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 Posted: Mon Jun 13, 2016 10:19 pm
Feeling his brothers arm go around him Chandra felt his body lean even more heavily against him. Glad that Aysun was leading him to sit so that he didn't fall over when the questions were asked of him he remained quiet for a moment, sifting through his thoughts carefully.
"...I don't know. I was just so angry that I meant it at the time...now though..." He looked away, ashamed that he had allowed his anger to get the best of him. "I lashed out because we never see him, mom is lonely and...I guess I resented the fact mom and dad aren't together...our family is messed up..dad has some weird thing with Uncle Takoda and Jacinthus and yet he had kids with mom. Don't you resent the fact we didn't have him around?"
Chandra inquired curious to what his brothers thoughts about everything was.
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Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 8:05 am
Aysun hugged Chandra close, listening to him as he spoke, finding him to be more vulnerable then he'd ever seen him. If anything it kind of brought up a protective desire in him, as though he wanted to look after him and keep him safe from... well, anything that might hurt him. Of course at the moment it seemed as though the one that had hurt him was Chandra himself, which wasn't exactly something that Aysun could protect him from. Instead he just had to be here for him and hope that he could help him to perk up a bit. Especially since he seemed to be so shaken up by everything. Lifting his a hand he set to running it through Chandra's hair in what he hoped was a soothing manner, "Our family is pretty... odd, huh?" Tilting his head he seemed to think on it for a moment, giving a humming sound. As he asked if he resented the fact he found himself shaking his head, "I... can't say that I do. Resent everything I mean we got to visit him a lot in Sol when we were younger and I still stop by from time to time when I can. I guess it would have been nice if they were both around together when we were younger but I guess I was used to it? Staying with mom sometimes, dad sometimes, and other times with our uncles, or combinations of those things." It did suck at times that their parents lived far apart instead of together but he supposed he'd gotten used to it? On top of that he tended to spend so much more time with beasts then people that maybe he was just out of the loop when it came to how normal people acted? Leaning forward he bumped his forehead against that of his twin and asked, "So... what do you think you'll do next?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:10 pm
Listening to his brother it only made him feel more childish about his feelings on the matter. Aysun seemed un-bothered by their family situation it made him feel as is his anger was misplaced and perhaps unwarranted. Leaning against his brother he felt his eyes close as Aysun stroked his hair he was silent as he tried to think on the question asked of him.
"I don't know. I regret what I said, but they are my honest feelings. I resent that dad is raising a girl, that he doesn't visit more. I wish our family didn't try and act like everything is okay when its obvious something went on between our uncles and our dad. I hate secrets..." He muttered starteled as Aysun bumped his forhead into his.
"I don't want to see dad right now, I don't think I can face mom...I don't know what to do."
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:18 pm
Aysun gave a smile as his brother actually allowed him to pet his hair, finding it to be rather cute! Not that he would say as much, certain that he'd use that magic of his on Aysun before leaving. Instead he merely continued to stroke his hair, listening to what he was saying. "Ah! So you've met her too then?" He asked, having met up with Rajani when he visited Sol the last time. He gave a half shrug, "She was an interesting girl, not so bad, just a bit odd. You know when I first met her I thought that she was dad's housekeeper or something because she was cleaning at the time. Funny, huh?" The house was looking a lot nicer, so maybe she was helping out with the cleaning even if that wasn't their father's intention. As his brother said that he didn't want to see their dad, or their mother either it seemed, he gave a smiled, "Why not go talk with our uncles then? Not sure about Uncle Takoda but Uncle Jacinthus seems to be... well, brutally honest at times. Maybe you can talk to him if you really hate secrets so much? Though... maybe not... what if that hurt dad's feelings?" He knew their father didn't quite get along with their uncle, so that might not work, huh? Humming again he said, "Maybe... just take a break? It might help, just do something that doesn't involve our parents, something you want to do?"
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:31 pm
Chandra seemed dumbfounded to hear that Aysun had met the girl and had opinions on her. Pushing his brother away he looked a bit hurt,
"So..you've met her? Why didn't you tell me?" Anger rose again like a ill tempered serpent ready to strike. "When dad told me about her I thought he had found another woman to be with I accused him of horrible things!" Chandra felt betrayed now by his brother as well. He went silent as he tried to get a handle on his rage but he couldn't find a viable way to deal with it at least not involving punching something.
"I think I need to be alone Aysun..." Chandra muttered between clenched teeth, as he went to stand staggering slightly before he managed to right himself. He waited as if hoping he wouldn't have to walk away and that his brother would do it instead.
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:36 pm
Aysun blinked a couple times, "Well... I guess there wasn't really much of an opening? I met her when I was in Sol last, which was yesterday, then I headed out to go back to Yera to find Issaly and bumped into you." He said, a look of worry on his face as his brother seemed to get angry again, "Eh? You thought our dad found another woman? You... do know that he..." He waved a hand, deciding against continuing down that line of thought and instead crawled up to his feet. "Be alone...? I don't know... I'm a bit worried about you, Chandra..." He said, following along after him, wanting to try to catch him and keep him from getting himself lost. Reaching out he caught hold of his wrist, tugging on it, "Unless you're planning to go somewhere to like hang out with your dancer or a friend or something I won't let you go yet. Not until you calm down a bit."
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:48 pm
Oh Chandra knew about their fathers taste and it certainly wasn't women, how he jumped to the girl being his new woman was his crazy thought process at the time. After all he had gotten it on with mom, perhaps he went both ways. He had turned away from Aysun content on trying to get away from his brother so he could cool his head but a reassuring hand latched onto his wrist stopping him.
"Aysun...I am sorry. I seem to lash out at everyone, I don't want to hurt you..or mom or dad anymore than I may of. I don't know where I am going, but it won't be to Eira...she turned me down a long time ago." He tried to pull his arm away hoping his brother would respect his wishes to be alone.
"Please Aysun...before I do something I will regret against you too..." He begged hoping that his brother would understand.
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:56 pm
Aysun held onto his brother's wrist tightly, starring at him as he said that he didn't know where he was going, saying that it wasn't to his dancer since she turned him down. He gave a soft sigh, "I see... well, she made a huge mistake!" He told his brother, releasing his hold on Chandra's wrist after a long moment of thought. As much as he wanted to hold him in place it wasn't exactly right of him to force his brother to stay here with him if he wanted to be alone. It wasn't something that he liked the sound of, but he had to respect his brother's desires, right? He supposed... It seemed as though his brother wanted to go before he did something he'd regret when it came to Aysun. It made Aysun grin, giving him a gentle shove, "As I recall the last time he dueled I beat you, Chandra, so you don't have to worry about that." He teased, then sighed, reaching out to ruffle his twin's hair, making a mess of it before he said, "I'm heading to Yera right now, then I will be wandering around Tale. I'm looking for the perfect place to build a house of my own. You should come seek me out! I mean... it might be a little tougher to find me when I'm wander but hey, maybe your magic can help you?" Which went to show he had no idea what magic could do but that wasn't what was important.
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 10:17 pm
How was it when he wanted to leave it was okay, but hearing his brother talk about moving out and finding his own home made him panic? Brushing away the tease about Aysun winning their one true fight he froze in place. When Aysun released his wrist like he had asked of him, what did he expect? Did he want Aysun to refuse to leave his side? To go against everything he had asked of him?
Chandra wasn't exactly sure what he wanted anymore. Now that Aysun was respecting his wishes he suddenly felt afraid. Like he would lose his twin if they separated right this moment. Turning he took a step towards his brother, tears had gathered in his eyes and he felt like he was a child again. His brother was always there for him so why did he constantly want to push him away? With the risk of losing track of him looming into view perhaps all his anger was the fact he was stuck in the past and didn't want to grow up.
Grabbing Aysun's wrist he yanked his brother towards him and wrapped himself in a hug. He wasn't a strong man like Aysun, it felt like his brother had gotten fairly strong while he wasn't looking. Burying his face into his chest he felt himself release a sob. "Don't ...disappear on me, please..."
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 10:25 pm
Aysun watched his brother closely as he released him because he didn't seem to be going anywhere. Instead he was just sort of standing there for a while before he started to take a couple steps away from him... but then he stopped again. A moment later he was suddenly grabbing hold of him, succeeding in yanking Aysun forward because he hadn't been expecting it. A moment later Chandra was clinging to him tightly, crying, and demanding that Aysun didn't disappear on him. It was something rather startling to Aysun but he was instantly wrapping his arms around him, hugging Chandra tightly. "Hey, hey now... I wouldn't disappear on you, Chandra." He said in a soothing tone of voice, petting his back in a manner he might do to an a stressed out, feral beast. He rested his forehead against that of his twin and said, "You know that I love you far too much to just vanish and leave you alone." Not to mention that he'd always wanted nothing more then to protect his brother, it was why he tried so hard to get stronger when he was little... though until this point it never seemed as if such a thing was needed. Now though he was glad since it seemed as though Chandra finally needed him. Pressing a kiss to the top of his head, "Now, now... no more tears, Chandra, it will be alright. I'm right here for you, no matter what."
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 10:42 pm
Chandra wasn't accustomed to feeling so vulnerable but having the risk of possibly losing his brother over his own stupidness really seemed to sink home. Clutching to his brother he wondered if he could ever express himself clearly, it was apparent that he held things in and tended to worry over stupid things.
"But what am I going to do about Dad? I said terrible things to him...I hurt him so badly..." Chandra managed with another sob catching in his throat. Apologizing was the answer and yet he was stubborn and didn't want to. It was how he honestly felt about the situation at hand. Perhaps he had taken it too far...but what was said couldn't be undone.
"Aysun...please I know I often take you for granted but you are my twin...I can't imagine my life without you nearby...constantly annoying me...and mangling my stuff."
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 10:52 pm
Aysun continued to pet his brother's hair, giving a thoughtful sound. His brother seemed to want to make things better but he didn't know how to do so it seemed. It was something that made him seem as though he were a confused little youngling all over again, which also seemed to make Aysun want to help him out that much more. He drew back a little, though not out of the hug, but just enough so that he could look down at him, "Really the only thing I can think of is talking to him again... in a more friendly manner? Not now though, I think you need a some down time first." At least that was what it felt like to him. He knew he wasn't the best with people but he felt his thoughts on at least this matter were right though.
As his brother suddenly started to praise him Aysun couldn't help but to stare at him, then gave a little whistle, "Silly Chandra, I already said that I wasn't going anywhere, so you don't have to be so nice." He said, hugging him tightly, lifting his slimmer brother up off of his feet, before setting him back down. Giving a smile he said, "I will always be here to keep you company... and probably mangle more things... though next time I will be more careful when I steal things from you. I just like to get a rise out of you, I don't actually mean to ruin things." Even if he'd done so when it came to all of those books.
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2016 8:51 pm
Chandra didn't bother to look at his brothers face, instead just nodding in a rather listless manner at his suggestion. Talking to their dad again seemed like the best thing to do...but why did he have the sneaky suspicion he would just get angry all over again? Giving himself time to cool down was also another good idea but he feared that the longer he waited the more likely he would grow further away from their father. Ah..dilemmas
Giving a small grunt as Aysun picked him off the ground he was reminded that his brother was physically a lot stronger than he was.
"Ah....never do that again.." He muttered with a slight laugh, he gave his brother one last strong hug, "and if you tell anyone I will make your life a living nightmare."
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2016 8:59 pm
Aysun gave a bit of a laugh, "Well, it's not my fault that it's so much fun to pick you up." He said in a teasing manner before he took a half step back after Chandra gave him one last hug. It was something that made smile, happy to see his brother laughing even if it was only a very slight laugh. The fact that his brother didn't want him to let anyone know about any of this was rather funny to him, seemed as though he wanted to keep up his reputation, huh? He supposed that he'd allowed it he thought to himself, hoping that if he agreed that it would better his twin's mood... but then again he was willing to do most anything if it made Chandra happy. Giving a toothy grin he said in a thoughtful manner, "A living nightmare, huh? Well, I will do my best not to let anyone know how cute you can be then, it will be our little secret! I mean if I let too many people know then you will end up with countless fans and then where will I be?"
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2016 9:03 pm
Chandra rolled his eyes at his brother, countless fans? Right. He was happy enough as it was. Separating from his brother he felt a huge weight off his heart, he knew that he would still need to talk to his father, as well he had a few words to say or ask his uncles.
"Alright...so show me where you plan to build a house...I want to make sure I memorize the spot that way I will always be able to find you." Chandra also looked at his mangled hand, he could just heal it now and it was tempting but he felt it would be rude to do so after his brother went to the trouble of bandaging up.
He would heal it later when Aysun wasn't around.
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