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 Posted: Wed Jul 03, 2013 6:59 pm
She heard his apology but there was too much damage already. How could she trust him? Of all people, Ursula hadn't expected to be blatantly used and violated by him. And he thought that just promising he wouldn't do it again would solve everything? Of course it's not happening again--I'm never eating chocolate again in my life, Ursula seethed, still unable to look at him.
Then, he pulled her around towards him. By now, Ursula had smothered the beginning of tears and just glared at him. "What." She demanded, her mouth tight.
And then, Ursula gawked at Dorian, almost forgetting what he had just done. "You love me?" She repeated, horrified. "What are you doing that for, you bloody idiot!" Ursula raged, pushing him away from her. "You should not be in love with me!" This made absolutely no sense. What could she possibly have done to make him love her!? "WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH ME?!" Ursula finally demanded, looking at him in exasperation. "Th-there should be no good reason why you love me!"
Her relationship with Dorian... Ursula never considered love. Was that wrong of her? No... there's no way he should be able to love me, Ursula convinced herself, her brows furrowing. From what time they spent together, Dorian was in the wrong to love her.
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Posted: Thu Jul 11, 2013 8:22 pm
Dorian saw when he turned her around that Ursula had made up her mind about him and if he wanted to gain her trust back he was going to have to go about it very slowly. He inwardly cursed the idiot fourth year that had sabotauged him so easily. If he ever found out who had given that damn chocolate to Ursula he would hurt him and hurt him badly. He half wondered if Ursula would ever feel the urge to eat chocolate again after all this.
Dorian was surprised by the shock on Ursula's face after his profession. He hadn't thought she would react this strongly or this negatively. He flinched when she screamed and pushed him away.
"Yes, I love you," He replied, "And I don't know why. Especially since you keep rejecting me and pushing me away."
He was rather stunned to hear her say that there was no good reason for him to love her. Why did she feel like this? Didn't she know that her smile light up his world? That the touch of her hand made him feel on top of the world.
He couldn't help but wonder what sort of relationship she wanted. It seemed as though she just didn't know what a relationship was all about. Then again, neither did he, though it was rather obvious he knew a little more than she did.
"Why do you feel like that? Do you think there's nothing about yourself that's loveable? What about your smile? Or the way you make me feel when you're around me? I just love being around you. Why is that so hard to believe?"
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Posted: Thu Jul 11, 2013 9:11 pm
"Then stop doing it!" Ursula retorted in complete exasperation. She didn't want to be loved by Dorian! This was ridiculous! Taking a deep breath, she turned to him and spoke with an even tone,"Because I'm not rejecting you and pushing you away for any other reason than besides ME NOT WANTING TO BE WITH YOU." I don't know how to make it any clearer than this... Ursula thought, the beginnings of a headache arriving in her head.
"Dorian," Ursula spoke calmly but there was a cold edge to her voice. It was harsher than when she was shrieking at him. "Think about why you say you love me," she began, pushing some of her curls around her face. "Loving me and wanting me are two different things," his reasons actually comforted her. It made her realize that he was just confused and overly attached... because he had never felt the way he did with her. That is, he never wanted someone.
"You don't love me for my personality, obviously," she announced coldly, "Because you don't know why. I'm mean and frigid to you and I don't want you at all. It's not lovable. It's not likable, even. And you can't name a reason why besides my smile--a physical aspect," Ursula waved her hand in dismissal at him. "Any other girl could make you feel the way I make you feel--you're just overly attached because you don't know any better."
She knew very well that she was being almost soulless but she felt like Dorian needed to understand. "Date someone else and you'll thank me for it--because... You. Do. Not. Love. Me."
With that, Ursula walked past him and began making her way up to the castle. She was flushed from her rage but she was gradually calming... Dorian needed some space and she was more than happy to give it to him. In fact, if they could just stay away from each other, that would be fine. If he could just date another girl, he'd realize that he wasn't in love with her.
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