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 Posted: Mon Apr 11, 2005 5:56 pm
~My angel~
I met an angel.
A fallen angel.
He asked for my help,
He reached for my hand.
But we were too distant,
Too far appart.
I couldn't reach him.
So deeper he fell.
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Posted: Fri Apr 15, 2005 5:07 pm
I sigh and remember your smile
Today just didnt seem right.
I die and remember a while..
back then when you used to hug me tight.
I remember those lips on mine
But now their poison to my brain
I fight you to move away
and never look back on the pain.
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2005 12:30 am
I wrote this for Reena... redface heart
If I could take a moment, and save it for myself.
It would be a moment were you and I were one.
The world always fades away, when you are in my arms.
And my breath catches every time you walk into the room.
If I could take a moment, and save it for myself.
I would take this moment and keep it in my heart
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Posted: Wed Apr 20, 2005 7:56 pm
Between My mind And Myself:
Write these words down
For they are you
They hold many secret messages
Your subconscious is trying to get through
You need not toy with emotions
That is our place
Just try to live your life
In this cruddy old space
But that is on which humans thrive
To react and communicate
Or confusion, worry, and death come
That is what I state
Give me back my emotions
I promise that logic will remain
At least tell me if I have moved on
Or shall I stay in this circle of pain
Answer me just this
If you truly know what you say
What is the strongest human emotion
That plays a role these days
Dear child thats quite condenscending
It should be known by everyone
It's managed to control the head and heart
A most complicated thing called love
Then if you know of its power
And its role in my life
Are you really that masochistic
Do you derive pleasure from my strife
Give it back to me
And open my eyes
For at this moment
It's only you I despise
(I'm not done....but ya)
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Posted: Thu Apr 21, 2005 1:28 am
This one is soooo romantic <3
I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when i got to know you
I let my heart unbend
I couldnt have past memories
That would only make me cry
So I gave love another try
So ive fallen in love with you
And will never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I dont know what ill say
But it wont stop me loving you
Each and everyday
My feelings for you will never change
Just know me feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I love you
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Posted: Fri Apr 22, 2005 5:09 pm
Your lips...
Your touch..
It lingers on my mind
My bruises..
My scars...
You lost it
Just like time..
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Posted: Sat Apr 23, 2005 11:54 am
This just popped into my head.
I Look At
I look at all the happy people
And know I'll never be one
I look at all the happy couples
And know I could never make one
I look at all the love that's shown
Here and there around the world
And doubt if I could ever have it
Some have claimed to love me
But only left me in an instant
Some claim to want more
But only still want on thing
I look at everything
I know I'll never have
I look at what I have had
And wish my heart had never been found
I look at the things
That made me fall in love
And I remember the person
Who first made me feel that way
I despise that person
For unlocking my heart
It only caused my worst fear
To become a never ending reality
So I just smile and make my friends happy
Let them be happy while they can
I never try for my own happiness
That is something forever bound
So I continue to sit here and look at
What will never be
And as I look at all of this
I realize one thing
The more I sit and look at things
All the more I see how
How I wish my love was never found
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Posted: Sat Apr 23, 2005 12:25 pm
[ Message temporarily off-line ]
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2005 2:51 pm
It's old and kind os crappy and I'm sorry it's so long.
I watch you.
I follow you.
I learn from you.
And then you leave.
I use you to mold me
I take this person's handwriting
This person's hairstyle
This person's actions
but where does that leave room for me?
The real me and not just this shell you see
I see you.
I watch you.
You notice me.
Me?...no!
You notice the shell of me
Molded of other I have known
Created to be accepted, created to be loved
You say you like me, wish to be my friend
Yet you don't know me
The real me.
The me inside.
The me I hide.
I'm really quite different
Deep down inside
My shell is not me
My shell does not cry
It smiles, it laughs
Never does show sorrow
Yet I feel the sorrow, the sadness, the pain
I hide it around you
You don't seem to notice, don't seem to care
But then night comes
Night. Darkness.
Just me and my pillow,
Here my shell breaks
The real me shines through
The me unknown to you
Silently, upon my pillow I cry
I let out the pain I hold inside
Then tomorrow comes
And again I wear my shell
But it is not me
I am here withen my shell
Trapped. Forgotton. Alone.
But I reside withen my shell
Maybe in time, I will come out
But until then this is my life, inside my shell
The life of a Shadow.
--Qumakie Toyying
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Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2005 3:30 pm
cookies cookies
Im hungry for you
You got those big chocolate chips
that i like to chew chew chew!!
so crunchy in my mouth
so soft on my tongue
I want that chocolate to melt
while im still young!
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2005 5:21 pm
My Inner war,
My mind runs wild and my heart beat's quick
I can't keep still, I just can't make it quit.
My blood runs cold and a cold sweat breaks
When will this war end,
When will the gun powder smell fade?
The stinging missils that pierce my chest
These thoughts of angush and of death.
Oh when will this stop?
Oh when will my plea
Reach the warring idealists inside of me?
They bicker and fight
Neither is right
as they yell and scream through out the night.
My head's all ache
My soul's all dry
As I lay here wondering why
Why must I fight
In this game of blood and gore?
I wount any more
Because it's plane to see
That what I need is right in front of me.
The choice I make is mine alone
Now I'll chose my own road.
Oh Inner War
Oh Inner Pain
I'll never let myself walk down your road again...
Lorena Darlean Soileau 4/26/2005
(note: this is not about how I feel today It is just peom I wrote about what I went through a few years ago and how I felt then)
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2005 6:34 pm
I wish i had a good poem like the rest of you
But it's not possible when im sititng here writing about cookies I chew.
Can i take you to my gay bar?
Im only gay on saturdays
so have fun with me while you can
and poke me while you have the chance..
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Posted: Wed Apr 27, 2005 2:35 pm
I am as you are
yet you still pick at me
My blood runs red
It spills because of you
Why can't I be what you want?
Why am I me?
Because that is what I want to be
Why can't you understand?
I am what I am
I will always be me just me
So I didn't become what you wanted
You need to learn to move on
My life my choices
my loves my dreams
They are all mine and noone will take them
I will always have a place for them
You cannot mold me to be what you wish
I am me and thats it.
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 7:36 pm
Staring into brown liquid at the coffee shop
Thinking of all the pills I'd sson pop
Not willing to stop until my body goes numb
I need them cause I'm too damn glum
Soon I'll be dumb to just about everything
I smiled at the finger but frowned at the ring
Some think it a horrible thing but I can't wait
His mouth will drop at a burning rate
Again, I will be home late because I have fallen
For. Her.
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 8:26 pm
A Whisper Of Death
Dedicated to........Death
A whisper of death
So ancient and cold
A whisper of death
Too tragic to behold
I sink into your eyes,
Your promise of peace
I don't care if its lies
Just give me release.
A whisper of death
In midnight skies
You still my breath
And drown my cries
Tainted soul
Ravaged heart
I've payed the toll
So do your part
Wendy Marie Seager
Copyright ©2005 Wendy Seager
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