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 Posted: Fri Jul 06, 2007 3:51 pm
Trev returned the glare with the continuation of his bland look. JC was Naina's father, and she had a life with him, end of story. He wasn't going to gush about how awesome life was with HIS father, because he didn't have one and wouldn't gush about JC even if he DID acknowledge him. But whatever. If she wanted to hear happy fluffy opinions, she needed to find a stand-in for HIM.
However, the brow arched again at her comment, and a slightly sardonic smile briefly touched his lips, emphasized by the brief glint of one fang. "Talk about life and how we fare, huh? Well, I can sum that up in a few sentences. Life goes well. I have a good family, stable home life, adore my sister, love my mother, and care for and respect Draven. I live, I breathe, things go well. Your turn."
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Posted: Fri Jul 06, 2007 4:13 pm
She felt a pang of sadness hit her chest as he said he loved his sister. For she knew he meant the other and it hurt her a bit.
Looking at him with the eyes of her mother, she kept her eyes bland, no emotion showing in them. Other than wishful.. She was wishful..
"I have a father whom I love, a Marahute, who is sister and mother to me, and a good life.. without the ones I would truly like in it.
Trevelyn, I know you dont like me, for actions brought against you when we were young.. But I ask you to forget that, or at least look past.. Because I am sadly missing a peice of my heart.. and I can no longer stay here and say nothing.. Even if you turn me away now.. At least I have tried. Do not blame me for the actions you see from my father."
She didnt say, that actions caused and brought by her father, for she believed him to be innocent, and having been ssen in a bad light too, she knew how it felt.
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Posted: Fri Jul 06, 2007 4:54 pm
Nice words. They had a pleasant sound to them, as though Naina actually meant them. Why, though, he had no idea. After all, HIS little family certainly wasn't lacking; then again, he didn't have to live with JC; maybe if he did, he'd feel that his life was incomplete too. However, Naina said she loved JC, which she probably did, so he couldn't exactly see why her life was 'lacking', as it were.
However, one thing had to be set straight. "Oh, I don't blame you for what that stallion did, or the way he acted. I hold HIM entirely and solely responsible for his own behavior. The only thing I hold YOU accountable is the way you yourself behave." Only a cad would try to accuse people of the actions of others, and he'd never considered himself a cad, thanks much.
Tossing back his curls, he turned his head and looked back across the meadow, then back at Naina. "Affection is earned, not awarded, in adults, Naina. You might have been a foal, but you were still a brat." To put it mildly. "However...I'm not going to lash out at you, if that's what you think."
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Posted: Fri Jul 06, 2007 5:07 pm
Naina knew she had once been a scourge. Someone no one dared talk to for fear of being truly annoyed. But she had grown up.. She had gotten older, wiser, and braver.
Trevelyn and his way of talking to her as if she was a filly again made her angry, but she didnt show it. She was just as good as daddy about keeping a calm natural face when she was anything but calm, and anything but natural.
She knew affection had to be earned. She wasnt asking for it to be given away, for then it might mean oh so little.. She wanted affection that was genuine, and knew the only way to get it, was through time.
"Trevelyn.. Im sorry that you held me in so little regard.. but I remember you as quite the snake yourself. Not the, evil kind of snake, but I dont want to reuse the word brat." She gave a sad smile.
"I was a brat.. A very large brat.. And I wont make excuses, because I dont see a need, nor do I think you would truly want to hear. But I am hoping we could start over. I do not want to rush into anything. I do not want to be given something I do not deserve. I want to earn your trust and care.. I want to earn that much."
She stopped talking, and bit her lip, looking back up at the sky.
The stars were out, and she knew she was going to take a long time before she could meet his eyes.
His eyes that were identical to her fathers. His eyes that were identical to the eyes of the one he hated.
It pained her so. But she shook her curly mass of ebony hair from her face, and let it plaster itself among the blue of ehr neck.
"I ask for a new beginning."
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2007 6:17 pm
A snake, indeed. When JC and Naina had been the rude ones, the accusers, the instigators, HE was a snake for speaking up in defense of those wrongfully attacked? As if. However, he wasn't about to start niggling over petty details; if they started that, then the two of them would be out here chattering all night. And NOT in the good way.
Consequently, he simply stood there, his expression impassive. It wasn't until she finished speaking, stating her request for a new beginning, that he finally spoke.
"A nice idea. The problem with ideas, though, is that they have a habit of ignoring reality; and in this case, the reality is that there can be no 'new beginning' when there already exists a past. All that can be done is a continuation, for what it's worth."
There was no condemnation in his voice as he spoke, but neither was there emotion. All it was was words, words spoken in a very matter of fact fashion. After all, the past was damned hard to forget...and perhaps harder to forgive.
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2007 10:17 pm
She wouldnt say this aloud to him.. But his way of no emotion, when she knew damn well he was angry.. he got from his father. He may never know, but Naina knew her father, and she saw so much of him in Trev, even excluding the physical traits.
"Words spoken from someone who seems to not understand that bearing hatred for someone, is very unhealthy.. It clouds judgement, and it hurts others around you."
Naina in truth, hated no one, because she saw it in vain.
Why would you hate someone? Hating someone only showed that you thought of them, that you cared for them at one point.
If she didnt like you, she didnt speak to you. Bearing Hatred was painful, and shed learned the hard way.
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2007 11:08 pm
His mouth twitched. So now he was being lectured on morality, or what? He wasn't really in the mood.
Turning his head away, Trevelyn was very blunt in his response. "I don't hate anything, Naina, or anyone, so I'd appreciate it if you kept the attempts to psychoanalye to a minimum."
Hatred wasn't an emotion he felt. Loathing? Disgust? Anger? Mistrust? All of the above? Yes. Hatred? No. To hate was to depise with one's entire soul, and he had too many positives in his life to waste that much feeling on one who was beneath contempt.
However, that she was even asking this indicated that this meeting had overstayed his welcome. Abruptly turning back to Naina, Trevelyn gave her a short nod. "I have things to do and places to be, Naina. Take care of yourself, until such a time as we meet again, if we DO meet again." And then he started off through the grass, past her and beyond in the direction of the woods.
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Posted: Sun Jul 08, 2007 4:54 pm
Damn it.. Damn him.. She had been trying to learn more about the brother she had.. Trying to get him to see her as he is, not as she once was.
But he was leaving now, and she figured there would be no meeting again.. as he seemed rather disdainful at seeing her now.
She watched as he went to leave, watched as he entered the woods..
She held back the frustrated tears of sadness and anger, and just shook her head.
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