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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:29 am
not quite giant.. yet XD i'm about 6'6"
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:35 am
The Resurrection Mina Lilith ... I suppose it would be like hell, except that, well... I'm at peace when it happens, the darkness, The Companion is just that, a companion. It causes me no pain or fear at all... Well there's two problems with the Hell theory. Namely that last I checked Hell doesn't just manifest itself in your bedroom and two that it's pretty much made out fear. I was just kind of musing. I really don't see how you could be content with nightly maulings though. confused Well, it's not as dramatic as all of that... It isn't nightly, more like 4 to 20 times a year. And well, I know that it needs me. It needs to be near me, and apart of me as much as it needs to break me apart. It needs my aceptance, and how could I deny it that?
How can I explain it... I've spent my whole life in the dark, so the dark dosen't bother me, it's a confort. I'm a sanguinarian and thus is my lot in life.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:36 am
galdon not quite giant.. yet XD i'm about 6'6" Well i'm tiny, 5'4" at the most so your a giant to me...
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:37 am
Mina Lilith The Resurrection Mina Lilith ... I suppose it would be like hell, except that, well... I'm at peace when it happens, the darkness, The Companion is just that, a companion. It causes me no pain or fear at all... Well there's two problems with the Hell theory. Namely that last I checked Hell doesn't just manifest itself in your bedroom and two that it's pretty much made out fear. I was just kind of musing. I really don't see how you could be content with nightly maulings though. confused Well, it's not as dramatic as all of that... It isn't nightly, more like 4 to 20 times a year. And well, I know that it needs me. It needs to be near me, and apart of me as much as it needs to break me apart. It needs my aceptance, and how could I deny it that?
How can I explain it... I've spent my whole life in the dark, so the dark dosen't bother me, it's a confort. I'm a sanguinarian and thus is my lot in life. Um... I can think of at least one Sang I talk to regularly that has never mentioned anything like that and I'm sure he would if he had experienced it. And 4 to 20 times a year would still leave me calling up a priest all pissed off.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:46 am
The Resurrection Um... I can think of at least one Sang I talk to regularly that has never mentioned anything like that and I'm sure he would if he had experienced it. And 4 to 20 times a year would still leave me calling up a priest all pissed off. I don't mean that sangs all experiance this blackness, just that Vampires in general are born to walk in the dark it's just our nature (this dosen't mean we're all gothic, evil or anything like that which I'm sure you aware).
i guess it's just impossible to explain how I feel... all I can say is that The Companion is not evil. You may not understand it, but it's not... just lost I suppose...
At any rate I have a feeling that it will visit me tonight.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:50 am
It has less to do with whether or not its evil and more to do with it'd piss me off and Catholics will exorcise anything. Seeing as I don't do magic, why not use them to do it for me?
I also really don't think vampires are necessarily bound for a darker path. I think any association between vampires and darkness/dark/darker side/etc comes from their folk lore status as undead.
I mean really, the lack of fear kind of defies every explanation I've ever heard for this sort of thing.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 12:58 am
By darkness I don't mean what you think I mean. Darkness dosen't mean bad or evil in this case, only a different side to humanity.
I can't imagine exorcising something that isn't evil! That would be, well, cruel!
I think the lack of fear steams from the fact that I understand it. I know it. I can't fear it when I understand it's pain, it's joy, it's soul. Nor can I hate it.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:02 am
No, I know what you meant. Especially considering I don't believe in such relative terms as "good" and "evil". You mean more like the little goth kiddies think they're on the darker side of life, minus the angst and crappy poetry.
And meh, suit yourself. I'd just remain wary that it doesn't turn into something worse.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:03 am
hmm... so basically, you cant bring yourself to dislike it because you understand it's motive?
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:09 am
The Resurrection No, I know what you meant. Especially considering I don't believe in such relative terms as "good" and "evil". You mean more like the little goth kiddies think they're on the darker side of life, minus the angst and crappy poetry. And meh, suit yourself. I'd just remain wary that it doesn't turn into something worse. Thank you for you paitents, it may be beyon your understanding, but at least you tried. And, I guess that might be what I mean by darkness, although with many of those little kids it's hard to see past the angst to what lies beneith. I resently had a little kid tell me that death rules as if he had any understanding of death at all (how could someone who experianced it first hand say such a thing?). It gave me a headake...
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:11 am
galdon hmm... so basically, you cant bring yourself to dislike it because you understand it's motive? Yep... well, kinda... I don't have a concreat reason, but I understand it all the same.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 11:26 am
Do you look like yourself in the mirror or are you someone else? The reason why I ask that sometimes during a past experience you can look the same as you do now, but never you look like the actual person from long ago. You’re not allowed to know just as you’re unable to remember your past lives altogether. This is called akashic records. Your ability to access the akashic records. They are predetermined records of time and place. Also of fate they have the ability to change. Being of fate you and your many fates in this life and all your previous lives and what is to come. From what you have told me about these demon like creatures. They’re usually known to be demons that are taking people to hell. They conflict pain onto the person. Usually people are able to plead and call for god help at this point. If they do not then they will be taken to hell. Those who do will be taken in by a bright light. So from what I can tell is that someone that you were in your past life was going to hell.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 1:51 pm
Rebelling Princess Do you look like yourself in the mirror or are you someone else? The reason why I ask that sometimes during a past experience you can look the same as you do now, but never you look like the actual person from long ago. You’re not allowed to know just as you’re unable to remember your past lives altogether. This is called akashic records. Your ability to access the akashic records. They are predetermined records of time and place. Also of fate they have the ability to change. Being of fate you and your many fates in this life and all your previous lives and what is to come. From what you have told me about these demon like creatures. They’re usually known to be demons that are taking people to hell. They conflict pain onto the person. Usually people are able to plead and call for god help at this point. If they do not then they will be taken to hell. Those who do will be taken in by a bright light. So from what I can tell is that someone that you were in your past life was going to hell. Well, I would imagine that one of my past lives did (as I know that she did some very bad things to others) go to hell, but still. Why would this demon and I be so connected, because it is a connection on both sides, not just for me? And why wouldn't I fear it? There's no malice in it at all, only need.
To tell you the truth, I'm not the person I see most of the time in the mirror.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 3:43 pm
I don’t know what time period your past life was in, but could of have been a type of person that worshipped demons. Even today people do rituals and stuff still. Usually when you’re someone else you can sense and fear the same thing that they do. It’s possible that she didn’t fear the demon for whatever reasons. Because when you’re someone else during this. You aren’t really completely there in some sense. You’re really only aware of what the person is doing and feeling. Meaning if you thought you would be scared of the demon you still wouldn’t be because of who you’re in. Though being in other people doesn’t mean every single one of them is from your past life. It’s really hard to tell if they’re your past lives or not. I haven’t done this enough to be able to figured it out. Usually you’re seeing future, present or past events during this. They can be about anyone though.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 5:14 pm
Thank you, It's definatly an ineresting solution to this... and one I'll have to look into.
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