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 Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:31 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Ugh, fml. I hate me so much right now.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:36 pm
Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Ugh, fml. I hate me so much right now.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:38 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Ugh, fml. I hate me so much right now.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
A solid white pair of pants then?
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:38 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Ugh, fml. I hate me so much right now.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
Losing weight isn't the only point of exercise, dumkopf. It builds muscle too.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:48 pm
Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Ugh, fml. I hate me so much right now.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
Losing weight isn't the only point of exercise, dumkopf. It builds muscle too.
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:51 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Quite the opposite.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
Losing weight isn't the only point of exercise, dumkopf. It builds muscle too.
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
That ain't gonna kill you.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:51 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Yes, but I don't have the health or nutrients to actually seriously exercise. I've actually done jogs around the block up here. I couldn't move for 3 days afterward. Plus, I don't know if my heart could handle the extra work. In the past, I've seen a news story about a 10 year old exercise lover. He had a full set of muscles and was in perfect health. And yet at 10 he died of a heart attack because his body couldn't support and regulate itself anymore. What chance does my unhealthy body have?
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
You gotta get yourself checked out. Surely some advice from a doctor can help.
Maybe... yes.
I remember that my brother gave me a bottle of something that has multivitamins in it. Supposed to be beneficial for one's body.
Smells like cat pee. Surprisingly it tastes better then it smells. But it helps. You could look into stuff like that.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:55 pm
TtheHero Hashire Kazemeijin Yes, but I don't have the health or nutrients to actually seriously exercise. I've actually done jogs around the block up here. I couldn't move for 3 days afterward. Plus, I don't know if my heart could handle the extra work. In the past, I've seen a news story about a 10 year old exercise lover. He had a full set of muscles and was in perfect health. And yet at 10 he died of a heart attack because his body couldn't support and regulate itself anymore. What chance does my unhealthy body have?
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
You gotta get yourself checked out. Surely some advice from a doctor can help.
Maybe... yes.
I remember that my brother gave me a bottle of something that has multivitamins in it. Supposed to be beneficial for one's body.
Smells like cat pee. Surprisingly it tastes better then it smells. But it helps. You could look into stuff like that.
He needs to break his diet of Hot Pockets and cereal... stare
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:55 pm
Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Quite the opposite.
Aside from a few depressing things I'd rather not discuss, it's my lifestyle I'm growing to hate.
I always put my friends and their wishes above my own, and more recently apparent, my health. An example is when Paula (yu saw nothing) wants to play FlyFF with me. I don't like FlyFF much at all, but I go on it instead of playing a game I like because I like being with her and her being happy. The problem is I play with her as long as she wants until she gets off. This means possibly all day, and even overnight past when I normally sleep. This is bad for my health because it means I don't eat, and don't have a good sleep schedule. And on nights she goes to sleep early, I finally get onto doing something I wanted for that day, only to drag out until like 6 AM before I sleep.
Even now, I'm talking to yu guys over eating dinner, despite only having a half a bowl of cereal since this morning as food, and am hungry. I do it because I like talking with friends and entertaining them, but this lifestyle is literally killing me. I could totally have a heart attack at 20 like this.
But I can't bring myself to stop. I can't put myself above my friends, and I don't know what to do. And I can't tell her what's happening to me because I don't want her to feel distraught/guilty because she wants to have fun and spend time with me.
So when she comes back tomorrow, don't tell her anything.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
Losing weight isn't the only point of exercise, dumkopf. It builds muscle too.
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
That ain't gonna kill you.
In all seriousness, I should be able to do that (provided I can get myself away from the people I put above myself), but would it really make a difference? I already do a lot of walking as is for school.
@T: Mom already suggested that a Therapist look at me. I'm willing to try it, but I'm skeptical since Therapy has never helped me in the past. Just made me more depressed.
And... I'd hope it tasted better than it smelled if the scent was cat pee...
Edit: Cereal is actually one of the things I can't bring myself to eat. That's why I only had half a bowl.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:57 pm
So on /a/ we're having a Yume Nikki dump thread and we brought up the idea of remaking the game for DS.
I would ******** gasm all over the place if it happened.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:58 pm
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:58 pm
Shane-Cheshner So on /a/ we're having a Yume Nikki dump thread and we brought up the idea of remaking the game for DS. I would ******** gasm all over the place if it happened. 
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:59 pm
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 6:59 pm
TtheHero Shane-Cheshner So on /a/ we're having a Yume Nikki dump thread and we brought up the idea of remaking the game for DS. I would ******** gasm all over the place if it happened.  Yep. But seriously, we need to get on this.
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Posted: Mon Nov 30, 2009 7:00 pm
Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Harusame Mizukishi Hashire Kazemeijin Exercise isn't really my Forte, and in all honesty, I don't think my body could stand losing any more weight. As it currently stands, it might even overstrain my bodily regulations, and that could be bad.
@T: I don't think the skirt works with the male look. But thanks for your serious input. I just don't want her feeling guilty.
Losing weight isn't the only point of exercise, dumkopf. It builds muscle too.
My parents and I are all worried and afraid that my body is subconsciously developing Anorexia to the point where I CAN'T eat. It first manifested on Thanksgiving. I could easily feel that I was hungry, but I could not bring myself to eat because my brain was giving off the 'full' signal that tells the body to stop eating. I'm honestly afraid I'm dying here, but I don't know what I can do about it.
That ain't gonna kill you.
In all seriousness, I should be able to do that (provided I can get myself away from the people I put above myself), but would it really make a difference? I already do a lot of walking as is for school.
@T: Mom already suggested that a Therapist look at me. I'm willing to try it, but I'm skeptical since Therapy has never helped me in the past. Just made me more depressed.
And... I'd hope it tasted better than it smelled if the scent was cat pee...
Edit: Cereal is actually one of the things I can't bring myself to eat. That's why I only had half a bowl.
Any kind of physical activity requires fuel. If you gradually increase the amount of exercise you do, your appetite will grow.
Now assuming you start on a healthier diet, this shouldn't be any problem.
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