Helter Skelter Hippie
'kay.
So this probably sounds supremely silly, but my life's ultimate goal is to live like Jesus did; I want to travel around the country (world?) telling others about the messages he gave us about compassion and peace. I've had my mind set on this for several months now. I've got no interest in living like my parents want me to; i.e., they want me to be rich and put everything else behind me. Having money makes me miserable and nervous. I've never liked having more than about $10 with me. It's odd, I suppose.
My dad has more money than he knows what to do with, he's completely miserable (his only joy in life comes from drinking and smoking and playing cards); likewise, my stepmother's interests are shopping, gossipping about the girls at her office, and the like. Both want me to abandon the life I envision and live their lives.
I've dropped anvil-sized hints and even outright TOLD them that I want to live this life I'm planning; the road calls out to me like a siren, and I can't ignore the call to tell people about the Good Man's messages. If there were ever a time that people needed Jesus' words of love, compassion, and peace, it's NOW!
Now, here comes the actual *problem*: I'm 17 right now (18 in a very short time). When I'm 18, I'll be able to leave the house and do as I please. I've batted around the idea of going a few days after my birthday. Perhaps leaving a note behind after I vanish.
Do you guys think I'm silly for wanting to do any of this?
Should I?
Are my parents right; should I put everything behind me and aim for money alone?
I once read that one can either love God and deny money or deny God and love money.
I choose God, and I feel that he's tellin' me to take this path! FOLLOW YOUR HEART! My parents don't have a whole lot of money, but we get by pretty okay, you know? So my mom really really wants me to get a really smart job that will pay tons of money. I get really good grades so I could totally do it, but it's not at all what I want. I want to travel, I want to join the Peace Corps, and I want to be a part of a roaming medieval faire. So I've decided to get my degree (probably in Photography) and then just follow my dreams. It doesn't matter if I have money or not; it's what I want. If in the end, that's not right for me or I can't afford to live, I'll use my degree to get a good job that I'll still enjoy.
The point is that you have to do what's right for you. You're dream is amazing. It's all about God and you really feel that it's from him. Your parents aren't you and they can't know what you feel in your heart. I hope this works out for you. It's sounds like you've spent some serious time with God on it. He'll lead you where you should go.
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