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 Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2017 4:15 pm
"Definitely wasn't the case obviously." he said. "I was very satisfied. Several times over. So you did just fine."
He shrugged with a chuckle. "I don't know, are you?" he asked, not lapsing back into a bossy mode, it was up to Merric if he did anything for now, some free time in the aftermath without rules or restrictions.
"And eh. I guess it did at one point. My family were never all that big on anyone different from us, be it sexuality or whatever else. I always just assumed it was disgusting and wrong, but that was mostly just because people said it was, without thinking about it. I have to say that on closer inspection that whole thing didn't hold up at all."
He ran a hand through his long hair, which had come loose at some point in events. "Besides, I like dicks, they are expressive."
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Posted: Sun Sep 24, 2017 4:29 pm
It was a relief, a pleasing thrum that spread from Merric's head over his body. The praise and the knowledge that he had done well was enough to make him relax even further than he already was; and enough to give him just enough courage to slide a little over on the bed, Merric curling up beside Lysander, a hand tentatively brushing his side.
"I'm...happy to hear that," he said softly. The irrational side of him - the side that wanted to ask is this just a one time thing? and what now? and about a dozen other things was carefully and quietly suppressed; Merric did not want to ruin this with his tendency towards thinking too much.
"My family wasn't that big on anything different from themselves, either," he said. "I assumed that...that being gay was on the same level as everything else that they disagreed with, so I just...never mentioned it."
He couldn't help the blush, but it was accompanied by a little smile, for once. "At least...now you can accept it a little easier, right?"
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Posted: Fri Sep 29, 2017 12:25 pm
"Probably wise if they were anything like my family. Mine didn't like to hear anything that wasn't someone agreeing with them. Arguments were inconvenient and not something to be tolerated. Better to not waste your breath."
He admired Merric, enjoying the way he blushed and his timid nature. He enjoyed standing him up and encouraging him when he'd probably only ever been knocked down.
"Yes." he said. "It's something I'm willing to accept a little more. Maybe one day I'll be happy to admit it to anyone who asks." He took a slow breath and exhaled. "But right now it's fairly undeniable, I would not have been able to do that if I wasn't interested."
But there was the lurking fact of Roswell and the differences between this and him, things he would need to deal with at some point, the fact that his affection ran deeper even than sex something that he only realised more now, he certainly cared about Merric but that affection was a different creature.
Lysander was not good at talking about his issues.
"Everything is always so complicated." he said with a sigh, covering his eyes with his crossed arms.
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Posted: Fri Sep 29, 2017 3:57 pm
Merric gave a small hum of thought. "Well," he said at length, "I suppose that's true. Nothing I ever said or did made any difference to how they thought or felt, so it was a battle I was never going to win in the first place." He gave a small shrug, the covers sliding a bit over a bare shoulder. "I don't...know why I kept trying to fight it even with that knowledge."
He didn't know why he still believed it now, though it was easier not to think of it after the evening had been spent so pleasurably. Merric felt himself starting to smile a little further, warmth at the small, singular bits of praise easing through him, no matter how simple or offhanded it was. Tiny fragments of something larger that helped to sift through the muddled mess inside of his mind.
A part of him wanted to say I know I'm not Roswell but I'm still grateful for this, except that it felt too personal, even after the evening's events. Merric settled for taking a small chance and absently brushing fingers along Lysander's side, letting himself feel the warm, slightly damp skin.
"It is," he said, because there was no way of saying it wasn't complicated. He couldn't say it doesn't have to be because that was much too idealistic even for Merric. "I'm sorry that it is. But I...I've been interested since...well, at any rate, even with its complications, you still did it, so..."
Lysander was offered a tentative smile.
"At the very least, you've come to that conclusion at all."
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Posted: Fri Oct 13, 2017 8:54 am
Lysander took a deep steadying breath and uncrossed his arms, smiling at Merric, aware that too much dealing with his issues might inconvenience the other man and at worst, put him off entirely.
"Complicated is fine, overall. SInce I got here everything has been complicated, but all in all that doesn't mean that things have been bad. I've been doing all right, it'd be good even if it wasn't for the whole not letting me have pay or leave thing."
He stroked Merric's hair. "But I met you though! And Roswell got his brother back, so I can't even complain all that much. This was nice. I was worried it wouldn't be, not because of you but because of me, that I'd mess it up." he smirked. "My wife really didn't at all like how I got in the bedroom."
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Posted: Fri Oct 13, 2017 5:33 pm
The smile was momentarily disarming, as they always tended to be. Merric could at least understand that complications were a part of life, even if his prior ones tended to be irreversible, all things considered. His family was no longer here; he was apparently dead to them, which meant little, because he could never have changed the way they thought of him, anyway.
And of course there was the whole Lysander and Roswell complications, which was a whole other story in and of itself. But he didn't want to dwell too much on that right now, not when Lysander's hand felt gentle in his hair, fingers sliding through the pale strands.
"Well, hopefully they'll raise the limitations soon," said Merric, and felt his face flush a little, studiously ignoring the happy flutter in his stomach at Lysander's words. "Yes, there are certainly...good things that have come about from being here. And Fred seems nice," he added, before biting his lip, Merric's hand still idly brushing against Lysander's side.
"Not compatible, I take it," said Merric. "Well, I...was a little worried as well. Not because of you," he added quickly, flushing deeper. "I just...wasn't sure I would be able to...make it good for you as well."
He paused, and then added quietly, "But I...don't mind how you...'get in the bedroom,' for the record."
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Posted: Tue Oct 17, 2017 11:42 am
"Yeah no kidding, I never thought I'd be so desperate to get off a tropical island honestly but I've had my fill, I want to be somewhere cooler for a bit, see some forests in fall, stuff like that, enjoy the solstice. Here's hoping. But I'll make the most of the meantime."
"And noooo, not compatible at all. She liked things plain and simple with a lot of attention paid downstairs, I well..I just had to be really nice and it was more taxing a lot of the time than what I really wanted to be doing." He gave him a smirk. "And I'm glad that worry was completely unfounded because it was really really enjoyable. It's not every day you run into someone interested in my particular brand of interests and I'm so glad you were one of them."
He leaned over to kiss him on the forehead. "I was worried too honestly, I'm not the perfect guy to be a first time, I've got a lot of flaws."
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Posted: Tue Oct 17, 2017 5:12 pm
It had only been a few months since he had come to Deus, but Merric had already started to forget what autumn was like. "I wonder what fall and winter will be like here," he said thoughtfully. "It would be nice to get away for a little bit."
Maybe - hopefully - they would raise Lysander and Roswell's limitations both; it seemed a little excessive to continue placing restrictions on them, Merric thought, but he wasn't entirely sure how it all worked in the first place. Lysander did seem disappointed, which was a little saddening.
Merric couldn't help the small smile that tugged at his lips, in spite of the blush. "It seems tedious, to keep trying to...keep things a certain way, especially if they're not up your alley," he ventured. "And...'plain and simple' don't really...seem to fit you all that well."
He had never really seen anyone less like they belonged in the category of plain and simple, for that matter. Merric felt the warmth spreading further throughout him, lashes fluttering at the kiss to his forehead, one hand raising to briefly touch Lysander's jaw.
"Well. Flaws or not," said Merric, and he tilted his head, leaning to brush a kiss to Lysander's lips in return, brief and affectionate with just a hint of his usual shyness, "I am....very, very satisfied. And very, very glad as well for...all of this."
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