honestly it's not very impressive. It's the easy way out of a lot of things and I know you are stronger than that. Your heart weighs more than all that stuff does. I didn't ever see Sabin giving up his free time to teach little kids how to box, giving them a productive outlet for their energy and keeping them off the street and out of trouble. I don't see Sabin having to struggle through what we do and still hold a bit heart melting smile."
She shook her head slowly once more. "I never meant for you to think that he was better than you Chubbs because there is just no comparison there." SHe sighed softly and looked down to the floor. Her hand idley curled and ran across his fur softly. "I just... I know Sabin has good in him. I mean sure what Joli says makes him seem like he's nothing but a b*****d... I've heard of some of the stuff he's done...if not all of it. But he's not like that to everyone. I mean... people's views disagree and when their views are strong enough they are instinctively forced against eachother..making them enemies. I don't get along with everyone, and I know not even you can get along with everyone. Some people are just more open about it and in the end bad things happen. I cannot believe everything people say about other people because they have a bias towards that person. Joli hates Sabin, if he just walk by her she'll probably think he was doing something to snub her, or act supirior or something like that, even if he was just walking by. Heck I think the same of Antony half the time when I see her with Jamal. It still boils my blood a bit and everything she does with him, or any other guy, it seems like a stab at me. Because she, in essence, took him from me... but could easily toss him aside for the next thing with a p***s that walks by. People can't agree with everyone. People can't be like everyone else... And so people sometimes can't see past the differences. People can't see past what they disagree with to the good in someone."
She gave his arm a little squeeze. "I was only saying.... that there is good in Sabin. He is extremely nice to me... I know he's done bad.... but you just have to know he is capable of good too. I never meant to hurt you Chubbs... I was just... agressively asking you to give him a chance, give me a chance."
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 9:47 am
Chubbs tried to look at the floor when Awen spoke of him, only through Joli had he'd been seen so highly by someone before. He tried not to cry, he couldn't swallow, but he knew it wasn't right about him. He had been failing, falling, what ever it was that made him Chubbs was depleting, and he wasn't the happy guy he always was anymore. When she touched his cheek a tear fell down his face, he wanted to be what Awen believed him to be, but he lost the fight a while ago.
Chubbs leaned into her hand and held her to him, and it was only that she mentioned something that took Chubbs a moment to register, did he lift his head. Jamal, a guy he'd grown to know a little, to at least call a friend was taken by another?, from Awen? Chubbs couldn't believe it, the last time he had seen them both, they looked like a great couple, he was happy for Awen and now this? Chubbs had to take a breath, he was trying to listen to what Awen was telling him, but in the back of his mind, Jamal's face was meeting Chubbs' fist, over and over again.
Chubbs sighed when she stopped and tried to brush her tears away and patted her cheek, he tried to think of the right things to say.
" All I can hope is Awen, that he starts to treat others the same, for you know he's done some things to Joli, but I've been there when she's broken down and cried, and he's still done it. If you have anyway to make the man stop, or to make him a better person, try, for me and Joliette, cuz seeing her hurt and crying, and the fact I can't do anything but watch it happen,.... it's killing me... it's really... killing me"
Chubbs couldn't help it then and his eyes welled up with tears, he had to wipe his eyes with his furry hand, which didn't work that well.
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 10:00 am
Awen nodded slowly and gave Chubbs a big squeeze. "I know.... I know Chubbs. I was already planning something like that, but it's not like there is anything between us, and I'm not sure I hold any sway at all. I just want to make things better for everyone..." Sighing with a smile she brushed the tears away from his furr when he failed to with his paw.
"I will duck out of anything that doesn't seem right or that I don't want to do. I will ditch the guy if he ends up just being a jerk. There are limits of what I will take Chubbs. But for now I just want to try to see the good in him, maybe he will become a better person when someone gives him the chance?" She shrugged a little bit and gave Chubbs another big squeeze.
"It'll be okay Chubbs, really. I'm sorry I got ya crying here..." She gave him a tentative smile. "How about we stop all these tears. Pretty soon there might be enough salt water in here to choke me again, and we wouldn't want that again, right?" Her smiled widened to a half grin, implying her joke.
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 10:11 am
Chubbs nodded and sighed, he kinda felt useless again, one for being the big cry baby and helping Awen instead, and two, for not being able to dry his own tears. He looked up, gave half a smile to her at least.
" Sorry, I hate these damn claws , they are... wait... that what you where doing out on the beach? I thought Manta's were sea creatures, least that I remember"
Chubbs wasn't sure, he just gave Awen a hug again and petted her back softly, it wasn't her fault he was crying, it was him, and everything that happened to him.
" Just what ever you did, don't do it again, You might summon that bitchy woman again to yell at me. God I musta peed on their favourite rose bush or something I don't know about. I'm copping s**t from the staff lately"
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Posted: Fri Mar 31, 2006 10:19 am
Awen nodded a little bit and sighed. Finally she stood up and offered a hand to Chubbs, feeling a littler weird just curled up by her door like they were. "I think Aubrey was still upset for Jamal laying into her for the stuff that happened during the blackout..." Awen skirted around the laying into her part... after all he was upset no sense telling him Jamal tried to kill the poor girl. "And appearently they design us water types to be freshwater so we can't swim off the island. Which makes sense. But that also means no surfing or snorkling or anything like that."
She rubbed the back of her neck selfconsciously. "And I won't try to escape again... I learned that lesson. I just didn't want to see Avery cry anymore. Or anyone else have to go through this. I thought I had a shot but...guess not eh?"
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