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Infest IS the only album I like... I started getting iffy around LoveHateTragedy. I didn't know Getting Away with Murder wasn't on the most recent album... it was just there with the list of files xD

[12.53AM - (Ch-Ch-Ch-Changesss)]

During the course of the random musings I choose to embark upon in the monotony that is my existence (the most recent of which came after about an hour of punishing already tired eyes from playing Oblivion) I stumbled upon some rather useful realizations.

I think I've finally done it. After years of wandering the depths of my inconsoleable bored psyche, I have finally achieved a state of placidity and contentment. Not true happiness, no, that is not reality; but contentment. For once I feel free of the paranoia that once consumed me. I don't know what the hell happened but now I feel as if I've reached a peak I never thought I'd ever reach again. It's probably because all the sudden changes have numbed me, lulling me into a state of blissful ignorance - but I am no fool, I know it's temporary - as with everything in life.

Contentment? For once I know who my real friends are and I live without the fear that one of them will kill themself in an overdose or turf war. I can live without the thought that one of them will disappoint me. At school I'm finally good at what I'm doing and I'm not judged on my beliefs and views. I'm finally sure of my capablities and no longer feel the need to pretend that I'm fine or put up the drug fuelled barrier that protected me from a falsified and exagerrated harsh reality that I constructed from my own actions. I feel the sense of freedom for the first time since I was a child.

Nothing lasts forever. But bring it on.

Yeah... none of that made sense, that's why it's called a rant xD.

Thanks xD

Hehe funny thing is, that sentiment kinda waned as of this morning. BOO TIMETABLES! scream

Well that is a sad outlook on life. I learned to appreciate it when I almost died. ( No it wasn't from drugs or alchohol or any type of sickness or anything.) I fell headfirst off of a rocky 20 ft. cliff while hiking the Daniel Boone trail. All I could think of when I went down was "Well it's been a good one..." but it was weird because this jagged rock was sticking out (hit me right in the gonads) but flipped me over and saved me by making me land straight on my feet. Not even one broken bone in my body. Just a little scar on my ankle. I just looked up at my older brother and he was looking shocked like "What just happened?" And smiled. It's weird being in shock. Because first you laugh, then you cry, then your scared to do anything at all. That's how I felt. Then I thought, if it weren't for that rock, I would not be here right now, I would most likely be suffering form massive head trauma and be drowing as my knocked out body would be sent up the river. After that I was fine. I just hiked the three miles we had to go (which is a lot harder than it sounds if you count the big rocky hills). I really oculdn't sleep that night though, I tried to put the pieces together on how that rock was just coincidentally there. Then I figured it out, there was no way it was put there on accident. That was God saying "Dammit Jake, please stay out of trouble, it's not your time." So I really just started to love life at that moment.

(oops sweatdrop This is Irene's blog thread not mine)

Awesome song with ******** awesome (and sexual!) lyrics:

Special Pets by Otep

When you scream it sounds like a lullaby
When you beg I get all gooey inside
Tonight I take your eyes, mind, and tongue
to spread the word, watch your Kingdom Come

Another night with you, another wound,
You keep me in stitches,
you tear me to pieces

I need new voices in my head, to speak my secret evils with
I need new lovers in my bed, to be my friends and special pets

I need your scent all over me
I need to taste your blasphemy
I need to know with certainty
The nectar was worth the squeeze

It just the way that we're diseased
It's the plague that stains us
It's the sweetest disease
It's so contagious
(x2)

Once upon a time I ripped the wings from my spine
But when I hide inside your eyes I still pretend that I can fly

Tell me a secret
so you can fall in love
then fall to pieces

I need new voices in my head, a new disguise for me to hide
I need new lovers in my bed, to feed my secret appetites
I need your (scents/sins) all over me, I need to taste this tragedy
I need to know with certainty, that the nectar was worth the squeeze

It just the way that we're diseased
It's the plague that stains us
It's the sweetest disease
It's so contagious
(x2)

It's just a game we play in the dark
[other whispered stuff]

We scream it sounds like a lullaby
When you beg I get all gooey inside,
Tonight I take your eyes and tongue
to spread the word and watch you come

you keep me in stitches, you tear me to pieces

It just the way that we're diseased
It's the plague that stains us
It's the sweetest disease
It's so contagious
(x2)



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Gawd why can't I write stuff like that Dx! Hehehe

Aww, sorry about all your work. I really hope it lightens up a bit for you. But like you said, you can do anything you set your mind to. It'll be over soon and then you'll get to chill. cool

By the way, awesome Otep song. ;]