Idhril

[Elnara Aldrich]

Growth log
July 16

Growth has many different aspects to it. I have grown taller, yes, and while in my previous growth that had been the only real difference, I find that now there are many more changes that have occurred. I am no longer a child, but a young woman, which sounds strange to say but is true nonetheless. As such, there are changes to my body ... to my mind ... and to my heart.

I always knew that I had a particular fondness for Joruri, beyond what I have ever felt for anyone else, but now that I am bigger, I know how to classify it ... I love him. I don't know if that is what it always was, but I do know that that's what it is now at the very least. I have done as much reading as I can, and I think I know it all works ...

I can only hope about his response. I know that before I grew, he tried once to kiss me ... but I wasn't ready for it then. Yet now that I have grown, he seems more distant than anything else.

I hope I haven't offended him.  

[Elnara Aldrich]

September 1

So much has happened since my last entry, I hardly know where to begin! I suppose it's best to begin where I last left off.

I had not offended Joruri, as I first thought; Joruri felt himself unworthy of my love and of my devotion, and he had been trying to distance himself from me to save me, so that I would end up with someone that others would consider better suited to me. I find it ironic. Yes, many would have thought me better off with someone ... alive ... someone pure ... someone ... someone like Ruran ... on the outside, a gentleman, the epitome of what an elf should be ...

... but ... I fear him now. I thought he was my friend, my dear nephew ... but he attacked me, he tried ... he tried to take ... from me what I wanted - still want - none but Joruri to have ...

Joruri saved me. My love saved me. He is so wonderful to me ... he thinks that he does not deserve me, but it is I who do not deserve him. He is amazing ... I love him more than I can express. I am not whole without him, without him there is no me.

The goddesses agree, it seems, for only the day after I took him as my mate, and he me, we were blessed with a gift ... a beautiful daughter ... Sehnin. She is wonderful, a true blessing. We are a true family ... in every sense of the word.

Life can be so wonderful ...