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 Posted: Thu Oct 19, 2017 11:47 pm
Arias relaxed when Nick rested his head on his shoulder. His thoughts were tumbling in his mind and his emotions in his stomach, but he could work with this. It wasn’t ideal, not by his own standards, but he’d always heard that relationship were about compromise and about making sure you were taking care of the person you loved. If Nick had needs he wasn’t meeting…
They could try this. If it didn’t work out, it didn’t work out. But at least they could move forward together—on the same page. He didn’t understand everything yet, but he could manage. It was Carlee he was worried about; he’d have to talk to her soon. After he’d had a bit more time to sort things out, and maybe after he and Nick had settled on a few more concrete things.
But this, he could handle. This was manageable.
“March isn’t so very far away,” he mused. “But I think…we could manage that. If you wanted, we could look for a new place—or you could just move in here with me. I mean, I’m paying for this place no matter what. It was just convenient for the bakery that I could live right upstairs. I’ve got room, we could probably fit you in comfortably. I wouldn’t mind redecorating some. For you.” He leaned over and kissed Nick’s cheek.
“…We can get a kitten,” he added a few seconds later. “For practice parenthood. But I’ll warn you, if you thought Carlee came over often before, just imagine what it’s going to be like if we have a kitten.”
He squeezed Nick’s hand once more and then scooted closer. He shifted positions on the couch and drew Nick closer. He scooted so he could half lay against the pillows on the arm rest; he drew Nick closer to him so he could rest against him and wrapped both arms around the other male. It was protective, and loving, and maybe just slightly possessive. Not that Arias would admit to it—even if he realized he was doing it.
He kissed the top of Nick’s head and nuzzled his chin into the crook of Nick’s neck even as he held him. “I love you, Nick. We can work things out. Just be honest with me, and don’t try to hide things from me. I feel better when we’re talking about things. I mean. I feel better now that I don’t have to pretend like I don’t know what’s going on. And…I’m going to try to give you a little space with them. I’m going to try not to be clingy, and I’m going to see how things go now that all of this is out in the open. If you want to go…do your thing with some people…okay. Just let me know what’s going on and be safe. And give me a heads up before you go out on any dates, just so I can make sure no one I know shows up and I have to explain. Deal?” he asked, nuzzling closer.
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2017 12:11 am
“I like it here…I’ve always liked your place…though…when we adopt our kids…or kid, whatever you want…we’ll have to get a bigger place…but for you and me and the kitten and Carlee…it’s plenty big enough.” He seemed a little surprised when Arias pulled him down and held him so tightly, but he liked it. It made him feel safe and he felt his eyes closing automatically, a sigh escaping his lips. “I’ll do my best, Arias…I promise I’ll try to be more open…”
Another sigh escaped Nick as he nuzzled closer still, nodding. “Deal. I love you, Arias…and I hope it’s okay if I spend the night? I don’t…want to be away from you right now…I love you, and I’m so thankful that you keep putting up with me…I know I don’t deserve it…but it does mean the world to me…so, thank you, Arias. Thank you for loving me.”
He felt as though he could breathe again, and his own arms stretched out, snaking around Arias even as the other male held him. This had gone far better than he could have imagined…and he was glad that it had. He had yet another chance that he didn’t deserve…and he hoped that he wouldn’t mess this one up.
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Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2017 1:17 am
Arias just smiled down at Nick; after a few seconds he relaxed further and just sank into the pillows. He still held Nick close to him and murmured, “I would have thrown a tantrum if you weren’t going to spend the night with me tonight. I don’t think I’ll let you go.”
He tightened his grip just slightly as if to prove his point.
“No more stress for today. We’re going to take it easy and relax, and we’ll take things one step at a time and work through them together. But we’ve had enough stress for today and I don’t want you to start growing grey hair and blame it on me.” He kissed Nick’s temple. “I trust you, though. And as long as I can trust you, we’ll work things out. I know that things are going to be okay. We’ll have our bumps, but it’s nothing we can’t smooth over.”
Arias seemed to put his faith in such a belief; it was what he wanted and it was what he was going to work towards.
Tonight, he was just going to hold Nick, and spoil him with kisses and pizza and have a good time so that even if Arias wound up mad about anything, he’d be able to drown out the emotion with all their happy memories.
Things would be okay; they would work through this.
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