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 Posted: Tue May 21, 2013 6:59 pm
She wilted physically once he released her.
"I did. All the way. But apparently it's a one way street. I trusted you not to hurt me. I trusted you to have my back. I trusted you with my hopes and dreams. I trusted you with all that I was. Anything you asked I always answered straight up and as honestly as I could. I didn't think I had to twist up my words to protect myself from you. But you always do that with me. Always."
Rin tried to hug herself as it seemed he lost interest in touching her for the evening. "I just want to like. Know that you care for my needs sometimes. My actual like... more than what will just keep me around for yourself."
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Posted: Tue May 21, 2013 7:32 pm
He stepped back and then slowly sat down at the end of his bed, quiet as he listened and watched her. His placed his hands on either side of him, smoothing out the wrinkles on his bedspread before curling his hands into the fabric to hold it.
"I never meant to hurt your dreams. I wanted to help them. I wanted you to get funding, to not ignore the greenhouse when you were avoiding me, and was there to help you bring it back to shape." But that's not what she was getting at even though they were both defending their own cases. He was just defending himself as best he could.
Trust what was the issue.
"I trust you a lot. I would never be in a relationship this long if I didn't trust you. I wouldn't even attempt or say how I was unless I trusted you not to laugh at it all. That means a lot to me, and I put a lot of trust in you that you never say anything about it to everyone else. You could have and you haven't. I don't know what you're needs are unless the things I just...I just can't do and you know why. I thought you wanted me to be with you. What else do you want from me? I can't be like Rep."
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Posted: Tue May 21, 2013 7:42 pm
"I want you to for once just ask what I want instead of asking things that are more like accusations and assumptions. You asked why I said he was better in... well," she gestured at Melvin's bed. "I'm not trying to attack you or say you're bad. But you are stern and set in your ways in how its supposed to go down. I get that. It's just hard on me. I like things that you can't do. Even small s**t like not using a condom. I want to feel you, okay. I'm sterile and like.. I don't have diseases. It's hurtful even if I know you don't mean it to be."
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Posted: Tue May 21, 2013 7:58 pm
"I know it's hard. I warned you it was. I told you. I don't know what else I can do to make it better for you." He felt he was being blamed for how he was even though she said she wasn't, but then he remembered that with the ring on, she admitted that she didn't want to fix him.
"I think it would hurt you more if we tried something and I wound up not...responding or feeling disgusted with it. I can't predict how I'm going to react to something that's fine for everyone else. I might just be too boring for all the wild things you were used to." With Rep. Dammit, he couldn't stop comparing. He hated Rep not just for Rin stating he was better, but more that the ex-Sun was capable of not being easily bothered just like every person who didn't have these types of mental hangups.
But she wanted this. "If we tried and it didn't work, do we just stop? Give up?" If this is how she gauged if he cared, how would she feel if things wound up being a disaster? "I've had people who were with me before become upset with things not working out because I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Not that I couldn't physically do it but..." He made a vague gesture with one hand to his head. Would she blame him for not trying enough then?
He looked at her. "What do you want?"
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 3:51 am
"Let me worry about what might hurt me," Rin finally approached the man, eyeing him over thoughtfully.
"If we try and it doesn't work, we take a break from my thing, do your thing, then try try again. There's no harm in trying," She shot him a wink before attempting to climb into his lap and stretch her arm decadently across his shoulder, her own whiskey bottle tapping against his back.
"I want you. I just want you to... apply yourself." She smirked at him as if hearing a joke he was not privy to, "Liberally."
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 9:02 am
Set in his lap, he rose his hands to hold both her sides so she wouldn't fall. Was she trying to be frisky at a time like this? His mind was still heavy from the party and he couldn't stop thinking about it. The fact she wasn't even bothered just showed that Rin still didn't take Rep's threat seriously. It was up to him then.
"I'll try." Though he liked how it used to be. Everything had been fine to him, or so had seemed fine, the way they were going before. Hopefully she wouldn't ask TOO much of him.
"Will you stay here tonight?"
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 3:57 pm
Rin leaned forward to try and press her forehead into his, "Kinda hoping. But ultimately isn't that up to you?" A devious smirk crept across her lips, concealing the true concerns burbling beneath the surface. She had to talk to Rep, herself, Melvin didn't seem to understand... not going will only piss Rep off more. But Rin knew. She knew big time. This was a warning of more troubling things to come.
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 5:55 pm
"Then you're staying." Wrapping his arms about her to craddle her body, he smiled and slowly rose up, hoping to take Rin to the showers. However, just as he rose up, he was given a very nice reminder that he was still healing and winced just as he stood and slowly sat back down with her in his lap.
"Okay, that was a bad idea." He then set his forehead against her shoulder, taking a minute. He was starting to get why Rin he wasn't as good romantically as a certain someone else.
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:02 pm
Rin got a good breathy chuckle out of that, "I could carry you instead, you know. Ride in my cleavage."
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:13 pm
Melvin was still taking a breather. "You're boobs are big, but I don't think THAT big." He turned his head up to look at her. "Nice idea though." With all that had been said and twisted in his mind, he was done thinking too hard now. He felt shaken, tired, and knew he would probably spend all night trying to process all that was said and figure out how to go from here. Right now, just talking playfully as if everything was okay was a nice distraction.
"Party seemed to be getting big out there. Think the showers are empty?" His hand slid up her back.
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:16 pm
"Terrible," Rin teased. Well, it wasn't a no. She arched a brow at him curiously, "I don't mind taking the chance if you don't."
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:23 pm
"Considering how today went, I could give two shits about anyone there or their opinion. They don't care about me so why should I?" He couldn't make it worse at this point by just having some fun, and it seemed silly to have Rin willing to go and not to take the chance. Not to mention he felt a personal challenge had been thrown down after being told he wasn't the best. He'd always strove to be a A+ student, and he wasn't about to stop now.
"Let's go."
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:26 pm
"Lead the way," Rin stood and urged the man onward.
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Posted: Wed May 22, 2013 6:36 pm
Melvin turned, picked up a bar of soap from the counter (probably the least he ever took when heading to the showers since forever) , and put it in his pocket. Placing a hand on Rin's back, he opened the door and lead the way out. Rin wanted him to try. As much as he loathed the idea of trying some of the things Rin wanted out of him, rather upset over the demands, he knew he couldn't change her mind with the way things were now. He could only hope she slowly forgot what he said with the ring on and make her comfortable with him again.
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