Welcome to Gaia! ::

Day one found me wandering the grounds of the circus idly. I wasn't really sure what to do with myself. I hadn't been given any orders aside from meeting with the Ringmaster briefly as I'd been accepted. Soon after that he dissapeared, most likely onto bigger and more important things. This place is nothing if not BUSY and active. Everyone always seems to be doing something around here... even if it is just talking to one another or hanging posters around the nearby cities.

We're in Gaia now. It's nothing like London. It's more bright and colorful where London was dark, full of rain and shadows. The weather is a little chilled, I'm thankful for the jacket I managed to steal before leaving the city. I've only got a pack of cigs left before I have to find some more. Here's hoping that doesn't happen anytime soon.

I've met the first person to actually TALK to me today. None other than a woman, I might add. She's small, but there's something in the way she smiles that proves no matter how tall I am- she could easily kill me with whatever crazy ideas she's got in her head.

I'm not sure if she's sane or not, but she's got her moments of sparkle. She's the resident artist around here, does all the posters - even the one I found that brought me here.

She showed me around a bit, mostly to the trailors and things. There's a gold one I wouldn't mind going through but she says it's the bosses and that if I did... well, who knows what would happen. She was a little fierce about not goin inside.

She's to be my mentor, I hope to talk with her again and get some more information out of her. This time wasn't that fruitful and she managed to slip away on 'business'.

I met the first nice lady here, that didn't scare the s**t out of me initially. Her name is Ankita, and she's blind. Guess that's what it takes, a blind chick who's shy. Now that I think of it, she's almost completely the opposite of Scarlett.

She has this pet. It looks like a really huge squirrel. I don't know what the hell it is either. Maybe with time she'll tell me?

I managed to get my fortune told. Sounds pretty damn accurate to me. Kinda spooked me out, but maybe this is the person who can help me figure out my problems? I'll stick around and see. She's offered to let me sleep on her floor or couch since I can't figure out where the hell the workers sleeping trailer is.

Lucky me.

"You've had quite the hardship it seems... Something you're really not willing to share with the world. A pain that's become a major part of your day to day life." She said quietly. "The Death card, however, is somewhat of a good sign. It means in present time, there's a change that's occuring. However, whether you accept that change as a good or a bad, is up to you." She took a deep breath, and sighed quietly. "The last, The tower, shows that something destructive will happen that really will shake your foundation. Something that will take away whatever barriers you already hold, to help open your eyes to what actually is, and what will be."

Three of Swords ::

Number: 3
Card Title: Three of Swords
Esoteric Title: Lord of Sorrow
Numerical Keywords: 3: Form, Container, Fertility
Numerical Attributions: Saturn, Black, Year, End
Intelligence: Sanctifying Intelligence
Element: Air (hot, wet)
Elemental Keywords: Mind, Ideas, Cutting
Elemental Attributions: East, Spring, Sunrise
Astrological Attribution: Saturn in Libra
Dates & Timing: October 3 to October 12
Qabalistic World: Binah of Yetzirah
Translation of World: The Understanding of Formation
Suit Color: Swords- Yellow

Keywords: Tears, emotional suffering, emotional pain, sorrow, intense pain, worries, love triangle, separation.

Ill-Dignified: healing, deep sympathy, disorder, confusion, loss but not as extreme as upright.

Interpretation: Relationship is causing deep emotional pain. Surgery. Emotional wounds. Divorce. Abuses, transgressions. Relationship crisis. Very destructive relationship.

Reversed Interpretation: Recovery from emotionally painful relationship or triangle. May be involved in a very difficult relationship and doesn’t realize ending won’t be as painful as he thinks. May recover quickly. Deep sympathy for those in pain.

Death ::

Number: 13
Card Title: Death
Esoteric Title: The Child of the Great Transformers
Lord of the Gates of Death
Astrological Atttribution: Scorpio
Elemental Attribution: Water (cold, wet)
Dates & Timing: October 23 to November 21
Hebrew Letter: Nun Fish 50
Color: Blue-Green
Intelligence: Imaginative Intelligence
Esoteric Function: Movement
Qabalistic Path: Path 24: 6 Tipareth to 7 Netzach
Translation of Path: The Beauty of Victory

Keywords: Letting Go, Death Of Ego, Change, Rebirth, Renewal, Endings, Evaluate & Revamp, Ending, Elimination, Metamorphosis, Opposites meld, Motion, Transformation of Consciousness.

Ill-Dignified biggrin ecay, Grief, Holding, Disaster, Destruction, Upheaval, Depression, Self-loathing, Resisting Transformation. Temporary, stagnation, death of political figure or upheaval. Changes for the worse.

Interpretation: Let those doors close. Endings & new beginnings. New conditions and opportunity. Don’t resist sudden change. You will have strength for a new situation. Worry will get you no where. End of old life. Rebirth of the soul. New awareness. Freedom from old enslavement’s. Total change. Birth of new ideas. Destruction of old. External change. Endo of your awareness of something. No death without birth. Loss of perception. Gaining new perspective. I now say yes to death, yes to my self. Integration and Manifestations Occur, Rebirth of Soul w/o Physical Death.

Reversed Interpretation: Not moving on when you should. Situation that needed change has been going on for too long. May be forced to make change. In Limbo. Loss of pretensions. Fear of change. Enforced sacrifice. Fear of material insecurity has basis in lack of faith in self.

The Tower ::

Number: 16
Card Title: The Tower
Esoteric Title: Lord of the Hosts of the Mighty
Astrological Atttribution: Mars
Elemental Attribution: Fire (hot, dry)
Dates & Timing: 2 years
Hebrew Letter: Peh Mouth Iron
Color: Red
Intelligence: Active or Exciting Intelligence
Esoteric Function: Indignation & Grace
Qabalistic Path: Path 27: 7 Netzach to 8 Hod
Translation of Path: The Victory of Splendor

Keywords: Major shakeup, Feeling Unsafe, Conflicts, Separation, Unexpected, Breakthrough. Devastating Conditions. Financial Problems, Divorce, Release. Downfall, Catalyst, Sudden Change, Catastrophe, Unexpected shock, Shattered Illusions.

Ill-Dignified biggrin ust settling. Paradigm shift.

Interpretation: Imbalances of form and function. Need to achieve equilibrium through proper creative energy. Bizarre Encounter. Situation will change rapidly. Destruction of old forms. Karmic clearing. Release old way, old life. A change for the better after a sudden loss or disappointment. Sudden truth. Flash of enlightenment. Changing a basic core belief. Spiritual renewal. Everything in life happens for the best. Things can not continue as they were before. Lightning of spiritual comprehension destroys error and ignorance.

Reversed Interpretation: Accident out of the blue. Change process has started, don’t resist it. See the writing on the wall. Clear rubble and start over. Downfall of selfish destroyed ambition. Broken partnership. High costs to gain freedom of mind, body and spirit. Self-knowledge brings traumatic but satisfying change. Gain of freedom of body/mind at great cost. False accusations. False imprisonment.

Hadrian. Well, what can I say. The kid's weird. (Like a lot of people here, myself included.) Seems to me he needs a friend, real bad. Half the time I caught him staring at me. After a while I began to think Hadrian was into guys. I wasn't complaining, I like attention and Hadrian's not at all bad to look at.

He smokes, too. Goddamn happy to see someone else sharing one of my passions and not telling me to go away when I wanna smoke.

8D I like Hadrian.

Get this. I was walking outside, minding my own business... when I spot someone DROWNING themselves in the lake. I was interested in a swim earlier, but after seeing that I just jumped in. After dragging the carcass out, I realized it was Hadrian. That kid from before! Now, I thought he was sad... but not THAT sad.

I tried to bring him back, giving him some air... and then he wasn't dead- just shocked. Well, at least he got a kiss out of all that, eh?

All that an no dinner. I feel so used. wink

After leaving the lake when I 'saved' Hadrian, then speaking with Dahli by the fire, I found myself still reasonably soaked through. I went back to Ankita's trailer and borrowed one of her sari's while my shirt and pants continued to dry. We had chai (sarava, who I found out is a AYEAYE..not a squirrel) made it. Talented creature.

Afterwards, I was hungry. Ankita suggested some of her cookies and candies around the trailer, but all she managed to lead me to were her underware. I dunno if that was a veiled hint at something else (XD....) but it wasn't anything I could ingest.

I suggested a trip to the Gaia town for some REAL food. We picked up a lot of fruit and baked things and returned home. In the meantime I was starting to feel the effects of the full moon coming. I'm nervous around her now..I don't want to snap and hurt her. I'll have to spend some time sleeping outside, in one of the empty cages for a while.

Week of Monday December 4th, 2006

World Name: Elwynn Forest, Azeroth
Type: B
Weather: Fair, it seems to be perpetually spring in Elwynn Forest.
Description: A circus is a great place for a land rich with gold and pleasure seeking adventurers. Here we set up camp just outside of the human capitol of Stormwind. This land is divided into two warring factions, so we usually try to make two trips here and seek an audience from both sides. The Darkmoon Circus is another traveling, local attraction, but they ain't got nothin' on us!

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