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 Posted: Mon Apr 09, 2018 4:48 am
 There was no denying that she was curious and a part of her that had an almosy desperate need to know what was going on was wanting to dig further....but Yaruka wasn't going to let it win this time if she could help it. Something very important was at stake here...something she desperately wanted and needed in her life to keep her grounded...and even now it felt like it was hanging by strings. She didn't want them to snap and lose something she wanted to keep and treasure. Knowing more about something was not worth the risk...not for this.
She smiled gently and shook her head slowly as he finished what he said. "I can't promise that at some point I won't give in to the curiosity....but I will not look further into it. Perhaps this is one of those things that, for now, I am better off not knowing. I would rather look forward to better, happier things than end up obsessing over something that I have nothing to do with." She wanted to respect his privacy...and the other party's. She had a hunch who it was but that was not her place to say or involve herself in now. If she was able to do anything to at least make Ophion's world a little brighter, then she would try to focus on that.
As he mentioned wanting to keep seeing her and trying to help her overcome her own obstacles, she smiled a bit and felt grateful he was even considering that. "I never really talked to many others...except maybe once. I've only ever really spoken at any length to you and maybe one other. Still...I'll keep trying to reach out and talk to people." She looked at Ophion and a little brightness shined from behind her heart-shaped pupils. "I am glad I pushed the fear aside today. I didn't want to miss something that has turned out to be really nice. I just...hope its similar for you."
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2018 11:24 pm
 Ophion watched her, quietly, wondering what she was going to do. Would she look it up? Part of him hoped she did not... Because he hated having people actually knowing what had been done, what he had done, to whom and how and... All of it. And he hated the pity people tended to look at him with afterwards, or the disgust... He honestly wasn't sure which was worse, because pity made him crawl inside... He did not want to be pitied, he wanted to be treated like everyone else, and pity meant they did not do that. But disgust was just as bad... And than there was the part of him that hoped she would, because then she would understand what he was, what he had done, and why he never wanted to force Llyr to see him again.
Her words earned a slowly release of air, and he gave a half shrug. "That is up to you. On this... I can't make you decide one way or the other. I am, internally, evenly split on how I feel about the possibility of you actually doing so. So... I will leave it to you to decide what you want to do, in your own time." His head tilted back and he closed his eyes for a long moment, than straightened up again, and gave her a slightly weak smile. "But if it might make you obsess over things you can, in no way, change because they are long past... perhaps it is best, for your sake, to not."
He shifted in the chair, thinking about what she was saying, a thoughtful look in his eyes. "Well, perhaps tis time to work on encouraging others to chat and talk, if you can. Get to know a few more people a little more, than give it a try. I hope the chat becomes more active again, to be honest, for that very reason. That and... Well. I mean, it's a place for people to find love, or at least short term love. It would be nice to see more people doing what that place exists for."
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2018 11:57 pm
Curiosity had not been kind to her. Yaruka had learned that and tried to curb it as best as she could. There were times she could not help herself....but that had never ended well. There were also times where curiosity had teamed up with her caring, worrying nature and made it seem like it was ok....but it wasn't. She sometimes felt like she was a real-life example of Malice in Wonderland.
When Ophion spoke again, she was listening with her full attention...but something about his words seemed to stun her, shaking her a little. Obsessing over things she could not change....it sent chills up her spine and she couldn't stop the visible shiver, her feathers momentarily ruffling. She looked down and to the side, unnerved for some reason. ".....Have we truly never met till now? How could you know me so well?" She murmured the words quietly, mostly to herself as she thought aloud. It was...kind of scary how he somehow, perhaps unknowingly, pinpointed a trait about her that she often resented. Now it was her turn to shake her head almost violently to pull her out of a moment of sorts. ".....Some sleeping dogs are best left to lie....so I will let it continue to slumber."
When he started talking about trying to be more active in the chat room and encourage others by proxy, Yaruka shrugged a little. "I've been trying. Not so much lately except for when you started talking to me again; I kind of took my own haiatus just because....I got into a really deep hole of hopelessness for a while." She wasn't going to go into detail....but more than once she had scared herself a bit with how bad it had gotten. He mentioned that the chat room was meant for dating and how he hopped it might be used again for that purpose and her cheeks went slightly pink. "...Honestly....even going in, knowing what I was signing up for, I didn't have much faith in finding a person who I could end up dating. I just....got really lonely and wanted to find people to talk to in a way that I felt safe....at most make a friend or two. I think, from what I've backread, there was at least one pair of people talking that had hit it off. I haven't seen either of them back in the chat, so....maybe it really can work." She smiled weakly and set her empty cup aside, idly toying with the cuff of one of her sleeves. "I'd still like to think that it did work for me in a way. I met you....and now we're talking to each other without the filter of screens. Just being able to connect with other people....I don't think many realize what a gift that actually is."
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2018 5:37 pm
Ophion was watching her, as they talked, because of course he was. It was rude to ignore one's conversational partner, after all. It meant, however, that he saw the way she shivered, the way her feathers ruffled, and he sat up a little straighter, his brows coming together with concern for his friend. What happened? Had he hurt her, upset her, said something wrong? That was the last thing he wanted to do to her, after all, so he stayed straight until he was sure what was going on. Her expression, and the looking away, did NOTHING to make him feel more settled.
Her question, however, had him blinking a little, thoughtfully. Something he had said made her feel he knew more then he should. He reviewed her reactions, their conversation, and finally he had a guess as to what it was that might have triggered her responding that way. "I do not know you so very well, Yaruka, but what I know is based on who you are online and what you have said today. Especially when you said something about obsessing over things... It all just sort of came together in my head. I am sorry if I unnerved you, it just... Seemed logical." He did not actually relax, however, because he was worried he had upset her and that was not at all what he wanted.
"I understand... And those holes are hard to come out of, but... Well, here we are. We're working to get you out of it, and maybe more interactions will help too." He sighed, though, and nodded. "I can see what you mean, though. I... joined, thinking I probably would not find much but at least I would get a chance to talk to people as I did my job, since it keeps me at my computer." Her comment about seeing a pair that hit it off, however, had his eyes widening. "Oh? Really? I must have missed that. I hope so, for their sake. Romance is hard to work out." Especially when he did not entirely trust himself not to dominate his partner, because he had been encouraged to BE dominant, to be the controlling one in... that ongoing experiment. He did not show much on his face, but there might be a hint of his concerns, if she knew what to look for. "But yes! We have found a friend in each other... And maybe it can help us find more friends."
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2018 6:26 pm
Yaruka was lost in thought for a moment, mostly stunned by the accuracy....but when he spoke as if he was answering her question, she looked up at him and blinked in confusion till she realize she had said the thought out loud rather than just in her head. Her cheeks flushed. "Huh? Oh.....s-sorry, I was thinking out loud, I guess. You just....shocked me with how accurate that was." She smiled at him, though clearly a little embarrassed as this was a sign of just how alone she really was. She was so used to talking to herself to process her thoughts. "You're fine....and you're right. I'm...just not used to other people seeing things that usually only I see in myself...especially something I'm not proud of."
She smiled a bit more warmly as what he said made her feel a little more at ease. He was in a similar mindset and situation, it seemed. She suddenly felt rather lucky that she met someone who could understand as much as he did. At his comment about romance being hard to work out, she nodded slowly. "It can be.....as I've heard. Romance is....nice to dream about. She reached over and gently patted one of his hands, smiling at him with more open warmth than she had shown before. "I've heard it's about evolution of yourself and your partner....and working together to help one another through this weird world. It's supposed to be hard....but worth it." She sat back again and broke off another piece of muffin, smiling at him as he mentioned they found a friend in one another. "I hope so. I think...it would be nice to see others...learn about each other...and just have fun and hang out. Just relating to each other somehow is, to me, more than I could ask for. Perhaps we'll find other like-minded people who can help us in ways we can't help each other or ourselves.
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2018 8:19 pm
"Oh, that is quite alright. I think everyone does that, honestly. Normal and natural, especially when you live alone." He shrugged and gave her a calming smile, hoping she would not feel embarrassed anymore if he did so. "We all have things we would like to not be seen... I know I have my things. I think it helps that you gave me some clues, perhaps unintentionally, with the various things you've said, and... Well, I understand some of how it can be, so it made it... easier to work it out." He gave a slight shrug. "But in the end, what matters, I think, is that you find a way, for yourself and no one else, to work around that problem. That way it does not keep weighing you down."
When she smiled warmly, he relaxed again, because now he could believe she was not mad or upset that he had read her so well. The pat on his hand, in fact, earned a warm smile in turn. "It is... I just wonder if there is someone out there I would trust myself with, what with the things in my head." He sighed a little, quietly. "My girls are easy... I am their father. A lover? That is a whole other kettle of kittens." He shifted in the chair some, as his butt decided that since his brain was uncomfortable with the thoughts he was having, IT might as well distract him by deciding there was an uncomfortable fold in the fabric under it. "But friends can do some of that too. And family, the helping. I think it's just about finding those who love and support you, and you love and support in turn, that makes the difference. I am not sure where the spark that makes it a romantic partner comes in to change it."
He paused, biting his lip, before giving a small mmm at himself. "Sorry, not trying to be a downer on that. I just am suspicious, I guess, of what the tales say love is. It just seems too good to be true. However, I agree that it would be nice to broaden our friendship circle... For those reasons, and also because no one can ALWAYS be there for another, so it is good to have multiple friends to support you."
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Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2018 12:46 am
Yaruka smiled a bit as she realized he would have been able to figure it out like that. He was intelligent and observant; he had been watching her since she entered, probably trying to make sure she was comfortable. As he talked about finding ways to overcome or learn to deal with the flaws that they had, she shrugged a little. "I try to tell myself that there are things in this world beyond my control....things I can't fix. I hate it...but my therapist has suggested I try, in those moments, to define something that is past, present or future...then focus on only the present. The past cannot be changed and the future has not yet happened, so both are beyond my control. I can feel for the past...and plan for the future...but they are not what I exist in. Its hard to believe...but I'm trying " She nodded a bit and smiled up at him. "I've been trying to write it down in a notebook when it happens....so its easier see in a physical form. I keep thinking that that will help drill it in easier."
She listened as he talked about the possible difficulties of finding romance of some kind. When he mentioned trusting himself with someone else because of what goes on in his head, she breathed a slightly bitter laugh through her nose. "Truer words were never spoken...though perhaps for different reasons. I don't trust myself with others because I don't trust others...where as some may not trust themselves." She pondered on it a bit when he said he wasnt sure what sparked the change from friendship to romance or lover. "Perhaps it's when you find someone that you trust more than anything...who trusts you as much. You feel happiest when they're near...things feel more whole...and it just...fits, I guess. I mean...I'd like to think its something like that." Yaruka tapped her fingers together thoughtfully. "I think there are different kinds of love...all equally important. Love for family, love for friends, love for your significant other; You hold them all dear to your heart in different places. All are important...just cherished for different reasons."
He apologized for being a downed about it and she shrugged, understanding his skepticism. "I don't believe it ever really is like fairy tales or how its portrayed in media. All relationships take time and hard work...and its not always easy or happy. You learn how to make it work...how to help each other through the bad times..how to support each other in the way that's needed; it isn't exact and no two stories are alike...but if you make it work, then its something to treasure. If not...then you keep looking and know that you have other loved ones who adore you for who you are." She was quiet for a moment and then cleared her throat. "Sorry....I rambled a bit. I think....starting with finding friends in others is important. I think...I think we can do it."
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Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2018 8:41 pm
He listened, thoughtfully, eyes a little unfocused, then slowly nodded. "Yes, I think your therapist is right, even if you hate it. You have to divorce yourself from things you can not make any changes to. The past is completely that, and the future is generally unknowable. Add in that there is so much that you can't touch, even in the present... I mean, how could you change the life of some... Random Elf in Above who you have no contact with? Even if they were in a tragedy tomorrow... You can't do anything about it." He leaned forwards again, eyes focused on hers. "You need to find a way to make sure you take care of yourself, and your heart and emotional state, first. If you're running yourself to pieces over things you can't fix or affect... You're harming yourself, which makes it harder for you to help with the things you can do something about."
He looked serious and concerned as he studied his friend. "And then you'll be stuck in a loop, because A brings about B, B brings about C, and then you're back to A." He shook his head and sighed. "If you focus on making yourself able to take care of YOU first, you'll be better able to help others, because you'll be healthier."
The idea of trusting someone more than anything made him blink, and sighed slowly. "I can trust others, to an extent. Not if they try to gain power over me, or control me. But it is me that I can't trust, primarily, because I have concerns that I might do that to them, and that is nothing I ever want. A relationship should be equals, not... one in power over the other." He sighed and almost seemed to droop as he closed his eyes about all of that. "I... Don't know. Fairy tale love I don't expect... It's a fairy tale... But... I don't know if I have it in me to be abe to do that." He opened his eyes again. "But friends, that I can do."
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Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2018 10:57 pm
Hearing his words made it feel like she was failing a lot in that regard. She had already done so much damage to herself that, sometimes, it felt like she wouldn't be able to repair it enough to help anyone or herself. She didn't know what good she was to the world....what use she had. She was Ophion's friend....and that meant a lot...but there was no shaking that she wished she could do so much more.
Yaruka gently toyed with a little teaspoon at the table, turning it over and over again in her fingers as she struggled inside. She wanted to explain things....talk about the things in her head....but recalling times they had spoken before, she knew she shouldn't. "I....know I need to try and take care of myself....so I can take care of my familiars. They need me...." She was repeating it as much to herself as she was to him, reminding herself that she had to try...something. There were lives that were depending on her somehow.
She looked up at him as he explained why he couldn't trust himself. She had a hard time believing that he could still be that way now, even if she didn't know the full extent of his past. He seemed so kind....so concerned about others....and he was a father now. Children could change a person in ways they never expected. She watched him as his whole body and spirit seemed to droop and she frowned, hearing his words and feeling sad that he felt that way. She shook her head a bit and took both of his hands in hers, much as he did with her before, and looked at him with a kind smile. "I think you do have it in you. I think....you've already changed so much more than you realize. You're aware of what you don't want to do....you're trying your best to live a good life...and I think the love of your girls will help you even more over time." She smiled as she gently squeezed his hands to try and reassure him. "Starting with friends is good....baby steps for both of us. We both have growing to do....and if you believe in me, then I believe in you. We can believe in each other and keep going from there. Ok?"
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2018 2:39 pm
"That is a good start, something to focus on... But you need to find a reason to care for yourself in yourself, too. Because otherwise, someday that might not be enough." He spoke as if he had some experience of this, but not directly, like maybe someone he knew or something had it as a direct and personal experience. "I don't want to hear that you have given up, because the burden got to be too much to bear."
His eyes were sad, as he said that, and he sighed softly. "Remember, please, that you are not a failure for the bad days, when the hard to handle emotions are too much, and are winning. It doesn't make you a bad person... You're just a person, like the rest of us, who sometimes has more to cope with then they can easily do." Some of that did sound like personal experience, this time.
Her words earned a weak smile. How could he tell her it wasn't an issue with his girls, that it was about anyone with romantic or even purely physical attraction for him? That his only experiences of that nature had involved him being trained to be a dominant partner, because the scientists wanted to see what effect it would have on his mind, and that he was afraid the training was too ingrained? He had no way of telling her, and this was why, in many ways, he had suggested she look up the information. It would make it easier for her to understand, without him saying a damn thing. Instead, he said "I can only hope you are right. But yes. We can work together, and grow together. Support each other as good friends should/" He gave her hands a return squeeze and strengthened his smile, even if it was mostly for the sake of making her feel better..
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2018 3:22 pm
She wasn't certain that she could find a reason within herself to take care of herself....*for* herself. She wasn't exactly her own best friend...but she wanted to change that with the help of therapy. She didn't want to mention she had come very close to that edge once. Looking up to see his eyes so sad as he said that...listening closely as he tried to remind her that the difficult days did not make her a failure. She wondered how many hard days he had experienced already...how many times it felt like he was losing...and the notion made her sad for him.
She wanted to tell him things could be ok...things could be different if he wanted them to be badly enough. Maybe he did....and maybe that's why it was so hard for him, why he seemed so sad; if only she weren't like this, she could tell him there was nothing to be afraid of...but she knew better. There was a lot to be afraid of...and facing those fears was going to be a difficult journey. Still...walking the path with someone else was better than walking alone. "I hope that I'm right, too....and I hope that you're right, as well...about me. I want to be better....and see you do better, too. I think it's possible..." Well...she thought it was for him, at least. She felt something nagging at her...a familiar twitch...and her hands twitched slightly before she pulled them back with a gentle smile. "Sorry....just a moment..." She pulled out a small notebook from her hoodie pocket and opened it, taking the pen that was being held in the binding loops and writing down something she would be charting out later. "Sorry....Just had something cross my mind that I can feel is going to be one of those...things that I have to map out.' She closed the book and put it away again, looking up at him with a small sense of relief. "Well....I feel like we've been in a darker strain of thought for a while now....and selfish for talking so much about myself. If there's anything you'd like to talk about...even if it's hypothetical nonsense...or something you'd like to do,, then we should do that. This should be a good day...something to enjoy." She didn't want things to turn out poorly. Hanging out with a friend should be a good experience overall, even if they dealt with heavy things along the way.
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Posted: Tue May 01, 2018 2:30 pm
"You can do better. If you don't believe me..." His eyes closed for a moment. "I suggest, once again, that you check that article. You might see enough to know how... I must have been then, versus how I am now. The difference is... quite cut and dry, and given how messed up I still am, that should say a lot." He sighed softly, and then opened his eyes again. Just in time to watch her pull the notebook out. He tilted his head, watching her write, curiously.
"If writing these things down, mapping them out in a physically trackable way, helps you work on things, than there is nothing to apologize for. You need to take care of you, I've said it repeatedly. That's just another way of doing it."
Her words earned her a surprised smile. "Yaruka, it is ok. I have, even when talking about the difficult things, been in my way enjoying this. It's not often I have someone I feel I can open up to this much who isn't a therapist I'm paying to talk at. But if you want to change the subject, that's fine... I um." He paused, then blinked and said, in a confused tone, "What do people talk about, normally?"
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Posted: Tue May 01, 2018 8:56 pm
He brought up the article again and it made her purse her lips in somewhat tense thought. To think it could tell her so much....to let her imagine a different sort of Ophion than the one sitting before her....it was pushing the curiosity button in her mind. Would she? Could she read something like that? It made her fingers twitch again as she wrote in the notebook and she had to jot down something else, as well. "....I'll think on it....and keep it in mind..." She said quietly, writing down more than she initially intended to but....well she had to get it out now or it was going to nag at her nonstop. Her pen scribbled almost furiously for a second before she finally stopped, letting out a small sigh. It was on paper at least and not a fresh idea that would haunt her for the time being. She glanced up and saw him watching her, a slight tinge of pink forming on her face as she put the notebook away.
"....I think it does....in a weird way. It's like....putting the thoughts on paper transfers them into a physical, tangeable form that I can actually see instead of an intangeable thought that just lingers and morphs into something else. If I see it....I can more easily map out the pros, the cons and reason with myself. I'm....basically talking to myself in written form." She shrugged one shoulder up as she tried to put it into words how it worked. Part of her wanted to show him but....there were some charts that ended darkly...and it might not be a good idea to show those yet."I guess that when I see some of the thoughts that bother me, I realize when I look at them in a physical sense how ridiculous they are....or how simple the solution is....or how irrelevant it is. It's a weird rabbit hole, to say the least, but...part of me thinks that I'll find something I'm missing if I keep going.
She had been worried that talking so much about things difficult and dark might have been making him uncomfortable and she didn't want to cause any distress. She was a little surprised by the smile but she listened as he said it was ok....that he had been oddly enjoying it and felt he could open up that much. That.....made her smile. "I was just worried that I might be making you uncomfortable....or that you weren't enjoying yourself." She could tell him that much, at least, and it was true. "I didn't want to make you sad....but I'm glad you feel you can be this honest with me."
She heard his question and blinked in a stunned manner....then smiled tensely, snorting a couple of times before she started giggling. "I have no idea!" And that made her start laughing harder, shaking her head as she covered her eyes with her hand. This was so ridiculous in an oddly amazing way. "Two socially awkward people trying to be social.....what are we doing?" She managed to say between bits of laughter, which made her snort again. Eventually she forced herself to take a couple of breaths to calm down but she still giggled a little. "I don't think there is anything entirely normal that people talk about. They talk about anything; mundane things like petty gossip, work and relationship drama to serious things like what we've been doing.....so this could all be entirely normal. I guess...it's more about what you *want* to talk about or *need* to talk about that determines it. Or....it's not even about talking. It's just about being present." She smiled at him, a little color still in her face from the laughing and she rubbed her cheeks, squishing them a bit. "Ah, my cheeks hurt....I haven't laughed like that in a while." Wow....that was sad. Sure she laughed a little at her familiars when they did something silly but it still felt like a foreign concept most of the time. "Sorry....I wasn't laughing at you, I was laughing at the realization."
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Posted: Tue May 15, 2018 4:25 pm
"It is, of course, up to you. I just offer you that as something to help you see." He watched her work on her notes, not bothered or arguing. The pink color of her cheeks, though, had him silently curious as to what made her feel embarrassed about it. There was nothing to be ashamed of, or embarrassed about, in his mind, so it was an odd moment to be blushing. Or at least that was how Ophion felt.
"That is logical, to be honest. It's a way to keep what you're thinking in a form that won't escape you, too. Minds loose track of thoughts so easily, and it's ever so annoying when you had an idea... and five minutes later when you go to voice it, because it's the first chance you HAD... It's utterly gone. Logical and wise!" He tried to make her feel more comfortable with what she was doing, or at least in front of him. "And I am enjoying your company. Enjoying having a friend who I can talk to about things that aren't WONDERFUL and LIFE IS GOOD type things that feel like a mask and a lie."
Her expression, then her sudden giggling had him looking askance at first, then her words made him blink... Blink... SNORT and he soon was laughing with her. It was harder for him to stop, especially when she kept giggling, and finally he had to close his eyes, and not look at her to calm himself. He took the last few sips of his drink to finish the job, then opened them again to nod and shrug. "Not offended! Didn't think you were. I mean, it really is a good question, and funny to realize we're both stuck going 'Wait what DO they talk about?' here." He shrugged and smiled a little, shaking his head in an amused and bemused sort of way. "Well! Yes, I think we've been present and all here. I think... we talked as we needed to, rather then trying to pretend to be people we're not. I like not having to wear the Big Social Mask of Polite Pretense with you, honestly."
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Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2018 3:52 am
Hearing Ophion say that the journal project she was doing was considered logical and wise kind of stunned her for a moment. She just sat there blinking for at least a full minute before a wry, almost bitter smile crossed her face. "I never thought I'd hear someone call anything that I do 'wise' or 'logical.' Did I wander my way into Wonderland on my way here? And if so, I wonder which forms of madness we are?" Her voice trailed off a bit towards the end as her thoughts drifted for a second...lost in themselves until she snapped back and sat upright with a small shift. "I've never been good at maintaining that mask...not for long, at least. I can put up a good front for a time but too long and it starts to crack. These days lately, though, I can't even bother to put it on....so I've just been a hermit for a while."
Yaruka couldn't help but smile at Ophion's words. That level of comfort and trust that he seemed to feel around her was not something she would take lightly; it was a precious gift. "I'm glad that we can be this open with one another. I don't know what it is that lets me feel like I can just be me when I'm around you...but I hope you know that it goes both ways. If you feel comfortable enough, I'm always willing to listen if you need someone to talk to or an ear to just listen if you need to vent or have a stream of consciousness. I may not always know what to say or do....but I'm here for you as much as you've been here for me." It felt nice to know that there was at least one person she could feel relatively close to; one person she could be open and honest with and feel no hesitation speaking to. So far it was one thing in her life that felt like it was going in a positive direction.
Just as she took a sip of her drink, her phone vibrated and rang the alert tone she had set for important emails. She pulled it out of her pocket to look at the screen curiously and paused, opening the email and taking a moment to read it quickly before her eyes got wider and a smile slowly grew. "One of the places I applied to online wants to interview me.....the day after tomorrow!" She looked up at Ophion with a rather bright smile than she usually had. "I sent in an application to a digital entertainment media company to start out as one of their lower level media managers. I honestly didn't think they'd reply since I have no prior experience but they seem willing to train at the level needed for where I start and provide training for higher positions. I can't believe they got back to me so quickly..." Yaruka couldn't believe that another potentially positive event was popping up today. Did this mean that things were finally going to start turning around in her favor? Well...if nothing else this was one step in the proper direction.Aria Starstone Finally after 3 months, lol
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