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 Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:05 pm
 Session Plot: Alces comes over to visit! ^_^ Participants: Alces, Filix, Neith-Kia Setting: Filix's Chambers. Xannyia Alces came walking down the hall. Stopping only when he thought he had reached his destination. Looking down the hall both ways, Alces brought his hand up to knock on the door; hoping that this was Filix's chambers. He had brought a few gifts for her, all of them hidden in a small bag he carried with him. He peered into the sack to make sure he had everything with him, and wouldn't need to run off and go get something. Sure enough, he had it all with him and gave a satisfied nod. Now all he could do, is wait for Filix to come to the door if this was indeed her room. Neith-Kia Filix was busy swinging on the rich fabric curtains surrounding her bed, much to Neith's horror. Neith was sitting nearby, watching. She had originally panicked and thought Filix would rip the curtains, but when Filix had pointed out that they were too thick to rip by a kid, plus the bed was there if she fell... Neith had to agree. And she was feeling too pregnant right now to bother setting up something else for Filix to swing on. Filix jumped at the door, calling, "I'll get it!"Neith grinned, and called, "Thanks, Filix!", flopping back into the cushy chair. She was glad Filix was going to be a countess... the living wasn't so bad! Filix opened the door and peered up at Alces. She looked at him, then at the bag, then back at him. "Hi! Have you come to read me a story or something?"Xannyia Sadly, Alces shook his head, "I'm afraid now. Although I would love to, I can't exactly stay too long. Lady Xannyia is taking me into Gaia to go on a few errands with her. Possibly even to a park. She says I will like it there." He held out the bag and gave her a larger smile, "And in here, are some gifts for you!" The young Fey reached his hand into the pouch and took out a small panda tea pot, "I thought this looked nice, so I bought it for you, as well as this white rose." That was the next thing he pulled out, "Xannyia had forced me to go shopping with her a while ago, so I decided to make the time more useful and get gifts for your sister and you." He explained, "And then, I saw another shop, or rather, Lady Xannyia did, and she insisted I get these for you." He pulled out a small bunny plushie with a little green leaf for a hat. He then paused as he went to hand Filix the Rose and the plushie, "There you are." He then made an odd face as he pulled out the last gift, "It is rather strange yes? But it should be something that you will have to look after. I'm not sure how...but I'm sure you'll figure out how quickly." Neith-Kia "Aww but Neith's no fu... gifts?" Filix was cut off, and she stared in wonder at the things as they were taken, her jaw dropping. She took each one, holding them carefully so that she didn't drop them. "...You got me gifts? THANKYOU!"
She put them carefully on the ground beside the door, making sure the strange bouncing thing wasn't bouncing off as she did... then jumped up so she could grab Alces in a giant hug around his neck. "I love all of the gifts!"
Xannyia Alces stumbled backwards a few steps when he was pounced on. "I'm glad you like them!" he exclaimed and went to twirl her around once before going to gently set her back down on the ground. "I'm glad you like them." He repeated once more as he picked up the now empty sack off of the ground. "Good luck with that little strange Fairy Drop." He looked at the bouncing green little creature oddly for a moment before giving her another large smile, "I've got to go now. Xannyia will want to be leaving soon." Giving a nod of his head, Alces began to walk back down the halls to return to his chamber where his Kithain would be waiting for him, "But don't worry, you will hear that story soon!" He reassured her before disappearing around the corner.
Neith-Kia Filix laughed in delight when she was twirled around, and waved goodbye to Alces. "Bye! Ha... HEY."
The bouncing thing apparently decided that the bed looked like a nice place to hide, and had taken off. Filix called one last "Byeeee!" and took off after the green bouncing drop, with the teapot to put the drop in. "Come back!" Neith just went wide eyed, covered her mouth and sprinted for the quickest way to a pot...
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:08 pm
 Quote: July 7thDear Diary
Alces came over just yesterday, to see Filix. He brought her all of these wonderful gifts, and I keep having to watch where I step, thanks to some strange green bouncing blob. At least it kept her entertained. She's been so excited about the idea of horses being around, so perhaps I'll see about a way of letting her have a horse? She'd love that, no doubt.
She snuck off as well! I couldn't believe it... one moment she was there, then she'd gone on a grand adventure. I found her with the other fey, and took her home again. Apparently, she only wanted to see them more. I feel bad, but while she's so little, what can I do?
Oh well, she is young. Maybe when she's older. It's not like she isn't strong enough, she's proved that she is. We'll see.
~Neith
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:09 pm
Quote: June 10thDear Diary
I've been browsing around for a diary for Filix to write in when she can write. There's not much that screams 'Filix!' to me right now, maybe I'll find something soon? ...Heeeey. Maybe I can give her a sketchbook. She's not the best drawer or anything, but I've caught her with crayons once or twice? And there were those drawings earlier on she did...
We got back to the gardens of the castle, and I was happy to hear that they'd found a new kithain. She was inside the castle, so we waited outside, while Filix did the 'hello!' rounds again. I've been watching, she and Rosa seem to fight over Equus? Maybe fight isn't the right word, seeing as Filix is so little. But Rosa acts like it's a fight, I think. Filix has been telling me that she hopes she can see the horses soon, with Equus... we might go back to his chambers again so that she can get some peace while being around him?
Anyway, I'm rambling. The kithain turned out to be a friend I know through a different HQ, Syrenrei. We're both guardians of fa'e, and both guardians of Egyptian based fa'e, what's more. I think it was good for her to see someone she knew; I remember at first I was petrified inside of all the strange people I'd never known before.
Filix, I think, seemed to make a new friend too. The boy that Sy was kithain of, Aesculus, Filix seemed to recognize him. That's good, I think, or maybe she just found the idea of another fey around her age a good thing. It can't be that fun for her to try and get teenagers to play childish games? She does get them to smile.
In Gaia while she's tiny, Filix has found my increasingly rounding tummy a new amusement park. She rolls down it. When I told her that it'd get even bigger, she just lit up and I think she's been keeping an eye on it. It's like a hill with a good slope to roll down for her. I just hope that when Filix is rolling down one day, the babies won't kick... I want to take Filix to the next appointment to see them and hear the heartbeats. Filix still hasn't seemed to understand what being pregnant means, so I'm hoping if she sees what's in there, she'll know? I hope I don't have to make up a story about a stork or ... babies growing out of pumpkin patches... or something.
We'll also need to go visit Sy, in her new living quarters here with Aesculus, see how she's fitting in.
~Neith
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:10 pm
 Quote: June 11th
Oh my, I can write! Finally! I have been waiting for this for what seems like an eternity now... only, I'm very tired and drained. This entry will have to remain short, and keep to the growing up. The childhood entry will come once I've slept.
That pain was horrific. I am happy though, I am older than Rosa! And come tomorrow, stronger. I'll be able to stroll around on my own, for the most part, although I believe Neith would still hover in Gaia.
Speaking of Neith, she was stunned when we got back to my chambers. Made me lie down, she fussed like I was made of glass. She said that she thought she heard Rosa as we were leaving, and I am glad we managed to miss her. I love my sister... and if she reads that, I'll kill her... but at the best times she makes me weary.
And I've only really realized what Neith pregnant means. Maybe... maybe they won't cry at night as much as I hear babies do? There's two of them. And Neith eats the ... most horrible thing I've ever heard of- Sushi dipped in plain yogurt. I'll have a good excuse to stay outdoors more often.
I cannot wait to see Rosa and Equus though, and the Queen. And now I can go to the stables without one of the older fey!
Too weary to continue now though... I'll write more when I'm rested.
-Lad Fili...
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:11 pm
Quote: June 13th
Journal,
I feel a lot more rested now, and stronger. I managed to get away from Neith's fussing long enough for a walk outside, and found a nice patch of grass to sit in. To my luck, all the other fey came by. All but the king, that is.
We sat around, and I managed to give Rosa a present I'd bought when I was younger... originally to use if she got too overbearing with her preening habits. I swear, she reminds me of a over proud peacock at times, strutting around showing off what's considered beautiful, expecting all those of the opposite gender to fall to their knees and dote upon her. But she is my sister, and I love her all the same. I just wish she'd see more to herself than the state of her hair or the color of her gown! She is kind though, even though she has to fuss. She gave me a gift! (And for some reason, I agreed to let her touch my hair sometimes. I must have been half-mad...)
She's been acting strange around the new boy, Aesculus. She made him come over to her to speak to him in private. He thought she was amusing after! I dread to think what she tried to get him to say to her.
Ah well.
I also want to see Equus again, he said he had a present and walked off to get it. I felt horrible for leaving so quickly, and I still do. I hope he'll forgive me, I just felt like I was going to fall asleep standing if I tried to force myself to stay up longer.
And I've been very seriously thinking about getting myself a horse. A male horse, I would name him fera. I believe it means untamed, or wild, or something along those lines... so I'll be going to look at what I might be able to have, and see which one of the horses is Fera.
And! I have magic! I can't believe I never noticed, perhaps I was just too tired to realize? But I do, and it's so wonderful, and I feel like I'm more able to do things, more intelligent to understand things, I just feel ... older. It's a good feeling.
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:12 pm
Quote: June 20th
Journal,
I've been practicing my magic skills for a lot of my time, I want to impress the others when I see them again. It'd be nice to hear 'Filix, you seem to be a natural at learning the spells!' Well, perhaps not those exact words. But it would be a good change from 'Filix, you've become so beautiful'. (That's often heard from my kithain though, in various different wordings...)
I'm still stunned by the ability to write! And I said I'd write about my childhood, the things I wanted to say, right?
Well, the day I came out of the window, I wasn't as outgoing as I felt. It was a little strange, she was my ancestor? She had wings on her head, and this strange jewel that looked like it'd grown out of her forehead, and had yellow hair... but she was friendly, and I rested soon after. When I woke, I felt more comfortable with her.
...And, Oh! The trip with Equus! That was fun. I wasn't happy that Neith put ribbons in my hair, we were only going to visit a boy. I might have put up with it had it been a visit to Rosa, if only for peace. But this was a boy, I had to get them out. He offered to help get them out, but we both got distracted. Somehow we decided to race each other down the halls of the castle instead. And whilst doing so, we found stables! It made me sad, because the stables were empty and lifeless.
There were no dead horses though, so I was reassured by the fact that our ancestors set the horses free during their last days. We also got attacked by a fearsome beast, otherwise known as a rat. But it was cut too short for my liking, I was having the most fun! And when I saw Equus next, he'd grown into a tall youth. I didn't feel jealous of him like I did of the other two... I saw the height as a useful addition to any games we might play in the future.
There was also the day that Neith told me she was pregnant. I didn't understand what that meant like I do now. Twins. Crying all night in my chamber. Neith said that the other mother of them (Apparently, in Gaia, two females can have children?) would also be taking care of them so I'm reassured knowing that the twins will not always be with Neith.
And the day that Aesculus returned. I remember most of the others, Rosa especially, of course, but memories with him were nicely different to the ones of a little baby sister tugging on your hair. Now that I can think a tiny bit more, he always was like that, and it made me always stare at him in awe. Not for his pretty face, but just because there was something extra about him that made all of us like him and heed his advice. Almost all of us like him. Rosa as a baby seemed to not like him.
I half suspect it's still how she thinks. He is fair of face for a child, with the promise of a handsome face to come. Perhaps she's afraid he's prettier than she is.
Maybe it's time to go resume the practice, before I take a walk outside in the gardens. I might run into someone, if I'm lucky.
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:13 pm
Syrenrei Outside the door a carefully wrapped treasure in a piece of black cloth and a note pinned to the top is found. The note on top reads:
Scribbled on the back is another note: Now that you're lady, it's only proper you have a wand to practice magic with that reflects you and your love of nature.
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:14 pm
Quote: June 28th
Why are males so strange? They expect you to sit there, and smile, and need to be rescued, and gods forbid that you, a lady, pick up a sword and pull on breeches to fight beside them. A lady's duty is to be kind, to be gentle, and respectful, to have children. A version of Rosa, I suppose, Rosa being beautiful as well. I do not think this type of woman is dreadful, nor does the idea of a future child make me angry at the expectations placed on a future Countess, but diary, I am not entirely that woman! Should I change myself, so that I swoon, that I sit there and admire the beautiful people, so that I fuss and fiddle over my gowns and hair, just so I can attract a worthy husband? A husband should love me for my mind and soul, not because I have a pleasing face!
In other words, Equus kissed me. I did not expect it, nor did I do anything to encourage it before... unless tripping over a carrot and falling on top of him is a 'My love, kiss me here and now' signal.
And the poor sweet Equus! It's not that I don't feel for him, but he is one of my nearest friends! I don't know what to do, or to say, I just feel like hiding in my chambers until he forgets, or falls in love. Real love!
I should have stepped back quickly, or helped myself stand up, or fallen on the floor.
But I did find my horse-to-be, a colt whom I shall name Fera. He's quite spirited, but I believe we've come to an agreement for the time being. I don't think he likes Equus though, he seemed a little ... jealous?! No, of course not. We had just become trusting enough of each other for myself to touch Fera, so perhaps he did not trust Equus with me.
But I hope that Equus is not too upset with me. I didn't even return the kiss as well as I've seen women do in movies. I could not even kiss him right! He must be very angry with me.
Aesculus sent me a gift, that I found in the way to my chambers on the way from Gaia. (And that reminds me to write of something else, but after.) A wand! I must thank him, if I ever feel up to braving the chance of running into Equus, it did help me strengthen the magic skills. Maybe I just loved the feeling of it in my hand, but I really, really appreciate the wand. It's now hidden in my skirts with the small dagger that Neith gave me as a gift.
And that brings me to the news that was somehow overshadowed by the kiss! Neith gave birth! She's sent me word, I received a letter in the tower. Dragging it to the fairy ring was terrible, but when I'd managed to get back here, I read it. It said that Neith was fine, and the twins were both perfectly normal (Apparently, she was worried about how normal they'd be?). Twin girls, Ellette (Elle) and Winifred. (Winny) One means little elf, the other is from the twin's second mother's homeland. So I'm very, very happy. And glad I wasn't there to see, she gave birth on the floor of her home. Not even enough time to get back to her own bed.
She'll be coming to see me soon, she says that she's healing rather well and the twins are going to see the Doctor soon. I miss seeing her though, I can't wait to see the twin girls. She's only been gone for a very short time, a day at the most. Neith has a diary entry for me to place in her book, on the condition that I don't read the book. (The entry isn't exactly private or secretive)
Oh well. I wouldn't want to face her right now anyway, not after... that. I'm glad to be alone.
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:15 pm
Quote: July 28th
Diary
Remind me to never have a baby again. Without drugs. Especially not TWO, with them both fifteen minutes apart. I was in labor all day, scared because I knew that the other mother wouldn't see them born if it was during the day. (She's a vampire.) But we managed to hold on, my other sister-friend coming to help me late in the afternoon. The twins came around midnight, Winny first, and then fifteen minutes later, Elle. Elle was born on the day after Winny though, it should make for interesting birthdays. I think I'll continue with the elf belief- One day for each year celebrated. One day for one year, two days for two years, and so on. It might help with the two birthdays.
But anyway, I'm coming back soon. Once I heal enough to be able to move around without growling at everything. I can't wait to see everyone again, and introduce the girls.
For now, here's a photo of them both.
-Neith-Kia
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:16 pm
Aug 01
Filix curled up next to the window that overlooked the gardens with her journal in her lap, the last entry open. Now that she read it, it sounded a bit silly. And Filix wasn't sure if, when she'd gotten her thoughts and feelings out, she really was quite as angry at men as she thought. She flipped to a new page, and idly scribbled down,
"I think confusion is apart of life. Just yesterday, I was ready to insult Equus for being so stupid... and today, I'm not? I might even like the fact that he isnt' as bright as everyone else? It means that maybe he's better, even?"
She glanced down at what she'd written, and thrust the quill back into the nearby inkpot a little too roughly. Filix made a face at it, almost tempted to rip it up and burn it. Filix picked up the quill again and added more.
"But he's lucky. I accept the future as Countess Filix, and even look forward to it in a way... but imagine being a knight of the sun court! To do things for the court, how I itch to get outside with my skills, as less important as they are, and to do something. Not just sit here and darn, and make pretty tapestries. What life is that? It's a life for Rosa, not for me. And Equus may very well expect that of his wife.
Not that I'd ever consider my feelings strong enough for marriage... not that I have any feelings of the romantic sort at all! Do I?"
Filix stopped again, and stared at the two words that she'd added without thinking. She glared at them, as if they had appeared of their own doing.
"I don't, of course! But imagine it... just imagine it. Would a knight ever let his wife, his dainty, pretty, attractive childbearing wife ever out to fight alongside him? What man, kind or not, would allow that? And in this life, we all know that the man makes the choices. Again, another good reason to not want to marry. I could shock Rosa if she read this, I'm almost declaring to never marry. Almost. But I do love children, just not the idea of the life I'd have to live to bear them. Could you imagine it? Docile Countess Filix, who sits in her chambers to await her husband, who walks placidly with the ladies of the court and sews elaborate tapestries, while pregnant with her sixth child? And her husband, he goes off to do his knightly duties... as an example, this is not in any way an confession to feelings that I DON'T have... and returns to protect his poor wife.
It's all very stupid."
"Not that I'm going to ever marry Equus." Filix spoke out loud, and glanced around the chamber. Her voice was too loud for her liking in the quite chambers.
"But I speak of examples, not of anything I want. What do I want? ...what does a countess do? I think I know, I just feel so confused about life. And love. And duties. I know things, but my emotions swirl so strangely, and I'm never quite sure anymore. Which is really quite frightening, I'm not used to this confusion. I tried going for a walk, and Fera didn't do much to help.
It's just... I know all these things. And even though I do, I'm still confused. What good is knowing things, if you cannot answer your own questions, or even know what those questions are?!
It might be amusing to tell Rosa that I wish a life without a husband and children, and that I plan on wearing Neith's pants. Maybe not give me any answers, but still amusing... I wish she'd just calm down! Aes told me that she's accused him of being a moon court spy! He's not yet a teenager, and already she is scared that he may be prettier than she is. She expects everyone to fall at her feet from her beauty, and Aes doesn't seem the type to be phased by that. Equus does... he stares when she is around.
Not that I really mind, but what is love when it's only caused by seeing someone's face? Equus can't love her, not if she has no reason other than a pretty face to cause the feelings! It wouldn't be fair!"
Filix stared at the page for a few moments, feeling twice as confused as she'd started. Why would she care?!
She stared, and stared, and finally stuffed the quill back into the inkpot. With a loud rip, she tore the page out and scrunched it up again.
On a new page, Filix wrote a short and to the point entry. The crumpled page was thrust into a jewelry box, and locked up.
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:20 pm
Quote: Aug 1st
Journal,
I do not have any romantic interest in Squire Equus.
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:21 pm
Quote: Aug 4th
Journal,
Fluffy, my darling cat, ran off with the other entry. The one that I didn't put in here, that was so full of lies and terrible ideas...
Well, anyway, it's gone. Fluffy isn't here either, she's probably dancing around the castle with it. Gods forbid someone picks it up and reads it, please, don't let that happen! I should have burnt it. This is embarrassing... I may be lucky, she might just eat it.
Neith's due back soon with the twins, any hour in fact. I can't look like I'm going to panic. Besides, it's not a big problem... I'm sure it can be fixed. But I have things to do to get the chamber ready for two little girls.
-Filix
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:29 pm
 Session Plot: Equus comes over to Filix's chambers. surprised Participants: Equus, Filix. Setting: Filix's Chambers, possibly beyond. Neith-Kia Filix ran up and down the chamber, trying to make it look as clean as possible. She'd stuck two old and cleaned cribs next to Neith's bed, both found in old deserted chambers nearby. Filix was sure she could return them when they were needed, but there were only a few that were young. Neith's babies would probably be the youngest in the castle for a long time to come. Filix had started to get excited about it, she'd hung pink flowers in the little mosquito nets that hung over the tops, and put some toys around the edges.
The chamber was also clean and tidy, after Filix's tireless scrubbing. She looked a bit sweaty, her hair had been tied messily behind her head and green strands were starting to fall around her face. She wanted the place to look perfect for Neith, and for the twins. Filix had even managed to boil eggs! She wasn't sure how exactly, but they were boiled and cooked, and sat in the hot water waiting to be wanted. Filix beamed at the eggs, she'd cooked them for fifty minutes just like Neith had instructed!
And even though Neith wasn't due till the afternoon, perhaps even the evening, Filix had earlier decided to practice this cooking skill. She really wasn't very good at it, but the eggs looked cooked? Testing one seemed like a good idea!
Filix cracked one open, blinked at the insides... then figured it had to be a bad egg. There were those, Filix had heard. The other two eggs were surely well cooked and ready?
So she cracked open the other two, one after the other. Filix's face fell, she tore off Neith's apron, and kicked it hard in a sudden fit of rage. She couldn't even cook EGGS when she wanted to, and that mood was rare enough! She'd never cook again, never! In frustration, Filix punched the wall...
And let out a very loud howl of pain. Stone walls were not designed for hitting, apparently...
Weasley Equus stepped gingerly through the halls, making his way toward Filix's chamber. He walked slowly, being careful not to accidentally step on Fluffy - who was happily prancing along in front of him. He held the tattered diary entry away from his eyes. Equus didn't need to read it more than once. This wasn't something that he felt was going to turn out well - reading another person's private thoughts was never a good idea. Plus, the last time he'd seen Filix was extremely uncomfortable and not an experience he wanted to relive.
Equus' thoughts were interrupted quite suddenly by a distinct yowl. It sounded like Filix, and seemed rather close...was she in trouble? Equus hardly noticed as Fluffy bolted away at the sound. He tore down the hall, slipping around the corner and almost falling face-first into the wall. Filix's door loomed in front of him. It was closed. Maybe he'd just been imagining things? Equus stood and stared at the door. Perhaps this wasn't such a goo- He heard a distinct struggling behind the wall. It must be an attack! The moon court has regained power!
Without another thought Equus burst into Filix's chamber. His face blanched when he spotted only Filix, clutching her fist in pain. Equus froze. His brain told him to turn and bolt back down to his own room, but his body wasn't getting the message. He simply stood in Filix's doorway, his face turning an awful shade of crimson. Neith-Kia
Filix jumped and stared at the door when someone burst through it. It took her a few moments to think, and then to realize what was happening, and then a few more to realize who it was. She ended up blinking stupidly at Equus, rubbing her red fist and wincing.
"Hello, Equus...?" Filix called, not at first noticing his red face. Her attention had been drawn back to the ruined eggs, glaring at them as if it was all their fault. She didn't laugh at him, in fact, Filix wasn't even smiling. She was just as embarrassed, feeling strangly shy now around him.
She stepped away from them, and walked up to Equus. Filix leaned up to attempt a hug, like she'd always greeted him with, all her attention focused on fixing the poor red hand. "Why are you here?"
Filix glanced up at him, only slowly realizing that he was bright red. Her mind went off her own red face for a few seconds, and she reached up to stroke one of her hands over his red forehead. Filix didn't stay like that for long, she drew her hand away quickly, and turned her gaze to the ground.
"There was a insect." Filix told him, shuffling a tiny bit. She decided to tell him what she was doing, it might distract Equus from her face? Even if he couldn't help her... Men couldn't cook.
"Anyway, I was trying to cook... why are you here, again?"
Weasley Why am I here? Equus thought over the question for a few seconds before answering. He'd completely forgotten about Fluffy and the diary entry. Equus was about to attempt an answer when Filix's hand brushed his face. He found himself going white, rather than darker red. What he needed now was clarity, and he wasn't going to get it by standing in the doorway blushing.
He thanked Filix for getting rid of the insect and tried to think of something to change the subject. Unwittingly, Filix gave him a brilliant oppurtunity. He brightened and swept past her toward the oven. "Cooking? Need any help?" Equus glanced at the 'bad' eggs that Filix had tried to cook. He wanted to laugh, but knew that it wouldn't have been very kind, nor encouraging. There wasn't anything in him that would've willingly laughed at the moment either. He knew he had to be honest with Filix, and decided he'd rather do it sooner than later.
Equus turned, his hands wrung in front of him. "We came to apologize." He motioned to the door, where Fluffy stood - proudly wielding her prize. Equus had apparantly dropped the piece of paper in his frenzy. Fluffy, of course, had gallantly grabbed her mouse and followed him to Filix's chambers. And now there she was, looking excited and wondering if they were about to play another game.
Neith-Kia Filix blinked when her hand made Equus go pale. Was .... did her hand smell of bad eggs? She didn't want to make a fuss, so she just shrugged when he thanked her, and blinked when the tall teen walked past to the silly portable oven sitting against the wall Neith had put it there, it was rather strange looking. It was made of two pieces, a gas stove, an oven, and underneath the oven in a seperate piece, a little place to light a fire.
Filix sniffed her hand, and then followed Equus over. She wasn't sure if she should believe him or not... but he was acting like he knew how to cook. "...Help? Can you cook? Or ... OH! You mean you'd bring Miss Weasley, right? I don't want to trouble anyone... prehaps the eggs were just bad. I'll try another three."
And then she followed his gaze to the missing cat, raising an eyebrow at Fluffy. Fluffy dropped the paper, and bolted away from Filix into Filixs room where she took refuge behind a pillow. Filix walked up to the paper and picked it up... then went white. Of all the people in the castle, ALL OF THEM, it had to be Equus to find it! Filix spun around, crumpling the paper up and asked quietly, "Did you read it? I... uh..."
Weasley Equus smiled at Filix's remark. It always seemed that women were the first to assume men couldn't cook. Weasley had even laughed when he'd started to cook dinner for her, but was soon proven wrong when his food was actually edible. He remembered seeing some odd-looking men on Weasley's Gaia 'Television' who could cook quite well. Equus figured that if they could do it, so could he! And thus Equus' culinary skills developed from watching episodes of 'Iron Chef' and 'Emeril Live'.
"Weasley can't cook very well. I don't mean to be offensive, but she'd probably end up hurting herself just by trying. It's happened before..." Equus shook his head disapprovingly. His Kithain had indeed burnt herself many times while trying to make an acceptable meal. She was, however, a master at cooking Pastaroni.
Equus donned a pair of rubber gloves (he was, admittedly, extremely cautious about germs) and looked around for some more eggs. Finding none, he turned to Filix. Equus nodded solemnly as he heard her question. He knew it was bound to come, anyway. "Yes, I did. I'm sorry - I didn't even understand it at first, but after reading it Fluffy and I both came to apologize. I think I should clear a few things up..." He sheepishly managed a smile and wrung his hands.
"First off, I'm sorry about that...incident. I really didn't mean to, I didn't even know I was going to until you fell. And then something else took over - I just couldn't control myself. I'm sorry." He cleared his throat. "Next, I know that you're not one to be controlled by any other being. I wouldn't do that to you, Filix, and I'm sorry if I came off that way." He sighed. "And third...I'm sorry if I ruined our friendship. I hope we can recover from that...it was all my fault, I'm sorry." Equus slouched into a nearby chair, gloved hands supporting his head. He stared at the ground for a moment before returning his gaze to Filix. "Can we still be friends? Please? I won't do anything to hurt you any more than I have, I promise!" He gave a saddened but hopeful grin and sat upright in his chair.
Neith-Kia "You didn't ruin our friendship!" Filix exclaimed a little too loudly for her own liking, but she was clearly surprised at his reaction. She thought he'd laugh at her... a lot. And tease her for everything she'd written.
She tugged a chair over to his, and sat down next to him. Filix stared at Equus, ducking down to peek upwards at his face, and grab at one of his gloved hands with both of her smaller ones. The idea was to make Equus stop hiding, but something distracted Filix pretty quickly, as she'd never actually touched rubber gloves before.
She glanced down at the one on his hand, running her fingers over his palm, feeling the strange feeling of smooth rubber over slightly rough skin. Filix didn't think about what she was doing, she just did, curious about it. Filix dropped his hand pretty quickly though, and gazed back up at his now exposed face. "Honestly, I'll always have strong feelings for you, you're more dear to me than anyone here... just as dear to me as Rosa is, but different, if that makes sense? It was just such a shock, and I could never be mad at you. Even if you did read that endless stupidity..."
Her face flushed, and Filix looked back at the ground, her hair falling around her face in a protective barrier. Filix was still mortified that he'd read that, and she wasn't very good at hiding her embarrassment. And on top of that, he regreated ever kissing her? Filix was so ... well, she wasn't quite sure! Shouldn't she have been HAPPY that he was regretting it, not disappointed? This was all too confusing! Quietly, and without thinking, Filix asked, "But why did you kiss me? Is it just because of my appearance? I'm sorry that you regret it now though..."
Weasley Equus blinked, his face brightening a bit. "I didn't? But...but I thought you were angry with me?" He lifted his head and let Filix examine his hand. Her touch felt a bit odd beneath the thin layer of rubber, but it was enough to send Equus squirming. He was obviously ticklish, and tried to surpress his laughter when Filix dropped his hand. He removed the gloves and brushed the latex powder from his hands once they were released.
"It wasn't total stupidity, most of it actually made sense. What I mean, is that I can understand where you were coming from. Kind of...?" He shrugged, trying to make sense. "I guess I would feel the same way if I were female." Equus made an odd face. He didn't think he would enjoy being a girl very much...especially if they were expected to do what Filix's diary entry described.
Equus shook his head. "It's not so much regret on my part, it's just...I didn't want to do anything to upset you. And I could care less what you looked like, Filix. Sure, you're beautiful - but so is Rosa. So are half of the people I've seen on Weasley's televiewer. But that doesn't matter. They're not attractive because of one main point - personality. You could be the most beautiful person in the world and I wouldn't pay you any mind if you acted like an a**." He'd heard Weasley use that word before and couldn't pass up using it not. She'd told him it was a 'sentance enhancer' - a word that shouldn't be used in normal conversation. He also knew that it meant a bad person...someone who people didn't like to be around. Equus felt this was the word he needed now to describe this unpleasant personality.
Stroking Filix's hair, he moved closer to her chair about an inch. "I don't regret kissing you, Filix." He lifted her head and smiled, his tail thumping quietly against the chair.
Neith-Kia
"I was angry with me, not you. You deserved better than me, I was terrible to you.." Filix answered, her voice soft and quiet, as she became more, and more aware of what he was doing to her. Equus. A boy. And a friend! What was her body thinking? Or was that the problem, was the body and mind suddenly going mad on her? Filix stayed frozen, her eyes locked on her knees... she would have normally pushed him away, or walked off, or anything! But Equus had her frozen here, and all of his words sent a rush right through her and made her heart thump painfully.
Filix started to rub her hands, cursing very un-ladylike in her mind and wriggling slightly. He'd said exactly the right things, damn him, and he was making her act like some silly swooning lady, damn him three times more, and what was worse, Filix liked it! Damn Equus, he had to do this now, while she was ... vulnerable! Yes, that had to be it. But the worst part was that she didn't care! He could have been the very king of the Moon court, and right now, Filix wouldn't care... How d... And there was his hand, stroking her hair softly, sending little shivers down Filix's back. She tried to ignore it, focusing on the 'a**' comment and trying to picture beautiful Rosa pretending to be a donkey. Apparently, even that image refused to come, kicked out by Equus's next actions...
Filix finally looked up at him, painfully aware of just how close they were now. She could feel his breath on her, and those eyes were so close and hypnotic, and damn him, that smile was... damn him! He didn't regret the kiss? Damn him more, why couldn't Equus make this easy for her?! He was so selfish sometimes, it was like he'd read some book on how to get Filix to react...
But she decided that maybe right now, this very second, she didn't really care. Filix pushed those thoughts away for later; this wasn't a time for thinking! She shifted even closer to Equus without thinking while one of her hands moved to rest on the middle of his thigh for balance, Filix leaning closer... and closer... and her lips brushed ever so slightly against his for just a few seconds. Filix half-fell off the chair on purpose, kneeling in front of him with her face only centimeters from his and staring up with wide and scared eyes, as if she was afraid he'd push her away and run off. Like she had done to him, so he had every reason to want to. It only took Filix a few seconds to decide that yes, he was going to. She stood up, wide eyed and as red as Rosa's hair, and rushed outside the chambers.
Filix hid in the stables for a long time. During that time, she came back to her senses, and felt more stupid than she ever had... she'd kissed Equus, for a start. And she'd been alone with him in her chambers, even worse! Now how could she face him?
Finally, when she was sure he'd be gone, Filix emerged and returned to her chambers. Equus was gone, and she felt both sad and relieved... But Neith also wasn't here. Filix stared at the cold ruined eggs for a few seconds, and decided to go to bed. Maybe Neith would leave a note at the tower tomorrow.
Babies were always trouble, Filix decided as she fell asleep.
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Posted: Mon Aug 23, 2004 10:59 pm
In the middle of the night, Filix awoke again. Opening one eye slowly, while she tried to figure out why she was awake, she peered at the dull glow from beyond the curtians around her bed. A lamp was dully shining near the direction of Neith's bed.
That in itself didn't alarm the sleepy Filix. She knew, even in this state, that it had to only be Neith. The moon court wasn't even alive anymore, so who else could it be? There weren't many with the key to the door to Filix's chambers.
She shut her eyes again, but was unable to drift back into sleep. Filix lay there with her eyes shut, listening to Neith pad softly around the chambers, making odd noises.
It wasn't till a few minutes later that Filix remembered that Neith was supposed to return that day. With twins.
Filix opened both of her eyes again, and with wide sleepy eyes, crawled out of bed and padded over to where the half-elf was pacing.
Neith smiled warmly at Filix, reaching out with one arm to hug the teenage girl close. The other arm held a sleepy bundle of baby, that was falling asleep and nuzzling into Neith's chest.
"Meet Winny." Neith whispered, her chest swelling with pride. She led Filix to a chair, and sat Filix down. Carefully, she placed the little girl in Filix's arms and stood back.
Filix gazed down at the baby, reaching out with a tentative hand to brush the baby's tiny face. Winny yawned, nuzzled at Filix's chest with an open mouth. Filix blushed, glancing up embarrassed at Neith.
Neith shrugged and whispered, "All babies do that. Winny's breastfeed, but I just fed her. She'll be fine."
Winny, finding nothing, yawned again and made a valiant effort to keep both eyes open and in Filix's direction. It didn't work, and Winny fell asleep again, warm, cosy and full.
Filix glanced up at Neith, who was still puffed up slightly with pride, one of her hands on the still large stomach. "She's my...?"
"Sister. Adopted sister. She'll think so, anyway." Neith whispered back, taking the baby carefully. Winny only woke up for a few seconds, nuzzling into her mother's chest and falling asleep straight away. Neith wandered off to lay the baby on her own bed, fussing a tiny bit before returning to sit in a chair beside Filix. "Did you survive without me?"
Filix nodded quickly, as she tugged her legs to her chest to cuddle them. With a tired grin, she answered. "...How do they say it in Gaia? Piece of cake. No problem."
Neith leaned over to hug Filix. "I'm sleepy... I need sleep. You go to bed too, we'll both need as much sleep as we can get during the night."
Filix watched Neith go to the bed set aside for her, before returning to her own. This time, she did fall asleep.
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Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2004 4:42 am
Quote: Aug 24th
Journal,
Firstly, I met an old friend! Muris, the girl from the stables. I have vauge memories of her and I playing in the straw, and playing hide and seek. She didn't get to play with me much, her parents didn't think I and her should mix... me being of a higher rank, and all. But at least it's nice to see someone else familiar!
Uh, and Equus. This time, I kissed him. I cannot believe I'd do such a thing! I should know better, and so should he... We were unaccoumpied in my very own chambers. And no, I'm not just finding an excuse to be angry about something. I know those silly unspoken rules about courting arn't as important as a lot of other things, but what if Rosa finds out that we'd been doing such alone? Or the king?! I doubt anyone but us even knows of this...
But does kissing him mean I've admitted my feelings? I... did it on impulse, but he was saying all these things that I liked to hear, and it made me feel all strange. But the second I did, I froze, then ran off. I don't think he will understand, but what was I supposed to do? Prehaps I'll write him a letter.
I've heard news that Aes grew into a teenager! It's wonderful news, I cannot wait to see him. I always thought he was too wise for his age. Maybe now his body will match his mind. Although I suspect that cannot be till he's an adult.
And I finally met 'Aunt' Eirnae, and the most beautiful little girl, Pappila. She was so sad, and so tiny. Only barely a toddler, I think. But she seemed so unhappy. It made me think about my parents, and that was something I was trying to not do. I tried to tell her that we'd take care of her, and I meant every word. I am so happy that no one was there to see that side of me... I went very protective over the child. And I'm going to stay that way. This Aunt Eirnae, Neith's adopted sister, seems just as protective, and I like her already.
I just wish she hadn't broken my block about my own parents. Their faces are haunting me now, whenever I'm off my guard. I wonder if Rosa ever thinks of them? I was closer to father than to mother...
No, I cannot think about that.
Neith finally returned! With only one of the two girls, Winny. And again, I somehow managed to hold an infant without dropping it or hurting it or even upsetting it. Winny's quite loud though when she's needing something... my poor ears.
-Filix
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