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 Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 10:45 pm
"I can see what I can do, I'm sure Dru would love to meet her cousins," Truth be told he actually wasn't, he was sure Alturius would balk at the thought of children nearby him, Grendell might as well be a stranger in that respect of his knowledge, but he figured, worst came to worse Dru would only poision the little spazzes and he was sure she'd give them the antidote...
And if she didn't well... Whooops! What could you do right? Chuckling at the thought a little he shook his head. It was true that Victor was close to being one of the most demented Pae on the isle, he didn't know who was first, but he was sure he was in the running there somewhere...
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 10:53 pm
Kaelin smiles then claps her hands together "Alright that is great, I'm sure Mel will like the idea. Dil on the other hand I know will not take to kindly to the idea." sighing she looks away "I don't ever think Dil will ever be the same, he so scared that he going to lose everyone around him. First he was torn from him brother , then Thom leaves him. If he not sleeping he either at my side of Mel's." looking down at the water she frowns alittle.
"I don't think he'll ever be the same child. You can tell the boys apart now. Mel is so full of life and he a brat. He reminds me alot of you minus the wanting to kill things. He just very strong. Dil on the other hand, he so quiet and unsure of life. He so scared he going to lose everything, and I don't know how to fix it." shaking her head she closes her eyes thinking of her son and how he was before Thom took his brother away from him.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 10:56 pm
"Give him time, he will either grow out of it, or it will be a perminant scar, there's nothing you can do to fix it, it's his problem, not yours," Victor looked to the rising moon and smiled. "Because there is no garuntee that tomorrow you and Mel won't get gutted, and then he'll be alone with Rath, or Rath and you and Mel might die, and then he'll be left alone, or with me... Or he could die, there's nothing stable in life, and that's a part of the process of growing, he's just gotten a bigger taste of it faster than most."
Victor looked to his sister. "I wouldn't worry, what will be will be."
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:01 pm
Shivering she tries to block the image from her head of what Victor said. Normally the idea would bring tears to her eyes, but she knew it was life, the only thing she could do was protect her sons and hope they learn from all that has happen "In a scary way Victor I know you are right. I'm just trying to keep the image you painted with your words out of my mind now." chuckling she makes a face at him as she watches the moon rise.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:08 pm
Victor shrugged. "Why block out reality, we all will die eventually," He laughed a little and smiled. "I'm sure my death will be violent, if not, well so be it, but I very much doubt that I will go peacfully, and if I do, perhaps I will be a better man because of it, I hold no question in my mind or heart how I am precived by others, and that is their choice," Walking a little ways away from his sister.
"You are one of the few people, who, even knowing the truth depth of my nature, of my horrid, depraved nature, will deal with me as an equal and as a friend, I am touched, even if I feel you are taking a substantal risk in trusting me the way you do," another laugh, only this one was mirthless, cold.
"But I guess some people need happiness as others need the grim facts of life," In truth, Victor had been growing more and more dark and grim the longer he was away from Mo, he missed the other man, missed him so much, it wrenched his heart and drove him into despair, something Victor did not like to feel in himself. It made him feel weak. One man on all the isle could render him helpless, all he had to do was deprive Victor of his love, and Victor would be as defensless as a newborn kit.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:19 pm
Kaelin looks over at him before walking up behind him "That because your my brother Victor, I love you and I want to be there for you when no one else was. I know how much you love and trust Mo, I'm hoping that one day that you can grow to trust me. So you don't have to feel like your alone or not cared for." shrugging she steps pass him before she turns to face him her arms behind her back.
"I know this might sound like a weak thing, but I learn just by knowing that someone out there watching my back, or willing to help me when I've been kick so far down I can't get back up. It makes me feel stronger, you did that for me that day I confronted Thom. I hit a low when he refused to give back Mel, but hearing you I kept fighting even if I felt broken." stepping up to Victor she place her hand out in front of him "I want to show you that you can count on me the same way, I might not be Mo. But I want you to know that you can come to me just to rant, or just when you need somone who won't pass judgement on you."
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:23 pm
Victor frowned, it wasn't an unhappy frown, but a frown of thought. Kaelin was putting herself at huge risk offering herself like that. "So even if I told you I killed someone you'd not judge me?" He asked, wanting to let her know just what she was possibly leading herself into. "That if I told you I went out, just for the hell of it, and killed someone, for no reason but my own twisted whims, you'd not pass judgement? Not at all, not once..."
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:28 pm
Shaking her head she smiles "Nope I wouldn't, I've grown to understand that apart of you. I can't change it so I accept it Vic. Your you and I told you I like that about you. That you don't give a damn about what others think. Sure killing scares me, but just as you said its apart of life. I just hope that one day I'm not at the end of that fight." keeping her hand out she tilts her head chuckling "But no I won't pass judgement on you, you didn't pass judgement on me, you accept me even if I was whiney at the time."
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:31 pm
Victor took the hand. He wasn't sure if he could really bring himself to believe her, and he knew full well that he could not tear down his walls around her. Sister she may be, but he could never open himself up to another person, it would give her too much power over him, and he could only really allow himself one person to have that kind of power. Kaelin was not going to be that person, because that person already existed and would continue to exist so long as Victor had anything to say about it.
Nodding though, and trying to force a smile, something he'd never gotten particularly good at, since he'd never really had the need to act happy. Deciding afterwards, that it wasn't worth the effort he let the false smile fade and just shrugged his shoulders, letting Kaelin's hand drop and he opened his arms.
She could interperate said action however she pleased, but this was probably the closest she'd ever get to him actually asking for closeness.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:34 pm
Kaelin smiles, she knew this was hard for him, but if he was willing to allow her in even just alittle. Then she was going to show him that she be there just like she said. Stepping up to himshe wraps her arms around his neck giving him a hug.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:37 pm
Victor did not hold the hug long, but he did hug Kaelin back, before disengagin and turning, so as to better look up at the moon. It had been a lapse in his defense, one he had allowed himself, another would not come for a long time, nor would he tell Kaelin his troubles, for that was not her place. She had Rath to deal with, he and her children were the only troubles she should be forced to deal with, so he would suffer as he did. Silence was better for him anyway.
He remembered the days before Mo, weeks upon weeks of not talking to a single soul if he could help it, it had been wonderful...
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:44 pm
Kaelin stepp up next to him but remain quiet. She knew he seem to like things better when their was silence. Looking down at the water she watches as the naiai baby swims alittle in the lake. She was a loner just like her brother from what she had seen.
Looking over at him she tilts her head, she almost wish she was here the whole time while they were growing up. Maybe then she be able to be another he could trust. Looking away from him she continue to watch the baby naiaid.
Nerinda pop her head out of the water looking up at the moon before she looks towards the mountains. She was quiet this night as she didn't have another to play with her.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:47 pm
"Have you ever felt like you gave someone a bit too much power over you?" Victor finally broke the silence, bemused somewhat by the moon, to the point that he had not heard the infant Naiad swim up. If he had, he would have observed the child and maybe questioned his sister about it, but at this point and time, he was too lost in his own thought and the moon to notice the rest of his surrondings.
Dangerous this close to Dragnid... Wolves were keen on slipping out, as were some bears... Of course it was getting on to night and the Wolves tended to avoid Pae'il, unilike their spinned cousins deeper in Dragnid, but they still could pose a threat to a child, or those unwary of their existance.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 11:59 pm
Kaelin looks up at him nodding alittle "I gave that kind of power to Thom. Love, trust, soul, and even if you don't want to hear it body. The moment he vanished I felt weak, I didn't talk, sleep, and even eat. I was actually at one point thinking death was a nice way to end the pain. The first time he came home everything felt right I didn't dare question as to why he was gone, then he left again. I felt destroyed. Like he just threw me to the dogs and left me there for dead." looking down she watch the child as she kept staring up at the moon.
"I swore to myself I would never let another soul in, my life became Dil's. He was all I had left to live for in my eyes, until that night I met you and mum." falling quiet she shakes her head "Giving someone that much power is scary, I care deeply for Rath, but I don't think I could ever give him that much power that Thome had over me. Just because I'm scared I couldn't handle it."
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Posted: Wed Jan 24, 2007 12:04 am
"It requires trust, and I am not that trusting a person... But I fear that I have done so, not foolishly, for even if my trust is not in the right place, it will not matter," Victor chuckled. "No matter how much you give someone, even if they destory you from within, they cannot unmake you until you let them, you will only lose your soul if you refuse to fight for it," Shaking his head slowly he let out a small laugh.
"Kaelin, I gave Mo all those things which you listed, and I would give him more if I could, I have not choice but to wait for him, I am a man of my word, even if others would not think I am capable of that, I do, when I make an oath or a convenant, follow through with it, until my deal of it is done. I promised Mo I would wait, and for him, I will wait, if I must then, endure this feeling..." He touched his chest. "A feeling I have to admit unerves me a great deal, then so be it..."
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